Nov 30. James, be extremely careful and vigilant. You are what you channel period you are not what you do not channeled.

This skin further consideration of the deep Despair and depression that James  is bearing right now. 

His Mission demands that he carry a higher quality of life basically joyful quality of life. James, what is not working, I is asking himself. And the thought that has come to him is, James, look at what you are channeling. The content, degree, duration, the consistency. 

Grief and rage and fright and worrit M largely what James has been carried recent days. How can quality of life be any higher? So. Could not. 

So, is he to go into denial? Live illusion? 

He is to carefully monitor, self monitor, the content of what he is channeling and take great care with the mixture. Is it useful James to so consistently channel grief and rage? Or need you be channeling comPassion and love and attempted goodness that metabolizing that grief and rage sparks in you? Something like that. 

Cycling alarm yesterday becomes hopeful gladness today.

Alarm that the spectacular cycling day yesterday was a dangerous  temptation away from the central ality of Roiling boiler on the perineum. 

The hour this morning suggest that this was misplaced this alarm. It seems that perinium boiler was an extraordinarily important pointer but to something a little bit beyond the period 

That something a little bit beyond Was discussed in a post yesterday. It is the Definitive defining Space in between trusting and retracting the Thai. 

And the time this morning suggest that indeed roiling boil or on the perineum was an extraordinary pointer but not the end itself. 

 What is decisive is the Space in between frust and retract. Decisive. 

 And what was learned yesterday was largely correct. James' body, blessit. James body was exactly incorrect that extra power was to be found in shortening that space and injecting muscle into it. Exactly wrong. No offense body. 

 That space is of a precise dimension and duration depending upon cadence and resistance and other factors. it changes moment to moment. 

But moment to moment it has exact dimension ality and the body when encouraged to pay attention seems to be quite effective at finding that dimensionality moment to moment. The way a professional golfer can find just the right swing moment to moment often times. 

It is an art but there is a science and a mechanics to it. 

 Part of the alarm yesterday that may not have been expressed was the prior central ality of the uprising leg was missing from yesterday as the tangible centrality of the perineum was missing. That concern has not left James and out of respect for that to day he sought to apply the lesson of yesterday, floating, rolling, through that space in between, but with particular attention to the presence of that uprising leg. And that has not been detrimentals and it seems to be a wise and probably necessary thing to do. The transition includes moving to the uprising leg so it makes no sense that it would not receive the proper attention.

Dec 1. Well, it seems we are not to die today, yet. Anyway for newpark graph the road rolling hills, excellent visibility, screech of tires behind saw Death averted by 2 or 3'. Must have been cellphone distraction. Maybe.

Well, it seems we are not to die today, yet. Anyway for newpark graph the road rolling hills, excellent visibility, screech of tires behind saw Death averted by 2 or 3'. Must have been cellphone distraction. Maybe. 

Dec 1. Fundamental new insight. Exactly where are the legs trade directions cycle after cycle is absolutely decisive. Massive discovery.

In process. Important. Check for updates.

 so many recent and long term ideas have been a response to this only this morning is it grasped although yesterday was a strong hint. 

The natural inclination of James' body to rush past from thrust to withdraw from withdraw to thrust is exactly wrong. The transition period is decisive of

James in Zombieland. He is not doing well yet.

Is that a bike bike?

Give me a ride yelled  from the side!

Where can I get one?

I always wanted one of those....

How fast is it Go?

How fast does it go?

How does it go? Fast does it go??.....

These are humanoids, barely recognizable human features. AbSolutely they're victims and we that have allowed it to happen are the perpetrators. But how does James Deal constructively with these attacks on his time? He does not yet know.

Proud vomiting sounds barely intelligible intentionally as a show of assertion.

It is hideous what these human babies have been turned into. Frightening. Deeply depressing.

Video log. Monumental importance. Meaningful work is life. Life is Meaningful work.

James, you live in a global mental ward. Remember that, Embrace that, or it will destroy you.

 This is extremely promising, James. When you keep ramming into a wall that you can't see it is helpful when you can see the wall.

The percentage of waking moment spent in meaningful work, IE meaningfully serving others, is directly related to wealth of joy.

James dark struggle continues.

I mean, this is his work, pioneering joy in the midst of existential hell. This is what current and future generations need from James, and from us all.
Preview, it's hard. James has much to learn. Much expertise and Mastery yet to develop.

A killer cycling day, excellent, alarming.

Exhaustion tonight precludes any careful editing of the following.

60 miles, the energy equivalent of more like a hundred miles for a person on a conventional bicycle.
As effective and efficient a day as James and Saul have ever had.

Probably more on this tomorrow but too i mportant not to mention now, the James is

This may be the next six or seven days.

Three dimensions of human Good and Evil. From some of the earliest posts on this blog.

No credit to James among his most inspired work. Scroll down halfway on this link and you'll begin to see more of this sort of graphic and better explanations. And older posts still.

https://www.startloving.org/search?updated-max=2007-09-19T15:18:00-05:00&max-results=30&start=60&by-date=false&m=1

Wealth of joy is inversely proportional to wealth of stuff. Quite a ways to go has James. But now that he sees this....

Doing good, to protect the little notion of it left, is all that makes sense anymore.

Tornado watch

Long hard ride tomorrow. The weather should help.

If the plan holds state number 20 on Tuesday, Louisiana.

Regarding James Darkness just reported. James, your being is contagious, embrace that period it may save you.

Most of James adulthood in industry was in leadership roles and he quickly was taught by this that his Spirit was everything. The spirit that he maintained was contagious

In the grip of the great dying, the great Exterminating, finding enough joy to go on serving.

 It's approaching 1:00 in the morning. James can't sleep. Is in a very very very dark place Arriving here After increasingly dark days. 

Maybe it is a sickness, a clinical depression, a mlody that shouldn't be there in James. 

James suspects it's the opposit. He suspects it is because he is holding on to substantial mental health That he experiences this incredible darkness. 

It is the reality, no? It is the truth, no? We are in the midst of the great dying. All goodness is dying on a global catastrophic scale. No? 

Yes. By every objective measure. 

What does James do? Not as a plan a or B or C but

On track for 22 by mid-December then holding for about six weeks in Florida.

With the Agents of good tortured and killed, identifying closely with them help me in my darkest moments.

Objective can James be in what level of risk I live? Maybe not, maybe so.
Last night was a tough night. Probably no risk, violent loud music over and over and

A glorious F-bomb pre-holiday encounter. Video log. Blog.

Do you want a Thanksgiving dinner? Video log

No one is, or ever has been, perfectly good. Some have been or become Virtually perfect in the attempt to be goodness, for joy.

I have a confession. I Judge people by the content of their character, starting with James. As every good sibling must.

Part 3. James shock at how few people in the world he is grateful for thankful for.

James is grateful he finds, thankful, for those one in a million people now and throughout history that he understands as living entirely to make the world a place that is more good. James is grateful he finds, thankful, for those one in a million people now and throughout history that he understands as living entirely to make the world a place that is more good. Explicitly or by accident they may

What I read someone has died painlessly I often feel a bit of envy. The joy of trying to Channel A tiny little bit of good in the world keeps me going, but goodness I'm tired and the pain is awful.

Dozens of posts remain to be transcribed and either posted or discarded. Long day of travel tomorrow, moderate the next day, and then a day with little travel with all day rain.

***** James holy Grail of cycling? Could be.

 On the Perineum, within an inch, roiling rolling boiler immediately and always and only. 

A hard narrow disciplined taskmaster and superior to everything else found. 

And similar to many of the best times yet experienced. 

 Item. Roiling rolling boiler only exists, only, only

Part two. James shock at how few people and things James is thankful for. A bit of clarification.

Note. What James is reporting here is not what he thought he would find, not what he necessarily prefers in his mind. But what he found and he is not dissatisfied with what he found. Upon asking him self the question, James, what are you thankful for that would disappear from the past or present if you did not bring thanks for this  to consciousness? 

As expressed yesterday James was shocked to find how few things and people. Is this some of it a matter of mood? He doesn't think so but he is concerned and will continue to look at that. 

 Shocked he was and is and disturbed at how few people ever in his life he is thankful for. Many acts of periodic kindness from many individuals he is thankful for that he has received directly and just as grateful or a more For acts of kindness he has witnessed from People toward others, though they be people that he is not grateful for being in his life. 

 And things, let's say a donation that someone made or might make in the future to James work, rare, but it has happens.   His immediate inclination to be grateful for that his soul said no. That is stuff. And James immediately recognize that the soul was correct. Goodness in the world is what James is grateful for. That is the common theme that he finds within himself. What is beyond his control or anyone else's, No, got to be thankful for  acknowledg? That's fine. Briefly enjoyed? That's fine. But thankful for? No. 

James shock, continued. And some substantial amount of this what seems to James as self discipline, though not uncomfortable. But surprising. Difficult but joyful sense of duty. James, how can you be so selfish as to allow yourself to be grateful for individuals in your life That on occasion do really nice things? How can you encourage that behavior? How can you be so selfish as to send, to continue to send, such confusing signals? To indulge your desire to be thankful for individuals When in fact the vast majority of their behavior Is self serving despite how it might seem otherwise to them and you James. Not of their soul in charge, but seeking pleasure even if Mutual of head and flesy. Therefore you encourage them to continue to starve themselves for real joy. How can you do that James? And it seems that maybe he Is becoming good enough that he can't regardless of what personal price he might pay for that. 

How to live a radically more good life for the joy of it? What I owe every future creature. What you owe every future creature.

The nature of the effort I continue to pursue with pretty much every waking breath. Doing as much good as I know how to attempt for the joy of it. But the particulars of it, including and maybe especially extracting from all the harmful harm from participating in the cancer that is our economic way of life he has infinitely more to learn and do. And the few  he has from time to time to contemplate what he does if he survives this current 48 states Mission attempt, this is what comes to mind.