Neither the ability nor inclination is in me to try and avoid the toxicity for myself. Except the little bit that seems to be necessary for me to plod on with my next step in trying to help. But recent weeks have been instructing me that some of my life now may need to be spent on the experiment of attempting to live with as little of the toxicity as possible by displacing it primarily and secondarily by avoiding it. I don't know how to do that. But I think I need to learn for What Little hope I might have in helping to instruct others. I suspect it will take the form of deliberately targeting locations where Creator is to be found which with very rare exception is in nature. For months the plan has been to sweep across the Southern United States with the vehicle sol. Now it seems that the right thing to do is to seek additional natural beauty in this part of the country Sequoia National Park in particular. And in this process to learn how to exist further and further and further away from the beast in terms of products purchased, food consumed Etc.
Sol, the vehicle, May be for the first time ever fully ready for this part of the quest. A byproduct of recent efforts to stabilize safe braking seems to have yielded an increase of as much as 50% in terms of speed and also efficiency. Further testing is required. But for the first time ever the vehicle may be ready to support dealing with the kinds of mountains associated with the parks out here, comfortably Maybe. And with sufficient power to do so without too much extreme stress.
Two other aspects of my call make sense of all this and good use of the time. And they are tightly related. Within the last month it became clear to me and I began to pursue what I suspect is my central call for the rest of my days, fishing for LSGIA Beings. The first aspect of this is almost complete, establishing a portal, or website, that could be a relatively rapid entry Wormhole for the one in a million the city of being ready to be reborn. My expectation is that in my lifetime it will not do so for anyone. We are the humanoids in The Matrix and what not to leave that living death cocoon. But that I can't control. What I can control is doing my best to provide an entryway into life for the one in a million that might defy the odds. And that task is almost done. Should be done to the level needed by a being voracious to be born within the next 3 or 4 days. LSGIABeing.com
One, this requires that I deepen that Within Myself which is done by studying the great such beings throughout history and trying to weave them more deeply into my DNA. It is not possible to offer what one does not have one self.
Two, the process of effectively fishing for velocity of being within and the one in a million ready to be born, Reborn, is a process that I am aware of having no fuel for. Time must be spent by me to try and close this Gap Within Myself.
By the way, as mentioned in a post yesterday, for the first time in my life I am free of the illusion that anyone wants me in their life. I didn't realize I was harboring that delusion but I was. There's an accute sadness associated with this but it's not new. More than that there is a liberation of Energies. As has been written by me over the years I have been aware that my brilliant educator father was rigorous in teaching only those who badly wanted to learn. Maybe at age 66 now I am, I'm beginning to understand the Brilliance of that in him. A doctor can't cure someone that wants to be ill. Someone can't give water to a person who thinks they're already full. To attempt to do so is some mixture of harassment and waste. I think with this wisdom I can be a better friend to my friends and do a much better job of neither harassing them or enabling them in their delusion that they are not really parched. I will not stop working for them or all of creation but I will do so while much less frequency feeding the delusion.
