***** spiritual Evolution, George vaillant. Fact, for all of my years I have been profoundly alone, isolated, unwelcome in society. Fact, what is written of in this book which has been up until now, and even now, ignored, ridiculed, belittled, overtly and covertly suppressed.....

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Fact, for all of my years I have been profoundly alone, isolated, unwelcome in society. Fact, what is written of in this book which has been up until now, and even now, ignored, ridiculed, belittled, overtly and covertly  suppressed punished and repressed in our culture is what has been the animating Force within me all of my years, no credit or discredit to me. A flawed book by a flawed writer but uniquely important of all that I have yet found. If granted one wish to try and heal this Dying World it might be that I would have everyone read, understand, and embrace this. If and when I see a 500 million-dollar lottery or higher I will buy a ticket and if I win the lottery all of that money will be spent on trying to bring the truth revealed in this work, which my soul has known and lived and profited by all of my years, then that is how I will spend the money.

What is required is that each of us move to a carbon, natural resource, negative life. How soon? How soon should we stop destroying the children?

What is required is that each of us move to a carbon, natural resource, negative life. How soon? How soon should we stop destroying the children?

Today's Democrats claim to fight for access to equal participation in the machine of consumption that is destroying everything. Hint, the road to final destruction.

Today's Democrats claim to fight for access to equal participation in the machine of consumption that is destroying everything. Hint, the road to final destruction.

No laws, parties, government, Technologies are needed to save creation. People individually stopping over consumption is the only answer.

No laws, parties, government, Technologies are needed to save creation. People individually stopping over consumption is the only answer.

America is in the midst of a tribal War that will destroy it.

America is in the midst of a tribal War that will destroy it.

Truth is God and America is built on a trillion lies told to every citizen in every newspaper, home, history class since day one. That built on lies cannot last.

Truth is God and America is built on a trillion lies told to every citizen in every newspaper, home, history class since day one. That built on lies cannot last.

Talk, Force, ridicule, and shame have constituted liberalism for decades. It has failed and drawn a vicious backlash. Lip service is contemptible.

Talk, Force, ridicule, and shame have constituted liberalism for decades. It has failed and drawn a vicious backlash. Lip service is contemptible.

If I have a religion Christlikeness is the best name I can put to it. Not saying I do it well, but joy, peace of heart, ability to go on it gives me.

If I have a religion Christlikeness is the best name I can put to it. Not saying I do it well, but joy, peace of heart, ability to go on it gives me.

Update: since the cancer of years ago I have only about 12 hours of productive capacity per day but those are quite productive and I suppose I should be grateful for that. And I suppose I am. Much of the last six.....

Update: since the cancer of years ago I have only about 12 hours of productive capacity per day but those are quite productive and I suppose I should be grateful for that. And I suppose I am. Much of the last six months has been spent in incremental steps of making this miraculous vehicle sustainable and stable and there is reason to think that that has been largely achieved which is a mercy. I continue to perceive that humanity is lost, has made excuses for avoiding curing the cancer of universal selfishness for many thousands of years and malignancy now is Unstoppable. But what of the few cells that could be saved? This remains my interest but the overall situation is profoundly depressing to me. Side note, I'm using all of my skills including alcohol in strong moderation each day, to enable me to fight with all of my strength. My personal experience, and my theory is, that aligning one's life to a dedication to goodness is the ultimate Human Experience and the ultimate hope for exit from the suicide collectively. The productive hours I have each day are spent on scholarly study of this issue. My perception is that to do this in natural beauty accentuates the hopefulness of this work so I do so and expect to continue to do so into the foreseeable future. So my days are spent traversing the natural beauty that is available. And to be listening to the most important scholarly works that I can find while doing so. It is agonizing to me that I cannot do more. It is severely depressing to me that I cannot do more. It is the joy that keeps me alive that I can do what I can do.

Liberals, conservatives, that your group approves what you say in no way is a measure of whether or not it is true. Truth is God, said Gandhi rightly.

Liberals, conservatives, that your group approves what you say in no way is a measure of whether or not it is true. Truth is God, said Gandhi rightly.

Impossibly important research. Positive Emotions, Spirituality and....

Positive Emotions, Spirituality and the Practice ( https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3190563/ ) Shared from @Voice Aloud Reader Android app - https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.hyperionics.avar

I have lived believing that humanoids are a good species with an occasional bad person. All evidence to the contrary.

I have lived believing that humanoids are a good species with an occasional bad person. All evidence to the contrary.

Insane selfishness is the only reason I can see for bringing a child into this world.

Insane selfishness is the only reason I can see for bringing a child into this world.

Here's the secret. No one can have Justice and safety and decency until everyone has Justice and safety and decency. The delusion has run its course.

Here's the secret. No one can have Justice and safety and decency until everyone has Justice and safety and decency. The delusion has run its course.

Liberals, I learned today why the right hates you. You were for civil rights until you had to integrate your schools, then you were against it. Those in glass houses....

Liberals, I learned today why the right hates you. You were for civil rights until you had to integrate your schools, then you were against it. Those in glass houses....

Trump is a twisted grotesque psychological and emotional cripple of a humanoid. We are now finding out if America, and the world, is no better. I am not optimistic.

Trump is a twisted grotesque psychological  and emotional cripple of a humanoid. We are now finding out if America, and the world, is no better. I am not optimistic.

In my 20 years of dedicated activism I have forcefully resisted being defined by the evil I oppose, yet I fail. My goodness must Define the evil. Much to learn to be.

In my 20 years of dedicated activism I have forcefully resisted being defined by the evil I oppose, yet I fail. My goodness must Define the evil. Much to learn to be.

Cancerous: The cell not devoted to the entire body of cells. Same with each human.

Cancerous: The cell not devoted to the entire body of cells. Same with each human.

We white people are the terrorists: N & S America, South Africa, American Slavery, Congo, India, Vietnam, Iraq, Palestine, Yemen, Lebanon..... Endless.

We white people are the terrorists: N & S America, South Africa, American Slavery, Congo, India, Vietnam, Iraq, Palestine, Yemen, Lebanon..... Endless.

Paves paradise, puts up a parking lot . Only Satan does that.

Paves paradise, puts up a parking lot . Only Satan does that.

My bottom lines in life. No double standards. Human and creature rights for all. Preference to the neediest. Ultimate value being the loving Spirit of goodness in action. Truth is God, God as truth. Extreme personal responsibility. Holding self to higher responsibilities than anyone else is held.

My bottom lines in life. No double standards. Human and creature rights for all. Preference to the neediest. Ultimate value being the loving Spirit of goodness in action. Truth is God, God as truth. Extreme personal responsibility. Holding self to higher responsibilities than anyone else is held.

Be Creator real or imagined, attempting to embody that being, that loving Spirit of goodness in action, is the way of joy.

Be Creator real or imagined, attempting to embody that being, that loving Spirit of goodness in action, is the way of joy.

The most criminally cruel selfish Act is bringing a child into this 2018 sinking world. For pity's sake think.

The most criminally cruel selfish Act is bringing a child into this 2018 sinking world. For pity's sake think.

My view is that cancer can often be stopped if it's gotten early enough. For thousands of years we've been told to stop the cancer of our selfishness. Malignancy rules now.

My view is that cancer can often be stopped if it's gotten early enough. For thousands of years we've been told to stop the cancer of our selfishness. Malignancy rules now.

Madness may be the only sanity in this evil 2018 World. The Madness of living the joy of Total Service joyfully in the midst of total horror.

Madness may be the only sanity in this evil 2018 World. The Madness of living the joy of Total Service joyfully in the midst of total horror.

A note of thanks to the benefactor that month after month after month after month has helped keep this Mission afloat. Today turned out to be a pretty encouraging test run of.......

A note of thanks to the benefactor that month after month after month after month has helped keep this Mission afloat.  Today turned out to be a pretty encouraging test run of so many of the little and large modifications that have taken place in recent months in part through your help. The vehicle seems to be drastically more solid now. Today's 28 Mi round trip included 1400 feet of climbing most of which was fairly moderate but there was an 11-degree grade, that's really steep. And the vehicle had the power to go up it solidly but with a lot of work, and more importantly it was able to come down it at very low speed with only a little bit of regular breaking. The regenerative braking worked well and seems to be very solid now. And some of the travel included Sandy Road fairly well packed but some loose sand and some washboard. And recent enhancements on the vehicle now enable it to travel very very slowly over such sections to avoid the horrible bouncing that washboard was delivering before. This is very encouraging. Thank you for your part in it with all your patient trusting support. James

Let them eat cake, wasn't that sick? Isn't that sick? I think it is sick, pathological, to want to be happy in this 2018 World where Evil is increasing by the second and misery is so prevalent. The joy.....

I think it is sick, pathological, to want to be happy in this 2018 World where Evil is increasing by the second and misery is so prevalent. The joy..... of service is an entirely different matter. In my now fairly extensive study of the current scholarly work on these subjects, Joy versus happiness, there is no apparent recognition that they are two different things and certainly no study on the joy of serving. Absolutely sick.

About my nightly consumption of alcohol. Central to my work these last 20 years has been trying to understand the joyful path in a catatonically sick culture. I have believed there is one, I have spent almost all of my time on that path but occasionally I have lost it particularly as the world descends deeper into evil. For a host of reasons, by the end of Standing Rock last February, I saw that there was no hope of saving major populations on Earth. To my surprise I chose to face five years in prison by staying because....

Central to my work these last 20 years has been trying to understand the joyful path in a catatonically sick culture. I have believed there is one, I have spent almost all of my time on that path but occasionally I have lost it particularly as the world descends deeper into evil. For a host of reasons, by the end of Standing Rock last February, I saw that there was no hope of saving major populations on Earth. To my surprise I chose to face five years in prison by staying because...... I learned that I could make such a stand for my notion of what is good where prior I could only do so with the notion that there was some prayer it might help someone in need. This was a huge step for me for which I'm very grateful.. prior to that I had been devoting my life to standing with the most oppressed and brutalized populations but each time I had at least some  tiny shred of Hope  of helping those neediest. But the large hole in my life since losing all hope a year ago, the hole represented by the alcohol I've been consuming each evening, was new and associated with the lack of hoping that I could help anyone on Earth substantially. It continues to be that the notion of standing with what is good largely sustains me but still this relatively new hole. Possibly a glimmer today of what was missing. Renewal of a thought that I've had before but has moved out of my life and now may be moving back in. The people Downstream, and there will be survivors of the political moral material Holocaust that is unfolding. Living for them, trying to understand how I would instruct them, what messages I will try and send forward in a bottle, NBA example of how in fruits to live joy in the midst of hopelessness that I want to give them, that they might find joy in an unimaginably tortured world.

Human progress is the steady victory of greed over goodness with a few well-publicized shallow exceptions.

Human progress is the steady victory of greed over goodness with a few well-publicized shallow exceptions.

How to live on a sinking Titanic? How to live on a planet dying of plague where people only fight to hold on to it, selfishness?

How to live on a sinking Titanic? How to live on a planet dying of plague where people only fight to hold on to it, selfishness?