Regularly Behavior makes me think, you're stupid, an idiot, ignorant, thoughtless, sick.... Well, yes, few today have retained any Mental Health. That's the problem.

Regularly Behavior makes me think, you're stupid, an idiot, ignorant, thoughtless, sick.... Well, yes, few today have retained any Mental Health. That's the problem.

How are we so stupid to believe that being kind and decent is only good for some reward in return, not joy in itself?

How are we so stupid to believe that being kind and decent is only good for some reward in return, not joy in itself?

Help needed. What if I am robbed and everything is gone? A birthday.....

Help needed. What if I am robbed and everything is gone? A birthday..... gift for me and this Mission, today, is the day, if you will. a major vulnerability for this whole mission is the fact that I have no permanent mailing address although My old DC address is still what is used. No, nothing that goes there can be received. Dead letter. if you know of anyone that would be extremely glad to let me use their address for banking, Social Security, that things can be mailed there then the vulnerability would go down dramatically. Let's say I am robbed and my credit cards and debit card are taken. There is no way other than impossible time and travel back to DC to get anything. I need to open a more National or Western account and to do that I need a mailing address where I can actually get things. my Commerce is extremely low and profoundly responsible. My financial history lifelong and recent is flawless. I can think of no risk that I will be. and because I have almost no Commerce the risk of junk mail should be extremely low. if you know of anyone please let me know. James

Massive emergency repairs required. The trouble began last night and continued for many hours. Not a.....

Massive emergency repairs required. The trouble began last night and continued for many hours. Not a..... problem this time with this miraculous mechanical machine, but with the bio machine operating it. Recently I've mentioned how my meditation and prayer life have gone by the wayside for the demands of this mission for many many weeks or months now. Last night in a paid for $21 spot in a Fairground created a space I've not had for a long time, complete control of my time in the morning. I think that's what my nervous system sensed and said, f*** it man, you're going to give me some attention and some much-needed repair. If showered me with an anxiety storm that lasted for many hours. It took three or four hours of attempted meditation to get back in control of my mind. We attach all sorts of stigma to what I've just written, don't we? That's ridiculous. We are extremely complex organisms and when placed under dire demand we need work to maintain them. By 10:30 this morning, although disappointed that departing at 4:30 for strategic points didn't happen, I felt much stronger for all the work. An alternative explanation for the anxiety storm that raged in me for many hours is that in going to Triple doses of Imodium for control of my cancer related diarrhea may have a psychological side effect. I have not researched that. I have not gone to Triple doses likely but with 1/3 less colon than I was born with and being on the road all the time I have needed to go to Triple doses to try and get things under control. I don't know if that will work. And no longer having any medical support, no doctor, don't have access to the stronger medications that are available.

Plague: Infects, consumes, takes over, destroys massive populations. White Christians. Jesus is used to cloak consummate evil.

Plague: Infects, consumes, takes over, destroys massive populations. White Christians. Jesus is used to cloak consummate evil.

The racist worldview of Arthur Balfour. Link

https://electronicintifada.net/blogs/david-cronin/racist-worldview-arthur-balfour

Interesting perspective. I find their sense of entitlement disgusting. This from the long time resident of Berkeley, about the elites. She is homeless.

Interesting perspective. I find their sense of entitlement disgusting. This from the long time resident of Berkeley, about the elites. She is homeless.

James? A sad case of runaway compassion. This the wife......

James? A sad case of runaway compassion. This the wife...... of a co-executive in the dc-based company I worked with commented regarding the hunger strike I was on to stop the genocide in Darfur. 2007. Another person, who has known me longer than anyone, in the 1980s and 90s perceived me as terribly insecure. The following I've not thought of or grasped until just this moment. Why? I don't know. It just hit me. My dad is the most wonderful Soul I've ever known, the most important intellect, the greatest person I've known. He was a nationally recognized and respected, great teacher of music, but more importantly, of people. His love for me was infinite and I still can't figure out why he didn't have me killed for being such a criminally underperforming lazy self-absorbed child. I'm serious. He loved me deeply. I think he must have seen some goodness that was there. He had tremendous mood swings. Mostly to do with disappointment in himself but sometimes disappointment regarding me. He rarely if ever put those disappointments to words. This left me with the theoretical choice of blowing off his moods, which was totally impossible for someone that I so revered, or trying to milk understanding out of the most fleeting facial expression, the one or two words uttered, any tiny clue as to what was going on in that great man. It was Agony for me. It was excruciating for me. For days on end I would try and figure out what's going on. But no credit to me, maybe it was his intent, but it made me an astute listener, and astute Observer at learner. In fact, way way way way way way Beyond most people. No credit to me. But when I care about something I am an intense listener, an intense Observer. The rat has 100 or 1,000 or more times to sensitivity in their nose that we do. In the few things I care about I have those powers of observation. When I look at any good I have brought to life, to the world, it stems from these powers that were developed in this way. No credit to me. And these Powers enabled a New Jersey boy who really went skiing to become a world-class skier, acutely aching for the mountain to teach him how to ski. And a very substantial Windsurfer who rarely got to go. And some of the turned around failing business situations that everyone else saw was hopeless. And someone that started Living the unimaginable nightmare of global warming many years before even the experts. And now riding the potential of living likely on Mother Earth, and moving across the country in a similar way.

Brando refused the Oscar defending Native American Rights. Hero.

http://m.thevintagenews.com/2017/10/04/why-marlon-brando-refused-the-academy-award-for-his-performance-in-the-godfather/

Portland Will Allow Overnight RV Camping and Tiny Homes on Private Property. Article

http://www.wweek.com/news/2017/10/15/portland-will-allow-overnight-rv-camping-and-tiny-homes-on-private-property/

Speaking about israel-palestine is really pretty simple. We need to put our faith in responsibly seeing the truth as clearly as possible and speaking the truth is clearly as possible. And we need to accept that not one in a million people want to know the truth. To those who do it is enough to clearly distinguish between the zionists, the equivalent of the KKK, and the Jews, the ones heroically fighting for justice for Palestine. It's really pretty simple. We just need to accept that almost no one wants to know the truth.

Speaking about israel-palestine is really pretty simple. We need to put our faith in responsibly seeing the truth as clearly as possible and speaking the truth is clearly as possible. And we need to accept that not one in a million people want to know the truth. To those who do it is enough to clearly distinguish between the zionists, the equivalent of the KKK, and the Jews, the ones heroically fighting for justice for Palestine. It's really pretty simple. We just need to accept that almost no one wants to know the truth.

It has been said that we know the price of everything and the value of nothing.

It has been said that we know the price of everything and the value of nothing.

Solar ebike Harvester micro RV vehicle. 17 technical videos.

https://vimeo.com/user9517564

Women cannot preempt sexual assault. Another dangerously dishonest particle. Link

Will there ever be honest discussion of this issue? Will there ever be an honest attempt to improve things? Almost certainly not. How dishonest to frame this as an all-or-nothing thing. Nothing it's all or nothing. It's all a matter of probability. Women make up half the population on this planet. To suggest that their behavior has no impact on men is Criminal. It is causing rape.

https://www.vox.com/culture/2017/10/16/16481698/metoo-hashtag-responds-to-mayim-bialik-victim-blaming?utm_campaign=vox.social&utm_content=voxdotcom&utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook

If a water skier lets go the tow rope they almost immediately sink. The most dire needs of creation is my tow rope. Nothing less can keep me from drowning.

If a water skier lets go the tow rope they almost immediately sink. The most dire needs of creation is my tow rope. Nothing less can keep me from drowning.

To a friend. I feel the same way about myself, the tiniest tiniest Speck of nothing. But I'm unwilling to not do with that Speck of nothing everything I possibly can to create a better world.

To a friend. I feel the same way about myself, the tiniest tiniest Speck of nothing. But I'm unwilling to not do with that Speck of nothing everything I possibly can to create a better world.

Full effort is full success. Gandhi. Absolutely totally completely true. Full effort is the only thing we can control. And few of us try although most of us convince ourselves we have.

Full effort is full success. Gandhi. Absolutely totally completely true. Full effort is the only thing we can control. And few of us try although most of us convince ourselves we have.

Your life is not the major thing in influencing people. It is the only thing.

Your life is not the major thing in influencing people. It is the only thing.

Common dreams. Half of all Americans live at or near poverty.

https://www.commondreams.org/views/2017/10/16/yes-half-americans-are-or-near-poverty-heres-more-evidence

Thank you for coming to Berkeley. We needed to see you. Mostly nondescript kind white men said outside the little service station in this crowded Berkeley California. To my surprise, and maybe to my discredit, Berkeley seems to be the second most Humane town that I have encountered in this last 11 thousand miles. Grants Pass being the most human but I think I've seen. I have no idea why.

Thank you for coming to Berkeley. We needed to see you. Misty nondescript kind white men said outside the little service station in this crowded Berkeley California. To my surprise, and maybe to my discredit, Berkeley seems to be the second most Humane town that I have encountered in this last 11 thousand miles. Grants Pass being the most human but I think I've seen. I have no idea why.

I'm just so exhausted. This Mission has really pushed me to the Limit. I have no Reserves.

I'm just so exhausted. This Mission has really pushed me to the Limit. I have no Reserves.

Somehow the journey gets harder. I'm not complaining. I'm blessed to have this Mission. But it gets harder. The degree of difficulty does not go down, it just keeps going up. Land is so.....

Somehow the journey gets harder. I'm not complaining. I'm blessed to have this Mission. But it gets harder. The degree of difficulty does not go down, it just keeps going up. Land is so..... scarce here that stores like Starbucks close up there wall sockets. gas stations close up their wall sockets. fast food places close up their wall sockets. And in these days that have shorter sun and so many Hills it is not possible to go all day on just What the sun provide some of these days.  and with Berkeley being the possible exception, the rest stops and Walmart's where it was legal to stay for the night are no more. and with all this goes I'm much more acutely awareness that we don't care about people in this Society, we care about their money, and if they don't have it, and they don't spend it, they are unwelcome. and I'm physically tired. I am emotionally and spiritually tired. the time I would be devoting to my emotional health and connection to creation has gone by the wayside largely To the moment by moment demands of this mission. Again, no complaints. Just a status update. although no one in my network other than one surfaced any housing for me in this part of the country, through my efforts I have uncovered several down in Silicon Valley that if they hold will provide a landing place and a base of operations for Three or four days of this vehicle being legally visible.  as I am stretched to the breaking point I suspect that those in proximity to me have felt that stress and largely Departed. Those who have not, your friendship is a great blessing.

Or late to baby chicks out of 30000 survive. The rest starved. Link

http://www.miamiherald.com/news/nation-world/world/article178750751.html

It would be an honor to have you stay at my home, the individual, the cyclist, in Silicon Valley wrote to me tonight. I have been exploring every Avenue I can, especially a cycling Support Network, to try and secure legal places for the bicycle at night beginning mid next week. He has a business trip that may prevent but he clearly genuinely wants to help support this mission. This, one of maybe 30 contacts. Two others have shown some interest. I suspect the combination of scarcity of parking and political cowardice are the reasons. It's quite a concern that I may well wind up in the clutches of the police without that being my goal.

It would be an honor to have you stay at my home, the individual, the cyclist, in Silicon Valley wrote to me tonight. I have been exploring every Avenue I can, especially a cycling Support Network, to try and secure legal places for the bicycle at night beginning mid next week. He has a business trip that may prevent but he clearly genuinely wants to help support this mission. This, one of maybe 30 contacts. Two others have shown some interest. I suspect the combination of scarcity of parking and political cowardice are the reasons. It's quite a concern that I may well wind up in the clutches of the police without that being my goal.

If the heart does not rage at Injustice, it is not loving. But the reverse is not necessarily true. Life is teaching me this. Rage has risen within me, with my permission, much in recent weeks as some of you have noticed me Express. And to some degree it has displaced my loving. And one problem with that, maybe the biggest problem with that, but one problem with that is, Joy comes from loving, not raging. With this awareness I hope to bring things back into a better balance.

If the heart does not rage at Injustice, it is not loving. But the reverse is not necessarily true. Life is teaching me this. Rage has risen within me, with my permission, much in recent weeks as some of you have noticed me Express. And to some degree it has displaced my loving. And one problem with that, maybe the biggest problem with that, but one problem with that is, Joy comes from loving, not raging. With this awareness I hope to bring things back into a better balance.

Those who are against protest, simple. The status quo works for them.

Those who are against protest, simple. The status quo works for them.

Ecocide is a problem for the Trump mob how? It wipes out some of us and weakens the rest.

Ecocide is a problem for the Trump mob how? It wipes out some of us and weakens the rest.

We don't make the fires or hurricanes. We make them Armageddon.

We don't make the fires or hurricanes. We make them Armageddon.

The big, very old locomotive engine was pulling just to Freight cars in this 80 mile long desolate stretch alongside California Interstate 5 north of Sacramento. Noticing it at the last moment chugging so slowly in the opposite direction to me on the opposite side of this Tulane Highway I waved my hand. The Horn of the train honked immediately. We both enjoyed that I'm sure.

The big, very old locomotive engine was pulling just to Freight cars in this 80 mile long desolate stretch alongside California Interstate 5 north of Sacramento. Noticing it at the last moment chugging so slowly in the opposite direction to me on the opposite side of this Tulane Highway I waved my hand. The Horn of the train honked immediately. We both enjoyed that I'm sure.

I infinitely choose the deep sadness of being alive in this hellish world we have created, instead of the alternative, a happy existence, living death, of blissful ignorance and denial. Our culture exists in tirely on making the opposite choice of mine.

I infinitely choose the deep sadness of being alive in this hellish world we have created, instead of the alternative, a happy existence, living death, of blissful ignorance and denial. Our culture exists in tirely on making the opposite choice of mine.