NG tube going back in

https://photos.app.goo.gl/3f7EfbBUXGKSfAJfA

 Also there is a chemical they want to put down in my stomach, apparently it tastes like vomit, can't be swallowed and they need the tube in place to be able to put that there, it both helps the system get going and also apparently enables them to do more precise diagnosis some sort of Imaging I guess as to what's going on.

Notice anything different?

 

This is second or third time I've been hospitalized for bowel obstruction associated with the cancer surgery. It's just a  known byproduct of doing extensive  abdominal surgery. The prior times the NG tube has been left in for 24 48 72 hours. My doctor, Tomah, she said we'll hook up your pump again and see if it's productive and if not we'll take the tube out. So about 2 this how out it  came, hurt like the blazes and then within 15 minutes felt almost normal. Slept well. Today they give me some meds some combination of three chemicals that they have found can increase the chances of the Bowel resolving and starting to move again. Then it's pretty much wait and see. The  surgeon here was not particularly pleased with what he saw on the CT scan. He's not real hopeful this will resolve itself as it has the prior times and that surgery may be required. To my knowledge the big problem with surgery is it creates even more scarring and therefore more potential for this to happen again. We'll see.

Moved

 

Keeping the world's suffering children in the room with me is immensely helpful, gratifying, joyful.

 

Surgery requirement not unlikely

 

Worst pain ever? passed out in the lobby lost bladder control

 

Waiting things out outside the medical facility.

 

It feels like a bowel obstruction, from cancer operation scarring, they hospitalized me several times before for this. Since 3 this morning. Trying to resolve it here in place.

 I am not pessimistic about it resolving itself. Once before I got it to do that years ago in DC.

Update. If this is resolving it is doing so very slowly and there are two time factors that could be a problem, dehydration, I'm avoiding taking anything that would put pressure on the stomach, and the stomach filling with file in that works against the resolution process. So the Saul and I are planning to head toward the hospital or emergency care that's about 2 hours away to be in the vicinity if it looks like we need further help. And this need to Head East maybe one final warning not to go west into the mega drought and fires. Probably.

 

Cycling. James, profoundly respects Sol moment-to-moment, and then set the terms, because you can and must.

 

My father's house. Unspeakably beautiful. Mansions, Lakeshore Estates, poverty by comparison.

Highly recommended that you click here and look at these photos and videos. https://photos.app.goo.gl/vqcoGcQiaXwvqmx37

 

Are you a Christian the man respectfully asked? No, just a man Jesus....

 

Austin. Not by works, but by work.

 

My body wants a place up here. It would be living death.

 

I had the mission wrong. Teaching Jesus Joyful Way.

 

This Northern Michigan is nature like I never expected to see Again

 

About 10 days to Bemidji, maybe two weeks, where I'm hoping a health clinic may take a look at my tooth.

 

Dad, what do you think of James?

https://photos.app.goo.gl/746r1sBR9hwQW9qXA 

What you're doing is good, the man said to James.

https://photos.app.goo.gl/1AfAPz6F5hyk4tKo9

Too risky to Head West with the mega drout forest fires.

 https://photos.app.goo.gl/iWbV2dwergsxzYrp9

Left right and Center, hatred is where we find our meaning.

 https://photos.app.goo.gl/8n9UddniYFgR1WV16

Cycling. This body just keeps making it better. SMH.

https://photos.app.goo.gl/PnutmDSCSNuhC5BU6

 

Twin Towers. Israel is quite good at taking down buildings, in place.

 

Silent Spring continues? Accelerate? I see almost no animal life in this area.

 

Two sacred encounters, two gentlemen my age.

 https://photos.app.goo.gl/LmbpXsS2QfhAHCQn8

Cycling, elegantly simple task for the body but seems to optimize everything near perfectly.

https://photos.app.goo.gl/nA6gGebFdh17W26t9

 

Cycling. A whole new benchmark. A whole new level? I think so.

 The last several weeks have been 4000 calorie days, including 1500 calorie base metabolism. These are huge days. And yet today called for even more. Cloudy all day. A sense that getting over the bridge Friday instead of Saturday was a wise thing to do. This meant a 60-mile day very efficient. It was accomplished. And it seems that a whole new level of awareness occurred in terms of cycling technique, building on everything of recent weeks, constant velocity legs at the perineum. Game-changing? Probably, but we'll know more soon.

https://photos.app.goo.gl/9ceKFNTthDMCkLd26

 

How desperately sad and delusional, desperately lonely, the LIE, that we can own nature. McMansions. Or even to rent it..

 

What James wishes he had also shared with the Rich Young Man....

https://photos.app.goo.gl/Y6y6sR8R98SA9ojG9

Also: https://www.startloving.org/2021/06/james-what-dickens-is-your-mission.html

 

James, what the Dickens is your mission? Mission: Teachings Jesus' Joy

https://photos.app.goo.gl/KQ9Kqy1qoBAYCAFdA 

By the way James, who the heck do you think you are to do this? James replied, who the heck do you think you are not to make the attempt?