Your life before sex, do you remember how awful were those years of Innocence? I don't......

Bringing this to my mind is a very worthwhile read I'm in the process of, Frans De Waal, our inner ape. He is a globally-recognized primatologist and certainly worthy of that. An excellent scientist scholar.
A primary population that he studies is bonobos and they are profoundly sexual.
Less than half way into the book no final conclusions by me yet, but my impression this far is that he is much of the culture that sees sex as Central to life and he has said that without that how incredibly boring life would be.
Full disclosure, there is no one for whom sex was more Central in their life than me for every moment from the age of about 8 until my late forties. It was an obsession and I understood that to be virtue.
In comparison with my life now, it was so incredibly boring, such an incredible waste of time. Exactly the feelings I have looking back as if I had been a raging alcoholic and looking back at all that wasted life.
Recollections I have of my life before sex, before age 8 or 9, is that there was much wonder and awe and joy in it. It was wonderful.
And for the last 20 years and certainly now that is what characterizes my life.

Departure from Lone Pine it is a hand. Jesus taught his disciples to always be ready to depart immediately. When my welcome where is out here I will do so, and possibly before. Left to the time frame of my work it will probably be the fall.

The American dream, I despise, climb on the backs of the poor as far away from them as possible and to live off of them. It is revolting.

Religious I am, as was Jesus, and LSGIA Beings, about serving souls in solidarity, for the joy of it. Also, back pain quite intense this morning.

Why would the universe want us to survive our suicide attempt? (It would not.)

5 murdered TODAY by Israel in Palestine. Nothing to the Amerikkkans. Pets missing in Jacksonville, terrible!!!

5 murdered TODAY by Israel in Palestine.
Nothing to the Amerikkkans.
Pets missing in Jacksonville, terrible!!!

Solar RV cycling log May 2nd. First climb this year to Whitney portal....

Not an easy day but very gratifying, very successful in that the mind was free for great learning, and the body was largely on automatic doing great work. All this do to the months of work on cycling up until now.

As mentioned in the last blog, James doesn't know s***. But has he been wasting all the time up until now? It's certain not. At the very least his old body is in quite very good shape and quite strong. But probably much much more than that. And possibly the degree of difficulty, the degree of unknown, the newness of the e-bike technology, all combined to make this a really really really really difficult complex task. What does a skier do? They stand on some boards and go down the mountain. How tough is that? And Golf, and Tennis, Etc. And yet it can take a lifetime to reach the top of ones Pursuit.

The primary occupation of the Mind today when it was turned to cycling and away from the listening, only briefly now and then, was, behave as tho this is a big heavy object that is moved mechanically. Do not allow your body to play games, and do not get sucked into games played by the electronics. Keep it real. Keep it very very simple.

Will this work tomorrow? The next day? It very well may. There is nothing in the past that seemed really helpful that is counter to this. This may be the simple fruition. To paraphrase the mass murderer Churchill, and to take liberties, the body can be counted upon to find the perfect solution, after it has exhausted all of the alternatives.

James, how about your euphoric discovery of the chainring at your knee, imaginary? Yes, it was nowhere directly in today's four hour voyage. But was it necessary to get us to this excellent Voyage today? It didn't hurt. It may have been instrumental.

Maybe not emphasized yet, several days ago in a good voyage the feet were really unhappy. It was extremely low Cadence which means each stroke has to do a lot of work. And the feet really really wanted to move forward in the shoes so that the arch of the foot was directly over the pedal. Although this is counter to most or all instruction by the experts, for the objective of this Mission which is excellent exercise moving this huge vehicle on automatic, it is not clearly a bad idea and might be a really good idea. In recent years there have been times when enormous energy was lost trying to keep the ankle feet and shins and calves limp. Having the arch directly over the pedal pretty well does this. And this was a friend many months ago. A very good friend. Having these shoes that clip into the pedal is very nice, and maybe a wonderful thing on level ground, something we have not been on in well over half of a year. But in the voyage 2 days ago and today those shoes were dispensed with and summer hiking boots lightweight, used instead so the arch could indeed be right over the pedal. Who knows what would be sacrificed in some sort of race? Who cares? There was tremendous exercise, at least 1,300 calories again today, and it was automatic! Fabulous.

$10 replacement pedals and $10 velcro straps should arrive as early as tomorrow to replace at least temporarily what is on there currently so that this new Arrangement is safer and maybe even a little bit more powerful.

In part so this can be automatic James nervous system needs a simple goal that it finds realistic and meaningful. So that it doesn't get lost in the infinite possibilities of this electrical system. And currently the form that takes is, James, keep it real and honest. Be certain that you are carrying your own weight, and at least the weight of a lightweight bicycle which James's guessing is about 20 lbs. And indeed on this 62 mile energy equivalent climb, only about 10 Mi, but the energy equivalence comes by counting a mile for each 100 feet climbed, on this long to day voyage, James indeed carried at least himself plus 20 lbs, at some times was carrying himself Plus 100 lb of Sol. Throughout this journey. And this is one of the 12 most difficult bicycle climbs in the country, some of it 12 + 13% grade.

And Sol is being pushed to extreme limits and Performing beautifully. The many many many days of fortifying the vehicle for this difficult summer of climbing, is all paying off. And because all that work is done the mind could be free for all of the productive studying that took place today.

May 2nd, ignite Soul log. Such a gratifying read today. If only we behaved like animals.

Several days ago was extremely disappointing, listening to the world leaders in the field of psychology, such a corrupt field, the only medically oriented profession to sanction torture under Bush II, the current leaders, as f****** blind as they possibly can be high Priests of the extermination of Soul, the limbic system. They don't know. They don't care. It serves their greedy cerebral cortex and hypothalamus. So who the f*** cares? It's a bloodbath.

They were not going to be the target for several days ago for reading, but what I was looking for to my surprise was not in my downloaded list. Last night or this morning that was rectified.

Primate studies. Today the book, our inner ape, Frans De Waal, was begun. And internationally recognized leader in primate studies, particularly chimpanzees and bonobos.

So helpful. Without it being his primary purpose he confirms the history of Western science that we have demonized all positive aspects of our animal nature for a variety of hideous reasons, but all toward the suicidal end of elevating the hypothalamus and cerebral cortex, Reptilian Brain and computer, to be in charge of the limbic system, the soul, the mammalian brain, to serve our deadly selfish interests.. But it has been all but complete. Vicious, Relentless, complete, to this day and Beyond.

But as a hard-bitten scientist and observer, he lays out the obvious facts to the contrary.

Why are you able to read this? Probably because your mother and or father cared more about you at times than anything else in their life. Maybe it was for reasons of selfish hypothalamus and cerebral cortex. Probably some of it, at heroic times, was their mammalian brain,  the limbic system, the soul, that for the joy of it led them in the opposite direction of pleasure, Joy, despite the material pain and sacrifice, and you are reading this now.

It does not seem that he is biased in his reporting of the research. Yes, among chimpanzees there is murder. Although I wonder why it took observers decades to see this? He raises that question. The answer is pretty obvious. Who could study the human species in today's culture for several hours and not see Murder?

Quite possibly tomorrow the graphics for the left hand side of Sol, the vehicle, will arrive and be applied. It is a very glad coincidence, some number of people, maybe a lot, will be in town for the 5 a.m. Saturday morning Marathon, super marathon, 10K, Through This Magnificent region. It is the largest or one of the largest Trail marathons in the country?

The schedule was not rearranged to be where Sol can be seen by people that are in town for this but the schedule does support that. It is very much a fishing Expedition where the waters are totally Uncharted and it is unknown if or where there are fish in the water.

A project was begun several days ago to analyze the view and understanding that James has as to who throughout history are the preeminent LSGIA Being. a spreadsheet has now been begun and completed with all of the names identified at the site of this name, LSGIABeing.com and roughly a quarter of the 70-plus names have been evaluated according to 5 Criterion, Joy driven, soul in charge, cerebral cortex and hypothalamus not in charge, not pleasure driven. Although the analysis is not as biased as the shorthand terms just provided indicate. There is nothing precise about this however it will certainly be useful to James and a responsibility of James to do the best he can do more specifically identify in some sort of ranked fashion Who are the exemplars of what his life is dedicated to ignite. He is finding that these five categories which have been a lifelong hunch of his do correlate highly with those individuals, in many cases, the James has considered the Pinnacle of fully actualized, not murdered, Child come to adulthood. And he is surprised at some of the names that he reveres that do not rate quite as highly, and upon reflection this make sense to him. The point is not, of this exercise, to determine who has been helpful to humanity, who has tried. But who most exemplifies, and therefore provides the example to others, of being a preeminent LSGIA Being.

Fact, the way, the only way, your head and flesh rules your life, is by destroying your soul, your limbic system. Can't happen any other way. And our culture is all about making that happen.

Fact, the way, the only way, your head and flesh rules your life, is by destroying your soul, your limbic system. Can't happen any other way. And our culture is all about making that happen.

"When a bonobo named Kuni saw a starling hit the glass of her enclosure at the Twycross Zoo in Great Britain, she went to comfort it. Picking up the stunned bird, Kuni gently set it on its feet. When.... *

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Truly remarkable is the bonobo, a little-known ape that is as close to us genetically as the chimpanzee. When a bonobo named Kuni saw a starling hit the glass of her enclosure at the Twycross Zoo in Great Britain, she went to comfort it. Picking up the stunned bird, Kuni gently set it on its feet. When it failed to move, she threw it a little, but the bird just fluttered. With the starling in hand, Kuni then climbed to the top of the tallest tree, wrapping her legs around the trunk so that she had both hands free to hold the bird. She carefully unfolded its wings and spread them wide, holding one wing between the fingers of each hand, before sending the bird like a little toy airplane out toward the barrier of her enclosure. But the bird fell short of freedom and landed on the bank of the moat. Kuni climbed down and stood watch over the starling for a long time, protecting it against a curious juvenile. By the end of the day, the recovered bird had flown off safely.The way Kuni handled this bird was unlike anything she would have done to aid another ape. Instead 

Civilization, its function is to separate us from our mother, nature. Do you see a problem? I'll wait.

Solar rv cycling log April 30th. Houston, James doesn't know s***.

Major message. James doesn't know s***! Is there anything to know about cycling? Does James know everything except what there is to know about cycling? He doesn't know. It's okay. He's having a nice evening. Getting lots of exercise. Lots of good study. But he doesn't know anything about f****** cycling. Is there anything to know? 1350 cal.

It's not so much thar everything extolled in blogs over recent weeks in months is worthless. But by this point that James has rather different things in mind than that in those logs is insane! Absurd! A fact!

Tonight there are some useful things in mind!

The most essential machine in the picture, the only one that James can control, is his own body. The man machine interface is important, but nothing is more important than the human part of it. The only part that he can control.

The most significant thought tonight is not unlike the last two logs, somehow staying in intimate contact every second with the mechanical heavy object vehicle. To avoid anything, possibly the electrical system wants to mask or interfere or allow cheating out of that  intimate relationship.

Moving the feet forward in the shoes so that the pedal is more under the arch of the foot seems to be really important to all this. And that was a really good old friend before but long forgotten.

Leg trust. Everything is leg trusts? Everything is leg trust. Thighs.

Maintaining Constant back pressure from the vehicle on the thighs seems very important. Either throttling back on the motor ratio or forward on the gear ratio or peeling faster is extremely helpful it seems to maintaining that constant real intimacy with the weight of the vehicle and the mechanics of moving it. This relationship is so in powering of the body and so freeing of the mind.

Warning! The gear at the knee is nowhere to be found. In James thinking on this or the last two voyage is. Is it something of great value that is lost? Was it in necessary stepping stone to arrive at tonight's insights? Stay tuned James.

Ignite soul log April 30. Psychology, the leaders, criminal Lee blind. Gardner, Seligman. Totally blind.

Ignite soul log April 30. Psychology, the leaders, criminal Lee blind. Gardner,  Seligman. Totally blind.

Began listening tonight with some anticipation to the books flourish, Martin Seligman, head of the American psychological Association recently, and Howard Gardner, long ago credited with naming the 8th intelligence is? Began listening to his book truth, goodness, and beauty.

What f****** Travis tease. All the flowery b******* from the academic happiness circles, the greatest book ever written, the most important book, and of course the authors of similar books similarly important. And the world burns.

Infuriated at them, I am NOT. Horrified at this toxic garbage that they spew.

Not Jesus, but some wise followers said, something about the blind leading the blind. Oh my god not two limbic neurons between them. Cerebral cortex preaching cerebral cortex. It is absolutely a Travis D.

So why does James mention this? Self agrandisement ? Belittling others? Trying to put a warning on the poison bottle. So it's not taken. They are poison.

Since it's inception psychology, has been the back up to the priests and preachers who emprison and slave and kill the soul so that docile head and flesh could be used by what now is in its pinnacle the corporate state.

There have been some Giants in psychology. Alfred Adler. Abraham Maslow. Victor Frankel. Are they mentioned? Probably not.

Great leap Forward in the mission. New graphics on the right side and rear tailgate of Sol . All this with a sense of great glad this. The horrible distraction of the technology graphics removed, the inviting or disuading graphics of the soul taking their place. Great step forward.

Considerably less expensive than anticipated. Left hand side graphics designed and ordered as soon as tomorrow.

The greatest mass murderer is the church, murdering the living soul in this life, for the lie of a living Soul after this life. Atrocity. Genocide.

The greatest mass murderer is the church, murdering the living soul in this life, for the lie of a living Soul after this life. Atrocity. Genocide.

Part 2. Solar RV cycling April 29th. Unbelievable breakthrough.

Tremendous amounts of time have been spent these recent weeks in anticipation of frequently in coming months climbing the terrible last for my up to the Mount Whitney portal multiple times per week. Ongoing improvements and preventive maintenance have gone into Sol, the vehicle, and particular attention and energies have been invested by James in his cycling abilities. There is little room for error on this dangerous climb.

It continues to seem that the Breakthrough reported in the last two logs is indeed extraordinary. Totally unanticipated and an extraordinary breakthrough.

Avoiding the teasing by the electronic system into being divorced from the actual mechanics physically of moving the vehicle is a stunningly important insight.

It appears that as much as 20% of both human and electrical energy has been wasted chasing these false signals. Every cycle, every mile, every hundred feet, every day, Every stroke. So frustrating. Congratulations body and soul for not giving up on the search for truth! Seriously.

So in addition to a much more  automatic achievable process that frees the mind for study and Frees the body of really agonizing frustration, dramatically improved efficiency appears to be another gigantic benefit!

Overheating! May no longer be a serious thing. We are currently pedaling at 1.2 miles an hour up one of the 12 most difficult cycling climbs in the United States! And on one motor for reasons that need not be discussed right now, on one motor we are able to do the climb at that speed with James carrying his own weight plus about 20 pounds to be fair. So is carrying the rest.

And because of this new realization, avoiding being played with by the Electric System, and therefore less power required, it seems that there is barely any heating of the motor going on! In the scheme of things this latter point is not a game changer. But it is a Holy Grail that experimentation including trying different controllers and motor combinations has been out of reach, up until now! And here it seems to be.

Should it have taken months or years to arrive at all this? I really don't know. Certainly not if James had been a full-time engineer and test pilot on these products. But he has not. He is a physician of the Soul paying as little attention to these other issues as he possibly can.

Pt. 1.Solar RV cycling log April 29th. F****** fascinating morning. Game-changing? Maybe.

The Revelation last night was that there is a layer between James and the physics of this machine, the electrical drive and its unique characteristics. This is not a slam on the electronics. But it is eye opening for James. Long ago he recalled this but it presents itself quite differently when all of his exertions are in severe climbing, a wonderful thing, but a different game itself.
As James should know by now and anyone following these logs, this is quite a rabbit hole trying to figure out how the body can achieve the clarity it wants in moving this vehicle. Maybe last night and this morning are not game-changing. But there is a substantial chance that they are a ganttic step forward.
This body and the soul of James, too, love truth and will pay almost any price to get close to it. It is a central yearning of the Soul.
There are capacities to tune the electronic system of this vehicle which James has thought little about and changed just a little about overtime. Overtime now he will probably try to learn more.
But even without doing so given the revelation of last night it seems that this morning James is dramatically more able to avoid being sucked in by the teasing that the electrical system does to cheat. This system is extremely responsive but not perfectly so. So on the most powerful part of the stroke it seems to have a orientation to take the Q and to sustain the power beyond what was actually delivered by the legs for a brief period in time. This disguises the reality of the physical movement of the vehicle. And in a way it entices the body to cheat, to find the way to trigger the motor to do that additional 'free' propulsion. Now, it does not cheat on the journey, but on the individual stroke which actually is tremendously frustrating and fatiguing to the body in hindsight, over the course of the journey. Profoundly inefficient.
If this all proves to be true this is a gigantic breakthrough. If this turns out to be correct it could be a gigantic  Monumental, simplification of the whole puzzle that James body is trying to solve. The primary importance is freeing James mind and soul to focus on study, listening to articles and books as he travels. It is desired that the whole process of moving the vehicle become automatic. This may be huge.
James has been struggling mightily in recent days to find an optimal seat positioning. Some or most of the urgency of this may well be a result of being fooled by the overly creative electronic system. This morning with relatively an acute awareness of this without optimizing the seating from last night, the body is much much much much much much more settled and less frustrated.
Other fun Revelations this morning.
James is remembering that he has a heater that is extremely versatile and responsive. The pictures indicate that the weather is not the typical sunny weather here. It's raining periodically. Not hard. And it is damp and chilly. All of a sudden James remembered, he has a heater. At this particular moment it was about 30 minutes of climbing which could have been continued but then the human motor would even overheat. Why do that? Stop, write, study, cool down, then repeat. Pretty fabulous.
Very regularly people ask, does it have doors? Understandable question but silly at a deeper level. This is a bicycle. It is not trying to be other than a bicycle. The cross ventilation is absolutely essential to the human motor not overheating. As to rain, if and when the vehicle can be pointed into the rain it is very Sheltering of the human motor.
Oh, and having the feet pushed way forward in the shoes so that the pedal is under the ball of the foot is a long long long long forgotten friend that helps avoid triggering the Shins and ankles and feet into frustrating energy-wasting gyrations.

Solar RV cycling April 28th. Oh, the electric power drive adds severe complexity.

Just last night James more clearly realized that the electronic drive substantially masks the biomechanics of the human machine interface. Not a complaint. It is a marvelous technology. Look at what it has made possible? But it provides a massive obstacle to the body to find out what's really happening with the vehicle, and thereby how to best move it. In part because it is so subtle.

This may be a key to why the final 20% of many Journeys is the best biomechanic performance. The body has had time to feel through the subtlety, and often the final part of the journey is the steepest and that tends to bring the body and the physical machine closer together and less separated by the behavior of the electronics.

Note to James, by the end of last night's Journey, Only 700 calories, James was working to get past this Electronics disguised barrier. That seems like a good thing.

James also struggled a lot with trying to remove the physical distance between the end of his knees and the mechanical end of the stroke. A physical limitation in the seat design was discovered that allows further adjustment slightly downward. That could be rectified. First an attempt will be made to slide the seat a bit more forward and see if that is sufficient.

Millions want to b****, moan, rant, rave against the symptoms. No one cares to develop, be, the Cure.

Hmmm. Soul. Someone should have thought of this, before now. "It's time for a change," he responded. "It's not......

Hmmm. Soul. Someone should have thought of this, before now.  "It's time for a change," he responded. "It's not just anti-Semitism. It's all type of bigotry. We have lost our soul." Maybe some people should start getting f****** serious about igniting Souls, beginning with their own. I mean, they could even pretend it's a matter of life and death. Just a thought.

The mission is now harvesting its own water!

Lone Pine Creek runs from Mount Whitney down to Lone Pine. Beautiful mountain creek. The creek has cut down quite deep in almost every accessible place. Last night James secured from a very nice local mountaineering shop, a filtration system, microorganisms, with a very suitable 6L bag Arrangement which he casts into the water making access possible even with the very steep steep embankments. James Soul values freedom from the corporate state. It's just one more step. Very gratifying. As he gains his stride it also might slightly reduce the amount of weight carried up these many thousand foot climbs.

Thoughtful input? Now would be a good time. Prospective graphic left hand side.

I took my own medicine, best there is. On the mend? Agony done?

Beyond belief how much better last night was and therefore this morning. Beyond belief.

James was a highly trained, extremely competent back care specialist in the 2002 and 2005 timeframe. Created and ran  the most successful new Back Store in the country. National franchise.

James had some back issues and neck issues at the time which he treated with the principles in this must-read, must read, must-read, must read, must read book.

Everything I sold, everything I advised, everyone I helped, was because of the simple counterintuitive proven principles in this book. If you have a back, and you do not read this and deeply work through and internalize the body mechanics issues, well, you totally deserve the pain that you will have. I hope that you read and internalize.

Up to $10,000 beds, up to $6,000 recliners, up to $10,000 massage chairs, and other very expensive products were sold by James, along with this several dollar book, and products in between, and people were dramatically dramatically dramatically dramatically helped, and much much much much pain prevented.

I'm tired of trying to do people's work for them, and then they never do take advantage. It is a disservice to the clients I'm trying to help, and the people that ignore. Enabling. Point being, there are three or four principles that I could summarize for you, but I will not do so unless you do your homework with this book. If you do so and then contact me I will be delighted to help provide the summary.

Anyway, last night was almost back to normal which is unbelievable after the nights before. This due to the awkward vertical lift on the vehicle that James had to execute to right the overturned vehicle. It has been agony at night and in the morning until the back settled.

Last night at zero cost James fabricated one of the products that he used to sell, well, really multiple products, multi thousand-dollar beds might do the same thing. James did the same at no cost. Took less than 90 seconds. And it transformed to the situation. The back is still tender, and maybe that's a good thing, James is learning some lessons, further lessons, about posture.

Solar RV cycling log April 27th. Millimeters of body adjustment maybe crucial.

Several weeks ago major change was made to the physical seat orientation. New holes drilled, the seat made more recumbent. This seems not only to have been a necessary adjustment but there is a vague recollection that before James replaced broken seat brackets more than a year ago he may have done this and forgotten. That would explain a lot why things have felt so foreign so often these last 18 months or so. Fighting to reclaim  lost performance.

No, no, no, no, James does not understand why day after day, journey after journey, his body is still demanding to optimize. Shaking his head.

And it is. Constantly it is trying to improve things and so far James basically trusts it's wisdom.

Tonight has been a good ride, the objective being staying with in the comfort level of the body so it is not  a verse to these long voyages, getting an excellent work out and this will be well over a thousand calories, probably 1,300 more, and leaving the mind largely free for study. James has allowed a slight lapse on the latter tonight to make room for some things the body was trying to explore.

Who knows why, but the body wanted to explore tonight finding the mechanical relationship to the fictitious gear at the knee. Gear at the knee is fictitious, but the absolute mechanical linkage to the real chain ring is not fictitious.

So it is as if the body was saying, okay, this imaginary chain ring at the knee is a good idea, but I want to feel the mechanics of it up close and personal every stroke.

And there has been some of this for weeks. The whole notion of digging, feeling the end of each stroke as one would in an upright cycle has been a very helpful factor.

That emboldens and informs the body maybe. I think so. So tonight the body said, okay, I have a feel for this, it's helpful, but you're actually not putting me in contact with a real thing and I want that.

Side note. Why has James driven off the road, off the edge on to the gravel, right wheel, at one point four mi an hour, for about the sixth time tonight?

So tonight has been, James, dial way back on the motor ratio, you do one part the motor only does 3, that means a very slow cadence, and James, go as slow as you want in the cadence and therefore the velocity as a vehicle. Where is the mechanical end of your fictitious knee gear? Well, I said, we are in the vicinity of it and we have been for weeks. The body said, no James, that's not good enough, I want to feel the actual thing.

And in this third hour of trying to satisfy, it is being approximated. What seems to have achieved that was Scooting the butt forward a good inch or so so that a full full full rotation down to about 45 degrees which is the physical full leg extension on the pedal, fully could feel that sort of hard point. And it was not up until now. And it is liking this. The body is saying, okay, you're getting me something to work with in tactile. We don't have to rely on imagination quite so much. Well, we have banged knees once. On the two inch aluminum cross bar. Ouch. We had to move towo thin towels back about 3 inches so they are less under the butt and more under the initial lumbar of the spine. And the thick wonderful seat cushion back another 2 in as well so it was not interfering with the thighs.

Totally no fabulous numbers here. But the body is right Lee happy that it's doesn't have to do so much guessing. It can feel the reality of the machine. It is substantially emlowered  automatically it seems and that makes James glad. More automatic.

Yes, who knows what can of worms this will open. LOL.

Ignite Soul log April 27th. The forest for the trees James has been missing. Meditating this morning on LSGIA being helped.

Frustrated is James that his metrics LSGIA being are stag not at about 7.5. Horribly frustrated? No. But frustrated? Yes. And glad of it. No frustration, no potential for growth.

So on the regenerative downhill Glide this morning which takes a little over an hour, speed limited so this the batteries are not overcharged by charging too quickly, James took to meditating on LSGIA being, his first part of his  prayer, not our Father, LSGIA being. Which as he has written and said is a better descriptive of what the great soul throughout history have meant by God, Or father. LSGIA Being.

Well, this brief meditation not unlike one that I have done in the past regularly, very predictable Lee brought to mind iconic LSGIA beings. Not that there have been a whole lot of them, there have been at most one in a million, and maybe one in a billion.

Not a long meditation nor an attempt to be exhaustive.

Three came to mind. The man Jesus. Sophie Scholl of the white rose Nazi resistance, and Franz Jegerstatter, a ref user of the Nazi war machine, he in Austrian, knowing that it meant rapid execution which indeed it did.

and a important insight came this morning. How James, and we more Broadway, miss the forest for the trees. The most important point, the most important character of these individuals and those like them, is not what they did, but what they were. They were ls beings. They were bits of creator. They were children of creator. And they were joy, the joy of creator and creation. Every breath. Certain of that I am. They could not anymore, would not anymore, throw off this nature to save their lives and avoid torture, then they would commit suicide. Because that would be for them what they would experience a suicide. Death of their very nature which they cherished. In themselves and others.

Does this matter? Who knows? Who knows they are LSGIA being? Not two in a billion. Who cares? Not 3 in a billion.

But those three in a billion do. James does. Jesus did. The gate is narrow few will enter in he said. And he loved, he lived for, giving a chance to those one in a billion. And had he not, had not, those two or three and a billion would have been lost. But they were saved by the likes of these. What a wonderful thing.

Yes, near all ignore the truth. The followers almost without exception use them as props.

Life without severe back pain no longer of thing. Interesting challenge.

This terribly self-absorbed lady had James in a fury.....

About a mile and a half up from Lone Pine is the first really really nasty climb. Probably 13% grade. That is really really steep. Climbing it yesterday, about two-thirds of the way up the worst part, James saw a four-wheel drive Range Rover type of vehicle pull past and stop about two tenths of a mile right on the crest of the hill on the shoulder. James was Furious. My God, I'm trudging up this hill and this clueless lady, I could tell it was a lady, is fussing in the back of her car, standing in back of the vehicle with the big gate open over her head. Lady, go change your child's diaper someplace else. Go arrange your suitcases somewhere else! It's necessary for me to stop when you could do this another 10th or two tenths of a mile ahead?
Traveling at a mile an hour, which happens on really steep grades, the lady was seen walking down the hill, and it soon became apparent she was walking toward the vehicle. She had a bag in her hands. She came alongside the vehicle. Don't stop! Apples and oranges. I stopped. Really there was no way to accept the bag without stopping and it was no longer the worst part of the climb. Bless your heart I said. She began walking quickly back towards her vehicle careful not to obstruct my path of travel. And then she turned on her heel and came back, you stopped, I'll give you a push. I laughed. Not necessary ma'am. Thank you so much.

The Kingdom of God (Joy) is within you. Do unto others all things whatsoever you would have them do unto you, and you enter in. Did I f****** stutter?

Solar RV cycling log April 25. Energy into the feet is energy away from the drive cog at the knees?

Sure, the feet ankles and shins want to get involved. But why? Some of the answer is that it promises relaxation to the thighs. A promise that either it cannot keep or he keeps at the expense of energy being delivered into the vehicle. It is a siren song which sings very sweet Lee but maybe just tonight is being unmasked? For what it is?

Tonight is a good voyage. The priority is on study and that is going very well. The second priority is not to discourage the body through over exhaustion some of that may have happened in the last week and there's an attempt to restore the lack of fearfulness in the body. LOL. An additional factor is that unlike the winter time that exacts a terrible price on a sweating body, not so much in this milder weather. Point being we are beginning to realize that rather than a gigantic output every other day that big voyages every couple of days in a row are an option. Travel to the town has been in every other day event. When Whitney portal is open that may be more like once every 3 days. With some travel everyday. Again, that means that the voyages don't have to be 1500 calorie voyage is. They could be thousand calorie  but two or three back-to-back is pretty good exercise.

Tonight will be a thousand calorie plus voyage creator willing. 1350. Possibly another 500 calories tomorrow.

The organizing principle, the great friend tonight is the notion that the knees are powering a chain ring at the knees. Coupled with the idea that there is a chain on that ring and some level of constant pressure over the front all the time is a good idea.

About 60% into the voyage a new idea appeared that maybe has been seen a long time ago. Momentum in the ring participated with by the knees. And that has caused an experience of the knees almost resting against the forward half, especially the forward 20 %, of that chain ring. Not sure where this will be in the long-term scheme of things but it seems worth indulging for tonight at least. It may will be a good evolution.

With that notion of momentum with the chain ring and the knees sometimes manifest as being at equilibrium with the chain ring pushing back, and sometimes slightly overcoming constantly that momentum. In situations requiring a little bit more power or when the legs feel up to it.

Ignite soul log April 25th. Beloved Freddy Perlman, against Leviathan falling into the ultimate trap?

Tremendous respect from James to Freddy. Tremendous courageous brilliant relentless truth seeker he seems to be. A giant. Tremendously stimulating book in an important way.

But the trap of almost all of the greats seems to have been fallen into by Freddy.

What trap? That paradise is external. Such a shame, for James. If he fell into that trap. That he fell into that trap. Such a great intellect. James needed him to go beyond so James could learn more.

Freedom is not freedom from just Leviathan, but freedom from that illusion that the ultimate experience is any sort of external environment. It is not. It cannot be. We are creatures trapped within our nervous system. That is not necessarily a bad thing. Point being when we decide that external circumstances are necessary to optimeyes  our internal experience, we have to that degree sacrificed our freedom and our joy.

My point is not to find fault with Freddy. My point is to reflect on and learn from  what I'm finding there.

Although it is too late for the mastery of cultural abomination drenched history to make the future different, to some degree it can inform my work as a physician of the soul. An igniter of soul. And probably Freddy's work will be sucked dry by James further for this potential advantage.

Although somewhat crippled in use from this by the absence of notes at the end of the book, citing his sources in detail, James continues to find that the courageous truth seeking speaks loudly from the pages and therefore James will go deeper regardless. Grateful. Much appreciation. And even despite this tremendous deficiency mentioned at the top of this post. Still much of tremendous educational useful value in this book. What a wonderful contribution.

However, neither, this is critically important, neither can the optimal internal state of the nervous system be divorced from what it perceives in the external reality! This is the most important point in the world. To paraphrase, live as tho the entire world depends upon what you do, that your entire joy depends upon what you accomplish, and realize that you will probably make no difference at all, except in the attempt you will be infinitely joyful!

Ignite Souls log April 24. Back and vehicle big distractions but moving forward. Initial Graphics completed.

Peddling and sitting in the ergonomic recumbent seat are very therapeutic for the back it seems, but not sleeping, not lying down, not being on the ground, very destructive it seems.

Unlike this morning in Future Days the attempt will be made to get cycling first thing in the morning.

not recognizing the pattern, and of necessity, this morning was spent in some pain  replacing a left front wheel brake cable, one of two breaks, that has been failing in an odd way as it turns out and badly compromising the breaking. That seems to be rectified.

The catastrophic motor failure of 2 days ago may have taught an enduring lesson, James, make maintenance and upgrades a daily part of the routine. A check list has been established and Light maintenance and preventive maintenance May well be attempted daily now. And some was conducted today. And more plannwd for tomorrow.

The order was begun with FedEx for the  side panel of Sol, and the rear gate. Their process online is a bit cumbersome but I expect that by tomorrow the order will be finalized and by month's end the new graphics should arrive and be installed. That's quite important.