Little did we know in defining what was right for the Vietnamese, Filipinos, South Americans, Mexicans, Palestinians, the world's destitute... We were defining what was right for ourselves. The chickens are coming home to roost.

$86,000, night emergency helicopter ride last Monday. This is Criminal.

It appears nearly certain that Medicare and my Park Ji supplemental will cover all but $200 for me. What what is society? This is appalling. A racket. A scam. A travisty.

Unacceptable. If I had known, if there's a next time, no way. Public transit. I'll walk. I'll take my chances. That's a crime.

Make America Good Atlast

Virtue is the ultimate rewarder. Go to virtue, get joy. That's All.

Solar RV cycling log June 26. It didn't kill me, I f*****g grew!.

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Solar RV cycling log June 25 period of what the fuck's? Disaster a fuckings friend? 2 days ago 3/4 of the way into a terrific ride  left leg went broken. No, not an actual bone

F****** hear me! All hope, 100%, for our self, our dearest, and anyone else, is on residing within our childlikeness, and thereby exerting gravity on those influenced by us to do the same. This is a better understanding of what Gandhi meant by Soul Force.

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0 boundaries. Abuse has zero boundaries. I didn't understand this. Abuse tolerated anywhere is abuse targeted everywhere. Yes, the most vulnerable first. Even their home, especially their home.

James is out of politics now. You should be too.

Trump and his nazi troll army have already won. Hitler and his troll army won long before the final political trappings were evident. Only a fool will deny this and not plan their lives now immediately accordingly.

The vast majority of at risk populations in Germany were such fools. Don't you be. And help those you can alert and access not be. At risk categories is everyone except for the nazi trolls. The highest risk categories can be seen in the newspapers today, people of color, immigrants, muslims, dissidents, LGBTQ, infirm, handicapped, elderly, etc.

What to do? Leave the country now. Establish serious plans to leave the country now. Move to what may be the safest States Which I suspect are States like California and New York. Establish quick exit plans to get to those States. Playing your political lives accordingly and your political activity accordingly. James is considering ending his political activities now. They have been peripheral to his major mission to ignite the rare soul now or hundreds of years from now, reignite. Pioneering joyful living in Unstoppable hell. I suggest this is the work of us all now. This is what we owe the survivors. Nothing more, nothing less, nothing else.

Is James defeatist? Never has been. Unwilling to deny truth.

What of James assumptions that the trolls have already won? Do you see anything that will stop them?

Do you see anything that makes stopping them likely?

Do you see anything that elected or not keeps Trump from being in office with that Nazi Troll Army on 2022?

There is nothing to stop him. There is nothing to stop them. There is nothing to stop them. There is nothing to stop them. There is nothing to stop them. The article below is one of many. There is nothing Stop them. Nothing is stopping them.

Psychiatrist John Gartner: "Two years ago I compared Trump to Hitler. People didn't believe me" - Salon.com

And a few of the other articles of which there is an avalanche....

Neoliberal Fascism and the Echoes of History -

There Are No Democratic Adults in the Room - Truthdig

Family Separation Reveals the Logic of Trumpism

Trump isnt a president, hes a gangster - Salon

The Thought Police Are Coming - Truthdig

Psychiatrist Bandy Lee Trump is getting worse

What if I had been raised to be blind, crippled? Instead I was raised as a body and head, not a soul.

Power for, or power over? Those in power are guilty of criminal exploitation, until proven innocent.

Power over is always corruption. Abuse. Exploitation. Power for is almost never ever seen.

My first home ever, the second time.

I love this place. I deeply love this place. I wasn't looking for home. I never imagined there was such a thing for me. I don't know that is it is reciprocated although among a handful I know that it is. I love the natural magnificence, the decency of the people, even the climbers and hikers, many of them, a bit self-absorbed, but serious, the shopkeepers and the shops, the air, the Whitney portal hostel, the Ravens....

It is very difficult to thought of leaving in a couple of weeks. But being here these last 8 months has been an incredible cocoon hot house growth opportunity and it has done its work. So it is joyful to take this growth back on the road.
Don't know if I'll ever be back. But I expect in 5 months I'll return to rest and recover and go deeper. And then probably on to Joshua Tree for the winter, not nearly as wonderful for me as this but much much higher traffic in the winter time.

The essential American soul is hard, isolate, stoic, and a killer. DH Lawrence.

Update. My bags are packed. I'm ready to go. "How's you guts?"

"How's you guts?" My friend asked on Facebook. My reply. I think I'm in the clear John. It may have been another incredible Gift, wake up call. James. Chew. Chew man. Don't swallow until you chew it down to dust. And hydrate at least moderately at the same time.  Make it really really

My next read. Free download? Yes. Link here. Dangerous case of Donald Trump, Yale Professor Bandy Lee.

For me the motivation is to grasp the Deep psychological lessons that I am quite certain are here. https://www.google.com/url?q=https://the-eye.eu/public/concen.org/01052018_updates/Bandy%2520Lee%2520-%2520The%2520Dangerous%2520Case%2520of%2520Donald%2520Trump%2520-%252027%2520Psychiatrists%2520and%2520Mental%2520Health%2520Experts%2520Assess%2520a%2520President%2520%2528pdf%2529%2520-%2520roflcopter2110%2520%255BWWRG%255D/Bandy%2520Lee%2520-%2520The%2520Dangerous%2520Case%2520of%2520Donald%2520Trump%2520%2528pdf%2529%2520-%2520roflcopter2110%2520%255BWWRG%255D.pdf&sa=U&ved=2ahUKEwiZlorXmf7iAhWOvp4KHacvBYkQFjACegQICRAB&usg=AOvVaw2cyW0WVSapuknPINsgn2hT

James Mission needs your help. Yes, that places no obligation on you, however...

.... the fact remains he needs your help, his mission needs your help.

he'll probably live many more years, but as Gandhi said, live as though you would die tomorrow and that's where I find the intensity of life worth living.
My most important work has been the site lsgiabeing.com.

As with my life, the purpose of this site is to help ignite not anyone, not everyone, that's just not possible anymore than it is possible to ignite any but the rarest of Twigs or branches in a forest that has been under Deluge for a long long time. My life and this site is designed to help reignite the one in a million soul that has not been virtually totally extinguished and with some powerful encouragement and removal of a sense of being totally alone, might be reignited to the humanity we are all born too.
I need people to spend some time at this site, 15 minutes oh, an hour, 15 hours, whatever. And to know their thoughtful comments positive and negative. With the intended audience and purpose in mind.

In a prior post this afternoon I indicated that it seems to me I will be going back on the road within a week or  so and that will reduce the time that I could work on this site.
 You, and or people you know that might provide a thoughtful review of what it is intending to be, please feel free to invite them to do so. James

Now, a given and fixed a sumption of this site, and my life experience tells me that, this one in a million sufficiently dry twig is dying to ignite. But it will not without help. Without a lot of help. Point being, unlike any other population this site does not have time to be spoon-fed, nor can it do all the work itself. But that's the balance.

by the way, why the snake picture? Got me. And the poor sucker wasn't alive anymore. It was on the road and I hoped to get it off but it was too late.

It was never time to be political, but that's all we've done and look it where....

It was never time to be political, but that's all we've done and look it where

it's gotten us. What if we tried doing the right thing? What if we took the consequences of doing the right thing, and then doing it again, and then doing it again, even if we knew we were going to fail? This is exactly what all the great souls in the history of the world have done, pleaded with us to do, died for us to do.

There is nothing left for us to lose materially except our denial and delusion. There is everything to be gained, in this process we would regain our souls. And this applies to any individual that makes the attempt.

Yes, all hope for material decency in the future is lost, James continually.....

Yes, all hope for material decency in the future is lost, James continually claims. But make no mistake. It is because we lack the only thing necessary a tiny fraction of enough living souls to save the future. Everything material necessary is available in abundance. Other than that mrs. Lincoln, how was the play?

I have read a set of real credible articles by a courageous extremely credible Yale psychologist, with other degrees in Divinity and Medicine, who pulled....

I have read a set of real credible articles by a courageous extremely credible Yale psychologist, with other degrees in Divinity and Medicine, who pulled together a range of other experts and they published the book. Bandy Lee, the dangerous case of Donald Trump.  A line that hit me was about how it struck her that he is very much the toddler, not being derisive, being clinical, the toddler that has toys and sand and soldiers in front of her and creates in Her Imagination her total world. Of course this author said it better than this but that's the gist. It struck me as very apt. He has been enabled since toddlerhood to be a toddler Tyrant and is now. He is enabled to create his own fantasy world in material world with all the lackeys around him. He imagines the reality he wants and then with his tantrums and wealth imposes it. And that of his imagination is his reality, that's as far as it goes. And we let him. We let it, I mean. Worse than that, we totally enable it. If there were ever a time that we simply turned our attention away from him, whatever it cost us, he would fold like a pitiful House of Cards.

But infinitely more likely, we will allow him to keep his fingers from the new clear buttons, and to raise his rabble mob and it will be Nazi Germany all over again.

The time for me to go is Approaching. Bitter sweet. Update.

 As announced in a post yesterday a plan today was to take in additional day in the hospital in part so that a major stress test could take place, the one day a week All you can eat Asian buffet for lunch. That completed about an hour ago.

All great souls are failures. They have all tried to save the world. They have all totally failed. Except in joy. And saving the one in a million soul.

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Saving lives? It is way too late for that. Saving Souls is the only responsible thing to do.

The material future is hell. Ecocide is certainty. Bear no more children. The Young Ones must be our priority.

We didn't choose ecocide. We chose happiness instead of joy, and the result is ecocide.

Thanks to so many good folks James is able to fight another day. Dodged another bullet. No Medicare, no James.

Thanks to my brothers  John Hevy and Bill Fletcher and you that Put Your Hearts under my wings and lifted me, and Medicare, and really good folks in the medical system here, James is here to fight another day.
I hope that the lesson to be learned here was, James, with this scar tissue in your belly, and now is the time when it starts to grab small intestine, shoe, Man, chew. Nothing smaller than piece of dust gets into your stomach. Pulverize it first. There may be more to it than that, maybe I would need to radically restrict my activity and my need for calories but that's a price I'm loath to pay.

In an abundance of caution, and with financial help from a brother, last night was spent in the hostel and again tonight. Today I will resume my once per week all you can eat Asian buffet, yep. It's a necessary part of the health of this mission. My intention is to pulverized like crazy and take more time. And to see how things go. Stress test if you will in a relatively safe environment. If that goes well as I expect it will then tomorrow normal routine will resume.

It is unfortunate. I seem to be hitting my stride in terms of my micro ability to help some soul here or there, at just the time they body gets more vulnerable. When I can no longer justify the resources I consume based on what hope for the world I might be, it's time to go. But that doesn't seem to be yet.

Hold John Hevy in your souls for his safety on the rest of his 20 hour drive taking me from the hospital. He is a rare Angel Among Us.

A small group of you seems to truly care. ...

It amazes me, and it touches me and lifts  my wings.

The tube is out.  A lifesaver in, and agony to swallow, and debilitating... my body saw it as a huge violation and shut down. And that was a mercy, allowing me to sleep through much of what otherwise would have been swallowing pain. Further aided by a beautifully equipped

Hell to pay there will be for our substitution of pets for people.....

It is a daily joy for me to coach butterflies out of the road, beetles out of the way, protect lines of ants from the unaware, step over plants in the sand....

But as a society we cheat, we are cowards, lavishing all our 'goodness' on pets, strays, whatever when millions of children need our help.

Because fighting for animal rights is pretty cheap personally, we do that, while human rights are really now near completely demolished. 

Now, it is Hell to pay.  The piper will be paid.

Morphine, for the Throat!

Stomach activity is possibly a good sign.  Little pain there in 18 hrs.  3 hour test yesterday: contrast pumped into stomach, xrays every 15 min to watch flow.  The xray tech, great guy, didn’t seem to see much flow, not a good sign.

The very nice and good doc in lone pine said, yep, about 4 years after surgery is when these adhesions, scar tissue spreading and kinking the bowel, about 4 yrs is when this STARTS to appear.  Hmmmmmmm.

Sleep almost nonstop - pain management, sickness, fatigue from my way of life.

One couldn’t be receiving better care anywhere. Kind, competent, excellent facility.

NG tube is agony.

I expect to see the docs this morning for a progress update and treatment outlook.

I’m guessing that the chopper transport vs road, and hospitalization suggest the life threatening nature of this condition.  But being in there care, there is little risk.

I'll be inquiring of the staff if I can self treat in future incidents somehow.  All this cost to society is barely justifiable for me.  But as long as I can be productive in my work I will consider it. 

Unable to voicetype due to high pain in throat, but have the laptop.

Guessing they will begin soft foods today, but have to wait to hear from docs.

Brief update. Severe throat pain from tube.

Little strength except to sleep or doze. Excellent care. Tube is an attempt to keep all pressure from the stomach off the intestine so that the intestine can relax and clear the blockage. Surgery is always an option but it creates major complications. Wait and see.

Chopper to Riverside Comm Hosp