MY FLAME IS RELIT, HAVING GONE DANGEROUSLY LOW.

Why had my flame, my Spirit, my unity with God gone dangerously low? Had to do with:

• Being on autopilot massively absorbed in getting Obama elected.
• Being in an environment now of great unclarity when compared to the campaigns for Darfur, Iraq, Iran, against Bush... for so long.
  
• Being in an environment now that Obama is elected where it may be possible to be FOR something - the way the world should be, the way the world must be - to survive and flourish, and prosper; not just AGAINST the madness. But this requires massive work to discover, to learn, to conceive a comprehensive Truth based vision of how we are to Live on this earth at this time.
• The relatively new http://youtube.com/StartLoving1 ministry which is quite powerful but extremely time consuming with relatively mind-numbing technical work.
  
• Wounds from terminated relationships that were not too long ago hugely encouraging and nurturing and sustaining for me.
• Wounds from hostility and neglect both gleeful and unwitting from parties currently.
• Solitude, a Long Loneliness as Dorothy Day spoke of it.
• Massive discouragement at having worked so long and hard, at such cost and yet seen so little, if any impact.
  
• Discouragement that so much can be wrong, that we can be sooooooo sick; and as is always true with addiction, so totally determined to NOT be cured.

How it seems that my Spirit has become re-lit?

• I was alert to the flame-out; didn't deny it but recognized it as priority #1 - SPIRIT IS EVERTHING. SPIRIT IS EVERYTHING.
  
• Sought solitude and took as much time, 3 days, as was needed - pretty much solid - in bed. This was not easy. "What's wrong with you?" is among the thoughts that crowded in. "Maybe you will not re-ignite," was present. Frightening. "Maybe the folks that let you stay here will throw you out, as a bum," crowded in.
• SPIRIT IS EVERYTHING; WITH IT MIRACLES ARE POSSIBLE; WITHOUT IT NOTHING IS POSSIBLE.

The biggest surprise, the biggest lesson to me during this Retreat, this depression cycle, is that what seems to have caused a re-ignition is some advice a used to be friend gave me not too long ago - "Climb into the lap of God [the lap of Universal Love]." In previous cycles when my flame has gone low, or out, I've recovered other ways. This time, what I needed, was to remember to, and then to take the time to "climb into the lap of God." I didn't do it for me. I did it in an effort to regain the ability to be a prayer of hope for this dying, and almost dead world, my brothers and sisters, my children and parents.

Why did this do the trick? Near as I can tell, by accessing directly and deliberately, at some great effort the reservoir, the circuits within for Universal Love, it just kinda switches it on - Universal Love - like switching on a pump that has accidentally been allowed to switch off, or to become unplugged, powered off.

It felt like carrying an extinguished, a doused torch to a fire and feeling it ignite. For the first time I now find some meaning in the idea - "You must love yourself before you can love another." NO, but close. You must FIND Universal Love within yourself before you can share Universal Love toward another. "The Kingdom of God is within you. Be like a Child and find it."

I think I'm back now.

THE CRYSTAL IS NO MORE PERFECT THAN THE SEED. WE ARE SEEDS.

CATHOLIC ABOMINATION: MAKING "SHEEP" OF MEN, CHILDREN OF GOD. ULTIMATE CORRUPTION.

JESUS DIDN'T ANSWER HIS ACCUSERS WHY? THAT IS NOT WHAT THEY NEEDED.

THE ANSWER WAS/IS WITHIN THEM, AND ONLY TO BE FOUND WITHIN THEM, WITHIN THEIR INDIVIDUAL CONSCIENCE, AND ONLY JESUS' SILENCE GAVE THEM/US A CHANCE TO FIND IT - THE ANSWER WITHIN. ANY "ANSWER" FROM HIM WOULD HAVE BEEN TO OBSTRUCT / OBSCURE THEIR PATH TO THE ANSWER, TO SALVATION. ANY "ANSWER: FROM HIM WOULD HAVE DEAFENED THEM TO THE VOICE OF THEIR OWN CONSCIENCE / HUMANITY / THE VOICE OF GOD WITHIN. AVOIDING THIS WAS WORTH LIFE ITSELF TO JESUS.

"MANY ARE CALLED BUT FEW ARE CHOSEN." LOOKS LIKE HE WAS RIGHT. I'M DYING TO MAKE HIM WRONG; AS DID HE.

WHY DID JESUS RIDE INTO TOWN, TO HIS DEATH? THE DISCIPLES WEREN'T "GETTING IT" OTHERWISE.

IMPORTANCE OF THE OBAMA ELECTION? GIVES US A FEW MORE SECONDS ON THE DOOMSDAY CLOCK.

I'VE NOW SEEN THE GREAT U.S. PROGRESSIVE INTELIGENCIA. THEY'RE JUST STREIGHTENING THE DECK CHAIRS ON THE TITANIC.

Their focus is on "the MOST of these;" the middle class.

"AS YOU DO UNTO THE LEAST OF THESE."
Everything less now IS IMMINENT DOOM.

ABSORBING THE PAIN OF THE LESS FORTUNATE IS THE SALVATION OF THE MORE. THERE IS NONE OTHER.

"LOVE AS I HAVE LOVED."

Yearning for Heaven? You are not yet saved then.

"Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you."
Luke 17:21

Saved is, IS HEAVEN. To this I testify.

THIS is what Democracy, Christianity, Hinduism... looks like:

A frequent script in my life, I share:

• Imagine that there is a God.
  
• Imagine there is a Heaven.
• You are at the gates; what will God ask you, what is an entrance exam question?
• Which will be God's question? "Once Obama was elected:
  A. What did OBAMA do to make peace and eliminate suffering among the world's poor?"
  B. What did YOU do to make peace and eliminate suffering among the world's poor?"

"B," as Gandhi said, " "B" the change you wish to see." :-) :-( We are totally not responsible for what Obama does. WE are responsible for what WE do.

THESE FOLKS, RISKING ARREST AT DOJ YESTERDAY, SHOW US THE ANSWER --- "B":

INDICT BUSH (1 of 6) FOR WAR CRIMES
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FHedWp91XR8

ps: This video activism coverage pretty much ends now with the death of the camera I've been using.

DYING FOR HEAVEN ON EARTH? THERE IS NO OTHER PATH TO HEAVEN. THIS PATH IS CERTAIN.

"ME AND MINE." HUMANITY'S MOST BLOOD SOAKED IDEA. This IS the way of CANCER.

"I can't make a difference." No, in Truth you can't NOT make a difference. Direction and Degree are the ONLY question.

"Saved" means your enemy is your "flesh and blood." There IS no other meaning.

EVIL'S GREATEST TRIUMPH - ORGANIZED RELIGION. WHAT DID YOU THINK IT WOULD BE? (Think like the Devil.)

SALVATION=JOY=UNIVERSAL LOVE=HUMANITY=SOUL, IN SOLIDARITY, SERVING.

There is nothing else.

SOMEONE'S NOT YOUR "FAMILY?" YOU'RE SIMPLY NOT ALIVE. You've not been "saved" from Death; LIVING Death.

This is the essence of everything on these sites.

Not alive? Existing. Subhuman. Damaged. MISSING THE JOY OF LIFE. NOT in the Heaven Jesus died to get you into - here, now.

EVERYTHING.

And, you are leading those closest to you away from Life as well. Pity.

SITE SUMMARY

>>>>> MY ESSENTIAL LIFE SAVING KIT <<<<

HEAVEN: A STATE OF MIND. The other one is Hell.

ADDICTION: DISEASE THE PATIENT FIGHTS TO RETAIN; ulitmately will "kill" to NOT be cured from.

YOU, NOT GOD, DECIDES HEAVEN OR HELL

James and John ask Jesus to sit on His left hand and His right hand in Heaven.

Jesus replies, "to sit on my right hand and on my left hand is not mine to give... whosoever of you will be the chiefest, shall be servant of all. For even the Son of man came not to be ministered unto, but to minister, and to give his life as ransom for many."

UNIVERSAL LOVE & SERVICE IS THE VALUE OF FLESH. THERE IS NO OTHER.

"I can't do anything." NO. You can't NOT "do anything."

MLK: Greatest Danger - SINCERE IGNORANCE, CONSCIENTIOUS STUPIDITY

Greatest Kindness to the Addict: Allowing them to HIT BOTTOM HARD

Thomas Jefferson Quotes

• Every government degenerates when trusted to the rulers of the people alone. The people themselves are its only safe depositories.
  
• Experience demands that man is the only animal which devours his own kind, for I can apply no milder term to the general prey of the rich on the poor.
• I do not find in orthodox Christianity one redeeming feature.
• Do you want to know who you are? Don't ask. Act! Action will delineate and define you.
  
• Educate and inform the whole mass of the people... They are the only sure reliance for the preservation of our liberty.
  
• Bodily decay is gloomy in prospect, but of all human contemplations the most abhorrent is body without mind.
  
• A coward is much more exposed to quarrels than a man of spirit.
• Experience hath shewn, that even under the best forms of government those entrusted with power have, in time, and by slow operations, perverted it into tyranny.
• Fix reason firmly in her seat, and call to her tribunal every fact, every opinion. Question with boldness even the existence of a God; because, if there be one, he must more approve of the homage of reason, than that of blindfolded fear.
• He who knows best knows how little he knows.
• I find that the harder I work, the more luck I seem to have.
• He who knows nothing is closer to the truth than he whose mind is filled with falsehoods and errors.
• I am an Epicurean. I consider the genuine (not the imputed) doctrines of Epicurus as containing everything rational in moral philosophy which Greek and Roman leave to us.
• I believe that every human mind feels pleasure in doing good to another.
• Enlighten the people generally, and tyranny and oppressions of body and mind will vanish like evil spirits at the dawn of day.
  
• Every generation needs a new revolution.
  
• Determine never to be idle. No person will have occasion to complain of the want of time who never loses any. It is wonderful how much may be done if we are always doing. All tyranny needs to gain a foothold is for people of good conscience to remain silent.
• All, too, will bear in mind this sacred principle, that though the will of the majority is in all cases to prevail, that will to be rightful must be reasonable; that the minority possess their equal rights, which equal law must protect, and to violate would be oppression.
• Banking establishments are more dangerous than standing armies.
• Books constitute capital. A library book lasts as long as a house, for hundreds of years. It is not, then, an article of mere consumption but fairly of capital, and often in the case of professional men, setting out in life, it is their only capital.
• Conquest is not in our principles. It is inconsistent with our government.
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All sin is addiction: Cathloholics, Alcoholics, Houseoholics, Sexoholics, Afloholics...

All sin is the elevation of their "-oholism" above God - Universal Love.

"To Saints, EVERYONE is child and lover." Dorothy Day

"What mother ever considers the ugliness of cleaning up after her sick child or baby or husband? The the Saints everyone is child and lover."

Saved: Your "flesh and blood" includes your "enemy" and "least of these." Period.