Creator willing the trailer and solar panel and ELFusion will be assembled and fused tomorrow morning. Final supplies should arrive tomorrow afternoon. I expect to sleep with ELFusion and trailer in a park here in DC tomorrow night, to collect the final things from the shelter, sign out, and get an early start toward the Atlantic shores. I fantasize that I will do the 14 hour ride in 2 days and roughly 14 hours. Of course it could be multiples of that. Have no idea of what ELFusion can do, what I can do, what the demands are. A little bit of excitement comes with the fact that bicycles are prohibited on the Chesapeake Bay Bridge. Yet I am informed that the police dependably will put a vehicle even as large as mine on a trailer and take it across for $4. If not, that adds 8 10 15 hours to the trip forcing me to go way north around the bay or way south around the Bay.
8.04.2015
8.03.2015
I find near all of the left's comments about President Obama shallow, cheap, cowardly.......
I find near all of the left's comments about President Obama shallow, cheap, cowardly. I think they should strive to do better. Is it really anyone's calling to devote their lives to being in judgment of others? Seems to me our harshest judgment should be reserved for ourselves. I have never once seen that from the left, except from St. Chris Hedges. -- Sent from Fast notepad
** As the young Jewish man attacked me yesterday for the first time in my life that I recall I........
***** As the young Jewish man attacked me yesterday for the first time in my life that I recall I found and exercised the choice simply to be the presence of goodness, humanity, solidarity, decency, humanity... Was it a successful thing to do, was it a wise thing to do, was it an effective thing to do? I don't know. But I think so. I think it was more appropriate, more powerful, more hopeful than any other way of responding I could have chosen. By doing so I did not feed the hatred in this poor twisted young man. I did not provide him other than an example of humanity, solidarity, decency by my behavior. With my choice, not for effect , but because it was the most constructive response I could think of for both of us, I essentially paused, non responded , waited ... for the constructive spirit in this young man which I presume exists. Of course, he left long before that might have happened. But that waiting which was my choice could act on them, may act on him, in slow motion over any amount of time. I don't think it will be without effect within him. Thereby I gave him a greater potential to change in the future than any other way I could have responded based on my prior experience. I suspect this will not be the last time that I choose such a response. It could well become my norm. Over the last three years or so there has been extremely fleeting insights where I thought I was catching a glimpse how to take a significant and maybe profound leap as an agent for positive change. Yesterday, unbidden, the way the growth of a new leaf is un bidden by the tree, may have been the growth I was previously glimpsing.
8.02.2015
***** What every day teaches me, no credit to me, almost none can see or comprehend. So sad. Heaven IS devoting every breath to the Global Neediest, and leaving 10000000% of everything else to Creator. Maybe you live. Maybe you die. Makes no difference. It is Heaven.
***** LONG OVERDUE UPDATE: ELFusion was found 7 hours after it was stolen... By a very....
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http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2015/07/one-who-has-been-dear-to-me-how-are-you.html
ELFusion was found 7 hours after it was stolen at 6pm Friday, Judiciary Square, bright sunlight... 2 weeks ago as I went 10 min, 2 blocks, on foot delivering food to the homeless... By a very kind and compassionate police officer. He tried to call with the good news (sort of, it was substantially trashed, all belongings gone...) me at 1 in the morning and several times after but I hardly ever use cell phone so my cell phone practices are non-existent. The phone was off.
8 in the morning or so began the process of getting it out of police lock up by 4 in the afternoon. $2200 dollars in damage but not structural, it is driveable. As you might see from the picture on the blog it now has extensive graphics that covers much of a cosmeticDamage.
The young man will do years in prison for grand theft.
(Praying you enlarge, and ponder deeply, all the graphics here. My DNA developed, honed, built... over a lifetime.)
It was insured ($28/mo) but the insurance I find out afterwards does not apply because it was not locked. I will seek legal counsel to see if that is valid as I was not warned. I presume that if a car is stolen and the insurance applies whether the car was locked or not. (Some lawyers counseled me to file a claim which I began tonight.)
All the contents were gone most importantly my computer and battery equipment. Gone forever.
After all these many years of activism an anonymous donor, tho of limited means, has emerged with virtually complete trust and passionate support for me, for my service to humanity and given how profoundly frugal I am I will have a refurbished lowest end Dell to (weakly, barely...) replace the computer early next week, a lower cost backpack and similar or lower cost versions of what was stolen. Everything replaced, and the bare necessities for the trip... everything except food, lodging, a place to park and sleep till the next day, a place to shower occasionally and do laundary....
Yes, it is easy to dismiss me as careless, irresponsible, stupid.... If you think about it honestly you will realize that: 1. I have chosen to be on the front lines of the world's greatest cancers, on the most crucial battlefields... so by definition at every moment I am at mortal risk; and 2. unlike any level of bicycle or any level of car both of which can instantly disapear upon being stolen, blending in with other bicycles for other cars, it is impossible for the elf to not give people whiplash as they crane their heads to see this vehicle they have never seen before. My miscalculation in leaving it for 10 minutes while I delivered a bag of soon to expire food from an oh so kind bakery to the shelter two blocks away was that anyone would happily do two years in prison for a brief Joyride. This is the level of desperation that we, we nice citizens, the level of desperation that we have produced through our slathering of resources on ourselves rather than spending it on our neediest brothers and sisters as every other species of life would do.
I do not fault myself for that miscalculation. I will fault myself if I make that miscalculation again which I do not expect to do. And it only re-doubles my determination to be my pitiful little part of trying to make the world a less neglected, less abused, less destroyed, less raped and plundered, less exploited, less robbed place.
Yes, miscalculation #1 is that there ARE folks SO TORMENTED BY YOUR GODLESS/HEARTLESS culture... they'd gladly do years in prison for a 2 hour joyride.
2 other miscalculations:
#2. That such a tormented creature could count on dozens, even hundreds of onlookers... not caring enough to step forward;
3. That the Elf was mine, and that therefore, like my own life, I could gladly lose it in the service of Humanity. Huh? What I realized afterward is NOT mine, nor is my Life, nor any other belongings, funds.... They are the girl's, picture at top of this blog, and thousands like her, and the elepahnts, rhinos, orcas, Muslims, Blacks, Hispanics... poor.... It is theirs. I'm just the steward. YES, I KNEW THIS, I KNOW THIS, I LIVE THIS. But this brought a greater clarity, and maybe, had I thought of it, I'd have been slightly more careful of THEIR belongings. Not sure. We'll see.
The next body blow came 2 days ago when, after several near all nighters I completed the ELFusion graphics and arranged for a firm to apply the graphics, made a 50 percent down payment and then the full payment.... arrived on Capitol Hill, having done a months worth of due diligence with the Capitol Hill police... to be sure that the elf would be allowed on the hill.... only to have a crestfallen officer arrive just after I did and say, 'oops, the lawyers just informed us that you cannot have the Elf on Capitol Hill.'
A sledgehammer to my head would have been less disrupting to me. I was very respectful but very honest with the officers I spoke with ... being sure they understood that I had gone to every length that a citizen should go to and that I would not have spent the $5500 dollars, everything I have been able to save, on the elf until I heard from capital Capitol Hill police that it would be allowed.
The sergeant I was speaking with was as they almost all are (here in DC - Cap Hill Police, Sec Svc, Park Police...) a very decent human being. & I finally said, 'officer, I think you all should go to bat for me. I am not asking you to do so. I am saying out of respect, I did everything a citizen should do, this is not my fault, but I am paying the price, I think you all should go to bat for me.' And bless his heart... he went to bat....
The bottom line is that together we arranged for me to get a permit so that I can be on Capitol Hill.
When one lives a profoundly virtuous life for the sake of it, a principled life for the sake of it, the decency and principle still alive in a few of our brothers and sisters responds, rises, is resurrected, reinforced, and important work can sometimes be completed.
Beginning Monday, creator willing, I will be on the hill each of the four days (I was) that Congress is still in session before their much deserved 6 weeks away at their pig trough, no disrespect to the pigs.
The horror with the Cap Hill Police? Ooops, you can't be here... (after a months due dilligence with them before I purchased!!!).. well, same thing with Secret Service... you can't have it even near the White House. Same deal, I treated them and it with profound respect... and we worked out an arrangement. To the credit of these decent folks. To the credit of years of devoted True Activism by me, Paying the Price for what I want... observed by these folks, EARNING their respect, regard... and ultimately, these Sec Svc officers went to bat for me, as well, and it is now resolved.
Wednesday, creator willing, I follow DC to the Atlantic Shore (them on vacation, me every breath advocating for Human Rights). Them in posh houses. Me along the roadside, back allys, jail, wherever... taking the Elf where it is under their noses, and the noses of we brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, fathers, mothers, grandmothers... that so far don't give a F*** about the young ones enough to stop the fossil fuel insanity, slaughter of Palestine (and EVERYONE'S Human Rights), US rape of our sis and bros of color... the poor or the world.
Yes, I'll fail miserably, but I'll not fail to try.
Creator willing, if I survive (I'll only eat if folks step up with food or money there for). My supporter and I have paid for the Elf stuff but nothing left for food.. unless some Angels step up. And if they don't.... I've been ready for years to go Home. Not my concern. I've done, I do, I'll continue to do my part for Creation... until I'm taken Home... and then I GO WILLINGLY, HAPPILY, JOYFULLY.
If I survive August on the coast, I expect to return to DC for medical tests... and to depart on a tour of up to all 50 states.
CONGRESS, WASHINGTON... ARE NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT... GOING TO SAVE OUT KIDS.
YES, NEAR CERTAINLY WE WON'T EITHER... but we could. There are 300 million of us. We could save them without breaking a sweat. Not one, not me, but just a handfull of us being properly deranged....
Time for me to do what I've been called to do for 15 years now, but only now see how to do... carry a Cross, the Cross of Self Ransom, Payed-for-Redemption, Loving... Serving from the Soul in Solidarity... across the country.
No one has ever done, nor thought of doing... what I'm about to... have an ELFusion as a home base... sleeping alongside (or inside during storms); living off the fusion reactor in the sky for elec cross country... dragging a 2nd solar panel for distance... eating off the Loving of Angels (GLADLY including dumpster diving if I get some direction, handouts, left-overs, food-kitchens), home cooked meals... or gladly going Home early...
I've never been more Joyful. I've never been more at Peace. My Life up until now has been nothing but preparation.
Mine is to make the attempt with every breath.
If some Angels don't step up now to help, I'll die. That will be just fine.
But that's not up to me either way.
I'll do my part, as long as my heart gives me the next beat.
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8.01.2015
Just today I realized I no longer I think that tattoos generally reveal illness in those who have them. Today, in 2015, I see that more frequently than not they reveal the pathological, malignant sickness of the culture against which people fight with their tattoos.
Just today I realized I no longer I think that tattoos generally reveal illness in those who have them. Today, in 2015, I see that more frequently than not they reveal the pathological, malignant sickness of the culture against which people fight with their tattoos.
The one thing I am certain of is that unless some of us spark a mass awakening that the end of humanity and creation as we know it has begun and I will not sit idly by and watch. That's the only thing I know. nd
The one thing I am certain of is that unless some of us spark a mass awakening that the end of humanity and creation as we know it has begun and I will not sit idly by and watch. That's the only thing I know.
7.31.2015
One who has been dear to me: 'How are you? Where are you???' My reply...
It is my hail mary pass for creation, Palestine, we poor.... HUMANITY.... to wake the f*ck up and stop putting bullets in the heads of our kids, nieces, nephews, grandkids... which is EXACTLY WHAT WE DO EVERY TIME EVERY TIME EVERY TIME.... WE BURN OIL, COAL, NATURAL GAS. IT IS MURDER. AND THERE IS NO NO NO NO NO NO NO... EXCUSE.
My every second, skill, and attention is in trying to finalize the implementation, hence lack of update for days now. Probably by Sunday I'll have uploaded a much longer post I've been working on.
If some Angels don't stand up for this campaign... well, the elf will have all the sun, and my body fat, it needs, but I'll run out of body fat pretty soon. Well, not much of that. I'm 155. Haven't been that since mid 20's. I don't care what happens to me. This is a great campaign. I'm so blessed to have it. What will be will be.
Was on capital hill with it this week. First time I've sensed that the snakes were deeply and profoundly disturbed by my actions, like, 'Oh f***. How are we going to keep lying that we don't have the technology to harness that infinite fusion reactor in the sky... with the technology all but stuffed up our asses inches from where we slither???
Yes, I'll fail, but I'll not fail to try.
Watch the blog for a much bigger update hopefully soon.
7.30.2015
Palestinian man refuses millions to give up his land
Israel to start force-feeding Palestinian hunger strikers
Killing 40 civilians in one go is “reasonable,” says Israel army ethicist
7.27.2015
***** By orders of magnitude the group I have most enjoyed living among are the several hundred outcast, poor, abused, systemically neglected, cast off, near all of color... Homeless men that I live with. Never before
7.26.2015
World Jewry feels increasingly endangered, embarrassed by Israel, study finds
7.24.2015
***** pic. ELF.usion: A new, powerful weapon against fossil fuels... for a Future for all Creation, a Free Palestine, Global Solidarity.....
It is a joy to use. In DC I can go faster than any car... traffic and lights.
The motor is deliberately speed restricted to under 20 mph so in all 50 states it is legally a 'bike'... no license, registration, etc, etc....
But I got it entirely to promote the causes you see on the graphic, in and around DC, and maybe soon, up and down the mid-Atlantic coast, and soon, maybe all 50 states.
7.23.2015
Israel Brands Rock-Throwing as Terrorism; Charge Could Carry Up to 20 Years in Prison
The idea is to expand and reimagine the city’s homeless shelters to create actual housing, not one-night beds.
Young Palestinian killed by Israeli army in West Bank
Aid in Gaza: We don’t have the words to deal with this level of suffering
7.22.2015
Pope Francis' approval rating nosedives among conservatives.... he must be doing something right. Jesus said, I came not to bring peace but to divide with a sword.
Former Shin Bet chief: Iran deal is best option for Israel
Palestine: The Nuclear-Armed Occupier versus Children Throwing Stones
7.21.2015
***** I was cursed with being born materially wealthy and continued materially wealthy until about 15 years ago when I deliberately chose.....
***** I was cursed with being born materially wealthy and continued materially wealthy until about 15 years ago when I deliberately chose the path of material poverty - solidarity with the neediest in my global family,brotherhood Loving, Chrisylikeness, Waging Loving, Truth Force .... I wouldn't go back for anything in the world. I finally left the life of abject poverty of the Spirit for one of infinite wealth of the Spirit. Every second of my life now I am laughing all the way to the bank. I pity, I deeply pity with every cell in my body, the all but one in a million fools that are yearning for, are seeking, material well being, thereby murdering, trashing, destroying, abandoning, fleeing... their solidarity with all of humanity, with all of creation leaving their one and only true family behind. They are eating sand.
***** I was cursed with being born materially wealthy and continued materially wealthy until about 15 years ago when I deliberately chose the path of material poverty - solidarity with the neediest in my global family,brotherhood Loving, Chrisylikeness, Waging Loving, Truth Force .... I wouldn't go back for anything in the world. I finally left the life of abject poverty of the Spirit for one of infinite wealth of the Spirit. Every second of my life now I am laughing all the way to the bank. I pity, I deeply pity with every cell in my body, the all but one in a million fools that are yearning for, are seeking, material well being, thereby murdering, trashing, destroying, abandoning, fleeing... their solidarity with all of humanity, with all of creation leaving their one and only true family behind. They are eating sand. Article.......
7.20.2015
***** "This James is a flake, con man, or worse," said the person on FB (different words), upon learning of all my belongings, incl computer, being robbed. My reply: 'What I am guilty of is departing from today's liberals who cower......
7.18.2015
EVERYTHING STOLEN LAST EVENING. EVERYTHING: I had moments before moved everything out of the homeless shelter for my new life on the streets........
7.17.2015
***** There are infinite intoxication, pleasures, available in life. There is only one Joy... From the Soul, in Solidarity, Serving... Loving, by whatever words, or no words at all.
Iran's Jews reject cash offer to move to Israel
7.16.2015
A fellow on Facebook sent me an article that's encouraging people to accept their circumstances and to do good where they are . My reply: I passionately want my circumstances to be where I can serve better. The primary circumstance I keep trying to change.......
A fellow on Facebook sent me an article that's encouraging people to accept their circumstances and to do good where they are . My reply: I passionately want my circumstances to be where I can serve better. The primary circumstance I keep trying to change, and I'm having some limited success, the primary circumstance I try to change is me, what I am, Who I am, what level of wisdom I have, what level of compassion and humanity.... But with even greater passion I not only accept my circumstances, my conditions, I hold myself to the utmost responsibility to do what I can with what resources I have in the instant. Decades ago in business a very senior individual in the organization, a grudging admirer of mine, said, I have never seen anyone like you: you have one foot riveted in the clouds, that place where you want things to be much better, and you have the other foot riveted on the ground, implementing with every ounce of strength what can be implemented now, this instant. I think he was right then. I think it remains true today. I highly recommend it. Yes the tension is excruciating, but the joy and peace of heart are infinitely greater.
***** Understand the Israeli – Palestinian Apartheid In 11 Images
Snowden leak: Israeli commandos killed Syrian general at dinner party
7.15.2015
***** My greatest lifelong failing maybe doing good, investing in good. 63 years of experience......n
***** My greatest lifelong failing maybe doing good, investing in good. 63 years of experience now tells me this was exactly the wrong thing for me to do, for anyone to do, for any of us to have done or to do now. It is absolutely too little, too late. Somehow, good is different than lived solidarity with the global neediest in creation. Someday maybe I will understand why this is so but it is unmistakable to my eyes that it is so. This notion has been with me for a number of weeks now and with this clarity I quite easily discern the difference and can act accordingly. My number one goal is to invest my life and any resources that I have in those living such solidarity with global neediest. I see almost none. I see none with sufficient clarity to do so. Why? I have only had these new eyes for weeks now. But for years I have been looking in the correct direction and even with these new eyes there is no one that I can see doing it, living in full solidarity, every breath. Well, of course I may see some but I can't recognize it with the little information that I have. Nevertheless, this is the work and this is the work that I am quite sure I will try and do. I do see that, no credit to me, my life, my DNA, has brought me to the point where all I want to do, and all that I do do, is live in such solidarity so I am at peace with investing what little resources I have in my low resource requirements work and saving any additional resources for such time as I see the opportunity I most want, the ability to invest in those living in such solidarity.
***** Absolute, total, lived solidarity with the neediest... Is the best, proper, correct definition of Loving. Loving has been my central value to the extreme for all of my 63 years and with scholarly devotion for the last 15 years and yet what I have just written is only now coming clear to me. If only I had known. There is no Loving that is not absolute solidarity with the neediest, only different forms of lusting, as well intended as they may be.
***** Absolute, total, lived solidarity with the neediest... Is the best, proper, correct definition of Loving. Loving has been my central value to the extreme for all of my 63 years and with scholarly devotion for the last 15 years and yet what I have just written is only now coming clear to me. If only I had known. There is no Loving that is not absolute solidarity with the neediest, only different forms of lusting, as well intended as they may be.
The only real failure is to not try what needs to be tried, to fail to attempt what needs to be attempted.
The only real failure is to try what needs to be tried, to fail to attempt what needs to be attempted.
A group of scientists has become infinitely more knowledgeable as to new species of life, newly found species of life, in the depths of the ocean, having plunged to never before reached, very dangerous depths that no one had yet explored. And so it is with me. Only when I leap to terrifying new spiritual and academic depths that I have never before had the courage or wisdom to dive into does my clarity, knowledge, understanding... increase. And how desperately I need these things to increase as I have been a total failure and precipitating meaningful social change thus far.
A group of scientists has become infinitely more knowledgeable as to new species of life, newly found species of life, in the depths of the ocean, having plunged to never before reached, very dangerous depths that no one had yet explored. And so it is with me. Only when I leap to terrifying new spiritual and academic depths that I have never before had the courage or wisdom to dive into does my clarity, knowledge, understanding... increase. And how desperately I need these things to increase as I have been a total failure and precipitating meaningful social change thus far.