9.25.2013
9.24.2013
I stand with Pr. Obama: UN Speech, CSPAN. If you find that sufficiently unacceptable, please go, with my blessing, and Love. At such time I see I am incorrect, I'll shout it. Till then, with him I stand.... His situations are IMPOSSIBLE, with a worthless citizenry. No one could do better. No one.
I stand with Pr. Obama: UN Speech, CSPAN. If you find that sufficiently unacceptable, please go, with my blessing, and Love. At such time I see I am incorrect, I'll shout it. Till then, with him I stand.... His situations are IMPOSSIBLE, with a worthless citizenry. No one could do better. No one.
Loving, on the Record: I trust Obama and I trust Abbas on this [and I trust Netanyahu to do all in his power to sabotage Peace Talks]: In talks with Obama, Abbas pledges Palestinian support for peace process. Reuters. If and when I see sufficient evidence I am wrong, I'll shout it. Obama plays 3 dimensional chess for humanity, and we the sheeple don't even understand tic tac toe. In talks with Obama, Abbas pledges Palestinian support for peace process Reuters
Loving, on the Record: I trust Obama and I trust Abbas on this [and I trust Netanyahu to do all in his power to sabotage Peace Talks]: In talks with Obama, Abbas pledges Palestinian support for peace process. Reuters. If and when I see sufficient evidence I am wrong, I'll shout it. Obama plays 3 dimensional chess for humanity, and we the sheeple don't even understand tic tac toe.
In talks with Obama, Abbas pledges Palestinian support for peace process
| Reuters |
Cancer Update: Bad news
My b-day is the 18th, and they are looking to schedule major surgery on the 17th. This would mean no cake the next day. So I told them, 'NO WAY.'
But, if I reconsider, and they persist in this foolishness, they are looking to do a major scan Oct 14th, see if the more cancerous side of my liver has shrunk, the less cancerous side has grown sufficiently to make organ failure less likely, and if all looks sufficiently satisfactory, looks like no cake for me this year. Damn!!!!
My energy remains at 50% of normal, tho it is months, to 1.5 years since I've known 'normal.' Still needing 15 hours per day of sleep, rest - I guess this is a pretty big shock - starving a major organ of blood supply - killing it - it can't be pleased. And as a friend said, all this on top of 2 months of chemo. My pain level from Friday was a 3-5 tummy pain, but today is 2-4. We'll see.
I really like to whine and complain. I suspect that I've gotten off way easier, each day of this 18 months I've been in the fight with this cancer, than 98% of others in similar fight. I have no complaints, and among the reasons the Creator put me in DC, is that for a penniless, homeless guy in amerikka, the care I'm getting here, I'd not get anywhere else but MA, I'll guess - Federal Medicare, on top of some Godly, Saintly, model programs like Unity Health Care, thanks to Genuine Angels (no, really), sheroes and heroes, like my primary care Doc C.
Not enough strength today for the 16 block hike to the grocery store, but maybe tomorrow. No, I have no shortage of sufficient calories here, but I'll take a lo sodium, low cal fruit juice run as soon as I have the strength. Tomorrow I trust.
Now, I'll probably jinx things by saying this, but maybe, just maybe, I can manage bowel movements without double dosing immodium 6-12 per day, for the first time in many months.
But, if I reconsider, and they persist in this foolishness, they are looking to do a major scan Oct 14th, see if the more cancerous side of my liver has shrunk, the less cancerous side has grown sufficiently to make organ failure less likely, and if all looks sufficiently satisfactory, looks like no cake for me this year. Damn!!!!
My energy remains at 50% of normal, tho it is months, to 1.5 years since I've known 'normal.' Still needing 15 hours per day of sleep, rest - I guess this is a pretty big shock - starving a major organ of blood supply - killing it - it can't be pleased. And as a friend said, all this on top of 2 months of chemo. My pain level from Friday was a 3-5 tummy pain, but today is 2-4. We'll see.
I really like to whine and complain. I suspect that I've gotten off way easier, each day of this 18 months I've been in the fight with this cancer, than 98% of others in similar fight. I have no complaints, and among the reasons the Creator put me in DC, is that for a penniless, homeless guy in amerikka, the care I'm getting here, I'd not get anywhere else but MA, I'll guess - Federal Medicare, on top of some Godly, Saintly, model programs like Unity Health Care, thanks to Genuine Angels (no, really), sheroes and heroes, like my primary care Doc C.
Not enough strength today for the 16 block hike to the grocery store, but maybe tomorrow. No, I have no shortage of sufficient calories here, but I'll take a lo sodium, low cal fruit juice run as soon as I have the strength. Tomorrow I trust.
Now, I'll probably jinx things by saying this, but maybe, just maybe, I can manage bowel movements without double dosing immodium 6-12 per day, for the first time in many months.
I think that the biggest challenge for westerners that try to 'help' the developing world, is to avoid addicting folks to stuff, but to foster Loving, instead, something that often developing countries are infinitely better at than we westerners. Loving CARES about the material needs of others, but only with the greatest care do we avoid turning material wellbeing into the God.
I think that the biggest challenge for westerners that try to 'help' the developing world, is to avoid addicting folks to stuff, but to foster Loving, instead, something that often developing countries are infinitely better at than we westerners. Loving CARES about the material needs of others, but only with the greatest care do we avoid turning material wellbeing into the God.
***** STOP. STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING. READ THIS. NOW. I've been imploring a friend to share her story. She just did and gave me permission to share.
She is a giving and gifted artist.
"Hope your feeling better today and that your energy is returning to you!
A friend of mine told me that I should tell you my story of unconditional love. She thought it would further inspire you. So here it goes....
My father was a evil man , he physically and sexually abused me beyond imagination . I was passed around to his friends like a party favor. He was paid well for me even at the age of 5 ... When I was 12 I had a baby beaten from my body that he then killed and took away. It was his child.
I left home at 14. When I was thirty I was called by my family and my mother was on her death bed.. I cared for her , giving her sponge baths and singing to her.. With her last words she told me she never loved me and that God would never recognize my existence . I held her as she died and forgave her , I prayed for her.
Soon after my father took ill with lung cancer... I took care of him until he died and forgave him on his death bed while he was in my arms.
The year I took care of him was one of the hardest years of my life... I asked him everyday why. I never got an answer till the last day ... He simply said , because I could .
When I told him as he died that I forgave him and loved him , he asked why... I said because I could.
That is unconditional love . To love in the face of hate. No matter the pain caused to you ...
I wear the scared body they left me .. Imprints of a hammer on my skull .. Deformations in my back from the cage. Brittle bone from childhood malnutrition ... Burn marks and frontal lobe atrophy from the extreme abuse. Yet I forgave , I loved.
Unconditional ... I know the word all tooo well , I live it ! You may share this if you do not share my name."
Post Script:
I asked my friend: Does this quote from Eve Ensler, relate to you? "The only salvation is Kindness." Does that relate to you?
My friend's reply:
"Love is salvation and my reason to keep moving, breathing , and understanding other people ! It's what I hold highest in my life... I was raised to know never to put value in things .. Things come and go and are meaningless .. But the living are the only value of spirit and love! ( thank you grandmother !) I understand every ones pain is relevant.. Your experience of suffering is as valid as mine. I am sorry you endured it!"
"Hope your feeling better today and that your energy is returning to you!
A friend of mine told me that I should tell you my story of unconditional love. She thought it would further inspire you. So here it goes....
My father was a evil man , he physically and sexually abused me beyond imagination . I was passed around to his friends like a party favor. He was paid well for me even at the age of 5 ... When I was 12 I had a baby beaten from my body that he then killed and took away. It was his child.
I left home at 14. When I was thirty I was called by my family and my mother was on her death bed.. I cared for her , giving her sponge baths and singing to her.. With her last words she told me she never loved me and that God would never recognize my existence . I held her as she died and forgave her , I prayed for her.
Soon after my father took ill with lung cancer... I took care of him until he died and forgave him on his death bed while he was in my arms.
The year I took care of him was one of the hardest years of my life... I asked him everyday why. I never got an answer till the last day ... He simply said , because I could .
When I told him as he died that I forgave him and loved him , he asked why... I said because I could.
That is unconditional love . To love in the face of hate. No matter the pain caused to you ...
I wear the scared body they left me .. Imprints of a hammer on my skull .. Deformations in my back from the cage. Brittle bone from childhood malnutrition ... Burn marks and frontal lobe atrophy from the extreme abuse. Yet I forgave , I loved.
Unconditional ... I know the word all tooo well , I live it ! You may share this if you do not share my name."
Post Script:
I asked my friend: Does this quote from Eve Ensler, relate to you? "The only salvation is Kindness." Does that relate to you?
My friend's reply:
"Love is salvation and my reason to keep moving, breathing , and understanding other people ! It's what I hold highest in my life... I was raised to know never to put value in things .. Things come and go and are meaningless .. But the living are the only value of spirit and love! ( thank you grandmother !) I understand every ones pain is relevant.. Your experience of suffering is as valid as mine. I am sorry you endured it!"
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