Entropy wins by default.
posted from Bloggeroid
5.20.2014
no detail. Linda K, All of us can be great because all of us can serve (can BE Loving). MLK Jr.
Linda K, All of us can be great because all of us can serve (can BE Loving). MLK Jr.
posted from Bloggeroid
no detail. I am totally and completely incapable of forgiving because I am totally and completely of the understanding that all evil is error. It is organismacly impossible for anyone of us in any instant to do worse than the very best that we know. I am profoundly capable of being upset with someone and especially with situations and circumstance, but incapable of being upset AT anyone, ever. I guess it is a profound stupidity I've always had and always will. Or maybe it's just a kind of intelligence, Loving, i think. It is what it is. There is nothing that does not feel like a part of my body - no person, no creature, no plant , no rock.... How can I hold a grudge against my arms, or my foot, or my nose? So how could I forgive?
I am totally and completely incapable of forgiving because I am totally and completely of the understanding that all evil is error. It is organismacly impossible for anyone of us in any instant to do worse than the very best that we know. I am profoundly capable of being upset with someone and especially with situations and circumstance, but incapable of being upset AT anyone, ever. I guess it is a profound stupidity I've always had and always will. Or maybe it's just a kind of intelligence, Loving, i think. It is what it is. There is nothing that does not feel like a part of my body - no person, no creature, no plant , no rock.... How can I hold a grudge against my arms, or my foot, or my nose? So how could I forgive?
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5.19.2014
***** Loving, Update....
***** Update: My computer was destroyed several days ago by a deranged fellow in the shelter who poured a large cup of coffee into it while I had stepped away for a moment. He has since been barred from the shelter, but he did not go to jail, because I refused to press charges. I felt being barred from the shelter, this clinically sick man, would be enough consequence to learn from, if he can and will.
But the wound of having my computer, near 100% of my means of contributing to the world, destroyed, is a very, very deep wound. And it was a devastating reminder that despite the 12 hours a day, 7 days a week, I use it to attempt to serve... aside from some words of kindness from a few, only one evidenced the slightest concern that he take personal responsibility to help insure that my work continues. It may be that this is fully an indictment of me - that my work is worthless - literally. Or, it may be an indication of how dead even my closest 'friends' are.
No one that has followed my work could miss that central to my view of our impeding, imminent global cataclysms... is what Einstein said, and that I quote often: "The world will not be destroyed by those who do evil, but by those who do nothing to stop them." It might be that the absence of any serious support for my work is that even those that have followed me at all closely... have zero conception (by historical measures) of paying even a paltry price for change - even when what is at stake is utter torture, forever, of their younger children, and grandchildren - forever; cuz that is exactly what is at stake - burning at the stake.
I don't know why the following has been the impact on me of this devastating loss, alongside the deep pain in my chest - the profound clarity that I am not an Alysian any more, and that near everyone I know, Scott and D being the definite exceptions... are Alysians. It may be that half a dozen others responded with no offers of help because they too are near destitute, in truth.
This clarity will inform whatever work I do going forward. I was born an Alysian, and lived in Alysium for my first 45 years or so (middle to upper class). I had a sense of terror all my life of falling to earth. I've been in a long, slow, leap toward earth, deliberate... for about 15 years now. Although there is much fear and pain associated with that, at each step... I have felt more healthy, more human, more alive, more sane, more like I was ending the divorce of my human family, and rejoining them. I've never had a moment's regret in all this time, except at being an Alysian all those many decades.
But with the severe trauma of two days ago... I have a profoundly increased clarity of this - that I've left Alysium, by choice, that I choose my destitute family members on destroyed earth - to be with them, 100% solidarity with them, stand with them, stand for them, with my entire being, for as many breaths as I'm given going forward.
All Alysians are my family too, but they don't need kindness from me anymore - it only enables them to stay the brutal oppressors that they are (Earth has become a zero sum game - Alysians by definition have more, way more, than their global share. That, THAT, is what crushes the rest of the world, and the US masses, into destitution.)
I've been drawn to invest countless months recently in the academic scholarship concerning the man Jesus. To this day, throughout my lifelong adoration of Him, there has not been a moment, to my shame maybe, that I've done something because of Him. But often, after I've come to a new revelation, I look back and am informed by His teaching, and life. And now is very much one of those times. Jesus could have written what I just wrote above, cept he was born to destitution and made a religion of 100% lived solidarity of, by, for, with them. His total affinity, his 100% solidarity... was with those on 'earth,' helping them find Heaven in their lives despite the crushing evil of the world - the crushing, deadly, torturing weight of the Elysians of that day. I've just summarized for you the current, most scholarly history of Jesus. It is not what we've been told, but it is unmistakably true.
Jesus was of, by and for the destitute, and against the blight of the world - the living in Elysium. How could I have been so blind, for so many decades?
If anyone has read this far, I offer this help toward understanding, 'seeing,' what I couldn't see for 45 years or so. There were as many as 200 million native americans living here before the Alysians arrived - Columbus and all the rest of us. What was life like here before we Alysians arrived? Near 100% community. Near 100% adequate housing, food, meaningful work... for all. Enough for all, for ALL. ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING, FOR ALL. ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING, FOR ALL. ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING, FOR ALL.
Yes, there were no iPads, no internet, no cable TV, no cities, no suburbs.... If you think ANY of us are better off then the native Americans before Coumbus, well, you and I will never understand each other.
And then we Alysians arrived. America had enough... for the people of earth; but not once the Alysians began their insatiable rape, plunder, greed, wealth, possessions - lower middle class and up.
Jesus saw this in His part of the world, EXACTLY, 2000 years ago. His Elisians were the Romans AND the Educated, over privileged Jews - the top 20% - the Elysians... squeezing the very life out of the majority - ELYSIANS CAN ONLY HAVE MORE THAN THEIR SHARE BY TAKING FROM THE SHARE OF EACH AND EVERY ONE OF THE MASSES - WHO ONLY HAD 'ENOUGH' TO BEGIN WITH. THAT'S THE MATH. THAT'S THE PHYSICS. THAT'S THE TRUTH. EVERYTHING ELSE IS A LIE.
NOTHING has changed since Jesus day, except for the worse. And now, in as few as two or three more generations it will be EXACTLY as stark as we saw in Elysium, or worse, much much worse.
I will no longer be a part of Elysium, for which I'll pay every material price... but my Soul. I'm pretty much with the earthlings now, am pretty much AN earthling now, and will fight unviolently, lovingly, at their side with all I'm worth, for us all, with every expectation of making near zero difference; cept in my own life - I'll be alive, fully alive, not a walking dead Elysian like I was.
But the wound of having my computer, near 100% of my means of contributing to the world, destroyed, is a very, very deep wound. And it was a devastating reminder that despite the 12 hours a day, 7 days a week, I use it to attempt to serve... aside from some words of kindness from a few, only one evidenced the slightest concern that he take personal responsibility to help insure that my work continues. It may be that this is fully an indictment of me - that my work is worthless - literally. Or, it may be an indication of how dead even my closest 'friends' are.
No one that has followed my work could miss that central to my view of our impeding, imminent global cataclysms... is what Einstein said, and that I quote often: "The world will not be destroyed by those who do evil, but by those who do nothing to stop them." It might be that the absence of any serious support for my work is that even those that have followed me at all closely... have zero conception (by historical measures) of paying even a paltry price for change - even when what is at stake is utter torture, forever, of their younger children, and grandchildren - forever; cuz that is exactly what is at stake - burning at the stake.
I don't know why the following has been the impact on me of this devastating loss, alongside the deep pain in my chest - the profound clarity that I am not an Alysian any more, and that near everyone I know, Scott and D being the definite exceptions... are Alysians. It may be that half a dozen others responded with no offers of help because they too are near destitute, in truth.
This clarity will inform whatever work I do going forward. I was born an Alysian, and lived in Alysium for my first 45 years or so (middle to upper class). I had a sense of terror all my life of falling to earth. I've been in a long, slow, leap toward earth, deliberate... for about 15 years now. Although there is much fear and pain associated with that, at each step... I have felt more healthy, more human, more alive, more sane, more like I was ending the divorce of my human family, and rejoining them. I've never had a moment's regret in all this time, except at being an Alysian all those many decades.
But with the severe trauma of two days ago... I have a profoundly increased clarity of this - that I've left Alysium, by choice, that I choose my destitute family members on destroyed earth - to be with them, 100% solidarity with them, stand with them, stand for them, with my entire being, for as many breaths as I'm given going forward.
All Alysians are my family too, but they don't need kindness from me anymore - it only enables them to stay the brutal oppressors that they are (Earth has become a zero sum game - Alysians by definition have more, way more, than their global share. That, THAT, is what crushes the rest of the world, and the US masses, into destitution.)
I've been drawn to invest countless months recently in the academic scholarship concerning the man Jesus. To this day, throughout my lifelong adoration of Him, there has not been a moment, to my shame maybe, that I've done something because of Him. But often, after I've come to a new revelation, I look back and am informed by His teaching, and life. And now is very much one of those times. Jesus could have written what I just wrote above, cept he was born to destitution and made a religion of 100% lived solidarity of, by, for, with them. His total affinity, his 100% solidarity... was with those on 'earth,' helping them find Heaven in their lives despite the crushing evil of the world - the crushing, deadly, torturing weight of the Elysians of that day. I've just summarized for you the current, most scholarly history of Jesus. It is not what we've been told, but it is unmistakably true.
Jesus was of, by and for the destitute, and against the blight of the world - the living in Elysium. How could I have been so blind, for so many decades?
If anyone has read this far, I offer this help toward understanding, 'seeing,' what I couldn't see for 45 years or so. There were as many as 200 million native americans living here before the Alysians arrived - Columbus and all the rest of us. What was life like here before we Alysians arrived? Near 100% community. Near 100% adequate housing, food, meaningful work... for all. Enough for all, for ALL. ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING, FOR ALL. ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING, FOR ALL. ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING, FOR ALL.
Yes, there were no iPads, no internet, no cable TV, no cities, no suburbs.... If you think ANY of us are better off then the native Americans before Coumbus, well, you and I will never understand each other.
And then we Alysians arrived. America had enough... for the people of earth; but not once the Alysians began their insatiable rape, plunder, greed, wealth, possessions - lower middle class and up.
Jesus saw this in His part of the world, EXACTLY, 2000 years ago. His Elisians were the Romans AND the Educated, over privileged Jews - the top 20% - the Elysians... squeezing the very life out of the majority - ELYSIANS CAN ONLY HAVE MORE THAN THEIR SHARE BY TAKING FROM THE SHARE OF EACH AND EVERY ONE OF THE MASSES - WHO ONLY HAD 'ENOUGH' TO BEGIN WITH. THAT'S THE MATH. THAT'S THE PHYSICS. THAT'S THE TRUTH. EVERYTHING ELSE IS A LIE.
NOTHING has changed since Jesus day, except for the worse. And now, in as few as two or three more generations it will be EXACTLY as stark as we saw in Elysium, or worse, much much worse.
I will no longer be a part of Elysium, for which I'll pay every material price... but my Soul. I'm pretty much with the earthlings now, am pretty much AN earthling now, and will fight unviolently, lovingly, at their side with all I'm worth, for us all, with every expectation of making near zero difference; cept in my own life - I'll be alive, fully alive, not a walking dead Elysian like I was.
If you haven't seen the movie Elysium, you should. Then ask yourself the question... if you were a character in the movie... do you live on earth, or on Elysium. 90-99% of the people I know act as though they live on Elysium, or are likely to do so. Just sayin. And maybe they are ok with that.
If you haven't seen the movie Elysium, you should. Then ask yourself the question... if you were a character in the movie... do you live on earth, or on Elysium. 90-99% of the people I know act as though they live on Elysium, or are likely to do so. Just sayin. And maybe they are ok with that.
5.18.2014
My computer was destroyed yesterday by a deranged fellow here in the shelter who poured a large cup of coffee into it while I was in the bathroom. I do not expect to try and replace it. I cannot justify the expense based on the 0 good my efforts have made so far.
My computer was destroyed yesterday by a deranged fellow here in the shelter who poured a large cup of coffee into it while I was in the bathroom. I do not expect to try and replace it. I cannot justify the expense based on the 0 good my efforts have made so far.
posted from Bloggeroid
5.17.2014
5.14.2014
I think that Jesus was actually not of this world. Hear me now. I think his mental world was totally not one that the rest of the world shared. He saw 'our' world as a nightmare... and the established 'world' saw His, and Him... as a nightmare, Crazy, Insane. I need to do the same as Jesus. I need to completely leave this world, this nightmare, as Jesus did, in Life. If enough people become Crazy enough to leave the nightmare world, and enter the Heaven world (mindset, world view, Being...), by that number the nightmare world dies, and the Heaven world comes to earth. You need to do the same.
I think that Jesus was actually not of this world. Hear me now. I think his mental world was totally not one that the rest of the world shared. He saw 'our' world as a nightmare... and the established 'world' saw His, and Him... as a nightmare, Crazy, Insane. I need to do the same as Jesus. I need to completely leave this world, this nightmare, as Jesus did, in Life. If enough people become Crazy enough to leave the nightmare world, and enter the Heaven world (mindset, world view, Being...), by that number the nightmare world dies, and the Heaven world comes to earth. You need to do the same.
5.12.2014
5.11.2014
***** I can think of only one person in history that could lead us away from our now near irreversible destruction - Jesus. What if one, two, 10... of us devoted our lives, our very beings, to channeling him into our Souls, so Truly, so Totally that we all but disappeared, and He was brought back into the world? I find that I may be among those called to make the attempt. Christlikeness as Religion. Loving. Universal Family. 100% solidarity with the destitute. Every breath, whatever the personal price; however crazy. Jesus Revolution again brought to earth, tried on earth, one last time. This may well be the focus of what remaining time I’m given here. I think anything less may be insane now.
I
can think of only one person in history that could lead us away from
our now near irreversible destruction - Jesus. What if one, two, 10...
of us devoted our lives, our very beings, to channeling him into our
Souls, so Truly, so Totally that we all but disappeared, and He was
brought back into the world?
I find that I may be among those called to make the attempt.
Christlikeness as Religion. Loving. Universal Family. 100% solidarity with the destitute. Every breath, whatever the personal price; however crazy. Jesus Revolution again brought to earth, tried on earth, one last time.
I find that I may be among those called to make the attempt.
Christlikeness as Religion. Loving. Universal Family. 100% solidarity with the destitute. Every breath, whatever the personal price; however crazy. Jesus Revolution again brought to earth, tried on earth, one last time.
This may well be the focus of what remaining time I’m given here.
I think anything less may be insane now.
I think anything less may be insane now.
5.10.2014
link. vid. Loving, here: This is an early on, somewhat idle musing: I don't control what food is available to me as a homeless person, but I can choose from what is put before us, and have dramatically reduced, 75%, my intake of animal products. I expect this to be for the rest of my days. It seems a no-brainer, for my heart. I've had the inclination since college, but other distractions kept me from the path I'm now on. The thought - what if I were to die from some deficiency, B12, or something? Yes, I know the likelihood is miniscule, but, what if? I say bring it on, let me die. I don't want to live if that can only be at the expense of the near infinite suffering of my fellow creatures, who are part of me.
This
is an early on, somewhat idle musing: I don't control what food is
available to me as a homeless person, but I can choose from what is put
before us, and have dramatically reduced, 75%, my intake of animal
products. I expect this to be for the rest of my days. It seems a
no-brainer, for my heart. I've had the inclination since college, but
other distractions kept me from the path I'm now on. The thought - what
if I were to die from some deficiency, B12, or something? Yes, I know
the likelihood is miniscule, but, what if? I say bring it on, let me
die. I don't want to live if that can only be at the expense of the
near infinite suffering of my fellow creatures, who are part of me. http://vimeo.com/1753971
5.07.2014
***** link. Photo: We'd like to introduce our #YEARSProject Correspondent, the amazing Ian Somerhalder, taking your questions here on our Years of Living Dangerously page for the next 30 minutes... ready, set, GO! NO EXCUSES. SHOWTIME IS FREE FREE FREE... THIS WEEKEND. SPREAD THE WORD. "YEARS OF LIVING DANGEROUSLY IS MUST SEE. ALL OF CREATION IS DEPENDING ON YOU.
NO EXCUSES. SHOWTIME IS FREE FREE FREE... THIS WEEKEND. SPREAD THE WORD. "YEARS OF LIVING DANGEROUSLY IS MUST SEE.
ALL OF CREATION IS DEPENDING ON YOU.
ALL OF CREATION IS DEPENDING ON YOU.
5.06.2014
De Blasio Unveils $41 Billion Plan for Affordable Housing NYC
New
York Mayor Bill de Blasio presented plans to build and preserve 200,000
units of affordable housing in the next decade by increasing rent...
Bloomberg News
Loving, update. I may be back living on the streets within the week. (detail)
I heard this story years ago:
A convent of long ago had been broken into several times, so the Mother Superior gathered all the sisters and told them, 'From now on the gate to the convent is to be bolted from midnight until 6am, without fail. No one is to be allowed to enter when the gate is bolted, no matter what, no matter who.' Some months later the Mother Superior was called out one afternoon on an urgent errand of mercy. She was kept very, very late. On her way back to the convent it began to storm, a horrible storm. She arrived after midnight, and dutifully, she was not allowed in. So she circled the walls of this convent hoping to find an open window or side door. The storm got worse, the rain poured, the wind howled, a branch knocked her over flat on her back in a huge puddle, she was dreanched, covered in mud.... She looked up into the sky and said, "Lord, now I understand. You are sooooooo harsh on those who truly try to serve Your Will, it is no wonder that you have so few true followers."
Not inappropriately all the 250 men over 50 on my floor were called to a meeting yesterday on the floor: "Unless you have a plan to get out of here, case worker, housing plan being pursued... that you show us in writing, within the month, you will be put out of here, immediately."
I have no plan, nor will I, because I refuse to play this game of western culture Musical Chairs / Hunger Games... any longer. For 7 years or so now I've lived my vow of donating EVERY breath, EVERY dollar, to the neediest of my human family, as I could reach... and that is not going to change. I've just come back from an attempt to inform the social worker of this, to find out how quickly he wants me out. He was not in.
Back to work.
A convent of long ago had been broken into several times, so the Mother Superior gathered all the sisters and told them, 'From now on the gate to the convent is to be bolted from midnight until 6am, without fail. No one is to be allowed to enter when the gate is bolted, no matter what, no matter who.' Some months later the Mother Superior was called out one afternoon on an urgent errand of mercy. She was kept very, very late. On her way back to the convent it began to storm, a horrible storm. She arrived after midnight, and dutifully, she was not allowed in. So she circled the walls of this convent hoping to find an open window or side door. The storm got worse, the rain poured, the wind howled, a branch knocked her over flat on her back in a huge puddle, she was dreanched, covered in mud.... She looked up into the sky and said, "Lord, now I understand. You are sooooooo harsh on those who truly try to serve Your Will, it is no wonder that you have so few true followers."
Not inappropriately all the 250 men over 50 on my floor were called to a meeting yesterday on the floor: "Unless you have a plan to get out of here, case worker, housing plan being pursued... that you show us in writing, within the month, you will be put out of here, immediately."
I have no plan, nor will I, because I refuse to play this game of western culture Musical Chairs / Hunger Games... any longer. For 7 years or so now I've lived my vow of donating EVERY breath, EVERY dollar, to the neediest of my human family, as I could reach... and that is not going to change. I've just come back from an attempt to inform the social worker of this, to find out how quickly he wants me out. He was not in.
Back to work.
5.05.2014
article. Pope Francis wants a 'Poor church, for the poor." Uh, that would be me.
Pontiff criticises 'profiteers and climbers' within Catholic church as he begins overhaul of scandal-hit Vatican bureaucracy
The Guardian
5.04.2014
pic “ The future of everything we have accomplished since our intelligence evolved will depend on the wisdom of our actions over the next few years,” since “ these years may be the last when civilization still has the wealth and political cohesion to steer itself towards caution, conservation and social justice.” In other words, “ the 10,000-year experiment of the settled life will stand or fall by what we do, and don’t do, now.” Ronald Wright’s “A Short History of Progress”
pic. MUSICAL CHAIRS I was very young. I don't recall the location, setting.... Might have been nursery school... my first exposure to Musical Chairs. I don't recall ever being more horrified, terrified, scared, repulsed, revolted... I was supposed to enjoy a 'game' of racing to try and get a chair and to be elated that it was someone else, not me, left wiithout a place? I can still feel the terror. It is the terror I feel when I think about our western culture, our US culture, because that’s EXACTLY the game - MUSICAL CHAIRS. I REFUSE TO PLAY, WHATEVER THE PRICE TO ME PERSONALLY. NO MORE.
5.01.2014
The only Revolution: Lived, total, solidarity with the Global Neediest. I strongly suspect that there is only one true Revolution possible for the human species - past, present, future. And the only time it ever has been tried to my knowledge, is for several decades during and after the life of Jesus. That Revolution? Lived, total, solidarity with the Global Neediest. "The Golden Rule is to steadfastly have what millions cannot have," is how Gandhi said it. "Do unto others ALL that you would have them do unto you," is how Jesus Lived it, and how He or his followers, said it.
The only Revolution: Lived, total, solidarity with the Global Neediest. I strongly suspect that there is only one true Revolution possible for the human species - past, present, future. And the only time it ever has been tried to my knowledge, is for several decades during and after the life of Jesus. That Revolution? Lived, total, solidarity with the Global Neediest. "The Golden Rule is to steadfastly have what millions cannot have," is how Gandhi said it. "Do unto others ALL that you would have them do unto you," is how Jesus Lived it, and how He or his followers, said it.
4.30.2014
***** Update re Loving: Accelerating withdrawal
Hi. Sorry, still haven't gotten to some or all of your notes. Hectic....
I'm successfully feeding the bed bugs, and also the lice. Yes, I take measures to fend them off - sprays, shampoo's, etc.
Out of funds so greatly disrupted internet.
Got really screwed by Verigin Mobile, long story, but they deceived me big time and cost me $200 bucks in worthless equipment and service. Deep sigh. My fellow activist, living in her tipi (I think) down south, heard, and said 'I need your work to continue' and despite repeated repeated repeated protest from me, is sending $200 that should get me back on line, for 2 months (I'll get her back soon.)
Before the $ ran out I was doing intensive internet activism, near every waking second - Global Warming, trying to win back Democracy from the jaws of Fascism, Oligarchy... Species rights... reclaiming the Truths of what Jesus did and did not teach....
The rest of my time is spent in arduous, finally productive... deep study of the deep scholarship on Jesus, the only guy in history that maybe could have lead us away from the final cliff we are racing toward.
Have also watched several MUST SEE documentaries: Earthlings (YouTube), The One Percent (full, free YouTube), Inequality for All (Amazon), Years of Living Dangerously 1, 2, 3 *(see nobe next sentence BEFORE clicking); Forks Over Knives (changed James Cameron's life). (Those who wish to view likewise can find many online for free, or on The Pirate Bay* if they are careful not to get caught. *NOTE: Install "Add Block Plus" into your browser FIRST, as I have, and you won't see all the porn garbage there).
If you want to understand me as I further withdraw, as fast and far as I can from our Godless, Ecocidal, Speciescidal, Creationcidal, Cruel, Barbaric, Mean, Disgusting, Inhumane, Deadly, Torturous, Gluttonous ... UN-Civilization, as my residing with the fellow destitute in this shelter exemplifies, watch these. Also, read the consummate Jesus scholar, Dominik Crossan's career, life capping work, "God and Empire: Jesus against empire, then and now."
I pray now that I find I've returned to being enough of a human to withdraw near-fully from any and all animal, fellow creature, products.
((((HUGS))))
ps: I sense, tho I don't yet 'see,' that my 'withdrawal' is not a retreat, or self-sheltering... in withdrawing from our western culture, now our world culture, I am moving to new ground... and maybe thereby stumbling toward the new ground, the new way of being, the new culture, the True Civilization... we must find individually, and collectively (yes, near impossible) if there is to be a 3rd generation of humans from now.
Loving u forever, no matter what
I'm successfully feeding the bed bugs, and also the lice. Yes, I take measures to fend them off - sprays, shampoo's, etc.
Out of funds so greatly disrupted internet.
Got really screwed by Verigin Mobile, long story, but they deceived me big time and cost me $200 bucks in worthless equipment and service. Deep sigh. My fellow activist, living in her tipi (I think) down south, heard, and said 'I need your work to continue' and despite repeated repeated repeated protest from me, is sending $200 that should get me back on line, for 2 months (I'll get her back soon.)
Before the $ ran out I was doing intensive internet activism, near every waking second - Global Warming, trying to win back Democracy from the jaws of Fascism, Oligarchy... Species rights... reclaiming the Truths of what Jesus did and did not teach....
The rest of my time is spent in arduous, finally productive... deep study of the deep scholarship on Jesus, the only guy in history that maybe could have lead us away from the final cliff we are racing toward.
Have also watched several MUST SEE documentaries: Earthlings (YouTube), The One Percent (full, free YouTube), Inequality for All (Amazon), Years of Living Dangerously 1, 2, 3 *(see nobe next sentence BEFORE clicking); Forks Over Knives (changed James Cameron's life). (Those who wish to view likewise can find many online for free, or on The Pirate Bay* if they are careful not to get caught. *NOTE: Install "Add Block Plus" into your browser FIRST, as I have, and you won't see all the porn garbage there).
If you want to understand me as I further withdraw, as fast and far as I can from our Godless, Ecocidal, Speciescidal, Creationcidal, Cruel, Barbaric, Mean, Disgusting, Inhumane, Deadly, Torturous, Gluttonous ... UN-Civilization, as my residing with the fellow destitute in this shelter exemplifies, watch these. Also, read the consummate Jesus scholar, Dominik Crossan's career, life capping work, "God and Empire: Jesus against empire, then and now."
I pray now that I find I've returned to being enough of a human to withdraw near-fully from any and all animal, fellow creature, products.
((((HUGS))))
ps: I sense, tho I don't yet 'see,' that my 'withdrawal' is not a retreat, or self-sheltering... in withdrawing from our western culture, now our world culture, I am moving to new ground... and maybe thereby stumbling toward the new ground, the new way of being, the new culture, the True Civilization... we must find individually, and collectively (yes, near impossible) if there is to be a 3rd generation of humans from now.
Loving u forever, no matter what
4.28.2014
***** Important FB dialog. Pls read: "Ah Loving, but your judgments come across very harshly sometimes...." (DETAIL)
S:
Ah Loving, but your judgments come across very harshly sometimes. As in this little discussion. Pushing people to act more boldly, more deeply, actually effectively - I hear you and am with you. Commenting as if the people who don't go far enough are doing more harm than good - I'd like to see you win them over instead.
Loving:
S, thank you for your honest and thoughtful comment. 'Winning people over' is not my job, never has been, never will be. It may be someone's job in this, but it is not mine. My mistake is in forgetting that.
Did you ever see 'An Officer and a Gentleman?' Officer Foley, one of the greatest icons of Loving I've ever seen in literature, media.... He trained naval aviators, and if he failed, they died. He had only weeks with them to get the job done. Like me, he didn't go after these recruits, he didn't invite people in. But he was there for those who came; and he was the quintessential HARSH. I don't try to emulate him, but he comes to mind in dialogs like this, which many, many times I've had throughout my adulthood, and my last decade in full time advocacy.
I try to warn folks that come near me, as anyone that knows me would have to acknowledge.
My calculation is that the kids of today will NOT thank the environmental 'adults' of today for being so nice, encouraging, kind, patient... as they are. They will scream at us, in their minds if only there, WHY DIDN'T YOU WAKE US THE F UP, OR DIE TRYING??? WHY DIDN'T YOU GET THRU TO US HOW HARSH IT IS???? WERE YOU AFRAID OF HURTING OUR FEELINGS, WHEN OUR LAST CHANCE SECONDS TO SAVE AN EARTH FOR US AND OUR CHILDREN WERE DWINDLING???!?!?!?!? YOU AFFORDED YOURSELVES THE LUXURY OF IGNORING THE SCIENCE, JUST LIKE THE FOLKS ON THE RIGHT - THE SCIENCE SAID NOW OR NEVER, YOUR BEHAVIOR TO US SAID - OH, IT'LL ALL WORK OUT - IGNORE THE PLAIN AS DAY HISTORY OF THE TERRIBLE PRICE THAT CHANGE COSTS THE ACTVISTS.... JUST 'DO YOUR BEST,' DO WHAT IS CONVENIENT, SAFE, PAINLESS.... YOU WEREN'T OUR FRIENDS, YOU WERE OUR ENABLERS.
There is really 'nasty' stuff said by the left regarding the right. I'll guess my friends on the left aren't horrified by much of that. Why? Because they see in those missiles a prayer that it will 1. wake up some on the right; and 2. it will heighten the alarm felt by some on the left. What I do is allow myself to discover, LIVE and speak the historically unprecedentedly HARSH Truth as best and honestly as I can, where those who may want to hear can hear it, which so far is a rapidly dwindling, miniscule few. What I do is not really so different from what the left does as a mainstay to the right; I'm not so much more harsh, than what I see the left offering the right; but the left has such a deadly, cowardly, double standard - they dish it out but reject it coming at them, at any price. I ALLOW NO DOUBLE STANDARDS IN MY LIFE; NO ONE SHOULD.
S, this is an old, old, old... dialog with me on this subject, going back years before we met. OF COURSE I may be entirely wrong in most or all I've said here. I am convinced by a life dedicated to being a catalyst for high-stakes change, I am not wrong.
The right is clinically insane in this country. The left is no less so. That is a clinical judgement on my part, not a taunt, jab, attempt to be nasty.... The deadliest disease on earth is on the left, because it is on the left that any remaining shred of hope lies. That disease is unrecognized self-centeredness, cowardice, self-protection... no matter what; and by comparison to any and every major rights struggle in history that is glaringly, BLARINGLY, true.
I'll not stop studying, Living, and speaking the Truth on that as best I can. I expect to make no difference. I expect to die friendless, literally, I'm pretty close to that now (the one place I make unerring progress. LOL). I'll not stop trying to do my part, the tip of the spear part, of what is lacking, to the best of my ability. (((((((HUGS))))))
ps. What amazes me is when folks travel near to me, and don't leave; AND PERIODICALLY I PREEMPTIVELY WARN THEM. At first, (and second and third...) they don't understand my warnings. But finally, near all, do, and leave.. My Loving is unconditional, including when they leave. I don't invite folks in. That is for the spirit, not me; or for others to do, which they pretty much never do.
pps: It is NEVER my place to try to 'push others to do more.' NEVER. BUT IT IS MY ULTIMATE RESPONSIBILITY AS A BROTHER TO OFFER THAT OPPORTUNITY, WHICH I WILL DO, WHATEVER IT COSTS ME, WITH MY LAST BREATH.
ppps: YES, I don't know ANYONE THAT AGREES WITH ME ON ANY OF THE ABOVE. But know that it is totally clear to me that I'm in the right ball-park. Occasionally, on FB and elsewhere, don't we each love the posts talking about the lone seeker that bucks the trend, and stands for the truth, no matter what? Come on, we all love that one. But we on the left, never think that it could be that we as a group are wrong, and that anyone could rightly be that individual standing apart, and Lovingly against, what we are doing, not doing, thinking, saying. NO, NOT US? Really? "The world will not be destroyed by people who do evil, but by those who watch it and do nothing." Who do we think Einstein was referring to as the 'the good people!??!?!" The right wingnuts of his day?
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S:
Yes, Einstein was referring to us.
No, it's not everybody's job to win people over. It's not my job either... except that since I say my job is consciousness change, I guess it is. And you are attempting to change the consciousness of the Left - and I agree with your direction. I just don't see it happening. The thousand hunger strikers would have been effective. Well, maybe. Maybe 100,000 would be required. Why didn't I join you? Maybe because I thought it would be impossible. Maybe because I wanted things I would have lost.
The fact that people keep hanging around you proves that you are less alone than you think. Your opinions are more shared than you think. We all differ a bit in how we think it ought to be presented - strategy.
Could we form an alliance perhaps, of those who did read this note, to support each other in actually making the change?
I'm perhaps doing the least of anyone here. Sure, something could have happened on the Walk, but we minimized risk by minimizing confrontation. Now I'm going to grow food - small and local benefit - and asking myself what next to do to stop the climate from changing.
S:
I commented on the web page. Thank you for respecting me enough to listen and reply.
Loving:
S, there will never come a day I don't respect you, or any person, or any creature; unless and until I Die as the person I strive to be. I read your comment on the website, of course.
WHAT WE ARE DISCUSSING HERE IS THE HARDEST THING IN THE WORLD - MOVING FROM THE HEAD TO THE HEART. I KNOW THAT IT IS THE ONLY THING THAT CAN SAVE US. I KNOW IT HAS NEVER HAPPENED EN MASSE, FOR OTHER THAN BRIEF MOMENTS IN HISTORY. I KNOW THAT THE LIKES OF THE BEST WE'VE EVER SEEN HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO MAKE MORE THAN A DENT - EVEN THE LIKES OF JESUS, BUDDHA.... WHY? BECAUSE IT IS THE HARDEST THING IN THE WORLD FOR HUMANS. BUT NOTHING LESS CAN SAVE US.
I AM NOT SMART ENOUGH TO KNOW WHO CAN MAKE THE JUMP, WHEN. IT ISN'T MY BUSINESS, NEVER WILL BE.
It is TOTALLY my business to make the jump myself, every day, every breath, as pitifully and ineptly as I may do it, and thereby do the most I can to help others make a similar choice. The only thing in the world I can change is me, and that, I'll pay any and every personal price to do.
WE'RE TALKING ABOUT THE HARDEST THING IN THE WORLD. Please know, I totally get that.
And I have ZERO illusion that I'll ever really be any help to anyone in this. But I'll give my every and last breath to the attempt, of that I am certain. Nothing else matters.
Introjection: "Example is not the major thing in influencing people; it is the only thing." Albert Schweitzer, maybe my favorite quote of all time. "My life is my message," is Gandhi saying it a different way. Our heads know there are dire emergencies. BUT OUR LIVES DO NOT SHOUT THAT. AND OUR LIVES, NOT OUR WORDS, ARE WHAT THE ONLOOKERS, THE BENCH SITTERS, THE UNDECIDEDS LEFT RIGHT AND CENTER... ARE WATCHING. SO ALL EVIDENCE TO THEM IS - THERE IS NO EMERGENCY!
The only thing I know is that stopping Global Warming (in time, by definition) WILL COST AN UNGODLY PERSONAL PRICE BY THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE. THERE IS NO FREE LUNCH. AND A SMALL PRICE BY MILLIONS WON'T DO IT. THERE MUST BE A FIRE OF INTENSE HEAT, AND ONLY INDIVIDUALS UNMISTAKABLY BURNING CAN DO THAT. 'She who would give light, must endure burning." Eleanor Roosevelt.
There is no ideal strategy, approach, idea, campaign... that will stop this. BUT IF THERE ARE EVER 2, THEN 10, THEN 100, THEN 1000... INDIVIDUALS PAYING THE PRICE, ONE OF THEM, ALL OF THEM... COULD START THE BLAZE.
((((((HUGS)))))) to you all, forever.
Loving:
I owe you all to be more of a Sgt Foley, not more approachable, not more gentle, kind, encouraging... but less. I confuse those around me otherwise. I am not here on earth to be 'friends' with anyone. I am here to be a friend TO EVERYONE, starting with the neediest, born, and to be born. Sgt. Foley, over and out.
S:
I'll have to watch that film. When you write like you did above, you inspire me to do more.
Ah Loving, but your judgments come across very harshly sometimes. As in this little discussion. Pushing people to act more boldly, more deeply, actually effectively - I hear you and am with you. Commenting as if the people who don't go far enough are doing more harm than good - I'd like to see you win them over instead.
Loving:
S, thank you for your honest and thoughtful comment. 'Winning people over' is not my job, never has been, never will be. It may be someone's job in this, but it is not mine. My mistake is in forgetting that.
Did you ever see 'An Officer and a Gentleman?' Officer Foley, one of the greatest icons of Loving I've ever seen in literature, media.... He trained naval aviators, and if he failed, they died. He had only weeks with them to get the job done. Like me, he didn't go after these recruits, he didn't invite people in. But he was there for those who came; and he was the quintessential HARSH. I don't try to emulate him, but he comes to mind in dialogs like this, which many, many times I've had throughout my adulthood, and my last decade in full time advocacy.
I try to warn folks that come near me, as anyone that knows me would have to acknowledge.
My calculation is that the kids of today will NOT thank the environmental 'adults' of today for being so nice, encouraging, kind, patient... as they are. They will scream at us, in their minds if only there, WHY DIDN'T YOU WAKE US THE F UP, OR DIE TRYING??? WHY DIDN'T YOU GET THRU TO US HOW HARSH IT IS???? WERE YOU AFRAID OF HURTING OUR FEELINGS, WHEN OUR LAST CHANCE SECONDS TO SAVE AN EARTH FOR US AND OUR CHILDREN WERE DWINDLING???!?!?!?!? YOU AFFORDED YOURSELVES THE LUXURY OF IGNORING THE SCIENCE, JUST LIKE THE FOLKS ON THE RIGHT - THE SCIENCE SAID NOW OR NEVER, YOUR BEHAVIOR TO US SAID - OH, IT'LL ALL WORK OUT - IGNORE THE PLAIN AS DAY HISTORY OF THE TERRIBLE PRICE THAT CHANGE COSTS THE ACTVISTS.... JUST 'DO YOUR BEST,' DO WHAT IS CONVENIENT, SAFE, PAINLESS.... YOU WEREN'T OUR FRIENDS, YOU WERE OUR ENABLERS.
There is really 'nasty' stuff said by the left regarding the right. I'll guess my friends on the left aren't horrified by much of that. Why? Because they see in those missiles a prayer that it will 1. wake up some on the right; and 2. it will heighten the alarm felt by some on the left. What I do is allow myself to discover, LIVE and speak the historically unprecedentedly HARSH Truth as best and honestly as I can, where those who may want to hear can hear it, which so far is a rapidly dwindling, miniscule few. What I do is not really so different from what the left does as a mainstay to the right; I'm not so much more harsh, than what I see the left offering the right; but the left has such a deadly, cowardly, double standard - they dish it out but reject it coming at them, at any price. I ALLOW NO DOUBLE STANDARDS IN MY LIFE; NO ONE SHOULD.
S, this is an old, old, old... dialog with me on this subject, going back years before we met. OF COURSE I may be entirely wrong in most or all I've said here. I am convinced by a life dedicated to being a catalyst for high-stakes change, I am not wrong.
The right is clinically insane in this country. The left is no less so. That is a clinical judgement on my part, not a taunt, jab, attempt to be nasty.... The deadliest disease on earth is on the left, because it is on the left that any remaining shred of hope lies. That disease is unrecognized self-centeredness, cowardice, self-protection... no matter what; and by comparison to any and every major rights struggle in history that is glaringly, BLARINGLY, true.
I'll not stop studying, Living, and speaking the Truth on that as best I can. I expect to make no difference. I expect to die friendless, literally, I'm pretty close to that now (the one place I make unerring progress. LOL). I'll not stop trying to do my part, the tip of the spear part, of what is lacking, to the best of my ability. (((((((HUGS))))))
ps. What amazes me is when folks travel near to me, and don't leave; AND PERIODICALLY I PREEMPTIVELY WARN THEM. At first, (and second and third...) they don't understand my warnings. But finally, near all, do, and leave.. My Loving is unconditional, including when they leave. I don't invite folks in. That is for the spirit, not me; or for others to do, which they pretty much never do.
pps: It is NEVER my place to try to 'push others to do more.' NEVER. BUT IT IS MY ULTIMATE RESPONSIBILITY AS A BROTHER TO OFFER THAT OPPORTUNITY, WHICH I WILL DO, WHATEVER IT COSTS ME, WITH MY LAST BREATH.
ppps: YES, I don't know ANYONE THAT AGREES WITH ME ON ANY OF THE ABOVE. But know that it is totally clear to me that I'm in the right ball-park. Occasionally, on FB and elsewhere, don't we each love the posts talking about the lone seeker that bucks the trend, and stands for the truth, no matter what? Come on, we all love that one. But we on the left, never think that it could be that we as a group are wrong, and that anyone could rightly be that individual standing apart, and Lovingly against, what we are doing, not doing, thinking, saying. NO, NOT US? Really? "The world will not be destroyed by people who do evil, but by those who watch it and do nothing." Who do we think Einstein was referring to as the 'the good people!??!?!" The right wingnuts of his day?
---------------------
S:
Yes, Einstein was referring to us.
No, it's not everybody's job to win people over. It's not my job either... except that since I say my job is consciousness change, I guess it is. And you are attempting to change the consciousness of the Left - and I agree with your direction. I just don't see it happening. The thousand hunger strikers would have been effective. Well, maybe. Maybe 100,000 would be required. Why didn't I join you? Maybe because I thought it would be impossible. Maybe because I wanted things I would have lost.
The fact that people keep hanging around you proves that you are less alone than you think. Your opinions are more shared than you think. We all differ a bit in how we think it ought to be presented - strategy.
Could we form an alliance perhaps, of those who did read this note, to support each other in actually making the change?
I'm perhaps doing the least of anyone here. Sure, something could have happened on the Walk, but we minimized risk by minimizing confrontation. Now I'm going to grow food - small and local benefit - and asking myself what next to do to stop the climate from changing.
S:
I commented on the web page. Thank you for respecting me enough to listen and reply.
Loving:
S, there will never come a day I don't respect you, or any person, or any creature; unless and until I Die as the person I strive to be. I read your comment on the website, of course.
WHAT WE ARE DISCUSSING HERE IS THE HARDEST THING IN THE WORLD - MOVING FROM THE HEAD TO THE HEART. I KNOW THAT IT IS THE ONLY THING THAT CAN SAVE US. I KNOW IT HAS NEVER HAPPENED EN MASSE, FOR OTHER THAN BRIEF MOMENTS IN HISTORY. I KNOW THAT THE LIKES OF THE BEST WE'VE EVER SEEN HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO MAKE MORE THAN A DENT - EVEN THE LIKES OF JESUS, BUDDHA.... WHY? BECAUSE IT IS THE HARDEST THING IN THE WORLD FOR HUMANS. BUT NOTHING LESS CAN SAVE US.
I AM NOT SMART ENOUGH TO KNOW WHO CAN MAKE THE JUMP, WHEN. IT ISN'T MY BUSINESS, NEVER WILL BE.
It is TOTALLY my business to make the jump myself, every day, every breath, as pitifully and ineptly as I may do it, and thereby do the most I can to help others make a similar choice. The only thing in the world I can change is me, and that, I'll pay any and every personal price to do.
WE'RE TALKING ABOUT THE HARDEST THING IN THE WORLD. Please know, I totally get that.
And I have ZERO illusion that I'll ever really be any help to anyone in this. But I'll give my every and last breath to the attempt, of that I am certain. Nothing else matters.
Introjection: "Example is not the major thing in influencing people; it is the only thing." Albert Schweitzer, maybe my favorite quote of all time. "My life is my message," is Gandhi saying it a different way. Our heads know there are dire emergencies. BUT OUR LIVES DO NOT SHOUT THAT. AND OUR LIVES, NOT OUR WORDS, ARE WHAT THE ONLOOKERS, THE BENCH SITTERS, THE UNDECIDEDS LEFT RIGHT AND CENTER... ARE WATCHING. SO ALL EVIDENCE TO THEM IS - THERE IS NO EMERGENCY!
The only thing I know is that stopping Global Warming (in time, by definition) WILL COST AN UNGODLY PERSONAL PRICE BY THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE. THERE IS NO FREE LUNCH. AND A SMALL PRICE BY MILLIONS WON'T DO IT. THERE MUST BE A FIRE OF INTENSE HEAT, AND ONLY INDIVIDUALS UNMISTAKABLY BURNING CAN DO THAT. 'She who would give light, must endure burning." Eleanor Roosevelt.
There is no ideal strategy, approach, idea, campaign... that will stop this. BUT IF THERE ARE EVER 2, THEN 10, THEN 100, THEN 1000... INDIVIDUALS PAYING THE PRICE, ONE OF THEM, ALL OF THEM... COULD START THE BLAZE.
((((((HUGS)))))) to you all, forever.
Loving:
I owe you all to be more of a Sgt Foley, not more approachable, not more gentle, kind, encouraging... but less. I confuse those around me otherwise. I am not here on earth to be 'friends' with anyone. I am here to be a friend TO EVERYONE, starting with the neediest, born, and to be born. Sgt. Foley, over and out.
S:
I'll have to watch that film. When you write like you did above, you inspire me to do more.
4.27.2014
I'm flat out of funds, so internet communication will be more sporadic for me now.
I'm flat out of funds, so internet communication will be more sporadic for me now.
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