This is a really really hard couple of days. And two more solar panels are failing. This is financially crushing. If it doesn't kill you you grow. And if it kills me that's totally fine.

This is a really really hard couple of days. And two more solar panels are failing. This is financially crushing. If it doesn't kill you you grow. And if it kills me that's totally fine.

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Imagine the person that avoids every bit of cancer prevention and treatment as they think they can get away with. This is humans with respect to large heartedness.

Imagine the person that avoids every bit of cancer prevention and treatment as they think they can get away with. This is humans with respect to large heartedness.

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Important Update. Several things. The level of relative peace that I'm feeling.....

Update. Several things. The level of relative peace that I'm feeling..... continues from the other day when I saw that the Arc of the moral Universe does Bend toward Justice and Justice is that we tiny tiny tiny hearted American citizens and World citizens really are finally coming to justice for our small heartedness with our Collective torture and suicide as a consequence. But my instincts to try and save everything are still there so it's very hard for me not to spend too much time watching world events and looking for some way to stop it all. But I must to large degree because what's needed from me as best I can articulated right now is to do the work that I wish had been done for young James, me, 60 years ago, 50 years ago, 40 years ago, that might have saved me from wasting so many decades on Pleasure instead of joy. On a more pragmatic note, as mentioned yesterday the journey is lengthened by several weeks due to passport creation delay the so one or two or three significant vehicle issues may be addressed in that time. This fabulous RV trailer, experimental, could use an improvement in the hitch arrangement to make it more solid and with the advice of a fellow that I encountered by chance yesterday I have found a metal fabricator than on Monday May do so about 50 miles from here. Horribly, another solar panel has failed. The two lead theories are Road vibration but there's also a possibility that an electrical problem is causing high voltage to go back through the panel. A warranty was purchased on some of these panels and for the first time I am exploring to see whether those will be honored. If not it might be in Oregon or Washington which are fairly Progressive from an energy standpoint that a solar supplier might be willing to help me diagnose what's going on. The ongoing expense of replacing these is crippling. Major work was done to increase the support under the solar panels, about a month ago, and it is hoped the that will protect the panels and keep most of them from failing. Or at least your medically slow the failure rate down. Probably in the next few days additional work will be done along those lines.

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Update. In a bit of a holding pattern, probably a 2-week delay on the passport, which means mid-august. They wanted additional documentation (more)

Update. In a bit of a holding pattern, probably a 2-week delay on the passport, which means mid-august. They wanted additional documentation







to prove who I am. This is some of what I have submitted.

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When there are many more offering a hand up there will be few if any asking for a handout.

When there are many more offering a hand up there will be few if any asking for a handout.

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I wonder if the local rural folks wonder why this visual blight is not in Suburban Portland nearby? Asking for a friend.

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World citizens, if I could stop your mass suicide I would not. not unless or until goodness becomes your primary value in fact. Otherwise you are a plague, unsustainable.

World citizens, if I could stop your mass suicide I would not. not unless or until goodness becomes your primary value in fact. Otherwise you are a plague, unsustainable.

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American citizens, your sanctimonious pious rape and plunder days have a price. Time to pay up. Have a nice day.

American citizens, your sanctimonious pious rape and plunder days have a price. Time to pay up. Have a nice day.

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Well, at least we Americans are receiving some justice for the terror we've allowed our tax dollars and small heartedness to rain down on the rest of the world.

Well, at least we Americans are receiving some justice for the terror we've allowed our tax dollars and small heartedness to rain down on the rest of the world.

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Humans do as much selfishness, as little good, as they can get away with, declaring that human nature. Now the chickens come home to roost.

Humans do as much selfishness, as little good, as they can get away with, declaring that human nature. Now the chickens come home to roost.

Article. Where Is the Spirit of Rebellion

Where Is the Spirit of Rebellion
( https://www.truthdig.com/articles/where-is-the-spirit-of-rebellion/ )

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Very important update. I can no longer stand up as I used to. I must no longer stand up as I used to. Why not? Even.....

Very important update. I can no longer stand up as I used to. I must no longer stand up as I used to. Why not? Even in the most pitiful insignificant ways I must not Perpetuate the deadly delusion in others that I can do their job for them. Sure, dismiss this as self-serving whining if you will. I'm comfortable that my 17 years of radically sacrificial joyful activism speaks for itself. I will continue to live the only joyful life there is for anyone at any time in any circumstance, serving the neediest from the soul in solidarity. But as I have written often recently my heart has gone out of saving Humanity because I see virtually no Humanity to save. The one in a million exception today or in the next eon is my personal responsibility now. Trying to give guidance and Sparks of Hope to them. But I have no perfect wisdom and from the sidelines now I will share what truth and wisdom I see that if I am wrong and there is a latent Humanity that could rise up in these final seconds where it could make a difference, I will provide what coaching and help from the sidelines that I can.

The final hope, not that it should be. The military is sworn to uphold the Constitution.

The final hope, not that it should be. The military is sworn to uphold the Constitution.

There will be no Civil War this time. Just the slaughter and enslavement of civilians.

There will be no Civil War this time. Just the slaughter and enslavement of civilians.

Fascists wager that the left will stand for nothing. Fascists win the bet. All the children lose.

Fascists wager that the left will stand for nothing.

Fascists win the bet.

All the children lose.

Status report. This is my $20,000, replacement cost, tiny home, car, bicycle, Recreation vehicle, vacation home, office, exercise program, health program... . (At volume it would be 70% or even 50% of that). Other pictures here.....

Status report. This is my $20,000, replacement cost, tiny home, car, bicycle, Recreation vehicle, vacation home, office, exercise program, health program... . (At volume it would be 70% or even 50% of that). Other pictures here give you some idea of where we live, physically, our property, our real estate, our neighborhood. If this experimental vehicle stabilises we will be able to live on income equal to the federal poverty level. If I had twice that, or 10 times that, or a thousand times that, I would continue to live as I do with no more money spent on myself because I don't want anything beyond what I have for myself. I also don't want to eat sand. I have only 12 hours of productive time per day ever since the major cancer treatment and operations. But those 12 hours are spent as best I know how working for goodness in creation because that is where I find Joy, the opposite of pleasure, and I find joy entirely preferable to pleasure. When I unknowingly worked for pleasure my income was 200 times the federal poverty level, and it was not enough. I spent just as much of my Waking Life working then as I do now. 100% of it. I need several billion dollars, seriously. Deadly serious. I would use every penny as I use every penny now, but much more amplitude is needed, to sell joy as the exact opposite of pleasure, a fact of which we are systematically and totally ignorant and or Worse, misinformed.

Regarding all the putrid hatred from the right, would this be going on if Democrats hadn't abandoned the working class for corporations? Asking for a friend.

Regarding all the putrid hatred from the right, would this be going on if Democrats hadn't abandoned the working class for corporations? Asking for a friend.

The left, in screaming for rights, has lost all understanding of what is right.

The left, in screaming for rights, has lost all understanding of what is right.

It is to destroy morality to speak of it to others without first making of one's own life a shining example.

It is to destroy morality to speak of it to others without first making of one's own life a shining example.

To my surprise, my sadness, but I think it's correct, I've lost almost all sympathy for anyone of any station of any location who brings a child into this..

To my surprise, my sadness, but I think it's correct, I've lost almost all sympathy for anyone of any station of any location who brings a child into this 2018 World. I don't know if anyone else feels this way. It might make me a horrible person. I'm okay with that. Bringing a child into this world is an unspeakable Act of Cruelty to that child, and a criminal act of selfishness in my view. And to expect anyone later to make things right is hostage-taking, robbery, and morally Criminal.

I've concluded that it is morally Criminal to possess more than a profoundly modest tiny home and morally Criminal to allow anything less for anyone.

I've concluded that it is morally Criminal to possess more than a profoundly modest tiny home and morally Criminal to allow anything less for anyone.

How you spend your resources is the message of your life period.

How you spend your resources is the message of your life period.

We are duty-bound to communicate two others what in our best moments we would want communicated to ourselves if we two were acting evil or insane.

We are duty-bound to communicate two others what in our best moments we would want communicated to ourselves if we two were acting evil or insane.

We need to mind our own f****** business. And mind it in deed, not in Word. Humankind, creation, is our business.

We need to mind our own f****** business. And mind it in deed, not in Word. Humankind, creation, is our business.

If it becomes a federal crime to speak against IsraHell it could be time for me to go and die in prison. If such evil is allowed by those outside I don't belong outside with them.

If it becomes a federal crime to speak against IsraHell it could be time for me to go and die in prison. If such evil is allowed by those outside I don't belong outside with them.

If it becomes a federal crime to speak against IsraHell it could be time for me to go and die in prison. If such evil is allowed by those outside I don't belong outside with them.

If it becomes a federal crime to speak against IsraHell it could be time for me to go and die in prison. If such evil is allowed by those outside I don't belong outside with them.

Almost everything indicates that my life is of no account. I hate this fact but I do not mourn it. I have the peace and joy of knowing that every breath I attempt to do my very best. Every breath....

Almost everything indicates that my life is of no account. I hate this fact but I do not mourn it. I have the peace and joy of knowing that every breath I attempt to do my very best. Every breath. No credit to me, but that is the fact. Yet at this particular instant for no reason I can particularly identify, maybe a comment just made by someone, on my Facebook page, I find myself wondering if maybe I am doing a little bit of good more than I thought. I'll probably never know.

Article. All humanity has left the area paying for Teslas

All humanity has left the area paying for Teslas ( https://www.theguardian.com/cities/2018/jul/03/all-humanity-has-left-the-area-the-cities-paying-for-tesla-gigafactory?CMP=fb_gu ) Shared from @Voice Aloud Reader Android app - https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.hyperionics.avar

Article. The Hoarding of the American dream. It is the top 20%, not just the 1%.

The Hoarding of the American Dream - The Atlant ( https://www.theatlantic.com/business/archive/2017/06/the-hoarding-of-the-american-dream/530481/?utm_source=facebook&utm_content=edit-promo&utm_campaign=the-atlantic&utm_term=2018-07-03T22%3A52%3A02&utm_medium=social ) Shared from @Voice Aloud Reader Android app - https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.hyperionics.avar