Some beauty remains. Photographs

Please, who is this guy? Vid

No particular rush but this is the plan for today, or maybe today and tomorrow. Probably too ambitious for just today and there are places to stop about halfway.

A note of goodbye to my dearest friends, today, for now.>>>

I would far rather be paranoid than to Place those I especially love in jeopardy. I seek the truth, not whatever luxury paranoia might provide. I don't know the truth but I spend more time than most trying to understand it on the essentials. The khashoggi affair has been particularly alarming to me. There are not multiple different human rights for different populations. It only seems that way. There is only one human species and therefore only one set of Human Rights. Saudi Arabia because of their money will be allowed by the elites of the world to get away with the dismemberment of a living human soul. Scanning this article it captures things fairly well.

https://amp.cnn.com/cnn/2018/10/22/middleeast/jamal-khashoggi-murder-cynics-analysis-intl/index.html

And then this headline this morning from the individual I have for many years now described as the most important intellectual writing today, Chris hedges. Perfect is he? No. Sadly he has a strong tendency to wallow in depression. However, as the clearest most informed Visionary of our age maybe he is to be forgiven for that because he has seen more clearly and sooner than anyone and more deeply the unfolding cataclysm.

The Rule of the Uber-Rich Means Either Tyranny or Revolution

Dearest friends, the close communication and contact we have been in recently has been an inexpressible Joy To Me. You know that. The way things are headed in the world and this country it is not at all inconceivable that I will become a Target and those associated with me a Target. When I open my email I yearn to see one from either of you. But no longer. I will continue to write and publish at my blog. My direction will go on as I articulated in the rather long document I shared with you both yesterday. Attempting to breathe life into soul. https://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2018/10/to-be-completed-to-gooden-human-soul.html But I will cease participating in leaving a trail between us that could be used to put you in danger.

Do you take even a 1% or a 5% chance of bringing those you hold most dear into Danger? I do not.

I am open to changing my view of things. I study such things continually. And if my understanding of things changes I will let you know.

Hugs. James

AIDS, auto immune deficiency syndrome, is deadly because the infection can't be fought. The tidal wave of evil ascendant in the world is demonstrating that the human species of 2018 does not have the ability to fight it. The outcome is virtually certain. The speed and exact form and course is not as certain. For pity's sake, stop having children

AIDS, auto immune deficiency syndrome, is deadly because the infection can't be fought. The tidal wave of evil ascendant in the world is demonstrating that the human species of 2018 does not have the ability to fight it. The outcome is virtually certain. The speed and exact form and course is not as certain. For pity's sake, stop having children.

James, I hope your mood Has Lifted, you spoke of depression yesterday. My reply

Yes, my mood has lifted. The world to my eyes is an ocean of festering increasing evil but if I hold fast to the (water skiing) tow rope of trying to make things better I stay slightly above it, with some Joy, much peace, and am able to travel on. Rarely do I get distracted and lose my grip on the tow rope but sometimes it happens. Yesterday and the day before it happened, because of a severe distraction to do with potential safety of the vehicle and that it might actually be marooned where I was parked or substantially damaged if extracted. Pictures were posted of This Magnificent site along the river, far enough from the high-speed road that road noise was at a minimum and visibility of the cars was at a minimum. Right along this River it is very Rocky and some sand because of the spring flooding that obviously occurs. To get from the highway over to the river, only about a hundred yards, a third of the way there there is a Gully and it caught me by surprise tired in the evening as I traveled in and my mind's eye saw it as quite severe. In a split-second I decided to increase the speed of the vehicle down one side of the Gully and up the other on the basis that too little speed and it would get stuck and unable to climb the other side. It worked and shortly Camp was being set up over by the river. Wide awake I found myself in the middle of the night all of a sudden, and in my mind's eye the Gully was very deep, and I realized all of a sudden that 0 thought had been given to whether the vehicle could make it back out to the highway. And in my mind's eye the answer was very very possibly no. This raised serious issues about what to do, a tow truck could be called after walking several miles down into town. But that would be a significant expense and could the vehicle survive the strain of being towed? There is no place on the vehicle where a strap or rope can be attached without damaging the vehicle. Laying there among the tasks in my mind was how to rig such a thing temporarily and how to do such a thing more permanently in the future. And much thought was given to the fact that I just didn't think ahead. Very inflexible. I knew I wanted to get to that spot. I knew of no good options. But never would I have done so if I had taken just a moment more to realize that maybe the entire vehicle was being put at risk. It has been a long time since I've faced such a situation and my skills have gotten Rusty. I didn't stop to think of the consequences. I'm very grateful for that lesson. A little bit more sleep was gotten in spurts by me and then there was enough light many hours later to go out and inspect the Gully. It was not nearly as severe as my mind's eye had captured. Some risk but with a little care it was likely we could get out, and we did, without any apparent damage. Anyway, all of that distracted me from the tow rope and it need not have to the degree that it did. But it did. And hence the depression. Another lesson. In what seems like my more sane moments where it even occurs to me that sometime this fascist government May first torture and then kill me. Probably not but it's not out of the question. So far that doesn't distract me. It helps me remember I am a soul, I care about the soul, mine and that of others, and they can't damage that unless I let them. And that puts my body at peace and keeps me from depression.

All confidence in the church has been lost by me, I said. You'll be standing right along Jesus in the end, he said. Details

The nice looking couple a little older than me were parked by the side of the highway obviously hoping that I would stop and speak. That's quite a rig, how are you today? Not well, I replied honestly, I'm watching everything decent on Earth be destroyed. They nodded, surprised, but in some sympathy with what I said I think. I went on, what keeps me going is trying to breathe life into a soul here or there. It kills me that I can't do more but I can try to do that so I do. She said, do you speak at churches? All hope and confidence in churches has been lost by me, I said. As a matter of fact, I believe that the same was with Jesus. My understanding is that he refused the church group of his day, the synagogue, and he refused the entreaty of his biological family and apostles to form a new one. This is why he never stayed in one place more than a day. He refused to join or form a group, a clan, a club, because that would mean leaving his real family, all of creation, all human beings. While relating this I watched their faces and would gladly have stopped short if I saw distress. I saw surprise but not distress. But do you feel peace, the man asked me? Yes I said, and all the pain of the world right in my chest. You will be standing alongside Jesus in the end he said. Neither of them seemed at all like religious zealots in any way.

Plan and progress today.

Our place this morning, and last night. Pictures.

Monumental importance. Quote from Spirit, George vaillant, recent book.>>>

Only recently have scientists rediscovered that the compassion, joy, and unselfish love so important to religion and to the Neolithic mind are not irrelevant to science. You see, the Neolithic (hunter-gatherer) mind that “natural selection built” was more like that of a four-year-old—all images, animism, magic, and emotion—than like that of a modern, highly educated adult. Dependence on the written word and the use of the scientific experiment to verify imagined cause and effect were still far in the future by the time that natural selection had completed the “hardware” of the Homo sapiens brain. Moreover, ever since our invention of new “software” like the printing press and the scientific method, we have had less and less respect for the superstitious, mystical brain that natural selection built. The task of a thoughtful future humanity m...

Updated. To Gooden the human soul, life's joyful work.

The following has been written to capture and process the current thoughts working within me. And they are shared with you here.

Regenerating soul seems to be the work required of me. This seems right, and I see nothing else. No other work on sinking Titanic do I see as important for any of us. Troubling thought this is for me. It will require and receive ongoing consideration by me. But life whittles and hacks and whittles and hacks everything remaining away and leaves only this. Needle in the haystak. The pearl worth selling everything for. Is it sad to see the hay, the dirt, of no value and leaving just the pearl?

What is soul? Essentially it is that which I feel in me that I suspect maybe in others. I suspect it is an inherent feature in every newborn child destroyed by our sick culture within months or years. The reactor of goodness, the engine of goodness, the source of goodness, that I cannot control but I can allow to control me. The place of wisdom. The place of unity with all creation and all creatures. The place of Universal Brotherhood. The place of loving. The place of lsgiabeing.com.

Nothing more than a feature of my nervous system, alongside sense of smell, eyesight, temperature sensation, rage, hatred, love….

Can current techniques in neuro biology and related fields verify that at least in some people, even if just in me, that it exists? Or that definitely it does not? Has substantial work been done to explore this? Is there anyone else on earth that sees this important too, even of ultimate importance?

All of this is profoundly sobering for me, depressing in a way. If it is inherently depressing that is a vote against it being a worthwhile idea. A worthwhile truth. What is depressing I think, and truth, is that what our culture has directed my attention to throughout my life is mistaken. This is quite a shock and it makes sense that one would be depressed while adjusting to this.

If there was goodness in the man Jesus was it not his soul, that he made himself a vessel for his soul, which he understood as the divine goodness within him? I think so. And I think if I were to aspire to anything less I would aspire to mental dysfunction, mental ill health, spiritual ill health, meaninglessness, joylessness. I suspect this is true of all of us.

There's reason to observe that the human species is the most powerful known force in the universe. And that species is destroying everything and objectively quite miserable in the process. Somehow I believe that soul is the essence, the entirety, of health, and that only restoring that in the individual gives peace and joy to the individual, and only in restoring that in others is there joy for the intended healer, the subject client, and the larger environment.

I'm willing to conclude that all of this is incorrect. I do not expect that to happen but I am entirely open to it. But for now and as far as I can see the best way for me to test the truth or error of this is too pursue it as totally and rapidly as I can.

James, it's a little hard to keep up with you. I agree. I mentioned sobering, I mentioned depressing.

What about loving? I mean, you have it tattooed on your forehead for goodness sake. Yes, loving is an attribute of soul, they are inseparable, but loving is an attribute, it is not the source. To me it seems that the way to increase loving is to increase the prevalence of the source. The same for goodness. The same for LSGIABeing.com Similarly.

My sense is the soul is the essence of me, is me most importantly. What profititeth a person if they inherit the whole world but lose their soul? And are we not seeing the conclusive proof that if en masse we lose our soul we also lose our inheritance, the world?

If tomorrow I win the 1.6 billion dollar lottery will I abandon all this? I will devote every penny to it. Why? Because I experienced it as life and nothing else as life. Indeed the pearl worth the ultimate price. That which has been called the divine, God, the ultimate. Everything else seems so inferior to me.

If everyone I care about is freezing to death and I seemingly ignore them devoting all of my attention to gathering wood and starting a fire, have I really abandon them or have I devoted my life to the one thing that can give them life? That which I understand as soul does not exist for itself but for the health of creation. Nothing more, nothing less, nothing else.

What for now? Some and maybe quite a bit of relevant scholaely work has been done. The scholarship in many relevant domains, neuroscience, primatology, evolutionary biology, sociology, and related fields. Renewed study of all this began for me 3 or 4 months ago, and is thankfully taking front and center in my life now it seems.

Behave by Robert Sapolsky may well be finished the first reading today. The book on Spirit by George Vaillant will likely be finished by me this week, and it was started months ago. Another 5 or 10 such books are on my list. None on my list are at all directly on target and it might be that all of the authors would scream in horror at the views Expressed here. But I think it is true that they in fact are pointing in the direction of what I am outlining. And I will be acting on that theory until the evidence shows me that it is incorrect, and accelerating if it continues to show that it is a correct idea.

And in my rare but occasional interractions with other two legged creatures I am already finding my relationship to those shaped centrally with a concern for soul, growing it wherever I might have a chance to encourage that, and being less likely to enable distractions. Sadly but necessarily that is creating a new sort of harshness from me, not aggressive but passive, as I remain unwilling to devote energy to entertaining, to enabling our mutual distraction from all that matters, soul, fostering it, nurturing it, growing it. But not only harshness, also a constructive passion when the interchange allows to explore these thoughts more clearly, directly, relevantly, and constructively than I have been able to so far.

I didn't go looking for this quest. Not at all. It is as though life is sort of smacking me in the face in the form of the near infinite festering evil around us, shaking my shoulders and saying, James, James, James! Soul was provided to you as a central concept even 10 years ago as you were exploring and expanding dr. Kings 3 dimensions of life, of spirit. And briefly you seemed to grasp the centrality and then it goes off to the peripheral with you. It is the centrality, it is all there is that matters. It is the source of everything else you would want and nothing else you would want and happen until and unless soul proliferates within one individual at a time.

Get on with it. Yes, James, you feel clueless. But get on with it. Maybe you will begin to understand and gain some capability. Maybe not. But it is the work that needs to be done. Get on with it.

But not totally clueless do I feel. There is a vague but strong sense of direction, since of truth, to all this. I don't know how it will turn out. I'm sure I will be speaking of it as it unfolds.

Esoteric masturbation? Is sustainability esoteric? Is World Peace? Is optimal personal joy and personal peace? Not to me. Even if only these last two are possible, which is the case. But I suppose 300 years from now after the wars and massive attrition, Mass starvation, massive plagues, there will be survivors and therefore a surviving world emerging from the dark ages, the dystopia unfolding now. And for them world peace is not totally impossible. Not if the seeds of an emerging soul are adequately sewn today.

How pie in the sky is this? Nothing could be less so, or more important. This has always been true as long as there have been human beings though only recently, recent years, is there the neuroscience to prove it. Physical evolution takes thousands, hundreds of thousands, millions of years. But not so neural evolution as influenced by culture. The frontal cortex, and pre frontal cortex, are designed in truth and fact to be developed by the external forces, the external culture. They are the last to develop, to be sculpted, not completed substantially until the mid twenties of the individual. And herein exists, and has always existed, the true potential for human beings creating a better world. And the likes of the person Jesus, Buddha, and others, this is the creative ground on which they have worked. Almost never have their followers understood anything but the opposite perversion of what these great creators saw so the initial work was killed and replaced with its opposite, all Energies coopted and directed to the external world and the Profit of a few.

This is the only real, the only important, creative work for us and it has never seriously been undertaken.

And this, the soul, is the only true infinite eternal creative field. Soul is the essential energy of the individual, the essential energy of the individual is the soul. Energy is eternal. This matters because of the multiplier. Evil energy, ineffective wasted energy, is a destructive force eternally. The good soul, the greatly good soul, is a force for good and constructive creation eternally.

What besides this matters?

Yes, but who is up for this sacrifice? Sacrifice? Sacrifice?? The most joyful breath that any individual is capable of is each breath invested in the project to Gooden the human soul.

Notice.  the following slides were mentioned at the beginning of this post. They are approximately 10 years old. Time at the moment does not permit searching back for the explanatory posts on this blog associated with these slides. And they are posted here quickly by way of reference, they are not in proper order. And I'm sure I would update them a bit and probably will do so. So tread lightly here but they are worth some consideration never the less. Found it, the original post, with some explanatory text.

Tomorrow's plan looks something like this, a 1500 calorie day, 40 miles equivalent, and the plan today is to stay by a beautiful>>>

Tomorrow's plan looks something like this, a 1500 calorie day, 40 miles equivalent, and the plan today is to stay by a beautiful Riverside and let the body recover from the first 3 days of serious use. The last little bit of the plan for tomorrow might not be possible, a dirt road and probably a seven or eight percent grade. If that proves and possible then there is a state park by the lake just north of Bridgeport that would probably be where we would stay for the night.

Deeply depressed today. Not quite sure why. Not sure why I am not deeply depressed every breath except I seem to be saved from that by the impossible task of trying to focus on breathing life into the occasional soul.

Deeply depressed today. Not quite sure why. Not sure why I am not deeply depressed every breath except I seem to be saved from that by the impossible task of trying to focus on breathing life into the occasional soul.

Likely to be offline until tomorrow sometime. Likely to remain>>>

Likely to be offline until tomorrow sometime. Likely to remain in this area of Walker tomorrow to do some vehicle work and to finalize some reading and work on the website, and then to resume the journey South. Quite remarkably the body has returned to being quite powerful was strong endurance already. Much was indeed learned about how to move this thing with this tired old body. Keeping front-and-center that 100% of the available power is from the thighs through the knees. Everything else is distraction and wasted energy and frustration. The notion of smoothly pumping energy out of the ground every inch, and periodically tremendously easing off to find where the comfortable range of travel is, and going for appropriate full extension. Even after a month distance from this solar vehicle average output today is 138 watts per hour. Remarkable.

More of our place today

Our place today.

Sheriff stop. Small-minded Town America. United States afraid. Detail

Quite an upscale new development town on the nevada-california border. I stopped by a young Sheriff's Department individual. Fairly uncomfortable he was at the beginning. They have almost no shoulder on a fairly high traffic four-lane Road. 395. About six times during the 10-minute interchange he said that it is a small town. Several people he said called in the vehicle, I suspect that is correct. America is embracing hatred. Hatred legitimizes selfishness, sanctify his selfishness. All of this in the name of Jesus and the Christian God.

Material privilege is a pathology, an illness.

Material privilege is a pathology, an illness.

Humankind is my business. The poorest among them my business. Serving them I can joyfully live or die.

Humankind is my business. The poorest among them my business. Serving them I can joyfully live or die.

Do you go around feeding people she asked? Yes, I thought to myself. She said, I ain't never seen nothing like that. I tried to feed Souls. Indeed>>>

Do you go around feeding people she asked? Yes, I thought to myself. She said, I ain't never seen nothing like that. I tried to feed Souls. Indeed.... that's what I'm called to do. That is where the hope is, the only place. Glimpsing for the first time I am that that is why I'm here. Can I do it? Can I do it well? Will I be able to help anyone? Time will tell.

The human species is profoundly, essentially, immoral, destructive, self-destructive except in the most primitive hunter gatherer situations for....

The human species is profoundly, essentially, immoral, destructive, self-destructive except in the most primitive hunter gatherer situations for.... which we evolved. No more moral has become the human species in the 7000 years that we have existed in an environment we were not designed for, agricultural, Industrial, population dense. If I try and live with that perspective the world makes much more sense to me than the illusion I was brought up with that we have become more moral. The Dark Ages followed a substantial Enlightenment, as I understand it. Esoterically, maybe there are slight improvements every Thousand Years. But what does not change is the human propensity among large groups of the population for Extraordinary tribal evil, and for the the silent majority to go along. As then there continue to be extremely moral, profoundly Morrill, outliers, Outsiders. They are my tribe. They are my prospective clients.

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Donnie Dump, a just and necessary consequence for the globally destructive and cruel lives of we Americans, and the human species generally.

Donnie Dump, a just and necessary consequence for the globally destructive and cruel lives of we Americans, and the human species generally.