Courage, kindness, or prudence? All three I'd say. And pragmatism and support of high output community members. Caught between threats from.....

Courage, kindness, or prudence? All three I'd say. And pragmatism and support of high output community members. Caught between threats from North Dakota oil Junkies and local Native Casino profit Junkies both eager to throw us in jail I have become concerned that I would be an extremely unpleasant cellmate without a shower in three months and laundry for my one change of clothes. Silly? Maybe. A tremendous expense but I've Justified it, being here at the local casino hotel for a night, by offering to 10 or so people the opportunity to come and take a shower and to an extremely high output, crucial, fellow Doer to spend the night. This individual is under tremendous stress, having sacrificed to the breaking point personally, and a third fellow will be sleeping here as well.

For 15 years or more I have devoted myself to, within my imagination, living each breath within the will of the creator. I believe that my next step......

For 15 years or more I have devoted myself to, within my imagination, living each breath within the will of the creator. I believe that my next step which I will attempt beginning now is to live not just within the will of creator, but, in my imagination, each moment, within the presence of creator. I don't know if this is possible. I don't know if it is productive. But I suspect that the answer to both is yes and will begin the attempt now.

Trump is an extraordinary gift to us, the gift that keeps on giving. Which.....

Trump is an extraordinary gift to us, the gift that keeps on giving. Which one now? He has given us the inarguable fact which has always existed, but he has given us the unvarnished fact, that the government cannot and will not save us. Only we as Breath by breath, generation after generation, fully active fully participating citizens can do that. No, we won't accept the gift. We don't love anything, including our children that much, but he gave us the gift none-the-less.

"If they want to shoot me that's totally fine with me." This I found myself saying as I sat for several.......

"If they want to shoot me that's totally fine with me."  This I found myself saying as I sat for several moments in the herbal tent receiving heat from a fire prior to heading into a different unheated kitchen to do my 22nd hour of dishes this last four days. It's 15 degrees Fahrenheit, and getting a bit chilly. Chiller still tomorrow and then it begins warming up into the twenties again. Several folks in the herbal tent were discussing the story that dapple fired three rounds of live ammunition last night, one of them shattering a car window. I don't know if this is true. It's fine with me if it is, and I would be delighted if they shot me as I stand right now. They are brutal. They are Savage. They are destroying everything, all future, for the Next Generation let alone the next seven generations. The only force that can stop them are tens of millions of cowardly sideline sitters that begin to see atrocities visited on bodies like mine in time for them to wake up. Yes, they probably will not wake up. But that's the only way it would happen and I would be delighted to be one of the First atrocities. I'm a good man. I do nothing but love all of humanity all of creation as do many of the people here in the camp. What I wish to happen to me is what those in tahrir square wished would happen to them if necessary, what those on the bridge in Selma wished would happen to them to protect their progeny, if necessary, what those at the darshana saltworks expected would happen to them to give a future to their progeny. Why the f*** would anyone not want to do this? I know why not in my head but I totally don't know why not in my heart. The heart can never know why. Only the mind can fabricate the ridiculous distractions and excuses. The infinite infinite infinite infinite infinite excuses. As per this massively important post below I want a darshana saltworks March. I want thousands of us to announce a week prior that we are Marching to the drill pad, that we are taking equipment to destroy the equipment at the drill pad, that we are taking ladders or whatever to get through the moats that have been dug around the drill pad otherwise making it inaccessible. that we expect not to succeed in reaching the drill pad. that we expect in exercising our human and legal right to protect the commons of our children and grandchildren that we will be executed, maimed, or at best put in prison as terrorists for the rest of our days. And that we are fine with that. That we know that only by exercising our rights, our duty, as dignified parents, brothers, sisters, Aunts, Uncles, grandmothers, grandfathers, can we enable the full savagery of the corporate Frankenstein monster machine to become evident so that the f****** cowardly happily confused onlookers on the sidelines wake up and see the machine headed directly for them in time to stand up and stop it. There is no other way. I don't want there to be another way. I am simply grateful to see the way and will do whatever I can to bring about what I have just discussed above. I hope that you read and watch and Ponder the following post and share it. And if you don't you bear the responsibility. I'll continue to do my part but I can't do yours.  https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10210253054515699&id=1620551416

Until we liberals hold ourselves to a higher standard than the standards we hold our opposition to we are rightly going to fail, we are rightly going to keep going down in f****** flames.

Until we liberals hold ourselves to a higher standard than the standards we hold our opposition to we are rightly going to fail, we are rightly going to keep going down in f****** flames.

I implore you to watch this, and the other clip that I just posted on my Facebook page. I don't know that this exemplifies what we should do. I know.......

I implore you to watch this, and the other clip that I just posted on my Facebook page. I don't know that this exemplifies what we should do. I know that it keeps replaying in my soul and mind as the type of thing we must do. We must become the canvas on which the savagery of the empire can be seen by the hundreds of Millions of willingly confused onLookers that they come off of the sidelines on to the right side. Our side. Now. We must be the small canvas on which the awaiting atrocities are painted so that others can see in time and give the next Generations some tiny bit of future worth living. If not now, when? If not here, where? If not us, who?

https://youtu.be/yrHNig2aIjQ

https://youtu.be/WW3uk95VGes

Trumps executive order authorizing the pipeline is yet another godsend. Will we take the opportunity? What.......

Trumps executive order authorizing the pipeline is yet another godsend. Will we take the opportunity? What opportunity? The opportunity to immediately, prayedfully, deeply, imagine how we escalate our fight here at standing rock in ways that fully comply with prayerfulness, peacefulness, courage, and surrender to the needs of the next 7 generations over our own.

Courageous violent revolutionaries of today in Washington DC, Standing Rock, and elsewhere {black bloc, instigators, inciters, taunters, vandals, destroyers, compulsive violators....} : just a question, if you're so f****** courageous then........

Courageous violent revolutionaries of today in Washington DC, Standing Rock, and elsewhere {black bloc,  instigators,  inciters,  taunters,  vandals,  destroyers,  compulsive violators....} : just a question, if you're so f****** courageous then why are you parasites on nonviolent action? Why so regularly do you leech off,  embed disinvited in,  the protests and actions and protections of non-violent people? Why do you so rarely confront the police by yourself?  In my day it was called hiding behind apron-strings. Is it not only those you claim to oppose that you wish to destroy, but nonviolent action itself,  and the nonviolent Warriors? You arrogant f****** assholes. You don't want change. You don't want Revolution. You don't care about the next seven generations. You want to get your rocks off. You want an adrenaline rush. You want to feel like Heroes when you're nothing but infantile, lazy, dishonest cowards. People are supposed to grow out of Tantrums by the time they are three years old. You have unconditionally surrendered. You have unconditionally surrendered. Your violence hands the keys to an infinite Arsenal, Keys that Trump and his gargoyle hordes are just aching to use to vaporize and or enslave us all. You are infiltrators. You may not work for dapple or you may. You may not work for the state, or you may. Whether or not you get a paycheck there you absolutely work for them. You are dishonest intellictual cowards. You laughably distort the history of non-violence to fit your yearning to act out like spoiled children. Badly behaved, badly brought up children. Would that the armies of the world had your intellectual dishonesty and cowardice, they would have given up on the first tests of gunpowder let alone nuclear weapons and the world would be at peace. They would drop one bomb, see that they had not won the war, and give up on using bombs like you have given up on nonviolence which has barely ever been tried throughout history. But alas at least those in the Army have the some intellectual honesty. Some courage. Some decency. If you want to go out in a blaze of glory and unconditionally surrender the future of the next seven generations, for decency sake go do it by yourself. Stop leeching off of the people with real courage,  dignity, compassion, respect, self-control, empathy, Humanity, loving. Those of you that strongly disagree with what I've just written I wonder if you will have the decency, compassion, courage,  intellectual honesty to tell me why. If I am wrong I wish to know so and I will loudly proclaim it if I am helped to see.

Pbs: Affordable water may soon dry up, especially if you live here

http://www.pbs.org/newshour/updates/affordable-water-may-soon-dry-especially-live/

***** Erica Chenoweth: The success of nonviolent resistance

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=YJSehRlU34w

If there is a proper roll for prayer, and I think that there is, though almost never never never used, the proper role for prayer is to connect with one's soul, the......

If there is a proper roll for prayer, and I think that there is, though almost never never never used, the proper role for prayer is to connect with one's soul, the deepest wisest part of our nervous system that we cannot control but we can learn to listen to. This is the Seat of Wisdom. It is the only place in such dark times that we can reliably turn to for how to guide our own lives although the soul demands that we responsibly access all important available information.

Hello James how you doing today? I have been thinking about you after your last public post. I do worry that they may be more aggressive with the new president in office." My reply: <3 Please don't find me inconsiderate of your comment. I appreciate it. But.....

*Hello James how you doing today?  I have been thinking about you after your last public post.  I do worry that they may be more aggressive with the new president in office." My reply:  <3  Please don't find me inconsiderate of your comment. I appreciate it. But I suggest to us all in these desperate times we must finally learn that life happens only inside ourselves, the only life we will ever know is within our own psychology, and unless we learn to live there and embrace it, in constant Breath by breath communion with our souls, we will go crazy, we will find life a torture, and we will be worse than useless to the next seven generations. No credit to me I seem to have been taught this lesson and lived it for quite some years now, more intensely and certainly and joyfully every day. What is done to me physically is almost totally not a concern to me.  Except that unless I and others quickly become the atrocities that show my sleeping massive sisters and brothers the unthinkable savagery that awaits them if they don't stand up, what awaits their children if they don't stand up now, that frightens me. I was saying to a kind sister, my age, who I've only just met in camp several days ago, that in my opinion no one should be in this camp anymore that does not wish to become one of the atrocities that must mount quickly, clearly, and graphically if the mass of my criminally sleeping sisters and brothers are to awake in time. Please I hope no one worries about me. I pray that people learn from me to more intensely live their life in front of the next Center Seven Generations realizing there will not be seven more Generations unless we stand up now. By the way, as I've written this morning, I hear a sound  that I can only explain as renewed Drilling a mile or so away. But I don't know that for a fact. We have not been raided so far. I am certain that there are those in the corporate monster that are advocating actively for us to be made a brutal example so that no one else tries what we are trying. I do not know if those forces will prevail or not.

Miserable failures at life are the likes of Jesus, Martin Luther King Jr, Gandhi, Nelson Mandela.... their failed, miserable, pitiful lives cut in half by deaths or prison. Paupers. Miserable failures. Unless.......

Miserable failures at life are the likes of Jesus, Martin Luther King Jr, Gandhi, Nelson Mandela.... their failed, miserable, pitiful lives cut in half by deaths or prison. Paupers. Miserable failures. Unless quality of life is more important than quantity of life in which case they are the most enviable creatures that have ever walked the earth. Jesus spoke of this. He who would hold onto his life shall lose it. He who would lose his life for the sake of those in need shall gain it. Many of us here remaining at Standing Rock are in this way among the most enviable people on earth, or that have ever walked the Earth. Many of us here are the exact equivalent of the resistance in Hunger Games, The Rebel Alliance, Neo in The Matrix and those who fought alongside of him. Spiritual Jedi. Note, all but one of the Jedi were exterminated,  as I recall. We are among the few that have ever walked the Earth on two legs in the last 7000 years that are alive and have the joy of being alive. Martin Luther King said, a person is not equipped to live unless they know what they would die for. Many of us here that remain at Standing Rock know what we would die for,  basically, a decent future for the next seven generations.. Prudence tells me to sleep in my clothes with my boots on tonight. The rumors are stronger than ever that we are about to be swept by the feds. I will live in the face of what Creator wants, not the fear that those forces of greed and darkness want. I will sleep in my normal sleep attire tonight. It is not my business what the feds, dapl, the corporations do. It is my business what I do. And paying attention to my business,  which is to do Creation's business, is where life is to be found. Same for you. If there is to be a decent future for any of the next seven generations many of us will have to endure many atrocities...fast, furious,  many. Nothing less has a prayer of waking up  the goddamn cowardly sleeping masses, my brothers and sisters all, in time. Let them begin.

I suggest to you that these days are so dark now that the only way to maintain your sanity is to learn to listen to your soul above everything else and to do what it tells you to do moment-by-moment Breath by breath.

I suggest to you that these days are so dark now that the only way to maintain your sanity is to learn to listen to your soul above everything else and to do what it tells you to do moment-by-moment Breath by breath.

To my young, brilliant, native brother here at Standing Rock: K., brother, James here. You may hate me for this. What kind of a brother would I be if......

To my young, brilliant, native brother here at Standing Rock: K., brother, James here. You may hate me for this. What kind of a brother would I be if I did not take such a risk with truth that I think is important to try and share? I may be many things but I am not a coward. Number one. By international law I recognise and support the right of an oppressed people, my native sisters and brothers are oppressed, I support international law which says that an oppressed people have the right to resist by any means available. 2. As a lifelong student and practitioner of nonviolent action I say that the actions on the bridge of the last several nights serve only one side, the opposition. Nonviolent resistance depends upon the armies of onlookers sitting safely on the sidelines finally seeing imagery, a picture, a truth, which is so black and white that they come on the side of those in the right. When this Camp was a prayerful Camp it provided that clear picture and they came onto our side in large numbers. The last two nights are at best totally unclear. Really,  it guarantees that such pictures will keep them on the sidelines if not joining the opposition. This is bad strategy. It is the right of my native sisters and brothers to do it. It is bad strategy. And it is not the stuff of a true Revolution for a better world. I believe that anyone that truly cares about the future and believes in the truth must watch at least this 15-minute video on the groundbreaking research never before attempted to compare of violent and nonviolent actions over the last hundred years, fifteen minute Ted talk. James

Powerful enough to defeat today's military, these weapons: dignity, extreme Humanity, selfless courage, unyielding.......

Powerful enough to defeat today's military, these weapons: dignity, extreme Humanity, selfless courage, unyielding kindness, Relentless decency , thoughtfulness, highest standards for the truth..... This is history. The same is true in the future. Almost all find these weapons far too costly to employ. That may be the Epitaph on the tombstone of creation. The most powerful weapons were too costly to employ. So thought the parents of future Generations.

If the fight is not entirely for human rights it is not a fight for human rights. It is a fight for something besides human rights.......

If the fight is not entirely for human rights it is not a fight for human rights. It is a fight for something besides human rights. It is not the revolution. It is too little too late. It is unconditional surrender. Time is on the side of final destruction. All they need to do is run out the clock. Loving, waging love, is the only Revolution. Everything else is waging tribal love, tribal referring to affiliation groups, not whether or not something is indigenous. A Great Soul and intellectual of the last century, Ashley Montague, said, we are dying not from the absence of love, but from the presence of tribal love. There was much love for all of creation, for ALL two-legged creatures, here at Standing Rock weeks ago. Is there any left here?

Standing Rock update. I stand with dignified Behavior. I stand with self-possessed Behavior. I stand.....

Standing Rock update. I stand with dignified Behavior. I stand with self-possessed Behavior. I stand with responsible thoughtful action and strategy. So I stand with 90% of the behavior that I see in this Camp day in and day out. Almost everyone I have met here from all walks of life came here prepared to die to protect Mother Earth, to protect future Generations, to protect human rights. That is pretty dignified. I do not stand with the behavior therefore that has been reported to me in the so-called actions today on the bridge and elsewhere. I do not deny the right of indigenous, Indian, people to do what they did. By international law the oppressed have a right to resist by any means available. But I do not stand with the behavior as it was reported to me today. Impulsive, acting out, self-indulgent, without strategy. It seems they do not understand the power of dignified, prayerful, Solmn, self-sacrificial, dignified Behavior which is what people do all day long in these incredibly harsh hostile conditions here. A media Bonanza was handed to Our Sick brothers and sisters in the fossil fuel owned government of North Dakota,  as near as I can tell. If I learn that today's actions were designed and authorized by the Indian leadership of this Camp I retract some of my opposition. Otherwise I can only think of my reading of Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee which is story after Story of Indian tribes being slaughtered because of the unauthorized hot-headed behavior of a few infantile people..

I see not one in a million in today's America that cares about their children's future. Deeply, if I think deeply, I realize the question, then why should I care about their children?

I see not one in a million in today's America that cares about their children's future. Deeply, if I think deeply, I realize the question, then why should I care about their children?

"James, I like you the best because you have to humble yourself the most to fit in here." This from C. , a middle aged young person with a.......

"James, I like you the best because you have to humble yourself the most to fit in here." This from C. , a middle aged young person with a Charming little dog that always ignores me,  lol, with whom I've never really had a conversation but for many weeks we have enjoyed warmly saying hello to one another. I don't know what C. sees in me. I don't know what others see in me,  or what they think about me. I'm amazed when people make such statements. But they do rather regularly here.

"James, you are perfect." To this I erupted in an uncontrollable belly laugh. This to the young man......

"James, you are perfect." To this I erupted in an uncontrollable belly laugh. This to the young man who said this as he was sobbing in my arms this morning. He had just learned that within hours his sacred fire, and the other, would be extinguished and despite that this was for good reason from the Council of fires, the indigenous headsman, it was a devastating blow to this Godly good young man who for weeks had near single-handedly kept the fire going, an extraordinary heroic loving Act. I had a hunch and went to the fire and had the blessing of being there at the right time to help him deal with the grief. After moments of holding him and letting him grieve into my shoulder I shared some words that seemed to give him great comfort, especially my thought that despite how important the physical fire was, that he had given us a much more important fire that would never go out, it would always burn in my heart and others, the fire of his passionate dedication and loving contribution to the camp. "James, you are perfect," he said. I burst out in laughter. "I am nothing," I said. "I have simply learned to get out of the way of the heart. The Heart is what is perfect." A big hug he gave me at those words. What an incredible blessing, what an incredible privilege it is to be here right now.

"What is it that you don't understand about the fact that there are people on the hill up there that would love nothing better than to kill us all, and that.......

"What is it that you don't understand about the fact that there are people on the hill up there that would love nothing better than to kill us all, and that it is minus 8 degrees headed to -19 degrees tonight?"  This I just said to the 5 or so young people laughing joyfully banter about things in one of the mess Halls here in a grungy army tent on a straw floor with no Creature Comforts. I'm not sure that I know any of them or that any of them know me. They looked a little confused. So I continued, What is it that the larger culture doesn't understand about Joy being in the opposite direction of pleasure, safety, Creature Comforts? That Joy is in the direction of where people desperately need help?" They looked less confused.  I added, "I was simply trying to draw attention to your joy. I hope you don't mind." They expressed that they were deeply glad for my comments.

"My life is my message," said Gandhi. Me too.

"My life is my message," said Gandhi. Me too.

### James, you are so........

### James, you are so inspiring to us. James, you make me so happy when I see you. James, I am so glad that you have stayed in the camp and not left..... Almost every day people say stuff like that to me. Fortunately, people are very supportive and appreciative to each other in this camp. But it is genuine towards me and I know practically no one in my life that has ever felt that way toward me with almost no exceptions except for my father and God knows why that was.. This is only the second time or third time in my life that I have been with a group and not felt like a total and complete alien. A species that did not belong on planet Earth. (10 days of democracy spring last year being another.) Whereever I've been before almost no one wanted to talk about the things I wanted to talk about. Here people are already talking about, thinking about, exploring, living the things that I care about. This is the rebel alliance. I never thought I'd see it. I've always wanted to be among people with the same father, the same grandfather, the same Creator as I,  Loving, and long ago it became clear to me I would never see that. But now all day long I experience it.

Standing Rock update : the extreme darkness is lifting. My experience of this camp, and I think I was not alone, is that weeks ago , 10 days ago, tremendous Darkness had descended upon the camp. 10000 Souls, many.......

Standing Rock update :  the extreme darkness is lifting. My experience of this camp, and I think I was not alone, is that weeks ago , 10 days ago, tremendous Darkness had descended upon the camp. 10000 Souls, many of them very brightly burning spiritual Jedi, Departed and this was appropriate as the legal battle was initially won. Yet, tho appropriate, this departure of so many bright lights introduced a tremendous stress on the camp. Those Bright Lights many of them did tremendous amounts of work everyday to feed, heat, provide water for, construct for the others in the camp. That Workforce Departed. What was left for a while was a fairly corrupt power structure. Again, probably I was more acutely aware than most but I am not the only one that was aware. Slowly I learned the lesson to stop attempting to help by coming alongside those in power, and instead to avoid at all costs those with ego issues and to seek out the more lowly who were of good spirit and providing some level of help, and to see how I could support them. Surely my days are infinitely more joyful now, I am more productive personally, and those good souls and I are undoubtedly feeding and amplifying and encouraging one another. Decades ago I brought to one of the largest computer companies in the world a training system for salespeople the heart of which was the idea of not seeking those in official power but rather to seek those more lowly who were hugely influential but not of official power. Finally I am again avoiding that mistake. There are beautiful souls here that move me with great emotion. The young indigenous man from Florida who is here in the camp awaiting his trial 4 unviolently standing against theft of Native American land and resources and the destruction of their water. A beautiful soul. Earlier in his life he told me involved with a gang. Clearly saved now spiritually in part due to being introduced to Serious Sign Language in prison and now doing coursework to become an interpreter. his profound love and admiration for those without the gift of speech is very very deep and genuine. He must have a record. So the risk, the huge costs that this young person faces to fight for the future of us all must be enormous. But his spirit is so totally selfless, so light. A young mom who runs a kitchen, 1 of 8 or more in the camp, and probably my favorite. 2 absolutely adorable Kids approximately 3 and 5 years old. With her in the kitchen every moment. Infinite patience for them and us has this young woman. cooking simple healthy meals for us from 7 in the morning until 8 o'clock at night. College students, people normally employed in everyday life , who have in the face of existential species emergency, existential emergency for all creation, have said goodbye to their normal lives and work from sunup till sundown to help those in need in this community. The Dark Souls remain. I have removed myself from much ongoing visibility to their activities. but I have a hunch that this unofficial tribe of good Souls is growing in strength and number and thereby in some cases converting and in other cases obscuring these points of Darkness that were so strong only 10 days ago. And I know that my sun up till bedtime menial manual pitiful weak labor is one of those candles encouraging others. I get thanks and feedback every day. Recently I saw one of the folks who exhibited considerable darkness of Soul only 10 days ago or so, saw me on my daily rounds spanning the camp serving those in greatest need,  asked if we could talk,  said,  I appologize. We exchanged glad hugs. Daily I repeat and will repeat again here my favorite quotation, a quotation from Albert Schweitzer , example is not the major thing in influencing people, it's the only thing. we had our first serious Storm 2 days ago, 10 inches of snow, 40 mile-an-hour sustained winds, 10 degrees Fahrenheit, minus 40 degrees wind chill , gusts exceeding 60 miles an hour. clearly I have no conception of the strength of tents. How mine and hundreds of others survived that wind is beyond me. I suspect that this storm will be viewed as very very gentle within another month or so. many of our finest Jedi, some very mature, some very immature, are gathered in this space. By the way, since the storm the Verizon signal has not been available down in the camp, only on a small hill in this very cold weather where I currently sit. Hence my access to Internet is greatly curtailed for now. I can't know whether Verizon plans to repair the Tower or whether they have decided it is not worth maintaining it with a camp of only a thousand people.

### "A person who experienced any six or more of the categories” of childhood trauma, Dr Felitti tells me, “was 4600 percent more likely to become an IV [injecting] drug user later in life than a person who experienced none of them.”

http://www.alternet.org/drugs/tragedy-whitney-houston-and-her-daughter-surprising-factors-can-make-people-4600-percent-more

### The Israeli collective psyche is shaped by coercive pressures: It is post-traumatic; it cannot forgive the Jews their victimization in Europe; and so it is intoxicated by power and the use of violence against the weak; and is in a state of denial about its own aggression toward Palestinians. Staying alive by whatever means, the ethos of Netanyahu, has replaced traditional Jewish ethics of loving the neighbor, says psychiatrist Ruchama Marton, founder of Physicians for Human Rights, Israel.

http://mondoweiss.net/2016/12/forced-existence/

### This is a big f****** deal. We have never loved our children. Not in my lifetime have we loved our children. Not in the last century did we Americans love our children. Have we ever in America loved our children? A moral tenant for......

### This is a big f****** deal. We have never loved our children. Not in my lifetime have we loved our children. Not in the last century did we Americans love our children. Have we ever in America loved our children? A moral tenant for me until recent months has been that at least the prior generation loved their children, meaning, they would gladly give their lives for them. This is not true. This is a lie. I have built much of my understanding on this life. Why do I say this? My parents generation that I have held up as the Paragon, the greatest generation, they fed us into the Vietnam War Machine. They demonized us for fighting the Vietnam War Machine. Why? Their own selfish interests. They would lose their jobs. They would lose their standing. They would lose their comforts. World War One. How were we so easily seduced? We fed our children by the millions into the killing machine. Why? We didn't love our children. We loved our jobs. We loved our status. We loved our illusions National Supremacy period did we ever love our children? We love the idea of our children. We love the idea of loving our children. We love how our children make us feel when they are very very young, and sometimes older. That is lust, that is not love. Yes there are one in a million, rare, exceptions, and by their very existence they prove the almost total rule. One of my last shreds of hope that we were a species worth saving has just gone down in flames. What are the implications for me and my missions, what are the implications for my behavior? I know what will not change for me, it will continue that for the greedy Joy of it I will continue to devote every breath in attempted alignment with Creator, and the attempt to  fight alongside creator for the world as it should be, not as it is, a world of needless suffering, and near total absence of joy,  near total absence of unconditional, Universal loving. This is simply who I want to be. Everything else is what I wish not to be any longer. And I know in doing this that there is the slightest chance that the one in a million today or ten Generations from now might receive the slightest bit of encouragement and/or inspiration from the pitiful example I attempt to give now, and that is enough. Had those one-in-a-million in prior Generations not done what they did that which I value in my life would not exist for me today. That's how it works. If somehow the numbers changed and instead of one in a million it was 2, 5, 10, 1000 then the course of history could change. That's the only way that history can change for the positive. That's the only Revolution and it looks like we will never try it.

Regarding Trump: as I've said, he's a godsend. Equally evil to Hilary, he is so much more grotesquely evil......

Regarding Trump: as I've said, he's a godsend. Equally evil to Hilary, he is so much more grotesquely evil in appearance, such unvarnished evil, that he will either be our last wake-up call to the goodness inside ourselves to throw he and his satanic minions away where they can't hurt us, hopefully to convert some back to sanity, or we just have finally totally proven that we are not an Adaptive species and it is time for us to go for the safety of all of the rest of creation on Earth and in the universe.

If in the human species there is so little good that we do not rise up unviolently and stop Trump ism, that we do not rise up un violently and stop global warming, if we do not rise......

If in the human species there is so little good that we do not rise up unviolently and stop Trump ism, that we do not rise up un violently and stop global warming,  if we do not rise up un violently and stop us Empire, then it is time for our species to end and for the universe to be protected from us. Life taught me this by 5 years ago or so.  I find young person after young person after young person, these young Jedi, here in the camp, that are of the same mind before I speak the words.