***** MEDD (2). I am beginning to Pray Again. No, I will never believe in a being that can hear those prayers, some super being. I'm sure I will never believe that. All evidence.....

MEDD (2). I am beginning to Pray Again. No, I will never believe in a being that can hear those prayers, some super being. I'm sure I will never believe that. All evidence to the contrary. But nor is math existent in nature, nor language , nor technology and I gladly use those. They are all products of imagination. This specific prayer that I am beginning to practice is to speak in my mind and even vocalizing with an all loving father, or mother, that I can imagine. An all-knowing mother or father. Why am I beginning to practice this,  again? Because dialogue and or writing, is necessary to sanity and learning and growth. And this pretty well requires speaking to someone, knowledgeable, that cares,  and hears. Yes, but why prayer? Why to an imaginary figure? Because there are so few sane caring people available to dialogue with. Used properly, which almost always prayer is not, but used properly, it is a way of connecting more deeply with conscience, soul, heart , creation. And because I am preparing for what I anticipate which is to more and more be in the presence of sisters and brothers suffering from massive empathy deficit disorder, MEDD, hatred, fear, rage , violence, lies, deceit, ignorance, disinformation, on the road, and conversations, at Standing Rock, in prison, in court. I will need all of the tools at my disposal to maintain my sanity. I do not know how my current thinking will play out, but I believe that on the tombstone of all of creation being destroyed by we humans will be the words massive empathy deficit disorder,  MEDD,  unless some of us stand up and use our bodies to cure it in time. This is the disease that true revolutionaries treat and cure in their sisters and brothers that have that disease. The man Jesus showed us the way. To allow one's body to be used to make manifest the evil, the hatred, the inhumanity that infests one's sisters and brothers that they might see it and repent, and be healed, and have their empathy re-awakened, exercised and restored there by. First making of ourselves as pure and white and blank a canvas as possible, and then putting it and keeping it directly in  the way of the harm that is being delivered on the Innocents. We really have three choices, only 3. Kill them, or heal them, or be killed by them. I'm willing to be killed by them, and more and more I expect it, at least life in prison for non-violent opposition. I am unwilling to kill them because then I become them and there's only more killing and that future. I am unwilling to go down without fighting to cure them, my sisters and brothers all, and only too much me in my earlier life.

MEDD. To a dear sister that beautifully answered my question, where is the joy in shooting a beautiful deer, my reply : The economics, I get. I have no......

MEDD. To a dear sister that beautifully answered my question, where is the joy in shooting a beautiful deer, my reply : The economics, I get.  I have no question of that. I am glad that sisters and brothers in such need have that available. I think you have beautifully expressed much of what is going on, the unity with nature that is involved in the hunt even when a creature is not secured. Thank you. I think the Tombstone on Humanity, on Earth that humanity is destroying, will read something like massive empathy deficit disorder,  MEDD. There was a time when I was a teenager that a friend and I went out one day with shotguns and slaughtered dozens of birds. It was thrilling. It was inhumane. It was subhuman. I cringed in pain at the thought of my grotesque and Humanity. I would never do that again. But regarding hunting, it really isn't so much different regarding working in the healthcare industry, working in the defense industry, serving food to people that work there, working in Wall Street, working in government, being a lawyer, laying pipe for the fossil fuel industry , selling crap at Walmart.... We are all killing. When we pay taxes we are paying for the murder of non-white people all around the world. The movie Powder.

My father's generation, the greatest Generation: I have to risk everything because of my responsibilities. I have to risk everything because of my family and my children. My generation: I can't risk anything because of....

My father's generation, the greatest Generation: I have to risk everything because of my responsibilities. I have to risk everything because of my family and my children. My generation: I can't risk anything because of  my responsibilities. I can't risk anything because of my children. What the f***. Gandhi called it cowardice. My father's generation and earlier Generations called it hiding behind Apron Strings. We don't f****** love our children and grandchildren anymore.

Which is worse, having cancer or having cancer and not knowing that you do until it's too late to cure it? We should be thankful for Trump. It is not........

Which is worse, having cancer or having cancer and not knowing that you do until it's too late to cure it? We should be thankful for Trump. It is not too late to cure the cancer of hatred. What do we care enough to do so? Probably not. But we can't say we didn't know in time. The cancer is not from. The cancer is not our sisters and brothers who voted for Trump. The cancer is the hatred practiced by the Democratic Party Kama by the Republican Party, by liberal apathy, by conservative hatred and discrimination.

***** Friends, I owe it to us all, I owe it to the Future, to be really clear. I consider my harshness out of extreme tough love, a virtue. My virtue? A virtue. I'm at War. I am at all out War for.......

Friends, I owe it to us all, I owe it to the Future, to be really clear. I consider my harshness out of extreme tough love, a virtue. My virtue? A virtue. I'm at War. I am at all out War for the future of all creation. How would you expect a warrior, me, or anyone, to be? What kind of intensity? What kind of dedication? What kind of devotion? What kind of Demands on them self? What kind of seriousness of purpose, Focus? What kind of personal risk? What kind of personal pain? A soldier in the midst of a firefight, you do not expect harshness of such an individual? Would you not question , Wonder at, have doubts about, a soldier in the midst of a firefight that was unwilling, and never seen to be, extremely profoundly harsh even toward beloved fellow soldiers? I sure the f*** would. I consider myself a soldier though a soldier of peace,  as did Gandhi before me. I say again, until we see millions of soldiers, soldiers, soldiers, soldiers ... of Peace there is not a f****** shred of Hope. Millions, millions, millions, millions.... I can't be Millions. But I will be one. If you are not or cannot become one who Embraces what I'm saying you probably should detach from me for your own peace of mind and so that we use each other's time well and do not misuse it.

***** The central questions of life are, right now, where does Creation need me to be, what right now does Creation need me to attempt? Only those who every breath live those questions, make of their life an answer to those questions, have the ultimate human experience of feeling Alive.

The central questions of life are,  right now,  where does Creation need me to be,  what right now does Creation need me to attempt? Only those who every breath live those questions,  make of their life an answer to those questions,  have the ultimate human experience of feeling Alive.

The physical risk of trying to be a decent, a Godly, human being in the world has just gone up enormously.

The physical risk of trying to be a decent,  a Godly, human being in the world has just gone up enormously.

Do you work for God, the nine year old boy asked? I I try to, I responded. This at the Aldi on the southside of Chicago in a poor part of town.

Do you work for God, the nine year old boy asked? I try to, I responded. This at the Aldi on the southside of Chicago in a poor part of town.

Are you a Christian? You love America? Ru for Palestine and against Israel? Unbelievably hideous , dishonest......

Are you a Christian? You love America? Ru for Palestine and against Israel? Unbelievably hideous , dishonest, ignorant, hateful questions. Are you a Christian? What does that mean? Do you hate gays or give your life to protect them? Do you hate undocumented immigrants or give your life to protect them? Do you hate transgendered people or give your life to protect them? Do demonize the poor or give your life to protect them? Do you hate Muslims or give your life to protect them? Do you love America? See the above. Are you against Israel and for Palestine? Are you for your wife's side of the family or your own? Do you love your sons and hate your daughters or do you love your daughters and hate your sons? Am I a Christian? My religion is trying to be like Christ, trying to be completely loving. Do I love America? I love what I was taught in kindergarten. I hate the way we behave in the world today. I am for the human rights of everyone, Israelis, Palestinians, whites, blacks, Christians, Muslims, liberals, conservatives, etc etc etc.

BIAS, against any individual or group is discrimination, bigotry , Racist, elitist, evil, unacceptable, dehumanizing, sin. No honest, no........

BIAS, against any individual or group is discrimination, bigotry , Racist,  elitist, evil, unacceptable, dehumanizing, sin,  anti-Christ. No honest, no sane, individual can believe or assert that America, that the u.s. people, that law enforcement, the government, is not biased against exactly those who Jesus Championed, exactly those who Jesus elevated, exactly those who were the Center of Jesus family. The disadvantaged,  the minorities, poor, the different, the marginalized, the weak, the unreligious, the unpopular, those of a different faith, the non-conformist.... That one received such negative bias, or the group that receive such negative bias, not for an instant does it justifying or forgive bias against in return. Love those who persecute you. Do good to those who persecute you. They will know you by how you love. I don't know about your father, but my Father loves every individual exactly the same , and experiences immense pain with even a disrespectful,  harmful,  unkind word thought or uttered toward one of His children. Okay, he loves those who experience bias against them, more. As you do unto the least of these, the least of these my Family, every creature, you do unto me.

Dear friends, notice: I see this very very infrequently among my small circle, but those few that Express themselves, that experience themselves, as quote against the other side, unquote it's time for this to stop or for us to unfriend each other. I have hope in, and........

Dear friends, notice: I see this very very infrequently among my small circle, but those few that Express themselves, that experience themselves, as quote against the other side, unquote it's time for this to stop or for us to unfriend each other. I have hope in, and I only have time to affiliate with, those who are for every creature unconditionally, and against every Injustice unconditionally. No exceptions.  Never against another creature, including another human being. Never. Never. Never against another group, not for any breath, ever. Against Injustice? With all our might. Against bigotry? With all our might. Against oppression, violence? With every fiber of our being. Never ever us against them. Don't do it, or we need to stop wasting each other's time. Militants,  passionately, VA, forcefully, relentlessly , unequivocally for the dignity, sanity, rights, good, fundamental needs of every creature, especially every human being, or we need to stop wasting each other's time. No exceptions. No exceptions for even a moment. It's too little too late for that. Whenever you see me doing it please call me out.

Bigotry and racism, even the slightest hint of bigotry and racism is precisely, exactly, completely, totally the perfect thing to do if one wants to be anti Christ. The exact center and the Heart of his.......

Bigotry and racism, even the slightest hint of bigotry and racism is precisely, exactly, completely, totally the perfect thing to do if one wants to be anti Christ. The exact center and the Heart of his ministry was embracing those that others had made Outcast, the Sinners, the sick, the weak, the poor,  the neglected and abused,  the unbelievers, the criminals,  the government, those shamed and Damned by the religious of the day. How much more unforgivable,  sinful, today when we have known of his example for two thousand years. Unforgivable. Soul killing. Desecration of Christ when done by those that claim to follow him.  "I like your Christ. I do not like your Christians. They are so unlike your Christ." "There would be no more Hindus if Christians would practice their faith." Gandhi. "I think the greatest obstacle to people becoming Christian is those who preach the gospel and do not follow it." Teresa of Calcutta  "We need to preach the gospel, every day, all day long, and occasionally, use words, to do so." Francis of Assisi

***** I have never been so wealthy, because these last four weeks , from trying to do good, I was poor and helpless. My first five decades I.........

I have never been so wealthy, because these last four weeks , from trying to do good, I was poor and helpless. My first five decades I had material wealth that makes me cringe with regret. These last four weeks I have had the wealth of community such as I never imagined I would live to see. Part of it is lds. I could never share their origin beliefs in my soul. Not possible for me. Nor would I want to. But as my teacher Jesus said, they will know you by how you love, and these folks love. They are denomination was seems to be producing loving people such as I have never hoped to see. Part of it is living among those who have not embraced our cultural ways , our worship of material wealth. Here in this part of the country the true economy is profoundly different,  deep opposite. In my Northern sophisticated life the first, second, third, fourth lines of defense are money. Here in the country South Part I have been in those lines of Defence are neighbors,  friends,  strangers who you know and don't know. These folks are so much more Rich than we poor over privileged Northerners. So much more wealthy. And, hear this, we Northerners endure our economy for the pitiful Pleasures it gives us. The economy down here that I have witnessed is intrinsically joyful. Infinitely more than we Northerners, there is intrinsic worth and what these folks do. Growing stuff. Feeding folks. Helping folks. Serving folks. Building Community with folks. Flow is a concept that every video game programmer knows. Mahalo csikszentmihalyi University of Chicago found that the human being is the most gratified when it is totally absorbed in the challenge, Pursuits, for which she or he has adequate skill, like a video game, but those whose whole life is like that AR living a life that makes a difference to their neighbors, a positive difference. The most joyful population he and his researchers found in the world was a farming community off-grid, out of all communication, in the northern Italian Alps. That's what I've been in these last 4 weeks. Tens or hundreds of years ahead of us. Perfect? Oh my goodness no. The only thing that shouts louder than their protests that they are not racist or bigoted as their racism and bigotry. That must change. For their very Souls that must change. But they are way ahead of us sophisticated Northerners. Their economy is infinitely more Rich, more sustainable , more Godly. Part of the ugliness that they do evidence, may be a large part, is out of the fear of the ever more powerful Northern Elite crushing all that is Good, Godly,  Christlike ,  that they have. It is understandable that they would act out hateful,  in horror and Terror.  had I not been poor, vulnerable, helpless because I was trying to help others, I would never have encountered this. What a Divine gift. What a divine blessing. I will be infinitely wealthier because of this, forever.

Thanks to my brother Wayne Critsky for sharing this scripture with me. "Found this in the Bible. But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. 2 People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, pro.........

Thanks to my brother Wayne Critsky for sharing this scripture with me. "Found this in the Bible.
But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. 2 People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, 3 without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, 4 treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— 5 having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with such people.

6 They are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over gullible women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires, 7 always learning but never able to come to a knowledge of the truth. 8 Just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses, so also these teachers oppose the truth. They are men of depraved minds, who, as far as the faith is concerned, are rejected. 9 But they will not get very far because, as in the case of those men, their folly will be clear to everyone."

LDS. No offense to anyone, I have long believed.......

LDS.  No offense to anyone, I have long believed that God, and Good, are the same thing. Exactly,  completely,  no exception,  nothing added. I Maybe the last in the world to have thought this, or among the first. If you know of others that think the same, particularly any scholarship, I certainly would like to know. I'm more convinced of it all the time. God is good, and we hate good. In this sick culture, we hate good. But not the LDS folks that I continue to meet, they do not seem to hate good, but rather they seem to love it. I can't see the strings attached. I can't see them. Yesterday I asked the extremely able and kind man who contacted me out of the blue, alerted by his North Carolina LDS brother to my needs, I asked him how my North Carolina brother found him. Well, I guess he just searched through our directory. Today I went to the 9 o'clock service, and I'm so glad I did. What a collection of kind loving Godly Souls I believe I saw. Who's the president of this LDS branch? My brother Steve who without a hint helped me all day yesterday. water, absolute, complete humility. From what I see so far the denomination could with even greater Clarity, I'm not suggesting this, I'm trying to share an Insight, the denomination could call themselves The Brothers and Sisters of Jesus. And thereby they would identify themselves clearly as the Brothers and Sisters to people in need that they seem to be. They don't seem to have sermons, and they don't seem to have a preacher. They are each the preachers, in the same way that each Marine in a Marine base is a Marine. What a novel idea. Of the two major speakers today, the man spoke of one of the primary works of their Church, monthly in home teaching. This role is something they speak of quite often it seems, as I heard it spoken of at their televised National Conference 2 weeks ago. What they continue to hammer home is that it is not simply teaching, or preaching, and in fact it may contain little or any of that depending upon the situation. The example he gave was of a teacher, I don't remember if he was the one or not, and the teacher is just any congregation member currently holding that roll, a teacher going to conduct the monthly visit to a trailer, they entered the trailer, and they saw there was no furniture. And they realized that their role that day was to secure furniture for these folks. The same man, a bit younger than me, bespoke that he had converted to LDS. He said as I recall, that as a new convert, it so happened that his Field of Corn had blown flat. It was now winter time and it was an impossible job to clear his 9 Acres of all of this corn. He described how in a previous denomination they had work parties. He explained that he was favored with one of those and was very appreciative of the four people that showed up to help. He was told by his new LDS congregation that they were going to come on Saturday in work party. He was very grateful and he prepared for the four people that would show up. The 40 people were able to complete 1/3 of the nine acres in one day. Yes, 40 people showed up. 40. 4 0. The bishop of the congregation, the head guy, no one in the entire denomination in the world is paid although a few receive a cost-of-living support if it would be impossible for them to cover all of their own expenses, the bishop had and executed an idea of bringing in a large combine and the rest of the nine acres was cleared. Dr. Martin Luther King said, a church is the place people go out from from. Although I am against almost all military force, and almost all of the disgusting military force that the United States employs to rape and plunder people around the world, I am a deep admirer of the courage displayed by many men and women in uniform which is why I wear military attire proudly. For decades now I have believed that a place worthy the name of church is a place where people go to become equipped and trained to deploy on missions,  and now my 3rd or 4th or 5th or 6th major LDS encounter this last month with no strings attached, but if they're there they will make themselves clear to me because I'm hyper sensitive to that. I don't think that's going to happen. I see humility, desire to change and become an Ever greater force for good, honesty, kindness. A desire to Everyday to become a greater source of good individually and collectively. Really really simple. I am certain no one is trying to deceive me. I am fairly certain that they have not deceived themselves. I am so extraordinary happy with what I'm seeing.

Maybe I've never shared this, among the most important gifts I've ever received. About 15 years ago I......

Maybe I've never shared this, among the most important gifts I've ever received. About 15 years ago I embarqed toward the journey that has captured me ever since. Leaving the ways of our culture, 180 degrees in the opposite direction, from working to make rich people richer, like me, to lived solidarity from the soul serving our neediest sisters and brothers. It was Joyful from the start. There was never, has never been, the tiniest portion of a instant when I've been other than overjoyed with this total change of direction. It is pretty much muscle memory for me now, but not so at the beginning. It could not have been. It was natural for me, I think it is the natural path we were all born to. But our sick culture strips us away from that path, thinking it virtue to do so to its children, and puts us on exactly the opposite, exactly the wrong path. And we gain muscle memory for that and our nervous system literally and actually atrophies for the correct path. So it takes tremendous work and experience for that to be recreated. Really in my departure on this path I found it useful to imagine that there is a creator of us all, a parent figure that unconditionally loves us all. For me then and now God is love, life, and Truth. Period.  People like Teresa and Gandhi said the same, and most if not all of those who throughout history I Revere lived the same. That was an understanding in my head but it was also something more and more clearly felt in my spirit. It became tangible for me in that way. I had a wonderful warm feeling, tremendous peace, each moment that I experienced myself as in creators will. And then I received the gift. From my earliest memories I was obsessed with the female form and all things sexual toward that form. For most of my decades, carefully taught by my culture in a trillion ways, I thought that virtue. I was carefully addicted to all of the lists that our society worships but I'll speak of this one for the moment. The gift I received was in the form of a question that came to my mind, as I was following my inclination to admire a shapely female form, the question came to me, is that that you are now starting to direct your attention toward, is that toward or away from God? The answer was instantaneous for me, instantly and comfortably clear, away from. Yes, I can hear the chorus arguing otherwise. I'm speaking what I experienced then, and with every breath since. The answer for me was instantaneous, that's away from being a vessel for love, life, and Truth. It is turning away from love, toward lust, toward my selfish inclinations, away from serving the neediest from the soul in solidarity. It was then instantly clear to me that turning away from the pure Spirit of love, life, and Truth, was not the choice I wanted to make then. And it has never been the choice since then that I have wanted to make, in any instant. Experientially for me it is not about right and wrong. It is not about guilt or not being guilty. It certainly has nothing to do with an afterlife in which I have zero belief. For me it is simply a matter of now having a mechanism that enables me to pursue Joy rather than pleasure, Joy being infinitely more gratifying in any and every moment then pleasure. I don't know that this could make sense to anyone beside me. Or maybe everyone beside me learned it much earlier and knows that much better. I don't know that it can be helpful to anyone beside me. But it has saved me from wasting even moments on Pleasure when there was an infinite Divine banquet of Joy there before me,   and before all of us I believe, with every breath we take. But it is all but completely obscured behind the Avalanche, the ocean, the universe, love sick country messages inundating us from our pathological, suicidal, malignant culture telling us exactly the opposite. So without mechanisms such as I just mentioned it is almost impossible to choose the joyful path from moment to moment.. James

A common love, reverence and awe as the man Jesus possessed, such as the people of love and reverence and awe almost universally have for the man Jesus, is uniting some of us above all other obvious divisions, such as my appearance. I've been.......

A common love, reverence and awe as the man Jesus possessed, such as the people of love and reverence and awe almost universally have for the man Jesus, is uniting some of us above all other obvious divisions, such as my appearance. I've been encountering it over and over in my  Voyage Through the South and I've been writing of it. I never expected to see it, or to personally experience it. But undeniably I am these recent weeks. My brother David says I may be playing some role in that. I don't see it. I don't understand it. But I hope I am. I want to more than anything else in the world. Nothing else will save us, in Jesus name, or no name at all. A mass Awakening of the humanity that Jesus embodied is the only thing that can give our children, grandchildren, all species in the future, a future worth living.  I Think Jesus said something like what has overwhelmed and possessed my life, 'I came to bring a fire and oh how I wish it were raging.'

EFLIUS Day 43: Okay, the joke's over. I'm ready for this to stop. The chain snapped and......

EFLIUS Day 43: Okay, the joke's over. I'm ready for this to stop. The chain snapped and the vehicle is marooned here in beautiful country in the middle of absolutely nowhere in terms of access to a bike store, Walmart, a hardware store with a bike chain.... The good news is a kindly and very expert bikeguy about 4 weeks ago thought to give me a chain repair kit. The bad news is that the pieces that join the repaired chain are the wrong size which I figured out after an hour of trying to get the chain together. Using the phone of an elderly farmer and his wife who so kindly stopped with this ragamuffin weird looking guy. They let me use the phone. Offered to transport the vehicle and the truck but it was too small. Did I mention that I'm literally 40 miles away from any place where my cell phone, or internet access might work? That ended about 3 o'clock in the afternoon yesterday. Oddly, at 4 this morning the 2G Wi-Fi was able to send a few things. Currently I'm in a small restaurant recharging batteries, eating at the buffet, recharging the body,  using the Wi-Fi. I anticipate sleeping sitting up in the Food Lion parking lot the next two nights. I hope the police have a sense of humor. The farmer went around the bend to a fellow he knew and arranged for me to charge my batteries, depleted after a 3000 foot, six hour climb. Charged the batteries for 2 hours talking to the extremely Charming couple. Everyone said, the climbing is behind you. Then there was another 1200 feet, huge. I'm exhausted. Marooned here until late Monday afternoon when parts arrive via UPS. Another $50 bled. This is a town of 400. There is one stop light. It is the only stoplight in the entire huge County. I am not deriding it. It's wonderful. It's just hell for my current situation. There is a hotel, $100 a night. That's not going to happen. I'm so tired. I'll be fine. I'm ready for the jokes to stop stop. this is Trivial trivial trivial trivial in comparison with the people that are really suffering. But yes, I'm ready for the jokes to stop.

Does conservative all too often mean, holding......

Does conservative all too often mean,  holding on to traditions of profound evil hateful selfishness years,  decades or even centuries longer than liberals? Does liberal near always mean, Lip-service not Life-service? {yes.  No? Have you liquidated and returned every cent of your liberal white economic  privilege,  built on the backs of black slaves, and on native American genocide?)

Racism is when, even for one breath, even for one sentence, one word, one thought, one tiny act, you value others less than those of your race. Bigotry, discrimination, are when you do so based on any demographic.

Racism is when, even for one breath, even for one sentence, one word, one thought,  one tiny act, you value others less than those of your race. Bigotry,  discrimination, are when you do so based on any demographic.

The hope is, there is profound commonality between conservative and liberal , secular and religious, values. The problem is, both sides, use their values as mortal weapons, clubs, words to gain access to their respective mobs so that they can overpower the other side, rather than something to live by without excuse.

The hope is, there is profound commonality between conservative and liberal , secular and religious, values. The problem is, both sides, use their values as mortal weapons, clubs, words to gain access to their respective mobs so that they can overpower the  other side, rather than something to live by without excuse.

Jesus' Miracle, the miracle of Jesus, was his unconditional love, Universal family , solidarity with all of creation, specially the neediest. I don't know......

Jesus' Miracle, the miracle of Jesus, was his unconditional love, Universal family , solidarity with all of creation, specially the neediest. I don't know if Christianity, Christians, are blind to this or if they hate it, or both. But from the very beginning what they have done is absolutely bury the miracle of Jesus underneath worldly Miracles they made up and sell in his name. The rare exceptions prove the rule. For the vast majority it is not lies that they tell intentionally. Someone I have never heard of blindsided me with an email the other day, you belittle Jesus, I was told. No. The church for 2000 years belittles Jesus, obscures, perverts, burries, distorts, Jesus. Not I.

EFLIUS Day 39: Hopefully Wednesday looks like a realistic departure on the 1700 mile, 33000 foot climb, to North Dakota. Pretty.....

EFLIUS Day 39: Hopefully Wednesday looks like a realistic departure on the 1700 mile, 33000 foot climb, to North Dakota. Pretty dangerous. Pretty good mission. I'm absolutely bleeding money into this vehicle. It's all appropriate. I just don't have it. Nothing left for warm clothes and food. when I set out I thought I'd be in Florida by now. It went down to 48 degrees last night. I found out that my sleeping bag is good to about 50. LOL. Maybe you have friends that would like to contribute. I'll press on regardless. I'm really glad for the mission. Some wonderful folks have taken me in and helped me repair the vehicle. But it has been agony being marooned for 3 weeks now.... < if there is a true activist alive today, I know that individual, and that individual just asked how they can contribute. I sensed you were in trouble. How can I help?" They already contribute everything they have and everything they are to the world's neediest. This was my reply>: Start_loving@yahoo.com, but not from you! How many times did I tell you you can't take a transfusion from your left arm and put it into your right arm? LOL. See if you can shame some of your friends into it. PayPal works with the email address, and pop money. With the email address. Western Union also works. Western Union is more difficult because apparently they need to know what state you're in. If my current schedule holds I should be in West Virginia by this weekend, and Ohio early next week. But we still could hit a snag with the vehicle. It has been totally not operational for two weeks +.  Dead. The factory owner is so freaking psychotic that when at the suggestion of one of their employees I showed up with it at their site for a two-hour repair I would gladly have paid through the nose for they said, get this off the property. You are two months out of warranty. Get this off the property.  Organic Transit, Durham North Carolina. $200 in repair has turned into $800 in new electrical system purchased and probably another $800 in donated labor and three weeks delay to the mission. Incredibly cruel. The vehicle will be much more durable now, much more durable, and I expect that it will be my vehicle, my boat, my solar Fusion bike car sailor, the free Palestine vehicle, for as many years as I can proceed. So in the long run it will pay off, but my credit cards are hemorrhaging to death. If I can get past the next three months I'll be okay, but it's pretty tight right now..... A wonderful family has taken me in, and he is a world-class expert in large Plant automation Electronics. But not in ebike so there has been much learning and trial and error. And the experts in the field are nice folks but they like designing and selling but not helping so much. But it appears that the worst is behind us and tomorrow things may wrap up. They have just been incredible in unflinchingly supporting me for weeks now. They are a North Carolina Southern conservative family while they both are professional people, he is former Army, and I have learned a tremendous amount by being here.... There may not be many families in the South that would have taken me in, but there would be fewer families in the north that would take me in,   and way more that would help me,  in the south. There may be families in the South that will kill me, and possibly fewer in the north that would. LOL. My incredible activist friend also asked about, what about a bus ticket to ND, put the vehicle in storage? My reply:  The vehicle is really Central to my work. The voyage is Central to my work. I'm sure of that. It can draw, it does draw, so much positive attention to Palestine, global warming, renewable energy,  North Dakota,  Loving,  Universal Family. No, the journey is everything. 'You are right,' my friend said.

EFLIUS Day 32: I have rarely in my 65 years felt less alien than I have this last week or so in rural North Carolina. Unlike my Northern, liberal......

EFLIUS Day 32: I have rarely in my 65 years felt less alien than I have this last week or so in rural North Carolina. Unlike my Northern, liberal, Brethren, these folks , like me, are people of feeling, passion, not near exclusively of the head and flesh. They have an affection and regard for Jesus, as do I, and as so many of my liberal brethren either do not or pay the most superficial self-serving lip service to.  But I am mightily concerned for them and their impact on the world which otherwise could be so positive, because I think they're headed into this kind of exit conversation with Jesus, and I think it's going to go badly for them, and badly for us all: "Jesus, because of the Liberals, because of the government, because of taxes, because people didn't reach out to the churches,... I was unloving to the... I was not courageously loving to... I did not do unto the least of these... The gays, the poor, the blacks, the pregnant mother, the unwanted child, the poor child, the transgendered, the drug dealer, the Muslim, the Arab,  the Refugee, the undocumented immigrant, the Palestinian, the liberal, the intellectual Elite , all future creatures including human regarding global warming.... The Liberals made me do it, the government made me do it, taxes make me do it, laws dictated by the cities made me do it, coming for my guns made me do it,  their beliefs... Their lack of belief... Their behavior... Their lack of behavior... Made me do it... and instead I sat in Judgment of them. Jesus, as I know him, and what do I know, but as I know and follow him, he didn't give us any excuses. What he gave us was the example of the Good Samaritan. The levite had all the reasons not to stop, and did not stop. The priest had all the reasons not to stop,  and did not stop.... to help the wounded enemy who did not reach out. The Samaritan simply saw a neighbor in need and devoted himself to the task. In this story of the Good Samaritan, in every utterance of Jesus, and every example Jesus gave us, I see no place that he gives us any excuses. Love as I have loved. As you do unto the least of these you do unto me, as you do not do unto the least of these you neglect and abuse me. You break my heart. And judgment is mine alone to make. Do unto others all, all, all, all, all that you would have them do unto you. To speak the laughably obvious, I am not God, therefore I know no perfect truth, but I do my best, I pay any price personally, to see and share the truth is I've come to know it. Love the enemy, bless those who persecute you. Love unconditionally. Agape. What I'm saying is not between me and my sisters and brothers in the rural South. Nothing should be between them and me. Everything should be between us and the Creator. But as a brother I am obligated, joyfully so, regardless what the personal cost to Me May be, I am obliged to share what I think I need to share with my sister and or brother. So I do. So I will with my last breath. And yes, I think that the exit conversation between my liberal sisters and brothers will go at least as badly if not more so with Jesus at their end.

I'm dead, if I'm on the eastbound side of that blind curve yesterday around which came.....

I'm dead, if I'm on the eastbound side of that blind yesterday around which came a huge logging truck at 60 miles an hour throwing huge clouds of dust. There's no way he stops. There's no way I get out of the way. I don't even see him. That's it. The trucks travel these roads at highway speed. It will be interesting. Regarding death my only personal wish, a mild one, but my only personal wish is that it happens quickly and painlessly.

If the choice is between Trump, Clinton, and America totally disintegrating, I think that America totally disintegrating is Far and Away the best choice for creation, the universe, Americans, and certainly the rest of the world and all creatures.

If the choice is between Trump, Clinton, and America totally disintegrating, I think that America totally disintegrating is Far and Away the best choice for creation, the universe, Americans, and certainly the rest of the world and all creatures.

***** EFLIUS Day 25. Working in the office here, today. Office work. Slept upstairs last night, first secure night on this voyage. Listened to......

EFLIUS Day 25. Working in the office here, today. Office work. Slept upstairs last night, first secure night on this voyage. Listened to the rain all night, well, those few moments that I was awake. Gladly promised the Godly young son of The Godly proprietor (this convert to Mormonism, LDS, in this substantially LDS community, reflexively offered his upstairs for me to rest for the night, the first person to even think of doing so on this long journey, here there was room at the Inn for the night) I told him gladly that his son could drive the Free Palestine Solar Fusion Sailor while waiting for the bus this morning. I slept through my alarm and didn't wake up except in time to see the bus departing out the upstairs window. I've rarely been so horrified. I can't remember the last time I've been so horrified at anything I've done. One thought was to use the day to retrieve the part I need from Durham which would be A 6 hour round trip, 7 hour round trip. Another was to occupy NC State in Greensboro, another 7 hour round trip. I can certainly use a day of office work in this Godly little Enclave. I may be romanticizing it but I don't think I am. It's 60 years ago... in 2016... a time machine.  As an ignorant northern white guy I expected to see racial tensions. What I see here, in Durham, and elsewhere where I have seen the races mixed in the south,  is  One race, the human race,  1 family, the Human family, as people treat one another.  Of course I'm not seeing the whole picture, but I'm seeing part of the picture.  It is certainly, what I have been exposed to, not more racially divided, and I am pretty sure less racially-divided, than the northern world that I've always lived in. They may or may not think of themselves this way, but it's family,  extended family, Universal family , the family Jesus died to create, Creator's Family,  regardless of religious background or affiliation. I don't know, but I would bet, that when anyone needs help, when someone is in trouble, when someone needs looking after,  the Community does it without thinking about it. Black white Filipino hispanic..... Everyone knows everyone's name. Everyone is respectful. Everyone is warm. Everyone knows everyone. They gather here and talk. It is a large extended family. Aside from my homeless shelter in DC I think this is the first fully, actually, comfortably, joyfully, integrated Community I've ever been in. Is there hate here? I suspect so. Is it perfect? I'm sure it is not. People seem happy. They are hundreds of years ahead of the rest of us, I suspect. There is much to be done here today online. Many many thousands of Google alerts I've not had the time to look at in the last month. Dozens or hundreds of Articles to cue up for the coming trip. Today I should be able to come to an understanding of the amount of watts that I need to budget per thousand foot climb, a project that I've worked on but have not yet mastered. Maybe some cleanup of the website blog. And by departing after the school bus arrives and Noah gets his ride I should be able to make it halfway,  20 mi, to the location where my part arrives at 10:30 tomorrow morning and do the rest tomorrow morning retaining the departure schedule I was on already. When I say I'm going to do something I always do it. It's selfish, I like the way that feels, and I like the way of being that is. A person is no better than their words. No other than their word. Their word means something or they mean nothing. And he is such an extraordinarily good young man. The whole family. If you pick up your cross it will cost you husband wife house Fields, but it will give you a hundred fold in this lifetime, connection with those people, no credit to themselves, that have retained some portion, or regained some portion, of their godliness. Godliness, loving, Universal family, is the only Beauty, the only thing lovely, the only thing that I value in this life. It is the Divine by whatever word or none at all. Oh,  LOL. And I'll have time to bathe. There is a partially working bathtub in the upstairs here, largely disassembled but at least hot and cold running water. I was offered the opportunity last night, of course, but I just went comatose right away. So everyone in the future on this trip can be thankful for that. Lol. Some Americans are so poor that all they have is money, and the rest of us Americans insanely want to be so poor. Madness. PS. Hey liberals, these are the folks you ridicule. These are the folks you deride. These are the folks you consider yourself so Superior to. You know what? These are not the folks grotesquely over consuming and thereby destroying the planet. That would be you. These are not the folks with all their grandiose ideas destroying the world. That would be you. These are not the scientists developing GMOs, pesticides, Advanced Weaponry, high speed Trading, drones, electronic surveillance systems , that would be you scientist 90% liberal. Every one of these folks has been so kind to me. I suspect every one of the non colored folks is a trump supporter. With my two Advanced degrees, Ultra sophisticated Northern upbringing, this is one of the very few places I have ever felt like I was not an alien, one of the few places that ever felt like home.

### A Gay Jewish Zionist American Doctor in Gaza and What He Saw

http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2014/09/22/a-gay-jewish-zionist-american-doctor-in-gaza-and-what-he-saw.html

I'm deeply studied it in the historical scholarship on the man Jesus. His Central concern.......

I'm deeply studied it in the historical scholarship on the man Jesus. His Central concern in the day was how brutally grinding cruel forces of Empire we're forcing people to dehumanize, the social structure of human bonds one to another to disintegrate. This was what he gave his life to prevent. Exactly the same forces are destroying the last remnants of humanity in 2016. Were he alive today he again would pit his life against the destruction of individual and group Humanity Above All Else. And that's my mission too . He failed utterly. I too expect to fail utterly. But he did not fail to try. I shall not fail to try.

EFLIUS Day 23: The African American man, if not homeless, One Step Above, looks like you have a whole bunch of work out here, he said. Yes sir, I said. I have seen you.......

EFLIUS Day 23: The African American man, if not homeless, One Step Above, looks like you have a whole bunch of work out here, he said. Yes sir, I said. I have seen you working here and working and working. Yes sir, I said. Hey, I said, will you give me a hand for a second? Sure, he said. Bolts needed to be tightened while I held pressure on a certain part of the vehicle. He happily helped. It took just a moment literally. Hey, have you taken a lunch break? I said, I'm fine thanks. Can I get you a chicken sandwich at McDonald's?. Truly friend I'm fine, but thank you so much. God bless, he said, as so many of the kind people who stop say. In this death bed sick, malignantly cancerous, virulent Society, some are so poor that all they have is money, and the rest of us are trying to be among them.  2. Success. Two days ago I projected that two major projects could take 4 hours to 4 days to resolve. It appears that in two days they are now both resolved. Probably I'm too tired to move on today. There are some tiny things on the vehicle that need to be done. I'm likely to do those. And be in a strong position for a strong start on 1700 miles, 33,000 feet of climbing, to North Dakota to stand against the corporate Frankenstein monster that is in the final stages of destroying everything. Test driving might prove otherwise but it looks like repairs, modifications, enhancements, are coming to a close,  and the exploration can resume . James