5.28.2019
Solar RV cycling log May 28th. On tiptoe one would push a car forward, no?
No, the answer is no under certain circumstances. But it is yes under certain circumstances and the body would want to do that.
The last several voyages have pointed to a central Focus being the tangible awareness in the area of the feet of sufficient weight, Force, energy commensurate with the movement of the vehicle at that instant in time. This is proving to be extremely helpful.
Andean several hours of between 10 and 13% grade climb today building from that simple notion of feeling that commensurate energy in the area of the feet evolved into the body finding ways of achieving the equivalent of moving that vehicle forward on tiptoe.
This is worth remembering.
More basic and substantial was the comfort that the body evolved 2 that what it wanted to do was not avoid pressure on the feet by way of relaxation but that salvation was in smoothly applying firm pressure as much of the 180 degrees that's possible as it could. There is definitely a love-hate relationship with this old body between applying force and avoiding it. But misery is a voiding it, gladness is in finding sustainable comfortable ways of applying it.
Ignite the soul log May 28th. Jesus religion is the soul in charge. Inhabiting soul. Not flesh or head.
Such a curious idea did Jesus have. That as we are born of the force of life we are of the force of life within our flesh. But that we can live without awareness of this and imagine that we are of Flesh not soul.
In studying, listening, editing, compiling the work of Leo Tolstoy, becoming immersed in his understanding of the teaching of Jesus, it is almost hard to imagine any other way of being. And then being in our sick culture it is hard to imagine what Tolstoy and Jesus were speaking to us.
How incomprehensible for James to Simply make the purpose of his life to inhabit the world that Jesus and Tolstoy speak to us of. And how may be the most important thing that anyone can do. No one living there would be destroying the planet. No one living there would be destroying the life of others.
That seems fairly worthwhile, seeing if one can be an example of that way of being.
But not to suggest that anything's going to be saved of any magnitude. It is not.
And yet if to the soul the most magnificent thing is soul, then increasing the chance of just one other Soul being saved is the joyful thing to do.
White Christian US males: No one will abuse or kill my wife or kids... except for me, my church, my pastor, my guns or my military.
5.27.2019
Ignite Soul log May 27th. What if we all lived as a loving piece of creator?
Tolstoy absolutely concluded the this is what we were supposed to do, that this is what we are born to do, and absolutely that this is what Jesus taught and did.
I just can't at the moment think of a better way of using my life to serve than trying to do the same. It is not what I've been doing but I have definitely been moving in that direction. If I continue to move in that direction, maybe more aggressively now, I don't know what I'll find. But I think we need me to find out.
Solar RV cycling May 27th. Insanely, insanely, insanely difficult it is to feel this vehicle!
The emphatic lesson of last Voyage was, James, one at a time! From the beginning! And mercifully that lesson was applied today.
So very glad is James that it was! Solve all the problems? It did not! But allow the discovery of a major problem, it did!
The electronics of this system are miraculous. But they as I have them maybe Miss installed, misadjusted, are ferocious in creating a game of moving the vehicle which is divorced from the vehicle itself! They make it almost impossible to avoid playing the games of the algorithms, instead of actually finding the true logic of moving the vehicle!
Irrespective of James but in high-level athletic Pursuits a major problem is unconscious competence. It is so horribly easy to conclude that one knows why performance is extraordinary when actually it is not what one thinks it is!
Note to James. Panic, panic, panic... James, if the balls of your feet do not exactly feel Justified that they are actually moving the vehicle every inch. Panic! Fix it!
If at any instant it is not one leg at a time, unmistakably, moving the vehicle, putting the pressure on the pads, Panic! Fix it!
Oh, things are going well? You don't want to fix those? You f****** sucker. You are being sucked in. And momentarily everything will fall apart.
Major update. And now whole new ways annoying this vehicle. This is a bit on settling. If there is any common thread it is that James needs to stay in the real world. James needs to stay in touch with a vehicle. And that mean is moving the vehicle with pressure that his feet feel on the pedal area. Keep it real James. However you do it have the pressure that you are applying to the pedals equate to the movement of vehicle. Don't get sucked into motor fantasy land.
And now something else entirely new. What the f***? First ever. The notion of the feet almost irrespective of the physical machine, continuing to turn an imaginary crank 360 degrees.
If there is progress in any of this, and I think there is, it is that James, you have been so wrong. The point of sanity is honestly feeling and maintaining pressure in the area of the feet in a somewhat circular fashion. It might be the ball of the feet. It might be an imaginary ball. It might be your ankles. But feeling commensurate Force with moving the vehicle, energy, in the feet area in a somewhat circular fashion maybe the point of sanity and everything else can evolve from that hour-by-hour journey by Journey. And let me emphasize, it is more likely that this is not slavishly defined by the mechanics of the vehicle and crank area. This is difficult to grasp but it keeps coming up. The machine that you can control James, is your legs and body for the purpose of applying force, energy, commensurate with moving the vehicle. You can't control anything else.
Let's be honest. James photographs the same stupid things day after day after day month after month. But he.....
Let's be honest. James photographs the same stupid things day after day after day month after month. But he is profoundly fortunate. Each of these photographs he experiences as a natural Masterpiece, not the photo, but what they reveal. Given the choice between owning every painting in the finest art museum, were these photos he chooses the latter. They blow him away.
Yes, I am being honest. No, I am not fishing. And my guess is that with few if any exceptions the lsgiabeing.com throughout history would be as idiotic as I and feel the same.
Precisely those instants we are overwhelmed by the suffering of others, ours is mitigated. Learn to do that every breath, we can.
Precisely those instants we are overwhelmed by the suffering of others, ours is mitigated. Learn to do that every breath, we can.
Luke 6 [32]For if ye love them which love you, what thank have ye? for sinners also love those that love them. [33]And if y.....
5.26.2019
Solar RV cycling log May 26th. Yes, one leg pause the other leg pause, repeat.
800 calories today up extremely steep climb confirmed the lesson of yesterday. James, the Bedrock is one leg, pause, the other leg, pause, repeat. You don't need to do better than that. It solves and prevent so many problems it seems. Yes, there is performance well beyond that. But the building block is that. And if at times your body is able to build on that later in a journey, so be it. But always start with the building block. And be satisfied if that's all there is. Your goal is study with exercise. This should be able to supply that.
Ignite Soul log May 26th. It's all going down. Being soul, of creator, for joy, and for others, the work to be done.
More hours of work and study of Jesus teachings, as translated by the extraordinary Soul, Leo Tolstoy. James Studied Tolstoy quite deeply 20 years ago. And now again after 20 years more experience. Everything decent is in flames. Possibly in this extreme Darkness the light of Jesus through the Tolstoy translation is that much clear?
I thought so periodically over the last 20 years and then been distracted away. Again I'm finding myself persuaded. Toward intensity? Toward being distracted away again?
Not many years ago a beautiful poem, at least it seemed that way to me at the time, was about, kindness is the only thing that makes sense anymore.
being that of creator, Creator rains and provides sunshine on the evil and on the good. Being that. Which is the soul in charge. Is that the only thing that makes sense anymore?
At the moment I can't think of anything that makes as much sense.
This will be interesting going forward.
Part of being of the Soul, inseparable, is being glad to die at any time, though not careless of the opportunity to be of service. All those of any goodness to retain that goodness in the accelerating hell that is the United States, the den of evil, to hold on to that goodness, their soul, must learn to be glad to die when the time comes. Not knowing when that is. But being ready. I think James is.
Part of being of the Soul, inseparable, is being glad to die at any time, though not careless of the opportunity to be of service. All those of any goodness to retain that goodness in the accelerating hell that is the United States, the den of evil, to hold on to that goodness, their soul, must learn to be glad to die when the time comes. Not knowing when that is. But being ready. I think James is.
Solar RV cycling log may 25. Basic building block, 1 lever at a time.
James, instantly that things are not going well, drop down to the basic building block! One lever at a time. Pause in between. The other leg weightless. Simple. Simple. Simple. Simple.
There is a horrible horrible horrible tendency of the two legs to get enmeshed. To rely on one another and to lose confidence in their ability individually to move the vehicle. This is a catastrophic breakdown. Immensely frustrating. Very discouraging to the nervous system. And it needs not be. Keep it simple James when you need to!
Maybe if James were cycling for 4 hours a day as he was he could maintain high level performance. But the complexity of that high level performance which seems so simple is and invitation to death spiral. Icarus tempted to fly to close to the Sun.
Horribly frustrating. Horribly distracting. Terribly discouraging. Everything falls apart.
I hope for James in the future to never attempt high level performance. Let it come, if indeed it will. Simply lever the vehicle forward one independent leg at a time. Paul's in between! Break any inter dependents. If anything develops out of that on a voyage, fine. If it doesn't. You get your exercise!
New rule! Start out every voyage one leg at a time, paws in between. Prove and establish confidence that one leg at a time in sort of short thrusts can and will sustainably move the vehicle!
Ignite soul log may 25. Fuse lit! Did not explode! Smiley in amusement.
Fairly empty Road, quite empty, no traffic conflicts, another individual gratuity nasty blaring horn behind the vehicle as it went past at 50 miles an hour. Only one
5.24.2019
Solar RV cycling log May 23rd. Sustainable leverage knee pressure cylinder, that's it.
So many so many so many so many other things the body wants to cleverly think of. What the f***? Even with all the positives of the last several journeys. Even with all that in mind.
At the end of it it seems there are three things. One. All of the power is in the thighs as levers. 2. Everything else limp or firm so that it does not interfere with the freedom of levers. 3. The unified target seems to be the image of the front of a barrel that the levers, the forward area around the knees, is delivering pressure to keep that cylinder, Barrel, rolling forward. For. Sustainable pressure. Not too much.
Holy f***! The best of all friends showed up at the end of today's voyage. What? The notion that the optimum is leveraging forward a huge heavy ball, sphere, with the thighs, the knees being the pressure point, and to do so in such a way the constantly adjustments are made so that the strength of the legs, sustainably leveraging forward, are able to comfortably maintain the exact momentum of that gigantic huge heavy sphere. This was the stuff of that magical 2 weeks first crossing Iowa to the West, and then to the east. The central piece that fell into place, absolutely crucial, is that the goal is not to maintain the speed of the sphere, but to protect its exact momentum. Absolutely what made this possible was the notion of the entire power source being the thighs leveraging forward one at a time. With an important edition that happened mid voyage today. There's a tendency to find the the leverage is downward toward the ground. When it was realized that the leverage is actually a line slipping slightly forward maybe a 20 degrees forward as opposed to perpendicular things begin to click more sustainable and powerful. Can this be achieved at the beginning of a voyage? Can it be held onto? Quite possibly.
Update, next morning. Let everything go, James! Let everything go except for the thigh leveraging the gigantic heavy ball forward at constant sustainable momentum of the ball, first of all finding where that point is where the range of force can be mustered to keep it going, and then letting everything go, everything, everything, to gently and firmly maintain that momentum of the ball. Let everything go! Everybody wants to help, the feet, the ankles, the Cavs, the Torso rocking forward and side to side, the head………………….... Let everything go James! Everything but the thigh and that huge ball that is being leveraged by the thighs with the point of contact being the forward underside of the knees.
Ignite soul log may 23. Two giant explosions, and other things.
Quite a beautiful day.
Much time spent with Tolstoy’s Four gospel translation.
What did Tolstoy find? I don't know. I never will for sure. That is, I will not know if he found the teachings of the man Jesus. But certainly he says he did, and he thinks he did.
But I do know he found a teaching that saved his extraordinary being from suicide and ignited his soul for the next 40 years. And it ignited him in a way that he ignited the man Gandhi, who was instrumental in ignited Martin Luther King, and toast toy with some of his writings in directly.
On a different note, awakened James was with a shocking thought smacking him in the face. Holy f***. Jesus has not ignited one in a billion souls. Tolstoy has not ignited one in a billion souls. The dozens of the souls at the lsgiabeing.com site have each not ignited more than one in a billion souls. Entertained? Yes. Ignited emulators? No! The historical record is horribly clear!
James exploded twice today. And a couple more little explosions. Exhausted after part of the journey tonight he took a quick nap at a little pull out off the main road. It was steep getting back on the road and the rear wheel did not gain traction. So it was very very very slow getting out onto the highway. No cars in sight when James started. Very little traffic. As he got onto the road a white car came up at probably 60 mi an hour. Blaring it's Horan. No f****** problem. It could easily if gone around. No traffic. I f****** exploded. Turn stuck my torso out of the vehicle screamed at the vehicle, what? Was this horrible? Of James? Does he feel like a terrible failure? Does he think he did something really awful? No, no, and no. But is he glad he did it? No. What better world is the outcome of that? That is not a different way of being. There's no hoping that. So what he's glad about is that he was aware, he was a body at that instant, not a soul, but he didn't see it coming, and now he has a chance to reflect and prepare for the next time.
James is understanding his opportunity, really the opportunity for all of us, to ignite soul, and to disrupt the status quo of the head and flesh in charge, respectfully, thoughtful E. Disruption is much easier and James is working hard to establish a ratio of his time, the large proportion on ignited, starting with himself, and a small smaller portion on disruption. Having said that, the greatest strategic opportunity James senses right now is to complete the project he began several months ago, creating a clean easily accessible copy of the Tolstoy Four Gospels translation and Harmon is Asian that is on the web in really old hard to access PDFs. Today he listened to the summary text that Tolstoy has throughout his huge Lee technical volumes, and they're extraordinary, those explanatory and summary texts.
Note. Something very significant happens, when after 67 years, this individual James for the first time begins asking himself, who is that, James? Is that your soul? Such things prompt that question as finding himself in a point of frustration, maybe over how things tangle, over some discomfort in his body. And more surprising, but so useful, when he finds himself twirling around in his own brain. Pretty much each time James instantly realizes, I prefer being in my soul. And almost instantly transports there. This is pointed to width the capacity for meditating. But at least for James what he's just outlined here is a dramatic enhancement. Profound.
5.22.2019
Ignite Soul Log May 22nd. Dramatically important new tool. MMASS DD.
Written has James in recent months of his challenge of having a sufficiently intense grasp of the clients he is serving to be as fully ignited himself as he needs and wants to be.
This is substantially being supplied Now by a much more important grasp of the problem, massive mutilation assault starvation of soul, destruction disorder. MMASS DD. At his best, periodically, he brings this long but necessary acronym, and the individual words through his Consciousness and becomes much less distracted and much more ignited in his work.
In part with this Aid, this greatly enlightened View, despite very cold Stormy Weather, James has been quite productive throughout this day. Among other things he has begun formally organizing his priorities in the perspective of this diagnosis.
Long-planned has James to conduct the soul filling, yet somewhat tedious work, of bringing to the world a clean organized copy of the four gospel translation from the original Greek conducted by Tolstoy which in process saved his own life and created Gandhi and probably Martin Luther King jr. James concluded that there were things that he needed to do first so that his nervous system was open to those, including his own translation of Jesus 200 versus, but today was the beginning of that study and rendering of Tolstoy four gospels. What a privilege. And what an extraordinary confirmation to James of the foundation that James is building his work on. Only occasionally does Tolstoy use the word soul but that is absolutely what he is understanding through his translation of the teachings and example of the man Jesus.
Solar RV cycling log May 22nd. I think I've got it!
Typically heavy cycling is every other day. That was yesterday. But for reasons of warmth perched here below Mount Whitney in Cloudy cold snowy weather occasionally a brief climb is undertaken, in order to heat up.
The post yesterday was incorrect. That the miraculous performance of yesterday was probably unachievable at very low Cadence. Not so. Much more difficult to discover? Quite probably. Much easier to lose at at low cadence? Quite probably.
The imagery that made it achievable today and yesterday was the notion of rolling a barrel, a cylinder, but a barrel I think, keeping constant pressure on the forward edge of the barrel, at all times, continuous, uninterrupted, seemingly impossible, with the forward part of the knees, the upper shin, and even the mid shin.
This old friend was seen on multiple occasions in recent years.
Why was it lost? It was.
Why might it be retained this time? I think it was lost because it seems impossible. At least it did seem impossible. Maybe James has learned enough in the arduous last 6 months that it no longer seems like a ridiculous miracle. What that mental image and physical sensation does is everything from relax the feet and ankles and calves, to continuously time and harness and Empower and engage the all-important concept of the recent week, the thigh as forward lever.
Gospel translation, Tolstoy. "... The source of life, the intelligence of life, was in all the world, and in every living man. But living men, living only..."
These two volumes are very difficult to find and the PDF text quality is very difficult. James is in the process of republishing these Works in a clean and accessible form including the summary that he has already extracted. This may well take until June or July for James to complete. Here. https://drive.google.com/file/d/1xNUVLXWLKVH63_VdYfIFhquhLiVP8SQi/view?usp=drivesdk In James View Mastery and dissemination of this work by Tolstoy, that caused the creation of Gandhi and Martin Luther King, and Tolstoy himself, is possibly the most MMASS DD disruptive, and soul igniting thing, that he can do. https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1cKRdJSNspoARN5ZOQG_xmLeNx7-KcPh0_o52zrj_LGM/edit?usp=drivesdk Please consider doing the same.
living men, living only in so far as they had the true intelligence of life, did not understand that they had been produced and were begotten through the intelligence of life.
They did not understand that the intelligence of life gave them the possibility to become one with it, so that they should live, not in the flesh, but in the intelligence of life. By understanding this, and by their belief in their sonship to intelligence, or the comprehension of life, men were able to have true life. But men did not understand this, and their life in the world was like light in darkness....
... John announced the coming of God into the world. He said that men must be purified in their souls, that they may acknowledge the kingdom of God....
... John announced the coming of God into the world. He said that men must be purified in their souls, that they may acknowledge the kingdom of God.
Jesus, knowing no father by the flesh, and claiming God to be his Father, heard the preaching of John, and meditated within himself as to what is this God, how has he come into the world, and where is he? And having retired into the wilderness, Jesus learned that the life of man is in the spirit, that man lives always in God, that God is always in man, that the kingdom of God has always existed even as it exists now, and that it is only needful that we should acknowledge it; having learned this, Jesus came out of the wilderness and began to preach to men that God always has been, and is now, in the world, and that we must be purified, or reborn, in the spirit, in order to know him.....
... He taught us how God has no need of prayers, sacrifices, or temples, and how we must worship him in spirit and in doing good.....
James, everyone I talk to in town about you, they love you to death! You're a very special person.
Towns don't love me. People don't love me, they never have. That's not a complaint. Just a fact.
The only large group I have ever known of that loved me, cared about me, was the workers in a factory of Utah, I spent six months re-engineering their company and getting them their first raise and many many years. They had tears in their eyes when I parted ways.
These words just now from one of the fellows on the road crew that I met about six weeks ago, maybe less, when I ask some fellows about the work they were doing clearing the huge Switchback by the portal. One of their projects was exploding and clearing a 200000 lb Boulder that it come down across the road.
Makes my head spin.
Are you warm enough? Do you need a heavier jacket?
I'm sitting here working in this magnificence, gray though it may be and cold. He beeped going up the hill and then stop this truck to give me this bag of Cracker Jack and I gave him a hug. And then he was on his way. I'll stop next time I see you, he said!
5.21.2019
Solar RV cycling blog May 21st. Big f****** new pieces in place!
An occasional old friend showed up and this time gained clear conscious recognition. These legs desperately need to know where the end of the stroke is. As one would expect it is where the physical extent of the pedal arm is. That may be the right answer, it may be the best answer,
5.20.2019
Selfishly, suicide? Part of a longer dialogue James had with a good soul today.
selfishly, suicide? Sounds great to me. But I guess, not really. Not until I feel that I can no longer substantially work toward helping Maybe One in a Million . My joy, my soul, is just too greedy for the joy of the attempt. But then? I'm out of here. And this is really really really really really surprising and important to me. My take from my upbringing was that the externally, extrinsically, gratified life was the life worth having. The life that pleases the body and mind. I have learned that the exact opposite is true. That the only life worth having is the intrinsically gratified one, from trying to be good in the world. And all the people that I admire in history, that small handful, LSGIABeing.com, that is what I understand about their life. Built on intrinsic gratification, the joy of trying to make things better, whether they understood it that way or not.
Warning, if my choice is between killing a cow, a chicken, or the livelihood of ranchers and farmers, guess what my choice is?
Warning, if my choice is between killing a cow, a chicken, or the livelihood of ranchers and farmers, guess what my choice is?
5.19.2019
Ignite Soul log May 19th. Practice as soul is promising.
The notion of Detachment, Buddhist I think in origin, is something that I dislike. Not an idea that I am fond of ever. But some form of it is what I'm experiencing, a superior form I believe.
With practice my awareness of when I am being my body, or enmeshed with discomforts or unhappiness or pleasures of the body, with practice that awareness is becoming more reflexive, rapid, frequent. And that allows me to make a choice. James, is this what you want to be right now? Always the answer is no. It's a very glad answer. Very glad is James to have the choice. And each time so far he has been able to easily make the choice and step back into his soul, lovingly aware of the calls of the body but choosing for the joy of it to be inhabiting his soul as supervisor. Each time that is who and what James wants to be. Surprised he will be if he ever finds that he wants to be something else.
Not infrequently when these choices arise James is fleetingly aware that this could be practice for someday in a trump prison where prolonged torture might be a possibility. Does James expect this? James is aware that it's a possibility. And he is aware, although this is not his reason for making the choice, he is aware that this is practice. Important? Significant? Sufficient? Don't know. But he's glad of it.
Important modifications improvements, upgrades, at the lsgiabeing.com site.
I don't know, is it important to understand human beings? Is there anything more important than understanding human beings? I mean, humans are the ones destroying all life and goodness on Earth. And as a human being is there anything we care more about than the one in a million that might be sparked to sanity? And joy? Not me.
Brilliant or not, and I was not early on a fan, I'm finding the book by Dasher Keltner, born to be good, free and legal at archive.org, to be an absolute must read and study. I found the first couple of chapters quite distracting. I wonder if he felt he had to put the bad stuff first? But then it really gets going. Stanford University, no, Berkeley, a properly respected World Authority.
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