Maybe I've never shared this, among the most important gifts I've ever received. About 15 years ago I......

Maybe I've never shared this, among the most important gifts I've ever received. About 15 years ago I embarqed toward the journey that has captured me ever since. Leaving the ways of our culture, 180 degrees in the opposite direction, from working to make rich people richer, like me, to lived solidarity from the soul serving our neediest sisters and brothers. It was Joyful from the start. There was never, has never been, the tiniest portion of a instant when I've been other than overjoyed with this total change of direction. It is pretty much muscle memory for me now, but not so at the beginning. It could not have been. It was natural for me, I think it is the natural path we were all born to. But our sick culture strips us away from that path, thinking it virtue to do so to its children, and puts us on exactly the opposite, exactly the wrong path. And we gain muscle memory for that and our nervous system literally and actually atrophies for the correct path. So it takes tremendous work and experience for that to be recreated. Really in my departure on this path I found it useful to imagine that there is a creator of us all, a parent figure that unconditionally loves us all. For me then and now God is love, life, and Truth. Period.  People like Teresa and Gandhi said the same, and most if not all of those who throughout history I Revere lived the same. That was an understanding in my head but it was also something more and more clearly felt in my spirit. It became tangible for me in that way. I had a wonderful warm feeling, tremendous peace, each moment that I experienced myself as in creators will. And then I received the gift. From my earliest memories I was obsessed with the female form and all things sexual toward that form. For most of my decades, carefully taught by my culture in a trillion ways, I thought that virtue. I was carefully addicted to all of the lists that our society worships but I'll speak of this one for the moment. The gift I received was in the form of a question that came to my mind, as I was following my inclination to admire a shapely female form, the question came to me, is that that you are now starting to direct your attention toward, is that toward or away from God? The answer was instantaneous for me, instantly and comfortably clear, away from. Yes, I can hear the chorus arguing otherwise. I'm speaking what I experienced then, and with every breath since. The answer for me was instantaneous, that's away from being a vessel for love, life, and Truth. It is turning away from love, toward lust, toward my selfish inclinations, away from serving the neediest from the soul in solidarity. It was then instantly clear to me that turning away from the pure Spirit of love, life, and Truth, was not the choice I wanted to make then. And it has never been the choice since then that I have wanted to make, in any instant. Experientially for me it is not about right and wrong. It is not about guilt or not being guilty. It certainly has nothing to do with an afterlife in which I have zero belief. For me it is simply a matter of now having a mechanism that enables me to pursue Joy rather than pleasure, Joy being infinitely more gratifying in any and every moment then pleasure. I don't know that this could make sense to anyone beside me. Or maybe everyone beside me learned it much earlier and knows that much better. I don't know that it can be helpful to anyone beside me. But it has saved me from wasting even moments on Pleasure when there was an infinite Divine banquet of Joy there before me,   and before all of us I believe, with every breath we take. But it is all but completely obscured behind the Avalanche, the ocean, the universe, love sick country messages inundating us from our pathological, suicidal, malignant culture telling us exactly the opposite. So without mechanisms such as I just mentioned it is almost impossible to choose the joyful path from moment to moment.. James

A common love, reverence and awe as the man Jesus possessed, such as the people of love and reverence and awe almost universally have for the man Jesus, is uniting some of us above all other obvious divisions, such as my appearance. I've been.......

A common love, reverence and awe as the man Jesus possessed, such as the people of love and reverence and awe almost universally have for the man Jesus, is uniting some of us above all other obvious divisions, such as my appearance. I've been encountering it over and over in my  Voyage Through the South and I've been writing of it. I never expected to see it, or to personally experience it. But undeniably I am these recent weeks. My brother David says I may be playing some role in that. I don't see it. I don't understand it. But I hope I am. I want to more than anything else in the world. Nothing else will save us, in Jesus name, or no name at all. A mass Awakening of the humanity that Jesus embodied is the only thing that can give our children, grandchildren, all species in the future, a future worth living.  I Think Jesus said something like what has overwhelmed and possessed my life, 'I came to bring a fire and oh how I wish it were raging.'

EFLIUS Day 43: Okay, the joke's over. I'm ready for this to stop. The chain snapped and......

EFLIUS Day 43: Okay, the joke's over. I'm ready for this to stop. The chain snapped and the vehicle is marooned here in beautiful country in the middle of absolutely nowhere in terms of access to a bike store, Walmart, a hardware store with a bike chain.... The good news is a kindly and very expert bikeguy about 4 weeks ago thought to give me a chain repair kit. The bad news is that the pieces that join the repaired chain are the wrong size which I figured out after an hour of trying to get the chain together. Using the phone of an elderly farmer and his wife who so kindly stopped with this ragamuffin weird looking guy. They let me use the phone. Offered to transport the vehicle and the truck but it was too small. Did I mention that I'm literally 40 miles away from any place where my cell phone, or internet access might work? That ended about 3 o'clock in the afternoon yesterday. Oddly, at 4 this morning the 2G Wi-Fi was able to send a few things. Currently I'm in a small restaurant recharging batteries, eating at the buffet, recharging the body,  using the Wi-Fi. I anticipate sleeping sitting up in the Food Lion parking lot the next two nights. I hope the police have a sense of humor. The farmer went around the bend to a fellow he knew and arranged for me to charge my batteries, depleted after a 3000 foot, six hour climb. Charged the batteries for 2 hours talking to the extremely Charming couple. Everyone said, the climbing is behind you. Then there was another 1200 feet, huge. I'm exhausted. Marooned here until late Monday afternoon when parts arrive via UPS. Another $50 bled. This is a town of 400. There is one stop light. It is the only stoplight in the entire huge County. I am not deriding it. It's wonderful. It's just hell for my current situation. There is a hotel, $100 a night. That's not going to happen. I'm so tired. I'll be fine. I'm ready for the jokes to stop stop. this is Trivial trivial trivial trivial in comparison with the people that are really suffering. But yes, I'm ready for the jokes to stop.

Does conservative all too often mean, holding......

Does conservative all too often mean,  holding on to traditions of profound evil hateful selfishness years,  decades or even centuries longer than liberals? Does liberal near always mean, Lip-service not Life-service? {yes.  No? Have you liquidated and returned every cent of your liberal white economic  privilege,  built on the backs of black slaves, and on native American genocide?)

Racism is when, even for one breath, even for one sentence, one word, one thought, one tiny act, you value others less than those of your race. Bigotry, discrimination, are when you do so based on any demographic.

Racism is when, even for one breath, even for one sentence, one word, one thought,  one tiny act, you value others less than those of your race. Bigotry,  discrimination, are when you do so based on any demographic.

The hope is, there is profound commonality between conservative and liberal , secular and religious, values. The problem is, both sides, use their values as mortal weapons, clubs, words to gain access to their respective mobs so that they can overpower the other side, rather than something to live by without excuse.

The hope is, there is profound commonality between conservative and liberal , secular and religious, values. The problem is, both sides, use their values as mortal weapons, clubs, words to gain access to their respective mobs so that they can overpower the  other side, rather than something to live by without excuse.

Jesus' Miracle, the miracle of Jesus, was his unconditional love, Universal family , solidarity with all of creation, specially the neediest. I don't know......

Jesus' Miracle, the miracle of Jesus, was his unconditional love, Universal family , solidarity with all of creation, specially the neediest. I don't know if Christianity, Christians, are blind to this or if they hate it, or both. But from the very beginning what they have done is absolutely bury the miracle of Jesus underneath worldly Miracles they made up and sell in his name. The rare exceptions prove the rule. For the vast majority it is not lies that they tell intentionally. Someone I have never heard of blindsided me with an email the other day, you belittle Jesus, I was told. No. The church for 2000 years belittles Jesus, obscures, perverts, burries, distorts, Jesus. Not I.

EFLIUS Day 39: Hopefully Wednesday looks like a realistic departure on the 1700 mile, 33000 foot climb, to North Dakota. Pretty.....

EFLIUS Day 39: Hopefully Wednesday looks like a realistic departure on the 1700 mile, 33000 foot climb, to North Dakota. Pretty dangerous. Pretty good mission. I'm absolutely bleeding money into this vehicle. It's all appropriate. I just don't have it. Nothing left for warm clothes and food. when I set out I thought I'd be in Florida by now. It went down to 48 degrees last night. I found out that my sleeping bag is good to about 50. LOL. Maybe you have friends that would like to contribute. I'll press on regardless. I'm really glad for the mission. Some wonderful folks have taken me in and helped me repair the vehicle. But it has been agony being marooned for 3 weeks now.... < if there is a true activist alive today, I know that individual, and that individual just asked how they can contribute. I sensed you were in trouble. How can I help?" They already contribute everything they have and everything they are to the world's neediest. This was my reply>: Start_loving@yahoo.com, but not from you! How many times did I tell you you can't take a transfusion from your left arm and put it into your right arm? LOL. See if you can shame some of your friends into it. PayPal works with the email address, and pop money. With the email address. Western Union also works. Western Union is more difficult because apparently they need to know what state you're in. If my current schedule holds I should be in West Virginia by this weekend, and Ohio early next week. But we still could hit a snag with the vehicle. It has been totally not operational for two weeks +.  Dead. The factory owner is so freaking psychotic that when at the suggestion of one of their employees I showed up with it at their site for a two-hour repair I would gladly have paid through the nose for they said, get this off the property. You are two months out of warranty. Get this off the property.  Organic Transit, Durham North Carolina. $200 in repair has turned into $800 in new electrical system purchased and probably another $800 in donated labor and three weeks delay to the mission. Incredibly cruel. The vehicle will be much more durable now, much more durable, and I expect that it will be my vehicle, my boat, my solar Fusion bike car sailor, the free Palestine vehicle, for as many years as I can proceed. So in the long run it will pay off, but my credit cards are hemorrhaging to death. If I can get past the next three months I'll be okay, but it's pretty tight right now..... A wonderful family has taken me in, and he is a world-class expert in large Plant automation Electronics. But not in ebike so there has been much learning and trial and error. And the experts in the field are nice folks but they like designing and selling but not helping so much. But it appears that the worst is behind us and tomorrow things may wrap up. They have just been incredible in unflinchingly supporting me for weeks now. They are a North Carolina Southern conservative family while they both are professional people, he is former Army, and I have learned a tremendous amount by being here.... There may not be many families in the South that would have taken me in, but there would be fewer families in the north that would take me in,   and way more that would help me,  in the south. There may be families in the South that will kill me, and possibly fewer in the north that would. LOL. My incredible activist friend also asked about, what about a bus ticket to ND, put the vehicle in storage? My reply:  The vehicle is really Central to my work. The voyage is Central to my work. I'm sure of that. It can draw, it does draw, so much positive attention to Palestine, global warming, renewable energy,  North Dakota,  Loving,  Universal Family. No, the journey is everything. 'You are right,' my friend said.

EFLIUS Day 32: I have rarely in my 65 years felt less alien than I have this last week or so in rural North Carolina. Unlike my Northern, liberal......

EFLIUS Day 32: I have rarely in my 65 years felt less alien than I have this last week or so in rural North Carolina. Unlike my Northern, liberal, Brethren, these folks , like me, are people of feeling, passion, not near exclusively of the head and flesh. They have an affection and regard for Jesus, as do I, and as so many of my liberal brethren either do not or pay the most superficial self-serving lip service to.  But I am mightily concerned for them and their impact on the world which otherwise could be so positive, because I think they're headed into this kind of exit conversation with Jesus, and I think it's going to go badly for them, and badly for us all: "Jesus, because of the Liberals, because of the government, because of taxes, because people didn't reach out to the churches,... I was unloving to the... I was not courageously loving to... I did not do unto the least of these... The gays, the poor, the blacks, the pregnant mother, the unwanted child, the poor child, the transgendered, the drug dealer, the Muslim, the Arab,  the Refugee, the undocumented immigrant, the Palestinian, the liberal, the intellectual Elite , all future creatures including human regarding global warming.... The Liberals made me do it, the government made me do it, taxes make me do it, laws dictated by the cities made me do it, coming for my guns made me do it,  their beliefs... Their lack of belief... Their behavior... Their lack of behavior... Made me do it... and instead I sat in Judgment of them. Jesus, as I know him, and what do I know, but as I know and follow him, he didn't give us any excuses. What he gave us was the example of the Good Samaritan. The levite had all the reasons not to stop, and did not stop. The priest had all the reasons not to stop,  and did not stop.... to help the wounded enemy who did not reach out. The Samaritan simply saw a neighbor in need and devoted himself to the task. In this story of the Good Samaritan, in every utterance of Jesus, and every example Jesus gave us, I see no place that he gives us any excuses. Love as I have loved. As you do unto the least of these you do unto me, as you do not do unto the least of these you neglect and abuse me. You break my heart. And judgment is mine alone to make. Do unto others all, all, all, all, all that you would have them do unto you. To speak the laughably obvious, I am not God, therefore I know no perfect truth, but I do my best, I pay any price personally, to see and share the truth is I've come to know it. Love the enemy, bless those who persecute you. Love unconditionally. Agape. What I'm saying is not between me and my sisters and brothers in the rural South. Nothing should be between them and me. Everything should be between us and the Creator. But as a brother I am obligated, joyfully so, regardless what the personal cost to Me May be, I am obliged to share what I think I need to share with my sister and or brother. So I do. So I will with my last breath. And yes, I think that the exit conversation between my liberal sisters and brothers will go at least as badly if not more so with Jesus at their end.

I'm dead, if I'm on the eastbound side of that blind curve yesterday around which came.....

I'm dead, if I'm on the eastbound side of that blind yesterday around which came a huge logging truck at 60 miles an hour throwing huge clouds of dust. There's no way he stops. There's no way I get out of the way. I don't even see him. That's it. The trucks travel these roads at highway speed. It will be interesting. Regarding death my only personal wish, a mild one, but my only personal wish is that it happens quickly and painlessly.

If the choice is between Trump, Clinton, and America totally disintegrating, I think that America totally disintegrating is Far and Away the best choice for creation, the universe, Americans, and certainly the rest of the world and all creatures.

If the choice is between Trump, Clinton, and America totally disintegrating, I think that America totally disintegrating is Far and Away the best choice for creation, the universe, Americans, and certainly the rest of the world and all creatures.

***** EFLIUS Day 25. Working in the office here, today. Office work. Slept upstairs last night, first secure night on this voyage. Listened to......

EFLIUS Day 25. Working in the office here, today. Office work. Slept upstairs last night, first secure night on this voyage. Listened to the rain all night, well, those few moments that I was awake. Gladly promised the Godly young son of The Godly proprietor (this convert to Mormonism, LDS, in this substantially LDS community, reflexively offered his upstairs for me to rest for the night, the first person to even think of doing so on this long journey, here there was room at the Inn for the night) I told him gladly that his son could drive the Free Palestine Solar Fusion Sailor while waiting for the bus this morning. I slept through my alarm and didn't wake up except in time to see the bus departing out the upstairs window. I've rarely been so horrified. I can't remember the last time I've been so horrified at anything I've done. One thought was to use the day to retrieve the part I need from Durham which would be A 6 hour round trip, 7 hour round trip. Another was to occupy NC State in Greensboro, another 7 hour round trip. I can certainly use a day of office work in this Godly little Enclave. I may be romanticizing it but I don't think I am. It's 60 years ago... in 2016... a time machine.  As an ignorant northern white guy I expected to see racial tensions. What I see here, in Durham, and elsewhere where I have seen the races mixed in the south,  is  One race, the human race,  1 family, the Human family, as people treat one another.  Of course I'm not seeing the whole picture, but I'm seeing part of the picture.  It is certainly, what I have been exposed to, not more racially divided, and I am pretty sure less racially-divided, than the northern world that I've always lived in. They may or may not think of themselves this way, but it's family,  extended family, Universal family , the family Jesus died to create, Creator's Family,  regardless of religious background or affiliation. I don't know, but I would bet, that when anyone needs help, when someone is in trouble, when someone needs looking after,  the Community does it without thinking about it. Black white Filipino hispanic..... Everyone knows everyone's name. Everyone is respectful. Everyone is warm. Everyone knows everyone. They gather here and talk. It is a large extended family. Aside from my homeless shelter in DC I think this is the first fully, actually, comfortably, joyfully, integrated Community I've ever been in. Is there hate here? I suspect so. Is it perfect? I'm sure it is not. People seem happy. They are hundreds of years ahead of the rest of us, I suspect. There is much to be done here today online. Many many thousands of Google alerts I've not had the time to look at in the last month. Dozens or hundreds of Articles to cue up for the coming trip. Today I should be able to come to an understanding of the amount of watts that I need to budget per thousand foot climb, a project that I've worked on but have not yet mastered. Maybe some cleanup of the website blog. And by departing after the school bus arrives and Noah gets his ride I should be able to make it halfway,  20 mi, to the location where my part arrives at 10:30 tomorrow morning and do the rest tomorrow morning retaining the departure schedule I was on already. When I say I'm going to do something I always do it. It's selfish, I like the way that feels, and I like the way of being that is. A person is no better than their words. No other than their word. Their word means something or they mean nothing. And he is such an extraordinarily good young man. The whole family. If you pick up your cross it will cost you husband wife house Fields, but it will give you a hundred fold in this lifetime, connection with those people, no credit to themselves, that have retained some portion, or regained some portion, of their godliness. Godliness, loving, Universal family, is the only Beauty, the only thing lovely, the only thing that I value in this life. It is the Divine by whatever word or none at all. Oh,  LOL. And I'll have time to bathe. There is a partially working bathtub in the upstairs here, largely disassembled but at least hot and cold running water. I was offered the opportunity last night, of course, but I just went comatose right away. So everyone in the future on this trip can be thankful for that. Lol. Some Americans are so poor that all they have is money, and the rest of us Americans insanely want to be so poor. Madness. PS. Hey liberals, these are the folks you ridicule. These are the folks you deride. These are the folks you consider yourself so Superior to. You know what? These are not the folks grotesquely over consuming and thereby destroying the planet. That would be you. These are not the folks with all their grandiose ideas destroying the world. That would be you. These are not the scientists developing GMOs, pesticides, Advanced Weaponry, high speed Trading, drones, electronic surveillance systems , that would be you scientist 90% liberal. Every one of these folks has been so kind to me. I suspect every one of the non colored folks is a trump supporter. With my two Advanced degrees, Ultra sophisticated Northern upbringing, this is one of the very few places I have ever felt like I was not an alien, one of the few places that ever felt like home.

### A Gay Jewish Zionist American Doctor in Gaza and What He Saw

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I'm deeply studied it in the historical scholarship on the man Jesus. His Central concern.......

I'm deeply studied it in the historical scholarship on the man Jesus. His Central concern in the day was how brutally grinding cruel forces of Empire we're forcing people to dehumanize, the social structure of human bonds one to another to disintegrate. This was what he gave his life to prevent. Exactly the same forces are destroying the last remnants of humanity in 2016. Were he alive today he again would pit his life against the destruction of individual and group Humanity Above All Else. And that's my mission too . He failed utterly. I too expect to fail utterly. But he did not fail to try. I shall not fail to try.

EFLIUS Day 23: The African American man, if not homeless, One Step Above, looks like you have a whole bunch of work out here, he said. Yes sir, I said. I have seen you.......

EFLIUS Day 23: The African American man, if not homeless, One Step Above, looks like you have a whole bunch of work out here, he said. Yes sir, I said. I have seen you working here and working and working. Yes sir, I said. Hey, I said, will you give me a hand for a second? Sure, he said. Bolts needed to be tightened while I held pressure on a certain part of the vehicle. He happily helped. It took just a moment literally. Hey, have you taken a lunch break? I said, I'm fine thanks. Can I get you a chicken sandwich at McDonald's?. Truly friend I'm fine, but thank you so much. God bless, he said, as so many of the kind people who stop say. In this death bed sick, malignantly cancerous, virulent Society, some are so poor that all they have is money, and the rest of us are trying to be among them.  2. Success. Two days ago I projected that two major projects could take 4 hours to 4 days to resolve. It appears that in two days they are now both resolved. Probably I'm too tired to move on today. There are some tiny things on the vehicle that need to be done. I'm likely to do those. And be in a strong position for a strong start on 1700 miles, 33,000 feet of climbing, to North Dakota to stand against the corporate Frankenstein monster that is in the final stages of destroying everything. Test driving might prove otherwise but it looks like repairs, modifications, enhancements, are coming to a close,  and the exploration can resume . James

"I don't know anyone that is as committed to the future of humanity, creation, the planet As You Are." I wish I had responded to........

"I don't know anyone that is as committed to the future of humanity, creation, the planet As You Are." I wish I had responded to that kind man this morning, "Anyone and everyone who is not would be infinitely more joyful if they were. In the moment. And certainly looking back in the future. But absolutely, in the moment. This is where the joy is. Yes, pleasure is in exactly, precisely, completely in the other direction. Whoever knows Joy, knows that pleasure is totally uninteresting given the opportunity for joy."

Along with teachers, police officers are the most abused citizens an our Workforce. We are a culture......

Along with teachers, police officers are the most abused citizens an our Workforce. We are a culture in which 65% of us, those not chronically poor, compete against ourselves, devote Our Lives, to prostituting ourselves in the hopes of getting some of the droppings from the 1%. That is to say we do the opposite of what the likes of Jesus have commanded US by their example and words. We devote ourselves to the most of these and totally neglect the least of these. Thereby we the 66% with any resources create crime, create massive failure in schools. And then we leave it to the police, and teachers, to the totally completely absolutely impossible job of dealing with the mess. And then we further abuse them when they don't succeed at doing the impossible. When it drives some of them crazy. When it tempts some of them into horrible Behavior. But in no tiny particle does that excuse the police of violating the law. No citizen is above the law.

Perish the thought that we should totally reorient this f****** culture away from spending our entire lives on pitiful little trinkets for ourselves and........

Perish the thought that we should totally reorient this f****** culture away from spending our entire lives on pitiful little trinkets for ourselves and begin devoting our entire lives to our neediest sisters and brothers so that we all live in the relative Paradise that this planet was created to provide.

If the shoe does not fit, do not wear it: You know how we look with pity and horror at that a family member or friend or acquaintance or news item that has robbed their mother, their father, their........

If the shoe does not fit, do not wear it: You know how we look with pity and horror at that a family member or friend or acquaintance or news item that has robbed their mother, their father, their brother, there friend, for their drug fix? Look around you. Look at your possessions. Look at today's receipts. Look at yesterday's receipts. Is there anything there that was not absolutely necessary for your basic survival and your basic ability to do emergency work to help the neediest on Earth? Yes? Then to that degree you are that addict. We are robbing our brothers and sisters and all future generations of all creation with every single penny that we spend on anything besides their emergency relief and possible salvation. That's the fact. That's the truth. Look in the mirror. We are that addict. Stop it. And if you stop it you may cause someone else to stop it. Stop it.

You know how we look with pity and horror at that a family member or friend or acquaintance or news item that has robbed their mother, their father, their brother, there friend, for their drug fix? Look around you. Look at your possessions. Look......

If the shoe does not fit, do not wear it: You know how we look with pity and horror at that a family member or friend or acquaintance or news item that has robbed their mother, their father, their brother, there friend, for their drug fix? Look around you. Look at your possessions. Look at today's receipts. Look at yesterday's receipts. Is there anything there that was not absolutely necessary for your basic survival and your basic ability to do emergency work to help the neediest on Earth? Yes? Then to that degree you are that addict. We are robbing our brothers and sisters and all future generations of all creation with every single penny that we spend on anything besides their emergency relief and possible salvation. That's the fact. That's the truth. Look in the mirror. We are that addict. Stop it. And if you stop it you may cause someone else to stop it. Stop it.

My young brother who has stepped up as much or more than anyone in my life of activism in active.......

My young brother who has stepped up as much or more than anyone in my life of activism in active and material support of the mission said, James, I just spent $12 on a beer, you could have eaten on that for a whole day. My reply:  2 or 3 days, + bathroom privileges, plus hot water for tea that I make instead of buying coffee, plus 2 hours sitting and drawing AC into the elf batteries. I enjoy making every penny scream so that any Penny I don't need can go to my family that is much more in need. I know what it is to spend endless hours playing video games in a much earlier life. The reason we do that is because the game is engineered to totally occupy our minds at the highest challenge we can possibly reach. What I didn't know was that by seeking to make every microsecond of my life count to the maximum toward future Generations is much more engrossing than the most engrossing video game and of course, totally satisfying to the soul while every moment I was playing video games My Soul was in torment at my wasted life. I don't think this is just me. I think, no credit to me, I simply understand how our nervous system works so that I can use it to my advantage of maximal joy, and thereby to the maximum advantage of my neediest fellow-creatures.

Humans have lost my loyalty. Children still have it. Very young children. Very very young children. They are still human.... And.......

Humans have lost my loyalty. Children still have it. Very young children. Very very young children. They are still human.... And not blatant victims, blatant victims, the Native Americans, African Americans , all victims who still display a shred of human dignity worth defending, they have my loyalty and always will. We White, mutant, Christian European Americans over privileged have lost my loyalty. They, we, never would have had it had I not been so deceived. The white underclass that has always been grossly discriminated against in this country they have my loyalty.... and not the people yet Unborn, the people of future Generations they still have my loyalty.

"The best gift you can ever give is the gift of self." Kathy Green

"The best gift you can ever give is the gift of self." Kathy Green

"Life is what happens when you are out trying to change the world." Monica Lovell

"Life is what happens when you are out trying to change the world."  Monica Lovell

###. My faithfullest friend: this girl from high school, that due to my near comatose alienation and self-absorption as a teen, I don't remember, reached out to me ye........

###.  My faithfullest friend: this girl from high school, that due to my near comatose alienation and self-absorption as a teen, I don't remember, reached out to me years ago and has been so dear, so kind, so faithful, so loving,  so constant, so unwavering. There, I jynxed it, I'll lose her tomorrow. What will be will be. I learned this about her yesterday: "My greatest giving experience (and growing) was when i worked in a home for the chronically brain damaged people. all ages. I was on the second to the worst floor (bars on the widows and doors-one flew over the cuckoos nest style--) - taking physical care of 12 patients. They were from 30 yrs old to 80 yrs old. I woke, washed, dressed, medicated, fed, amongst many other things in a long day. IT WAS THE MOST JOYFUL OF "JOBS" BECAUSE--NO ONE WAS ABLE TO SAY THANK YOU. They just needed me and I was blessed to be there. It was me learning about true giving and loving it. a HUGE gift from God to me! ( I was 18 yrs old.) xoxox" 

I replied: Totally totally totally totally totally totally totally totally totally. Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you for sharing. In 2000 at the peak of my career, with several of masters degrees, the most joyful year of my life was as a guidance counselor in Chester Elementary, one of the ten largest, 10 neediest, 10 most failing elementary schools in the country, 1200 K thru 6th graders. I needed to figure out how to lift the entire School. It was a massive campus,  8 Acres 20 acres? Due to the wind and neglect of these children every morning the campus was literally covered with candy wrappers condoms glass shards.... . I saw my opportunity. I would arrive between 4 and 5 in the morning, every morning, and pick up everything on the campus so the staff and the students would arrive at a beautiful clean School and possibly feel the love behind my actions. There were days that I literally could not drive home 45 minutes after work  due to the exhaustion.  I would go  comatose sitting in my car for an hour asleep before I could move on. Without question the most joyful year of my life....  What you did was infinitely harder emotionally. I'm so glad for you but I don't know how you did it.

EFLIUS Day 18 ND. I'm overwhelmed with fatigue, overwhelmed with........

EFLIUS Day 18 ND.  I'm overwhelmed with fatigue, overwhelmed with all the demands, a sense of privilege at the mission I've been given, but also at the Divine support that people are providing. And at the horror we are unleashing on all of creation forever, if we don't turn the tide now. It is an honor to witness the contributions of support, it is a joy to see the life that their material support breathes into this mission. Thru stinging tears,  James

***** EFLIUS Day 18 ND. "You inspire others to do more. We can always do more. I so love you, brother!" I replied: What deeply touching and encouraging.........

"You inspire others to do more. We can always do more. I so love you, brother!"  I replied: What deeply touching and encouraging words. So very kind. You move me. I do what I do simply because it is where the joy is, serving from the soul in solidarity our neediest sisters and brothers. But it's also the only place that hope is, for any of us to find peace and joy in each moment of the attempt, and collectively as a species in all creation. If I understand anything it is simply that every healthy successful bit of tissue, in any plant or non-human creature,  any and every organ,  any and every individual member of a species,  does this from the instant of its creation until the instant it expires, Devotion to the neediest among it. Except for cancer, the form of existence that we westerners have embraced long ago and is now in the final stages of killing everything, unless one by one we learn to turn in a different direction. This is the entirety of what Gandhi intended when he said, be the change you wish to see in the world. We have no other responsibilities than this. And in exercising this responsibility, Breath by breath, one by one, we become a hope for the future. Each moment that we do not, we contribute to the now all but certain Doom of the future. James 

EFLIUS ND: Leading Engineers are now donating their time to the mission. I think that the following is accurate, not too grandiose. The development of the Wright flyer, the......

EFLIUS ND: Leading Engineers are now donating their time to the mission. I think that the following is accurate, not too grandiose. The development of the Wright flyer, the original Wright Brothers plane was a major achievement. Also a major achievement was the early pioneers who used the technology. In this I am no expert but my sense is that early Flyers of the mail across the country were the epitome of such pioneers.

Relative to renewable energy travel on land this EFLIUS Voyage, first supported exclusively by me, everything I have,  including credit card line of credit, and now with material support from others, is very much that kind of pioneering.

In Washington DC a Bright Young retired dirt bike professional in a small bike chain took substantial political risk to convince his shop and Executives to invest themselves in enhancing this vehicle to my specifications beyond the standard content, making it much more versatile and robust for the unprecedented Journey for this vehicle.

2 days ago catastrophy struck, a critical part that enables the motor to move the vehicle went instantly and totally inoperable. Had it happened 20 miles earlier in the day it would have cost days and possibly many hundreds of dollars to rectify. It was a disaster, and a miracle. A miracle because it happened where it did, a very mountainous region, Wake Forest, with exactly the right Bike Shop in the country , expert in recumbent bikes, knowledgeable in electric bicycles, and with exactly the right owner with a terrific imagination, and heart, and passion for advancing the technology,  and mission. He and his staff member worked much of the afternoon at little to no charge to me looking at the vehicle from the perspective of the huge Journey it was about to undertake, with their extreme experience, and tweaking here and there to make the vehicle more ready,  and generously training me at the same time. I didn't ask, I didn't beg, I simply explained the mission and the need. And my commitment, and seriousness of purpose, and dignity of mission, are pretty self-evident. And their hearts took over from there. Same with the guy and his team in Washington DC.

As strong as the manufacturer of this vehicle is in terms of design that is how weak they are in terms of execution. It's just a sad fact and also often happens with engineering strong companies. Extremely competent and part of what is required, profoundly incompetent in other areas.

They are unable to hold onto good personnel and sadly that's been the case with this company year after year after year. In late spring their only senior support executive Departed the company. He is Far and Away deleting support engineer on this vehicle in the country and he has backed completely away from the business due to their management incompetence, so sad. The void is crushing. This morning he spent hours on the phone with me working through issues because I have become so expert and I'm pushing the technology so far into the future of where it belongs. And the commitment he sees in me inspires him to be substantially more committed than otherwise he would be. After the hours I asked for his address so I could send remuneration. He just laughed. Call me whenever you need help, he said.

James

***** James, you are on your true path. People who meet you can feel it." My reply: With all due respect I will respectfully disagree because......

" James, you are on your true path. People who meet you can feel it."  My reply: With all due respect I will respectfully disagree because I think this is a profoundly important point. I think they are responding because I have taken A path, a path with my whole life. There are many if not infinite ways I could have done.  I think what they are responding to is seeing someone choose a path and March it with everything they are and everything they have. I know, and I'm explicit with people, I don't know what I'm doing. I don't expect this to make any difference at all. All I know is it's the best shot I can see and I will not sit on the sidelines. This is the best way I can see to put my body in the way of the harm to the Future and to keep it there, so I will do this with every breath until I can see a better way. This is what I think they are responding to. This is what I think every one of us should be doing. This is where the joy is. If there is any hope this is where it is. Selma was not the right bridge, on the right day, in the right way. Selma was people saying I ain't going to sit on the sidelines anymore, I'm going to get in the way of the harm, I ain't going to sit down till it gets better. This is what people saw. This is what woke them up. I may be wrong. I'm certain this is correct.

The man Jesus who I Revere , said something like, if you devote your life to the neediest it will cost you everything, houses, Farms......

<3 The man Jesus who I Revere , said something like, if you devote your life to the neediest it will cost you everything, houses, Farms, husband, wife, children, but it will give you 100 fold in this lifetime. It is clear to me that this is true. It is clear to me what this means. Those fortunate enough to realize that the reason we're here is to help those who are neediest,  to try to help those in need,  yes, our sick cultures exact every price from these people that they can to discourage them, but none the less it results in encountering others whose heart is doing the same,  and in my experience and knowledge and study, next to the joy of Simply attempting to help the neediest, it results in encountering those whose hearts are causing them to attempt the same and is the greatest privilege and joy, the only real encounter with the Divine, available to we humans.