I continue to be free of symptoms of the cancer, for the first time in a year - what a gift. No pain. Little fatigue. Sure, the bowel is still erratic (uh, you don't wanna know about the exploding diarrhea moments ago, on Christ-mass, when EVERYTHING is closed downtown. Yup. You don't want to know. ROFL.), and the gut hurts, but it is healing!
MY SERVICE TO OUR NEEDIEST GOES UNIMPEDED THESE DAYS!!!! WHAT TOTAL JOY.
All of my hope is in Christ - Loving, the Spirit of Loving. NO!!! I'M SPEAKING NONE OF THE PAGAN, HEATHEN DREK, CRAP, FECES... IN WHICH WE'VE DROWN TO NEAR-DEATH JESUS' TEACHING THESE LAST 1800 YEARS. Peter was not Jesus. Paul was NOT Jesus. John was NOT Jesus. Isaiah was not Jesus.... God only knows the Popes are not Jesus, nor the pastors, Calvin, Luther....
JESUS was Jesus, and, for Christs Sake, He could speak for Himself!!! IF WE'D ONLY READ HIM, AND GIVE HIM IS DUE - TO LET HIM SPEAK FOR HIMSELF! This is what Tolstoy did. And Gandhi. And King, me....
About 11 years ago I first saw the common reference by Gandhi and King to Leo Tolstoy.
When I tracked it down I found that were it not for "The Kingdom of God is Within You," Tolstoy, we would not know the name Gandhi; he would never have developed from the young lawyer in England. I became aware that we might not know of MLK Jr. were it not for Tolstoy's "The Law of Love, and the Law of Violence," read by King when in Crozier Seminary as a young man.
And then, that we would not know the name Gandhi, and maybe not King but for the book "The Gospel in Brief," the researching of which saved the 50 year old Tolstoy from certain suicide, resurrecting his life to write the aforementioned books and more over the next 39+ years, based on his translation of Jesus' original Greek texts of the bible in which he found the only True Teaching as to how to Live the Joyful Life.
My recent medical treatment, surgery, recovery... is the first forced downtime I recall in a decade, and I've used it in large part to re-read, and re-read "The Gospel in Brief," and just now finishing again, "The Kingdom of God is Within You." Having yesterday cancelled the chemo so as not to divert time from the vigil 24/7 here at the Canadian Embassy - what time I have left will continue to focus on maintaining the vigil, and becoming as pure and knowledgeable a "channel" for Loving, and those paragons in History we've had, as I am able.
Overwhelming. Overwhelming. Overwhelming. If one has knowledge of Gandhi, his beliefs, his works, his acts, his achievements... then the reading of Chapters 9-12 in "The Kingdom..." can only unleash the realization - OF COURSE THE READING OF THIS CREATED GANDHI. Gandhi considered Tolstoy his Master, and obviously this is true. AND BOTH VIEWED JESUS, THE MAN, THE TEACHER, AS THE ULTIMATE MASTER, EVER ON EARTH.
"Kingdom" is NOT Tolstoy's greatest work - that is "The Gospel in Brief." Be careful. "The Kingdom..." can pull one away from this the most sublime, central, ESSENTIAL of Truths - Loving is God, the ONLY Force of Creation, That which Will Ultimately Prevail, that which is Strongest.... And tragically, THIS, in the end, IT DID TO GANDHI, PULLED HIM AWAY FROM THE CENTRALITY OF LOVING, AND IS WHY, I'M SURE, GANDHI IN THE END CONSIDERED HIS LIFE A FAILURE. But read it still. Just take care.
The fatal error for both Tolstoy (the greatest living human, in Gandhi's view) and for Gandhi was that "Kingdom's" utterly Divine Ch 9-12, indispensably insightful, fatally focus on the outcomes, the only Possible True Revolution - the replacement of violent government with the Kingdom of men Loving one another - Universal Family - the inevitable final form of man's way of interacting with others, in Tolstoy's view, in Gandhi's view, in Jesus' view. This may well be correct! But the farmer that spends her energies watching the shoots come up, and the fruit develop... is NEGLECTING THAT WHICH IS NECESSARY - the tending of the roots and the soil. LOVING is the entire Gospel, the entire Teaching, Individual, by Individual, by ..... THE ONLY REVOLUTION THAT CAN SUCCEED. EVER. EVER. "Kingdom" speaks of this breathtakingly; but too centrally, way too centrally it focuses on the outcome - the end of "pagan" government - government based on fleshly selfishness, violence.
Loving - is the work, the only work, the only place our individual (or collective) focus can be useful, with every breath - pre-emptive, and in return for EVERY Evil.
Be careful. Read "Kingdom." HURRY. BUT BE CAREFUL.
Loving is our business, our only business; from which all else will come.
12.25.2012
***** Diane Wilson - Hunger Strike Day 27 - For YOUR kids and grandkids
FOR CHRIST'S SAKE, JOIN HER.
YOUR APATHY IS KILLING HER.
CLICK
Also:
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YOUR APATHY IS KILLING HER.
Also:
Diane Wilson, An American Hero
truth-out.org/article/diane-wilson-an-american-hero
Mar 28, 2006 – Diane Wilson is the author of An Unreasonable Woman: A True Story of Shrimpers, Politicos, Polluters and the Fight for Seadrift, Texas ...Diane Wilson - Chelsea Green: The Politics and Practice of ...
www.chelseagreen.com/authors/diane_wilson/
Diane Wilson,
a fourth-generation shrimper, began fishing the bays off the Gulf Coast
of Texas at the age of eight. By twenty-four she was a boat captain. In
1989 ...http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss?url=search-alias%3Dstripbooks&field-keywords=diane+wilson+unreasonable
Jesus' Gospel: Loving is the Divine Salvation from the Death, the Hell, of your Lusting.
Jesus' Gospel: Loving is the Divine Salvation from the Death, the Hell, of your Lusting.
nd ' "A Joyous Christ Mass," for the rest of my days may be my salutation to all.' Loving
nd ' "A Joyous Christ Mass," for the rest of my days may be my salutation to all.' Loving
12.24.2012
Watch: First Lady Michelle Obama Reads "Twas the Night Before Christmas" The White House
| The White House (blog) | - |
Paying
a visit to the young patients at the Children's National Medical Center
is a holiday tradition that dates back to the 1950s, when Bess Truman
was First Lady.
nd 'Christ-ian: Helping Self, Helping Others... toward Being Loving.' Loving
nd 'Christ-ian: Helping Self, Helping Others... toward Being Loving.' Loving
***** JESUS' GOOD NEWS: ONLY THOSE ARE WEALTHY, RICH IN SPIRIT...
'JESUS' GOOD NEWS:
ONLY THOSE ARE WEALTHY, RICH IN SPIRIT
ONLY THOSE ARE WEALTHY, RICH IN SPIRIT
(PASSION, PEACE OF HEART, LOVING, JOY),
WHO'S HOURLY DIET IS HELPING OUR GLOBAL NEEDIEST!!!!!!!!
WHAT EXCEPTIONS TO THIS CAN YOU NAME!?!?!?!?
WHAT EXAMPLES OF THIS CAN YOU NAME!?!?!?!?
WHO ARE YOU LEADING TO RICHES, WEALTH?
WHO ARE YOU LEADING AWAY FROM RICHES, WEALTH?
(Those closest to you, right?)
REPENT! !!!!!
FOR THE RICHES!!
FOR THE WEALTH OF IT!!!!
HURRY!!!!!
PRAYING YOU A
JOYFUL, LOVING
CHRIST-MASS!!!!!!!
WHO ARE YOU LEADING TO RICHES, WEALTH?
WHO ARE YOU LEADING AWAY FROM RICHES, WEALTH?
(Those closest to you, right?)
REPENT! !!!!!
FOR THE RICHES!!
FOR THE WEALTH OF IT!!!!
HURRY!!!!!
PRAYING YOU A
JOYFUL, LOVING
CHRIST-MASS!!!!!!!
Firefighter Shot at Scene of NY Blaze ABC News
| ABC News | - |
(ABCNEWS.com).
Authorities say they're evacuating a lakeside neighborhood in western
New York where a firefighter has been shot while responding to a blaze
that has engulfed three homes.
nd 'Flesh, according to Jesus, is Evil, Satan, the spirit of. He's entirely Correct. Cancer requires no malice to be Death' Loving
nd 'Our Fleshly spirit, according to Jesus, is Evil, Satan. He's
entirely Correct. Cancer requires no malice to be Death,' Loving
12.23.2012
***** '1 Einstein-caliber Psychology. 4 Einstein-caliber Psychology books.
***** '1 Einstein-caliber Psychology. 4 Einstein-caliber Psychology books; tho all the books were written without this in mind, except for Adler's.
The only Einstein Caliber Psychology
(by whatever name, or no name at all):
Loving, being 100%, every breath, that of the Forces that Create, that are of (aligned with) Creation, that are of the Creator... is the only Sanity. All else is INSANITY, and Leads to physical Death, and Psychological Death.
The 4+1 great books on this the 1 True, Great, Useful Psychology:
######1: "The Gospel in Brief," Leo Tolstoy's translation of the original Greek Gospels, Jesus' Teachings, the HAPGOOD translation, HERE. OR, Do 'control f,' and the title, HERE. This book created Tolstoy, the Creator of Gandhi.
#2. "Man's Search for Meaning," Viktor Frankl. Do 'control f[ind],' and the title, HERE.
#3. "Individual Psychology," Alfred Adler (the Good 'twin' of the consummately Evil Freud). Do 'control f,' and the title, HERE.
#4. "The Ways and Power of Love," Pitirim Sorokin (especially the passages on Supra-Intelligence). Also see his "Social and Cultural Dynamics."
NOTE: We must, with every $$$ we spend, prioritize the CREATION of meaningful work, NOT it's DESTRUCTION. BUY FROM LOCAL BOOK SELLERS.
The only Einstein Caliber Psychology
(by whatever name, or no name at all):
Loving, being 100%, every breath, that of the Forces that Create, that are of (aligned with) Creation, that are of the Creator... is the only Sanity. All else is INSANITY, and Leads to physical Death, and Psychological Death.
The 4+1 great books on this the 1 True, Great, Useful Psychology:
######1: "The Gospel in Brief," Leo Tolstoy's translation of the original Greek Gospels, Jesus' Teachings, the HAPGOOD translation, HERE. OR, Do 'control f,' and the title, HERE. This book created Tolstoy, the Creator of Gandhi.
#2. "Man's Search for Meaning," Viktor Frankl. Do 'control f[ind],' and the title, HERE.
#3. "Individual Psychology," Alfred Adler (the Good 'twin' of the consummately Evil Freud). Do 'control f,' and the title, HERE.
#4. "The Ways and Power of Love," Pitirim Sorokin (especially the passages on Supra-Intelligence). Also see his "Social and Cultural Dynamics."
NOTE: We must, with every $$$ we spend, prioritize the CREATION of meaningful work, NOT it's DESTRUCTION. BUY FROM LOCAL BOOK SELLERS.
nd 'Christ-mass - I expect to spend the entire day with Jesus' writings. Bliss. Yearning to be Christlike.' Loving
nd 'Christ-mass - I expect to spend the entire day with Jesus' writings. Bliss. Yearning to be Christlike.' Loving
12.23.12 Off-post 2 hrs to chrg cmptr. Bitter cold yesterday.
Bitterly cold yesterday, with 50 mph winds. Warmer today. Rain tomorrow and Wednesday.
Blissful to be back where my body is in the way of global Ecocide.
Bleeding from the surgery has almost stopped, tho moving my huge rolling case 2 days ago, and a way over-stuffed backpack seems to have torn stuff open inside, a bit. But it's healing again, fast.
Off-post for 2 hours to recharge laptop. Won't have access to my solar equipment till where I'm storing it is open - tomorrow I pray?
Also, off site for an hour each evening going to the food truck for we homeless.
Wishing your Christ-mass would be as Joyful and Loving as mine is.
Loving
Earlier updates -
Blissful to be back where my body is in the way of global Ecocide.
Bleeding from the surgery has almost stopped, tho moving my huge rolling case 2 days ago, and a way over-stuffed backpack seems to have torn stuff open inside, a bit. But it's healing again, fast.
Off-post for 2 hours to recharge laptop. Won't have access to my solar equipment till where I'm storing it is open - tomorrow I pray?
Also, off site for an hour each evening going to the food truck for we homeless.
Wishing your Christ-mass would be as Joyful and Loving as mine is.
Loving
Earlier updates -
'12.22.12: Friends: There can be no chemo for me now. Less than 100% is ECOCIDE, from any of us now.' Loving
12.21.12 Back on Post. Dying of Cancer. Pray for me that I stop the Ecocide, First.
Cancer - Chemo? NOW? For me!?!? Out of the question - 12.19.12
***** NRA CHRIST-MASS MESSAGE: "CHRIST-LIKENESS (PRE-EMPTIVELY WAGING LOVE) WON'T WORK. BELIEVE IN US!!! HAVE FAITH IN US, ALONE!!!! HAVE NO GOD BEFORE US." NBCnews
***** NRA CHRIST-MASS MESSAGE:
"CHRIST-LIKENESS (PRE-EMPTIVELY WAGING LOVE) WON'T WORK.
BELIEVE IN US!!!
WORSHIP KILLING, ALONE.
HAVE FAITH IN US, ALONE!!!!
HAVE NO GOD BEFORE US; BEFORE - DOING EVIL."
NBCnews
NRA chief: If putting armed police in schools is crazy, 'then call me crazy'
| NBCNews.com | - |
For
the first time since the Connecticut shootings, NRA Chief Wayne
LaPierre answers questions from NBC's David Gregory about his
organization's stance on gun violence in America.
***** Jesus', Christ's, Good News: You'll be Rich in Spirit, OR Rich in the Flesh. Both? IMPOSSIBLE; Neurologically.
***** Jesus', Christ's, Good News: You'll be Rich in Spirit, OR Rich in the Flesh. Both? IMPOSSIBLE; Neurologically.
***** Jesus', Christ's, Good News, Gospel: Wage Love and Live! Wage Love, or Die. That's it.
***** Jesus', Christ's, Good News, Gospel: Wage Love and Live! Wage Love, or Die. That's it.
***** Jesus', Christ's, Good News, Gospel: Wage Love and Live! Wage Love, or Die. That's it.
***** Jesus', Christ's, Good News, Gospel: Wage Love and Live! Wage Love, or Die. That's it.
***** Jesus', Christ's, Good News, Gospel: Wage Love and Live! Wage Love, or Die. That's it.
***** Jesus', Christ's, Good News, Gospel: Wage Love and Live! Wage Love, or Die. That's it.
***** Jesus', Christ's, Good News, Gospel: Wage Love and Live! Wage Love, or Die. That's it.
***** Jesus', Christ's, Good News, Gospel: Wage Love and Live! Wage Love, or Die. That's it.
***** Jesus', Christ's, Good News, Gospel: Wage Love and Live! Wage Love, or Die. That's it.
***** Jesus', Christ's, Good News, Gospel: Wage Love and Live! Wage Love, or Die. That's it.
***** JESUS' GOOD NEWS: ONLY THOSE ARE WEALTHY, RICH IN SPIRIT...
'JESUS' GOOD NEWS:
ONLY THOSE ARE WEALTHY, RICH IN SPIRIT
ONLY THOSE ARE WEALTHY, RICH IN SPIRIT
(PASSION, PEACE OF HEART, LOVING, JOY),
WHO'S HOURLY DIET IS HELPING OUR GLOBAL NEEDIEST!!!!!!!!
WHAT EXCEPTIONS TO THIS CAN YOU NAME!?!?!?!?
WHAT EXAMPLES OF THIS CAN YOU NAME!?!?!?!?
WHO ARE YOU LEADING TO RICHES, WEALTH?
WHO ARE YOU LEADING AWAY FROM RICHES, WEALTH?
(Those closest to you, right?)
REPENT! !!!!!
FOR THE RICHES!!
FOR THE WEALTH OF IT!!!!
HURRY!!!!!
PRAYING YOU A
JOYFUL, LOVING
CHRIST-MASS!!!!!!!
WHO ARE YOU LEADING TO RICHES, WEALTH?
WHO ARE YOU LEADING AWAY FROM RICHES, WEALTH?
(Those closest to you, right?)
REPENT! !!!!!
FOR THE RICHES!!
FOR THE WEALTH OF IT!!!!
HURRY!!!!!
PRAYING YOU A
JOYFUL, LOVING
CHRIST-MASS!!!!!!!
12.22.2012
***** Thru tears - GOD BLESS YOU!! CBS: Newtown parents reject NRA plan CBS News
| CBS News | - |
NEWTOWN,
Conn. When Adam Lanza started his lethal attack on Sandy Hook
Elementary School, Andrei Nikitchyuk's eight year-old son and another
third grader were on their way to the principal's office.
'12.22.12: Friends: There can be no chemo. Less than 100% is ECOCIDE, from any of us now.' Loving
'12.22.12: Friends: There can be no chemo. Less than 100% is ECOCIDE, from any of us now.' Loving
To C., Pat., Doc M, and other friends, (and to myself! LOL), to whom I've yet to be sufficiently clear -
Principal Dawn, in Newtown. Nothing less than 100% was acceptable to her, or from her last week.
We have 200 billion children yet to be born, and 4 billion currently on earth. There is a 20% chance that it is already too late for them, that we've passed tipping points through our collective, criminal, CRIMINAL, PATHOLOGICAL, AFFLOHOLIC, collective inaction the last 40 years, 30 years, 20 years, 10 years, 4 years, 1 year, 11 months, 10 months... that the scientists have been categorically SCREAMING at us that allowing Green House Gas emissions is the slow motion equivalent of unleashing global thermo-nuclear war on planet Earth, on our children's future, FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
But there is an 80% chance that if we act now, in the first months of 2013, they, our 204 billion children can be shared that unmitigated, eternal, perpetual, daily Hell.
There is not a snowballs chance in Hell that we will do so, that we fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles... will pass the Legislation to end the free, no cost to the dumper, dumping of Green House Gas, smothering the Garden of Eden, forever, that we've all enjoyed.
But as long as anyone stands, Diane Wilson, me, someone, anyone... a snowball's chance in hell for them, exists.
For reasons I don't question for a moment, chemo can not legally be administered to me, or anyone, without a residence, even a shelter, for reasons of legal, financial liability to the doctor, and the hospital.
And I cannot meet that requirement, because other than for 4-8 hours per 2 week period, or possible emergency care from time to time, I cannot be away from the vigil.
Principal Dawn, in Newtown. Nothing less than 100% was acceptable to her, or from her last week. This, for only her 600 children.
I've got 204 billion children. The current certainty is that the slim chance they have to avert Ecocide, torture, and death will be gone in months. Nothing less than 100% is possible from me now. There can be no chemo. There will be no chemo for me.
To C., Pat., Doc M, and other friends, (and to myself! LOL), to whom I've yet to be sufficiently clear -
Principal Dawn, in Newtown. Nothing less than 100% was acceptable to her, or from her last week.
We have 200 billion children yet to be born, and 4 billion currently on earth. There is a 20% chance that it is already too late for them, that we've passed tipping points through our collective, criminal, CRIMINAL, PATHOLOGICAL, AFFLOHOLIC, collective inaction the last 40 years, 30 years, 20 years, 10 years, 4 years, 1 year, 11 months, 10 months... that the scientists have been categorically SCREAMING at us that allowing Green House Gas emissions is the slow motion equivalent of unleashing global thermo-nuclear war on planet Earth, on our children's future, FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
But there is an 80% chance that if we act now, in the first months of 2013, they, our 204 billion children can be shared that unmitigated, eternal, perpetual, daily Hell.
There is not a snowballs chance in Hell that we will do so, that we fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles... will pass the Legislation to end the free, no cost to the dumper, dumping of Green House Gas, smothering the Garden of Eden, forever, that we've all enjoyed.
But as long as anyone stands, Diane Wilson, me, someone, anyone... a snowball's chance in hell for them, exists.
For reasons I don't question for a moment, chemo can not legally be administered to me, or anyone, without a residence, even a shelter, for reasons of legal, financial liability to the doctor, and the hospital.
And I cannot meet that requirement, because other than for 4-8 hours per 2 week period, or possible emergency care from time to time, I cannot be away from the vigil.
Principal Dawn, in Newtown. Nothing less than 100% was acceptable to her, or from her last week. This, for only her 600 children.
I've got 204 billion children. The current certainty is that the slim chance they have to avert Ecocide, torture, and death will be gone in months. Nothing less than 100% is possible from me now. There can be no chemo. There will be no chemo for me.
'Having little time left, I desperately need help with two projects. I must not leave them unfinished." Loving
'Having little time left, I desperately need help with two projects. I must not leave them unfinished." Loving
"Tomorrow is promised to no person."
For years I've had two projects I desperately needed to complete but I've not had the resource to do so, and now I'm running out of time. I need your help. Then my Library that I leave to you will be complete: http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/p/library.html
I need an excellent computer file of these two books scanned:
The abreviated version of "Social and Cultural Dynamics," Pitirim Sorokin: http://www.amazon.com/The-Ways-Power-Love-Transformation/dp/1890151866
"The Ways and Power of Love," Pitirim Sorokin: http://www.amazon.com/Social-Cultural-Dynamics-Pitirim-Sorokin/dp/0875580297
For convenience I've linked to Amazon, but as with every $ you spend, spend it to create jobs, not eliminate them - ;get them from a local book seller.
I can provide to you the scanning software and instructions.
I also need these for my own study - the scanned files.
If you, or someone you know feels passionate called to give this support, let me know, and I'll figure how to get you the scanning software.
Loving
"Tomorrow is promised to no person."
For years I've had two projects I desperately needed to complete but I've not had the resource to do so, and now I'm running out of time. I need your help. Then my Library that I leave to you will be complete: http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/p/library.html
I need an excellent computer file of these two books scanned:
The abreviated version of "Social and Cultural Dynamics," Pitirim Sorokin: http://www.amazon.com/The-Ways-Power-Love-Transformation/dp/1890151866
"The Ways and Power of Love," Pitirim Sorokin: http://www.amazon.com/Social-Cultural-Dynamics-Pitirim-Sorokin/dp/0875580297
For convenience I've linked to Amazon, but as with every $ you spend, spend it to create jobs, not eliminate them - ;get them from a local book seller.
I can provide to you the scanning software and instructions.
I also need these for my own study - the scanned files.
If you, or someone you know feels passionate called to give this support, let me know, and I'll figure how to get you the scanning software.
Loving
12.21.2012
12.21.12 Back on Post. Dying of Cancer. Pray for me that I stop the Ecocide, First.
Back at the vigil, thank Goodness! Away for way toooo long.
High winds, wind chill 31 going down to 24 by morning. Brrrrr.
They haven't told me how long I have with the cancer. With the chemo - 50% chance of 5 more years. Without? Well, quite a bit less, I'll guess. And chemo looks quite out of the question because the vigil cannot stop, not now.
I went to the hospital immediately that I arrived in DC to cancel the tests and treatment that was scheduled. I first, however, met with a Patient Navigator, a fellow Christ-ian, that is not at all pleased with the prospects of me departing in body, quite so soon. I made clear to her that I am not refusing chemo. But, I'm unable to depart from the vigil.
There may be a way. Enough of a sliver of a chance that I haven't yet cancelled the tests and treatment meeting, as I'd planned. There is within 4 blocks of the vigil a set-aside portion of a much larger homeless shelter that is called the "infirmary." It may be that unlike shelters, it is sufficiently less restrictive that I could meet the legal requirements of the hospital, being sheltered, and still maintain the vigil. It would be pretty miserable, chemo, without support, but that is of no consequence. Christ-mass on Tuesday will slow down the ability to evaluate this option, but by mid to late week things should be clearer.
I have zero aversion to trading 3 to 20 years of my life for the next 6 month, to keep my body in the way, now, in these most precious, decisive, consequential days in all human history, here in front of the Embassy, the poster child for our criminally insane pursuit of future eradicating fossil fuels.
But I am NEVER called to be casual with my life, nor anyone elses. So this unexpected, last option, as unlikely as it is, will be given it's due consideration.
With much Joy and Relief to be back in Harm's Way,
Loving
High winds, wind chill 31 going down to 24 by morning. Brrrrr.
They haven't told me how long I have with the cancer. With the chemo - 50% chance of 5 more years. Without? Well, quite a bit less, I'll guess. And chemo looks quite out of the question because the vigil cannot stop, not now.
Cancer - Chemo? NOW? For me!?!? Out of the question - 12.19.12
I went to the hospital immediately that I arrived in DC to cancel the tests and treatment that was scheduled. I first, however, met with a Patient Navigator, a fellow Christ-ian, that is not at all pleased with the prospects of me departing in body, quite so soon. I made clear to her that I am not refusing chemo. But, I'm unable to depart from the vigil.
There may be a way. Enough of a sliver of a chance that I haven't yet cancelled the tests and treatment meeting, as I'd planned. There is within 4 blocks of the vigil a set-aside portion of a much larger homeless shelter that is called the "infirmary." It may be that unlike shelters, it is sufficiently less restrictive that I could meet the legal requirements of the hospital, being sheltered, and still maintain the vigil. It would be pretty miserable, chemo, without support, but that is of no consequence. Christ-mass on Tuesday will slow down the ability to evaluate this option, but by mid to late week things should be clearer.
I have zero aversion to trading 3 to 20 years of my life for the next 6 month, to keep my body in the way, now, in these most precious, decisive, consequential days in all human history, here in front of the Embassy, the poster child for our criminally insane pursuit of future eradicating fossil fuels.
But I am NEVER called to be casual with my life, nor anyone elses. So this unexpected, last option, as unlikely as it is, will be given it's due consideration.
With much Joy and Relief to be back in Harm's Way,
Loving
nd 'I just 'got' "let the dead burry the dead." Waging Love is a Life and Death EMERGENCY.' Loving
nd 'I just 'got' "let the dead burry the dead." Waging Love is a Life and Death EMERGENCY.' Loving
12.20.2012
nd 'I, am a Christ-ian; NOT a christian (my brothers and sisters all), but a Christ-ian. I Worship ONLY Christ, the Spirit of Loving, as Jesus taught in his words, and exemplified, best.' Loving
nd 'I, am a Christ-ian; NOT a christian (my brothers and sisters all), but a Christ-ian. I Worship ONLY Christ, the Spirit of Loving, as Jesus taught in his words, and exemplified, best.' Loving
"ND" = No Detail - Don't click link for detail. :-)
"ND" = No Detail - Don't click link for detail. :-)
***** nd 'Jesus could reach ONLY the Dead, and Dying; not the well. Today also.' Loving
nd 'Jesus could reach ONLY the Dead, and Dying; not the well. Today also.' Loving
***** nd 'The 2nd Coming of Christ, the Spirit of Loving-our-neediest: The ONLY Hope left. The one thing left untried.' Loving
***** nd 'The 2nd Coming of Christ, the Spirit of Loving-our-neediest: The ONLY Hope left. The one thing left untried.' Loving
nd 'What's with Loving, re Ecocide?!?!? "I'm unwilling to accept even one more death. NO LEVEL of risk is acceptable. This is my Family." ' Loving
nd 'What's with Loving, re Ecocide?!?!? "I'm unwilling to accept even one more death. NO LEVEL of risk is acceptable. This is my Family." ' Loving
12.19.2012
***** nd 'Life begins when ENVY of, replaces Gratitude for, the likes of Jesus, Newtown teachers.... ONLY then.' Loving
***** nd 'Life begins when ENVY of, replaces Gratitude for, the likes of Jesus, Newtown teachers.... ONLY then.' Loving
nd 'In my remaining time, the Can. Emb. Vigil, and Channeling Jesus, King, Gandhi... et al, are my priorities.' Loving
nd 'In my remaining time, the Can. Emb. Vigil, and Channeling Jesus, King, Gandhi... et al, are my priorities.' Loving
nd 'We've tried "reasonable," forever. How's is workin for ya?" Loving
nd 'We've tried "reasonable," forever. How's is workin for ya?" Loving
YES!!! Pr. Obama Named Time's Person of the Year. ABC News
| ABC News | - |
From a shortlist that included a Pakistani teenager, the new leader of Egypt and a former president, Barack Obama has for the second time been named Time magazine's person of the year.
Cancer - Chemo? NOW? For me!?!? Out of the question - 12.19.12
Cancer - Chemo? NOW? For me!?!? Out of the question - 12.19.12
The choice:
1. This cell in my 204 billion cell body of humanity known as Loving, steps out of the battle to avert perpetual Ecocide in the final weeks in which it can be won ($250 / ton CO2e = $2 wreckage fee per $ of gas, 2X wreckage fee per $ of coal or natural gas electricity).
2. Accept a certain, roughly 10 year (3 to 20) shortening of my life by the cancer, and a less than pleasant end. (6 adults in Newtown, with unbounded Love, and Joy, just raced toward a much less generous deal, for not 204 billion kids, but just 600 kids. Bless their Hearts, eternally.)
Duh! WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING!?!?!? ROFL! We have hours, days, weeks, maybe months, to avert perpetual, unstoppable Ecocide by Green House Gasses, and I'm thinking about aborting the Canadian Embassy Vigil?!!?!?! Stepping off the battlefield for 6 months!?!?!?!? INSANITY! Not gunna happen. I expect to resume the vigil in DC, 24/7, this Friday, until the $250 / ton CO2e legislation is passed. Then I'll be open to accepting chemo. :-) Yes, it will be too late then. Couldn't matter less.
Here's the authoritative, definitive scientific, technological and economic Bottom Line, for those that care, in a 20 min nutshell; and I know of nowhere else you can find it nearly so succinctly (find the button, lower right, for full screen):
More, from a note to two fellow Unviolent Warriors (Diane Wilson, and another), yesterday morning:
I've within the last hour, prior to reading your email, had a fully unexpected, days earlier than I'd expected, Clarity. I share it with you, and only you at this point, because it pertains to what you've written below, but I expect to take some number of hours to ponder it deeply, and take one or several avenues I can see to 'Test' it, and see if it is correct, if indeed it is the Creator's, if it is Creation's, our Family's will for me. But I'm Deeply Pleased, Deeply Pleased at what I now see so far, this Clarity of how I am to proceed, this understanding; while respecting that you, others, most, all... may disagree with me.
I've spent the morning beginning to process what I learned yesterday of my cancer, and the debilitating 6 month treatment that would be required. Just the 5 or so waking hours since my return at midnight last night from DC to a kind household in Phila, has given me the time, space and place to make great strides toward clarity - including imagining the "ideal" arrangements for 6 months of Chemo that conceivably could be arranged:
1. Christ House - This could be the 6 months sabbatical I've needed to take myself to the next level of Understanding, that I could then share.
2. The Unity Health Care "infirmary" I've vaguely heard of down near the Embassy. If I imagine that it is available, it would give me the off-the-street lodging required by the Hospital, and it would give me a responsible way to accept the chemo - no sense accepting the care and expense, and dying from exposure or germs living on the street. And, those days I was functional, I could do the vigil, and access to online.
3. Three households in suburban Philly area that would Love to have me thru the chemo, and I'd have at least full access to fight via the internet. The Medicaid maybe/probably from DC wouldn't be transferable, but I can imagine for now that it could; update - I have just gotten off the phone with one of the Philly prospective hospitals and they suspect it could be arranged.
So I can now today "see" the ideal circumstances for chemo treatment.
The Blessed Clarity that has come to me, after seeing these options to which I was blind yesterday, the clarity is - it is impossible to abandon the vigil at this time. If our next 204 billion are to be saved it will be in Loving, all out, nothing held back, Unviolent Battle by every one of us possible, NOW, not 7 months from now.
Due to the unimaginable kindness and goodness of my medical care up until now (Doc Cardile at Unity, Christ House, Howard U) I've been given months more ability to contribute, NOW. THANK YOU! I'm currently still healing, yet I'm in practically no pain, for the first time in a year. I have little reason to believe that in the next 3-9 months I'll have symptoms cropping up that will impair my ability to contribute just as I have from the vigil, online, etc; and maybe my ability to contribute will be 2 or three times that long. I've healed rapidly from the Nov 30th surgery. I was physically prepared, if barely, to resume the vigil last night, but the treatment facts given me yesterday - 2 tumors, not one, pretty aggressive cancer, of needing 6 MONTHS debilitating chemo, for starters, life expectancy by 5 years of 50-60%... just was so massively new for me I needed space to ponder, and hence the retreat to Philly.
With immense Joy, my guess
is that as soon as Friday, now that my feet are back on the ground, I'll
give notice that I will forgo the chemo, and resume the DC vigil immediately. LOL -
For a day, or several weeks, the arrangements for my Beloved Pr.
Obama's inauguration may force me away from Penn Ave, his route, back to Phila, for a few days or weeks, but that is no
matter.
This
is no time for chemo. This is the time when we win, or lose, for our 204 billion kids. There is no July 2012. There's only... NOW.
I'm quite sure of all this for me now, but I'll continue for some hours to deeply ponder and Test this.
I'm quite sure of all this for me now, but I'll continue for some hours to deeply ponder and Test this.
I'll continue to keep you both posted.
Loving
12.18.2012
Huh!?!?!? US demands Iran release hunger-striking human rights lawyer. Reuters
US demands Iran release hunger-striking human rights lawyer
Reuters
WASHINGTON (Reuters) - The United States on Friday demanded that Iran free jailed human rights activist Nasrin Sotoudeh, who it said has been on hunger strike for more than six weeks, and sharply criticized Iranian authorities for their treatment of ...
Reuters
WASHINGTON (Reuters) - The United States on Friday demanded that Iran free jailed human rights activist Nasrin Sotoudeh, who it said has been on hunger strike for more than six weeks, and sharply criticized Iranian authorities for their treatment of ...
nd 'The only thing to be sad about: To not spend your Life on our Global Neediest.' Loving
nd 'The only thing to be sad about: To not spend your Life on our Global Neediest.' Loving
Hunger-Striking Prisoners at Risk of Imminent Death. Palestine News Network
Hunger-Striking Prisoners at Risk of Imminent Death
Palestine News Network
Thursday 6th December, Addameer Prisoner Support and Human Rights Association expresses its deep concern for the health and lives of five Palestinian political prisoners that are on hunger strike to protest their unjust detention in Israeli Occupation ...
Palestine News Network
Thursday 6th December, Addameer Prisoner Support and Human Rights Association expresses its deep concern for the health and lives of five Palestinian political prisoners that are on hunger strike to protest their unjust detention in Israeli Occupation ...
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