Frustration levels, Road difficulties, cycling difficulties, to James allowing his rage to explode. Sometimes almost horse screaming at the computer, the legs, the roads, the road conditions, the murderously ignorant clueless drivers sucking zombies,.... The last two or three days.. and he is determined to solve this problem. The key for James to escape this addiction to the high of hatred, maybe to recalled that being childlike is all hope, losing that, is to lead directly away from any hope, any Joy. To lead toward destruction, hatred, pleasure, intoxication.