11.02.2013
Needing Previously owned winter jacket - my 16 hour per day home. Last spring police threw all our stuff out as a periodic offering to real-estate barons.
Hello. Please be on the lookout for a
winter home for me. I've explored several avenues
and so far no luck. And, I'm not currently on the street where they could be handing things out now.
Last spring police threw all our stuff out as a periodic offering to real-estate barons and tourists.
Non-urgent for a few more weeks, hopefully.
I have zero expectations, but if you think you have something, please let me know
so I can avoid duplicate work by someone else (start_loving at yahoo dot com)
MUST MEET SPECS - I KNOW WHAT WILL WORK AND WHAT NOT:
* PREVIOUSLY OWNED - ZERO COST TO ACQUIRE, BY ANYONE. NON-NEGOTIABLE; PLEASE NO GAMING ON THIS POINT.
* NOT TOO ATTRACTIVE: 1. LEAVE 'ATTRACTIVE' FOR OTHERS; 2. NOT
ATTRACT MUGGER OR POLICE ATTENTION.
* DARK COLOR (SEE ABOVE # 2). NOT SHOW DIRT. MILITARY, MARINE, A PLUS.
* LARGE, STRONGLY ATTACHED, HOOD WITH DRAW STRING.
* LARGE TO XL FOR LOTS OF LAYERING
* MEDIUM WEIGHT FOR MODERATE DAYS.
* WIND AND WATER RESISTANT
* STRONG DESIGN - I LITERALLY LIVE IN IT EVERY DAY
* GOOD FUNCTIONAL POCKETS
* NOTHING LUXURIOUS - OTHERS NEED THAT MORE
* FLEECE LINING IS USUALLY THE BEST - WARM WHEN DAMP, CHEAP
* DC Local preferred to avoid shipping costs
PS: ALSO NEED ONE OR TWO PR FLEECE, COTTON SWEAT PANTS - I WEAR THEM UNDER MY PANTS TO SURVIVE THE COLD. USED, NO CHARGE TO ANYONE, DARK COLOR. MY INSEAM IS 32" OR SLIGHTLY LONGER.
winter home for me. I've explored several avenues
and so far no luck. And, I'm not currently on the street where they could be handing things out now.
Last spring police threw all our stuff out as a periodic offering to real-estate barons and tourists.
Non-urgent for a few more weeks, hopefully.
I have zero expectations, but if you think you have something, please let me know
so I can avoid duplicate work by someone else (start_loving at yahoo dot com)
MUST MEET SPECS - I KNOW WHAT WILL WORK AND WHAT NOT:
* PREVIOUSLY OWNED - ZERO COST TO ACQUIRE, BY ANYONE. NON-NEGOTIABLE; PLEASE NO GAMING ON THIS POINT.
* NOT TOO ATTRACTIVE: 1. LEAVE 'ATTRACTIVE' FOR OTHERS; 2. NOT
ATTRACT MUGGER OR POLICE ATTENTION.
* DARK COLOR (SEE ABOVE # 2). NOT SHOW DIRT. MILITARY, MARINE, A PLUS.
* LARGE, STRONGLY ATTACHED, HOOD WITH DRAW STRING.
* LARGE TO XL FOR LOTS OF LAYERING
* MEDIUM WEIGHT FOR MODERATE DAYS.
* WIND AND WATER RESISTANT
* STRONG DESIGN - I LITERALLY LIVE IN IT EVERY DAY
* GOOD FUNCTIONAL POCKETS
* NOTHING LUXURIOUS - OTHERS NEED THAT MORE
* FLEECE LINING IS USUALLY THE BEST - WARM WHEN DAMP, CHEAP
* DC Local preferred to avoid shipping costs
PS: ALSO NEED ONE OR TWO PR FLEECE, COTTON SWEAT PANTS - I WEAR THEM UNDER MY PANTS TO SURVIVE THE COLD. USED, NO CHARGE TO ANYONE, DARK COLOR. MY INSEAM IS 32" OR SLIGHTLY LONGER.
***** nd. The True Activist treats CREATIVE TENSION like Scrooge treated $$$ - ACCUMULATING, BUILDING, STORING UNTIL IT IS SUFFICIENT TO DICTATE TERMS. (MLK Jr conception) Virtually ZERO 'activists' (save Malala, sometimes Diane Wilson, Tahrir Sq 2 yrs ago...) do that. They SQUANDER IT LIKE DRUNKEN SAILORS, raising and storing mere tokens - all else being too 'stressful.' Oh, and then they bitch and moan, and blame, for what they don't have. EARN IT? ROFL. LMFAO!!!
nd. The True Activist treats CREATIVE TENSION like Scrooge treated $$$ - ACCUMULATING, BUILDING, STORING UNTIL IT IS SUFFICIENT TO DICTATE TERMS. (MLK Jr conception) Virtually ZERO 'activists' (save Malala, sometimes Diane Wilson, Tahrir Sq 2 yrs ago...) do that. They SQUANDER IT LIKE DRUNKEN SAILORS, raising and storing mere tokens - all else being too 'stressful.' Oh, and then they bitch and moan, and blame, for what they don't have. EARN IT? ROFL. LMFAO!!!
nd. [THINK 2010] In Fact of Sheer Political Power - MID TERM elections are MORE DETERMINATIVE THAN Presidential Elections. GET MEANINGFULLY INVOLVED, or YOU'VE VIOLATED YOUR DUTY TO HUMANITY.
nd. [THINK 2010] In Fact of Sheer Political Power - MID TERM elections are MORE DETERMINATIVE THAN Presidential Elections. GET MEANINGFULLY INVOLVED, or YOU'VE VIOLATED YOUR DUTY TO HUMANITY.
11.01.2013
Cancer Update: Huge pain afternoon and evening. Trying to do 1/2 the morphine. Going very badly. 100% of all effort is going toward dealing with the pain.
Cancer Update: Huge pain afternoon and evening. Trying to do 1/2 the morphine. Going very badly. 100% of all effort is going toward dealing with the pain.
***** THE MOST IMPORTANT STUDY, IN THE WORLD, ABOUT HEALTHY KIDS. MY BIGGEST FAILURE SO FAR.
I was exposed to this in my Master's Counseling Program - National Convetion, Cherry Hill, NJ. As a counselor I used it to architect and launch an after school program, Chester 10/20 ZONE, that later became Harlem Kid's Zone, model program for the Obama Admin.
When you review this brief slide show, take your time, digest it, 'get it,' I NEED TO KNOW SOME OF YOUR THOUGHTS. I THEN NEED TO HEAR FROM YOU.
When you review this brief slide show, take your time, digest it, 'get it,' I NEED TO KNOW SOME OF YOUR THOUGHTS. I THEN NEED TO HEAR FROM YOU.
The Power of Developmental Assets from SearchInstitute
1. Deeply review the slide show here.
2. Go to the SearchInstitute site and deeply review the Developmental Assets for relevant age groups. Join, as I did - free, safe - gives you access to much more free stuff.
* Parenting
* Assets
* Success stories
* International
3. For what caring, loving, christian... adult should this not be the core foundation and competence?
* New Sustainable Economy
* Legislative Agenda
* International Development Work
* Working for a Christian world
1. Deeply review the slide show here.
2. Go to the SearchInstitute site and deeply review the Developmental Assets for relevant age groups. Join, as I did - free, safe - gives you access to much more free stuff.
* Parenting
* Assets
* Success stories
* International
3. For what caring, loving, christian... adult should this not be the core foundation and competence?
* New Sustainable Economy
* Legislative Agenda
* International Development Work
* Working for a Christian world
10.31.2013
Cancer Update: Major productivity setback. Spent all day unintentionally in withdrawal from the morphine I've been on. Wiped out. In pain. Greatly slowed. Losing a few days now.
Cancer Update: Major productivity setback. Spent all day unintentionally in withdrawal from the morphine I've been on. Wiped out. In pain. Greatly slowed. Losing a few days now.
Palestinian mother turns sons killing site into flower garden
https://news.google.com/news/url?sa=t&ct3=MAA4B0gAUABgAWoCdXN6AXfYAQE&usg=AFQjCNGB9FM96Dybzqe6yeGQ4C4pwLH7_Q&rt=HOMEPAGE&url=[http://gulfnews.com/news/region/palestinian-territories/palestinian-mother-turns-son-s-killing-site-into-garden-of-hope-1.1249611&ei=elZyUoi1JYSPgAeDFA&sig2=iKIRbueNVBK3l98hRgxqlA]
posted from Bloggeroid
10.30.2013
***** Cancer Update: Utterly astounding. Only one person in my entire 62 years, just one, has had a desperate, desperate, desperate, desire to spend time with me, to get to know me.
***** Utterly astounding. Only one person in my entire 62 years, just one, has had a desperate, desperate, desperate, desire to spend time with me, to get to know me.
Do you know about whom I'm speaking? Do you know about who I am not speaking? I don't mean I'm Holding anyone off the list, rather that no one has been left off the potential list, persons who otherwise might be obvious choices.
I'm not speaking of any of my coworkers, not at any point in my career. I'm not speaking of any of my bosses, not at any point in my career. I'm not speaking of my biological children. Not speaking of my biological mother. I'm not speaking of my biological sisters. I'm not speaking of my brothers and sisters in law. I'm not speaking of the non biological family that literally have adjusted their own lives in major ways so that my life, my actual existence, would continue. I'm certainly not speaking of anyone in the so called church. I'm not speaking of anyone in the activist movement, including the few that I consider to be activists, and that may even consider me to be one.
Well, I just thought of one exception. My dog Ralf, truly,, and at some level that's probably very significant. But I'll not spend more time on it here. A college, early marriage companion. An extraordinary force of nature.
I'm not speaking of the one person that I know has loved me, and shaped me, more than any other life or the creator itself. My dad. I'm speaking of my dad. And though I will not explore it here, every aspect and more, including the implications, probably apply to him almost completely, and to no one else that he or I have ever known.
Me. I'm talking about me. The person that has desperately wanted to spend time with me, as much time as possible in each day,, to get to know me intimately, is me; no one else, at any time,.
Now, several things by way of reference.
I don't know how unusual it would be for a 62 year old man to have these perceptions, or woman, for that matter. My suspicion is that it is extremely rare that anyone in this society wants to spend much time with themselves at all, let alone massive amounts of time so that they know every relevant detail.
Some readers may be burning with the term narcissism at this point. But that is not what it is. Only in the last decade or so do I have any awareness at all of liking me. Any awareness before that I have is one of great dislike, great dissatisfaction, agony at my infinite shortfalls.
What has changed in the last 15 years? Not that these shortfalls had been healed! What I understand is that I am immensely of interest, beautiful, fascinating, of near infinite potential, of deadly shortfall; a project of infinite importance, of infinite potential to become what the world needs of me, of near total shortfall, and a project so absolutely in fixing himself that any other possible pursuit on earth tends to pale in its presence, for lack of interest complex in the detail challenge importance….
Now, this "me," that so doggedly has wanted to spend time with me, time at the expense of time I could spend getting to know others? No! No! No! No! But to me I was largely and uniquely available. And no one else wanted me to get to know them. Pretty much, ever.
The degree to which I've devoted massive decades to coming to know me, was that a preference over knowing others? No! No!.... But A. No one else cared to have me know them, and 2. As my own available Guinea pig, any time that I didn't have to get to know others, if I used that time effectively, I gained in my ability to use rare time with others more effectively.
Was my interest in knowing me, more especially, to know what was different and special about me? Absolutely not!!! Then, now, and forever, I perceive, I've learned, I understand, I've seen confirmed, that in everything from our DNA to our learned aspects of our nervous system, we are all 99.999% the same in our attributes. And that all important changes, differences, which tend to be the source of joy and suffering, are due to our ignorant, inept, clumsy handling of common features to make us mistakenly feel like alien beings from one another.
As I said at the onset, I've never had these thoughts before except an isolated fragment here or an isolated fragment there, but this is profoundly new for me within the last hour, and I'm immensely glad to have it. If there are a few that have known me for many many years, the few might find it interesting to know.
Will I be writing more on this subject? Will I be exploring this in some depth? Will this be my last writing in this domain. I have no idea.
Note: LOL. What I do know is that by Monday, 10 days of recovery from a massive, massive, massive operation will be behind me. That my veins are coursing with morphine: that more pain signals are being sent into me than I am paying attention to. Make no mistake, I have zero time, now more than ever, for idle chatter. I'm writing this because I am certain it is worth sharing. But that does not mean I am correct. And I owe it to anyone that has read this far to be reminded of what physically is going on with me.
Do you know about whom I'm speaking? Do you know about who I am not speaking? I don't mean I'm Holding anyone off the list, rather that no one has been left off the potential list, persons who otherwise might be obvious choices.
I'm not speaking of any of my coworkers, not at any point in my career. I'm not speaking of any of my bosses, not at any point in my career. I'm not speaking of my biological children. Not speaking of my biological mother. I'm not speaking of my biological sisters. I'm not speaking of my brothers and sisters in law. I'm not speaking of the non biological family that literally have adjusted their own lives in major ways so that my life, my actual existence, would continue. I'm certainly not speaking of anyone in the so called church. I'm not speaking of anyone in the activist movement, including the few that I consider to be activists, and that may even consider me to be one.
Well, I just thought of one exception. My dog Ralf, truly,, and at some level that's probably very significant. But I'll not spend more time on it here. A college, early marriage companion. An extraordinary force of nature.
I'm not speaking of the one person that I know has loved me, and shaped me, more than any other life or the creator itself. My dad. I'm speaking of my dad. And though I will not explore it here, every aspect and more, including the implications, probably apply to him almost completely, and to no one else that he or I have ever known.
Me. I'm talking about me. The person that has desperately wanted to spend time with me, as much time as possible in each day,, to get to know me intimately, is me; no one else, at any time,.
Now, several things by way of reference.
I don't know how unusual it would be for a 62 year old man to have these perceptions, or woman, for that matter. My suspicion is that it is extremely rare that anyone in this society wants to spend much time with themselves at all, let alone massive amounts of time so that they know every relevant detail.
Some readers may be burning with the term narcissism at this point. But that is not what it is. Only in the last decade or so do I have any awareness at all of liking me. Any awareness before that I have is one of great dislike, great dissatisfaction, agony at my infinite shortfalls.
What has changed in the last 15 years? Not that these shortfalls had been healed! What I understand is that I am immensely of interest, beautiful, fascinating, of near infinite potential, of deadly shortfall; a project of infinite importance, of infinite potential to become what the world needs of me, of near total shortfall, and a project so absolutely in fixing himself that any other possible pursuit on earth tends to pale in its presence, for lack of interest complex in the detail challenge importance….
Now, this "me," that so doggedly has wanted to spend time with me, time at the expense of time I could spend getting to know others? No! No! No! No! But to me I was largely and uniquely available. And no one else wanted me to get to know them. Pretty much, ever.
The degree to which I've devoted massive decades to coming to know me, was that a preference over knowing others? No! No!.... But A. No one else cared to have me know them, and 2. As my own available Guinea pig, any time that I didn't have to get to know others, if I used that time effectively, I gained in my ability to use rare time with others more effectively.
Was my interest in knowing me, more especially, to know what was different and special about me? Absolutely not!!! Then, now, and forever, I perceive, I've learned, I understand, I've seen confirmed, that in everything from our DNA to our learned aspects of our nervous system, we are all 99.999% the same in our attributes. And that all important changes, differences, which tend to be the source of joy and suffering, are due to our ignorant, inept, clumsy handling of common features to make us mistakenly feel like alien beings from one another.
As I said at the onset, I've never had these thoughts before except an isolated fragment here or an isolated fragment there, but this is profoundly new for me within the last hour, and I'm immensely glad to have it. If there are a few that have known me for many many years, the few might find it interesting to know.
Will I be writing more on this subject? Will I be exploring this in some depth? Will this be my last writing in this domain. I have no idea.
Note: LOL. What I do know is that by Monday, 10 days of recovery from a massive, massive, massive operation will be behind me. That my veins are coursing with morphine: that more pain signals are being sent into me than I am paying attention to. Make no mistake, I have zero time, now more than ever, for idle chatter. I'm writing this because I am certain it is worth sharing. But that does not mean I am correct. And I owe it to anyone that has read this far to be reminded of what physically is going on with me.
***** BUSH: Brownie, you make me feel like the most competent guy in the room. That’s a “Hell of a Job.” Thanks. // BARACK: Kathleen, you are obviously the world’s most quilified person for this impossible job. // Friends, is there anthing you don’t understand here?
***** BUSH: Brownie, you make me feel like the most competent guy in the room. That’s a “Hell of a Job.” Thanks. // BARACK: Kathleen, you are obviously the world’s most quilified person for this impossible job. // Friends, is there anything you don’t understand here?
***** pic. link. SEBELIUS DISMANTLES GOP. CSPAN. PLEASE SHARE. THIS IS STUNNING
***** pic. link. SEBELIUS DISMANTLES GOP. CSPAN. PLEASE SHARE. THIS IS STUNNING - http://www.c-span.org/Events/HHS-Secretary-Testifies-on-HealthCaregov-Enrollment-Issues/10737442357-1/
H.H.S. SIBELIUS. G.rotesque O.bscene P.redators. C-SPAN 10.29.13 ANY QUESTIONS?
***** pic. NOW. SHR. PLS. PLEASE SHARE. Thanks for all your good work. THIS IS STUNNING - http://www.c-span.org/Events/HHS-Secretary-Testifies-on-HealthCaregov-Enrollment-Issues/10737442357-1/
PLEASE SHARE. Thanks for all your good work. THIS IS STUNNING - http://www.c-span.org/Events/HHS-Secretary-Testifies-on-HealthCaregov-Enrollment-Issues/10737442357-1/
***** Loving - Sebelius has my Full Confidence. I'd have her on any team I've ever had any day. Stunningly Competent. G.reedy O.rgy of P.redators. Sebelius: "Hold me accountable for the debacle" of HealthCare.gov CBS News
PLEASE SHARE. Thanks for all your good work. THIS IS STUNNING - http://www.c-span.org/Events/HHS-Secretary-Testifies-on-HealthCaregov-Enrollment-Issues/10737442357-1/
Sebelius: "Hold me accountable for the debacle" of HealthCare.gov
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***** Loving - Sebelius has my Full Confidence. I'd have her on any team I've ever had any day. Stunningly Competent. G.reedy O.ffensive P.redators. Sebelius: "Hold me accountable for the debacle" of HealthCare.gov CBS News
10.29.2013
***** Cancer Update: Out of Cash - no cell phone - hospital problems. We'll see. I NEVER ask for donations for my work, except by DOING my work. It falls on deaf ears. Always has since I switched from making folks rich, or richer. Hmmmm.
Cancer Update: Out of Cash - no cell phone - hospital problems - no pain meds this weekend??? We'll see. I NEVER ask for donations for my work, except by DOING my work. AND BY GOD, I DO THAT, EVERY BREATH, FOR 15 YEARS NOW.
It falls on totally deaf ears. Always has since I switched from making folks rich, or richer, to bringing more joy and less suffering into the world. Hmmmm.
It is 100% wonderful, because it is so clear, and so clarifying. We have totally lost the ability to measure value except in terms of what others pay for it, or demand for it. (LOVING NEVER WAITS TO SEE, or it is not Loving.)
We've gone Value Blind - 100%. And it is my joy to rediscover value, and joyfully joyfully and repeatedly die for it, and thereby make our blindness potentially manifest. But probably not soon enough for me - I'll trip the trip wire, go over the edge. No matter. I've been on the edge soooooo many times - just inches away from the edge of the cliff that just a few bucks were required to survive, with it only to arrive from the Creator's Angel, just in the nick of time - well, it is too close tho the edge for too long now. Will it get me this time? It is only a matter if time. And that is good.
Maybe the cell phone. $27 bucks every 3 months only for emergencies. I never use it. I hate it, but doc's, depts, some won't use it.
One that is trying to arrange my meds for this weekend may be one. Without a refill, I'm naked. No, I'll not run in front of a bus, but the thought will occur to me, often over the course of the weekend, and later.
I NEVER MANIPULATE - too little, too weak, too late. BUT I ALLOW MYSELF TO BECOME A MANIPULATION, IN THIS CASE, A LITMUS TEST, BY FINDING, FOLLOWING, LIVING OUT WHAT THE TRUTH NEEDS OF ME.
How useful to Truth and Visibility if I go without meds this weekend because the value of my work (and in Jesus' eyes my work IS MORE valuable THAN THAT OF A VERY FEW, ZERO CREDIT TO ME) is invisible.
I couldn't be more joyful, at peace of heart, for being used so creatively, so usefully, so cleverly.
It falls on totally deaf ears. Always has since I switched from making folks rich, or richer, to bringing more joy and less suffering into the world. Hmmmm.
It is 100% wonderful, because it is so clear, and so clarifying. We have totally lost the ability to measure value except in terms of what others pay for it, or demand for it. (LOVING NEVER WAITS TO SEE, or it is not Loving.)
We've gone Value Blind - 100%. And it is my joy to rediscover value, and joyfully joyfully and repeatedly die for it, and thereby make our blindness potentially manifest. But probably not soon enough for me - I'll trip the trip wire, go over the edge. No matter. I've been on the edge soooooo many times - just inches away from the edge of the cliff that just a few bucks were required to survive, with it only to arrive from the Creator's Angel, just in the nick of time - well, it is too close tho the edge for too long now. Will it get me this time? It is only a matter if time. And that is good.
Maybe the cell phone. $27 bucks every 3 months only for emergencies. I never use it. I hate it, but doc's, depts, some won't use it.
One that is trying to arrange my meds for this weekend may be one. Without a refill, I'm naked. No, I'll not run in front of a bus, but the thought will occur to me, often over the course of the weekend, and later.
I NEVER MANIPULATE - too little, too weak, too late. BUT I ALLOW MYSELF TO BECOME A MANIPULATION, IN THIS CASE, A LITMUS TEST, BY FINDING, FOLLOWING, LIVING OUT WHAT THE TRUTH NEEDS OF ME.
How useful to Truth and Visibility if I go without meds this weekend because the value of my work (and in Jesus' eyes my work IS MORE valuable THAN THAT OF A VERY FEW, ZERO CREDIT TO ME) is invisible.
I couldn't be more joyful, at peace of heart, for being used so creatively, so usefully, so cleverly.
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