6.21.2019
Thanks to so many good folks James is able to fight another day. Dodged another bullet. No Medicare, no James.
Thanks to my brothers John Hevy and Bill Fletcher and you that Put Your Hearts under my wings and lifted me, and Medicare, and really good folks in the medical system here, James is here to fight another day.
I hope that the lesson to be learned here was, James, with this scar tissue in your belly, and now is the time when it starts to grab small intestine, shoe, Man, chew. Nothing smaller than piece of dust gets into your stomach. Pulverize it first. There may be more to it than that, maybe I would need to radically restrict my activity and my need for calories but that's a price I'm loath to pay.
In an abundance of caution, and with financial help from a brother, last night was spent in the hostel and again tonight. Today I will resume my once per week all you can eat Asian buffet, yep. It's a necessary part of the health of this mission. My intention is to pulverized like crazy and take more time. And to see how things go. Stress test if you will in a relatively safe environment. If that goes well as I expect it will then tomorrow normal routine will resume.
It is unfortunate. I seem to be hitting my stride in terms of my micro ability to help some soul here or there, at just the time they body gets more vulnerable. When I can no longer justify the resources I consume based on what hope for the world I might be, it's time to go. But that doesn't seem to be yet.
I hope that the lesson to be learned here was, James, with this scar tissue in your belly, and now is the time when it starts to grab small intestine, shoe, Man, chew. Nothing smaller than piece of dust gets into your stomach. Pulverize it first. There may be more to it than that, maybe I would need to radically restrict my activity and my need for calories but that's a price I'm loath to pay.
In an abundance of caution, and with financial help from a brother, last night was spent in the hostel and again tonight. Today I will resume my once per week all you can eat Asian buffet, yep. It's a necessary part of the health of this mission. My intention is to pulverized like crazy and take more time. And to see how things go. Stress test if you will in a relatively safe environment. If that goes well as I expect it will then tomorrow normal routine will resume.
It is unfortunate. I seem to be hitting my stride in terms of my micro ability to help some soul here or there, at just the time they body gets more vulnerable. When I can no longer justify the resources I consume based on what hope for the world I might be, it's time to go. But that doesn't seem to be yet.
6.20.2019
6.19.2019
A small group of you seems to truly care. ...
It amazes me, and it touches me and lifts my wings.
The tube is out. A lifesaver in, and agony to swallow, and debilitating... my body saw it as a huge violation and shut down. And that was a mercy, allowing me to sleep through much of what otherwise would have been swallowing pain. Further aided by a beautifully equipped
The tube is out. A lifesaver in, and agony to swallow, and debilitating... my body saw it as a huge violation and shut down. And that was a mercy, allowing me to sleep through much of what otherwise would have been swallowing pain. Further aided by a beautifully equipped
Hell to pay there will be for our substitution of pets for people.....
It is a daily joy for me to coach butterflies out of the road, beetles out of the way, protect lines of ants from the unaware, step over plants in the sand....
But as a society we cheat, we are cowards, lavishing all our 'goodness' on pets, strays, whatever when millions of children need our help.
Because fighting for animal rights is pretty cheap personally, we do that, while human rights are really now near completely demolished.
Now, it is Hell to pay. The piper will be paid.
Morphine, for the Throat!
Stomach activity is possibly a good sign. Little pain there in 18 hrs. 3 hour test yesterday: contrast pumped into
stomach, xrays every 15 min to watch flow.
The xray tech, great guy, didn’t seem to see much flow, not a good sign.
The very nice and good doc in lone pine said, yep, about 4
years after surgery is when these adhesions, scar tissue spreading and kinking
the bowel, about 4 yrs is when this STARTS to appear. Hmmmmmmm.
Sleep almost nonstop - pain management, sickness, fatigue from my way of life.
One couldn’t be receiving better care anywhere. Kind,
competent, excellent facility.
NG tube is agony.
I expect to see the docs this morning for a progress update
and treatment outlook.
I’m guessing that the chopper transport vs road, and
hospitalization suggest the life threatening nature of this condition. But being in there care, there is little
risk.
I'll be inquiring of the staff if I can self treat in future incidents somehow. All this cost to society is barely justifiable for me. But as long as I can be productive in my work I will consider it.
Unable to voicetype due to high pain in throat, but have the laptop.
Guessing they will begin soft foods today, but have to wait to hear from docs.
6.18.2019
Brief update. Severe throat pain from tube.
Little strength except to sleep or doze. Excellent care. Tube is an attempt to keep all pressure from the stomach off the intestine so that the intestine can relax and clear the blockage. Surgery is always an option but it creates major complications. Wait and see.
6.17.2019
Bowel obstruction, adhesion.....
6.16.2019
Ignite soul log June 16. Important writing, routine maintenance to be ready to leave at moments notice.
Some important blog posts. Some very important articles read and posted some with slight analysis's. Several magnificent souls added to LSGIA being dot com. Mads Gilbert. And Holly, I'm forgetting her last name.
Frightening. Truly. All of a sudden this voice and a hand reaching into my vehicle as hot and tired I am
Vaguely aware was James of a car parked along the road and it would have been a man or men off at the creek fishing, which runs right along the stretch of road fishing. which runs right along the stretch of road. The arm reaching in was sweaty, it's very hot. Turning, I saw a middle aged man in a sleeveless blue shirt. Rather stocky, working class looking. I'm not sure what he said. But he padded my shoulder and moved back out of the way so as not to slow my travel.
What a magnificent random act kindness. that's what it was. I do wonder sometimes on these rare instances what inspiring of the heart if any, has occurred when someone reads the messages on this vehicle. for joy serve those poor souls in solidarity. Ignite your soul. The story, movie is what I've seen, Pollyanna, always struck me as deeply serious. The message. Never have I made a study of it but sometime I might. psycho social analysis, very good soul in the midst of cold dead souls. And over time thawing takes place.
They are all our children. So are you working on a project the assistant server asked?
She is such a nice soul. Her dad is the cook at a restaurant I go to sometimes to sit For quiet and friendship and electricity and toast on the occasionall morning. There are a number of people on staff one in particular that has been so incredibly A friend since day one.
This little assistant server is as bright as a penny. Her soul has always spoken to me without words as being So solid, so good. My great warmth I have tried to appropriately Show But I couldn't tell whether this young one saw it or not. I suspected yes. No matter.
Today there reached a point where it was fairly quiet in the restaurant mid morning and all of a sudden this young 1, A sophomore in high school now came and sat down across from me.
Are you working on a project? Very respectful. Very honest. Very humble. Well, in 10 minutes we had covered, I had covered Kaaba the The tattoos which she asked about, oh, James, you don't like them? No! I never have! But that doesn't matter they're part of my work. The hunger strike for Darur in DC. The soul, the limbec system, almost always crushed by our head and Flesh.
Well, I finished, every waking 2nd I am working on my project which is to try and be prepared in the rare event that the one in a million souls still alive comes and Asks if I'm working on a project.
As I left I said, thank you for talking to me! Her coworker, my dear dear friend, overheard and said to me, James, she really likeed talking to you. What an inexpressible privilege and joy.
Solar RV cycling log June 15. It can't be this simple. * * * * *.
Is it As simple as pressing energy into the vehicle with the thighs as continuously as possible? I think so. There was a period of Literally unbelievable magic that lasted for weeks and it was At least in my mind it was lifting one leg high after a time 1 after another and there was tremendous power and virtual effortless Nas and for the life of me I couldn't figure out why it was working and that's why I lost it and I couldn't get it back
Now I think I know what it was. When one thigh is lifted the other 1 naturally presses down and as I now understand the notion of the piston on the locomotive And the wip action that takes place at the end of the knee pressing down why that would work but at the time I was clueless and once it was gone it was gone. well what is back is the notion that the job of this body is to put energy into the vehicle and have faith which is appropriate that the vehicle will see that and add it's appropriate share.
James, attempt to remember the that the last two or three inches of the stroke may be where that high leverage whip action is. Point being. It's one of those things that maybe one can't go for directly. What one must go for directly in this case is delivering a six or eight inch pressure extrusion or stripe. But it is useful to remember that the last two inches of that, maybe where that whip action is. And on this voyage that has been forgotten as a explicit goal. It seems the body has maybe found it unconsciously. But now, with half a mile to go has become conscious
6.15.2019
6.14.2019
Ignite soul log, June 13, slow steady progress.
study today was I have a list of articles that have been waiting current articles all of them well worth listening to.
One commented on in earlier post was scholarship looking explicitly at hunter gatherer societies of thousands of years ago and trying to understand seriously their quality of life, and if at all High, how that could be relevant to human beings today. And the conclusion of the article was that the quality of life was very high. And of course, sustainable as opposed to that of our culture, which is terminal.
a series of technical difficulties are slowing down. progress in some respects. Technical difficulties so associated with completing the project of the Tolstoy four gospel translation and harmonization making that available at archive.org. In summary, most of the formats that are generally available there, the 909 page total works PDF is complete and in good shape. And the very important exactly copy Word documents are complete, but only for each of the 400 Plus page books that form the total work and combining those while preserving the hard fought cleaning and formatting is proving very difficult.
This transcript was generated by https://otter.ai
Solar RV cycling log June 13., energy in predicts energy out. is cumulative.
Also, the mind and the body need fresh imagery or understandings to capture it at the moment.
How rarely does James implement the fact that energy in roughly equates at some multiple to energy out. rarely does he recall this not to chastise him, But James try and remember this, and not, of course, energy exerted by the body per se, but energy that gets into the crank and the chain.
Recent principles of recent weeks are all being substantiated, but not necessarily each implemented. The most useful thoughts today are that energy per inch of travel exerted into the drive system is roughly equivalent to energy out and that the way the body is finding most useful for that to happen today is to deliver long extrusions of energy to the ankles.
This does not feel like the most productive voyage of recent weeks or months but it is not bad. The mind has been largely free for listening to very important articles and this will be in excess of 1400 calories (1660) which is good exercise. Also there were times during this journey including now when focusing the eyes just at the edge of the dashboard that is very low is helpful to give the body perspective on what's being done. finding these steep grades at less than optimal gearing. What happens 30 feet in front of the vehicle is actually a bit distracting. Each turn of the crank moves the vehicle only a couple of feet and it can be focusing of the body and eliminating distractions when the mind is focused. Just feet ahead of the vehicle
James, attempt to remember the that the last two or three inches of the stroke may be where that high leverage whip action is. Point being. It's one of those things that maybe one can't go for directly. What one must go for directly in this case is delivering a six or eight inch pressure extrusion or stripe. But it is useful to remember that the last two inches of that, maybe where that whip action is. And on this voyage that has been forgotten as a explicit goal. It seems the body has maybe found it unconsciously. But now, with half a mile to go has become conscious
Tolstoy gospel translation upload seems to be complete. Archive.org, Scribd, even Amazon.
With No Illusion that anyone will ever read this, arguably no book written has had a more favorable impact on human Souls, averting for Tolstoy his intended suicide, creating Gandhi, maybe Martin Luther King Junior, and reverence from the likes of Albert Schweitzer and Walter rauschenbusch. All three sites are processing these large files and when complete James intends to provide the links.
These are still processing but should be available immediately or within a couple of days.
https://archive.org/details/FourGospelsTranslationHarmonizedTolstoyIXIIComplete
https://www.scribd.com/document/413417560/Four-Gospels-Harmonized-and-Translated-I-XII-Complete-Tolstoy
6.13.2019
6.11.2019
Igniting, reigniting, people's Souls was the only important work ever. But now none of the distractions make any sense.
Igniting, reigniting, people's Souls was the only important work ever. But now none of the distractions make any sense.
Soul is God, the kingdom, that which we can know, taught Jesus.
"But if one wants to understand the Gospel, it is necessary above all to remember that the first action of Jesus before preaching was to deny the external God......
"But if one wants to understand the Gospel, it is necessary above all to remember that the first action of Jesus before preaching was to deny the external God and every kind of worship. The destruction of the temple, repeated by all the evangelists (which is very rare), is the purging of the soil for the sowing. Only after the destruction of the former God the teaching about the God of Jesus and about that service of God, which Jesus teaches, is made possible........ Leo Tolstoy for gospel translation and harmonization.
Solar RV cycling log June 11. Part one. Exhaustion indeed is fabulous!
Such a surprise. A decent day of rest yesterday but terribly exhausting the day before.
Now 500 calories into this 1600 Callery climb to the Mount Whitney portal. The desired lessons learned of
Ignite Soul blog June 11. Yesterday a highly shocking awakening. Jesus was addressing exactly this period and time.
Several things collided yesterday I'll guess. Listening to the 1st 5 or 10% of the gospel translation and harmonization by Tolstoy. And the new clarity to James this last week or so that the job is to Pioneer living joyfully in the face of the existential material hell now in final accelerated stages of unfolding for the children and grandchildren and few downstream survivors.
What came to mind from memory was significant study
6.10.2019
Ignite Soul log June 10. Working to understand neuro psychology as Jesus did.
Although dealing with significant fatigue from yesterday's Marathon good productivity tackling the now reasonably clean translation and harmonization by Tolstoy.
The focus of this effort is to deal with just one aspect of what Tolstoy is sharing. Tolstoy's audience is those interested in the man Jesus and probably from a Christian perspective. My immediate concern is not. It is to extract what can be extracted as to the way that Jesus understood the human condition and the human opportunity for optimal experience.
It is quite an interesting and somewhat exciting body of work. Only 5 or 10% complete. Will James ever know how much his current understanding of things is influenced by earlier deep study of Jesus and how much is a matter of Jesus and james coming to a similar understanding of life.
Very substantial to James and possibly central to his life now is attempting to do his share of pioneering for people downstream how to live a joyful life in material hell. Oddly, in this initial work described above by James, he is finding himself surprised to see that Jesus seems to be doing the same thing. In part James is surprised because this is very much the standing that domanic crossan had of Jesus and James has studied that. But James had forgotten.
Tremendously aided is James by the many tens of hours of work he has now completed for a clean electronic version of these four gospel Translations all 12 chapters. He is now for the first time able to have his smartphone application, at voice, free, read to him this entire 900 page work. Yesterday probably 40 or 80 pages were read to him. James is now working through the text of those same pages.
Solar RV cycling log June 9. Total exhaustion, a terrific friend!?!
Much to report except really a basic confirmation of recent week.
A shocking development was extreme exhaustion on this 1800 calorie climb tonight. And it was wonderfully revealing.
It was a really good journey but with 25% left to go the legs were just spent. The body was spent. All it could do was just sort of hold on.
All it could do was just sort of maintain pressure forward with the balls of the feet on the pedals but the pressure felt slightly Below, on the upper Arch. The forward Arch.
And the performance was terrific.
A related piece of this possibly was about the same time a decision to try and equate the body's expenditure with walking. And more particularly with walking up this steep Road carrying a 70 lb load which is what James was carrying. It is very very difficult for James body to not try and expand all the energy if possibly can. Throttling back continues to be very difficult. This idea of trying to equate with the energy expenditure of walking was helpful.
The human output maintained between 100w and 180 Watts!
what the heck was going on? Much energy had gone into the technique and mechanical physics discussed in recent blogs. Maybe the body had gotten into good habits. But be that as it may I think that there was a relaxation and fluidity the came when the body just said, all we can do is hang on and keep pressure on the pedals.
In a very brief climb this morning, June 10th, the body was tired but not that tired. But the attempt was to carry forward cycling as though the body were totally exhausted and only able to keep pressure alternately on the pedals. It was an encouraging experiment.
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