Hi. I think of you often, often... too.
We are in such different worlds... and I'm moving faster
and deeper into mine - 100% solidarity with our global neediest,
and away from, and against, Elysianism, that cancer that
kills all within it, and now everything else as well.
I'm not making a point to you - I'm sharing what I'm more
deeply aware of every day.
I've joined another guy in voluntarily
doing the laundry for the 225 men, my family,
on my floor every day.
Using headphones while I wash and fold (9 hrs yesterday),
I listen to / 'read' books - Eliz Warren,
Manfred Max-Neef the great Chilean/Berkeley economics
Nearly ALL the great souls
throughout history have seen that we had a choice - to return
to the profoundly egalitarian culture of pre-agriculture to live
in Love, Compassion, Harmony, SOLIDARITY... or we
could collectively and individually destroy ourselves by
living in ever more vicious competition, GREED (competition),
Elysianism, and of course, more fiercely every day we Elysians choose
Greed (denying to ourselves brilliantly and completely that we are doing
any such thing).
As I've written recently, SOLIDARITY, Lived, 100% solidarity
of, by, for, and WITH the neediest is Loving, IS the ONLY True
Revolution that has ever been available to humanity to pull
out of it's orgy of needless suffering, meaninglessness, pain... and now
planet-wide extinction. I continue to stumble blindly, poorly,
gratefully, JOYFULLY.. in that direction... 100% Lived Solidarity,
and away from the world you knew me in.
That will never affect one iota my Loving of you... nothing can.
But it is important for you to try and understand, and being as
amazingly smart as you are.. I think you do to an amazing degree.
I'm typing now from a computer in the Library of Congress.
It is not a bad hike from the shelter, tho it seems a bit long now seeing
as my hip seems to have dislocated 3 days ago.
I don't know what I'll do regarding replacing the computer. I had
the funds until yesterday when I mailed most of them to someone
I knew in high school (tho I can't remember her or nearly anyone... from HS)
who works her butt off, has had lots of hard knocks in life... and
is on the verge of losing her apt and truck that she uses in her
antiques, etc, business out of NJ.
I have ZERO support for my efforts, for my work... and it is for that
and that only that I could accept or use funds to replace it. I am
way past the time of accepting resources for me - I've used up
a million times more than my share. 2 homeless guys (dozens
were horrified to see my laptop destroyed) independently offered
to replace it for me; and a pastor that ministers every Sat nite
at the shelter (a deeply Godly man) offered too. I refused these
kind offers on the basis I said - I can accept nothing... only my
work - that has ZERO support or traction.
There is 1 year left on the warrant of that laptop.. but the damage
is near-certainly not covered by that warranty. Yesterday I sent it back
(wasted 10 days with FedEx fumbling the handoff of the depot
box) to Dell. By week's end I should know the Creator's verdict.
(((((HUGS))))) forever, no matter what
