9.19.2013
pic TRUE Friends 'SHARE' your most powerful posts. Fake Friends 'LIKE' them. Life-service vs Lip-service.
TRUE Friends 'SHARE' your most
powerful posts.
Fake Friends 'LIKE' them.
Life-service vs
Lip-service.
Cancer Update: The Races are On
Tomorrow they attempt stage two of increasing my chances of surviving for more than two more years, to 45%.
The cancer is spreading - a 3rd tumor now, on the border, or invading, the 'healthy' liver half.
Tomorrow begins the 2nd line of attack; two mos. chemo having been the first. If I don't bleed to death, by tomorrow night, they will have successfully attacked the artery feeding the cancerous half of my liver (tho, tumor #3 is bordering, at least, invading, at worse, the healthy liver half :-( ).
Tomorrow's procedure sets up a game of chicken - my cancerous liver half is raced toward dying by starvation of blood supply while simultaneously forcing growth, hopefully, of the healthier half; and the tumors will continue trying to grow and spread before the healthier half is large enough to support me without totally failing if and when the more cancerous half is removed.
When to operate and remove the cancerous liver half? If they do it too soon, the healthier half will not have grown enough and I die of organ failure. If they do it too late, the cancer has spread, and the end game clock starts ticking unstoppably. 3-6 weeks is all I've heard so far.
Chemo is terminated, for now, because surgery cannot take place until chemo is suspended at least 3 weeks, and it is not clear to me the continued expense justifies the marginal increase in my survival time, and the nerve damage in my extremities, well, if it goes to far, and chemo brain becomes permanent, what is the point of surviving?
Tomorrow I go in at 7am. My Intervention Radiologist, nice guy, grad of Georgetown and Stanford. He reserved the 'best' theater for this, but if higher priority surgery emergency comes up, we'll be delayed some hours. After the procedure they watch me for 6 hours, for internal bleeding.
Then, 3-6 weeks back as an Inmate, leaving my Human Rights at the door, in the dreary, dreary, filthy, massive Homeless Shelter Infirmary, where, at least, so far, I'm permitted to work online, without being evicted. :-(
Interesting. Let the games begin. :-)
The cancer is spreading - a 3rd tumor now, on the border, or invading, the 'healthy' liver half.
Tomorrow begins the 2nd line of attack; two mos. chemo having been the first. If I don't bleed to death, by tomorrow night, they will have successfully attacked the artery feeding the cancerous half of my liver (tho, tumor #3 is bordering, at least, invading, at worse, the healthy liver half :-( ).
Tomorrow's procedure sets up a game of chicken - my cancerous liver half is raced toward dying by starvation of blood supply while simultaneously forcing growth, hopefully, of the healthier half; and the tumors will continue trying to grow and spread before the healthier half is large enough to support me without totally failing if and when the more cancerous half is removed.
When to operate and remove the cancerous liver half? If they do it too soon, the healthier half will not have grown enough and I die of organ failure. If they do it too late, the cancer has spread, and the end game clock starts ticking unstoppably. 3-6 weeks is all I've heard so far.
Chemo is terminated, for now, because surgery cannot take place until chemo is suspended at least 3 weeks, and it is not clear to me the continued expense justifies the marginal increase in my survival time, and the nerve damage in my extremities, well, if it goes to far, and chemo brain becomes permanent, what is the point of surviving?
Tomorrow I go in at 7am. My Intervention Radiologist, nice guy, grad of Georgetown and Stanford. He reserved the 'best' theater for this, but if higher priority surgery emergency comes up, we'll be delayed some hours. After the procedure they watch me for 6 hours, for internal bleeding.
Then, 3-6 weeks back as an Inmate, leaving my Human Rights at the door, in the dreary, dreary, filthy, massive Homeless Shelter Infirmary, where, at least, so far, I'm permitted to work online, without being evicted. :-(
Interesting. Let the games begin. :-)
9.18.2013
nd "Living is easy, when you're half alive." L. Bernstein
nd "Living is easy, when you're half alive." L. Bernstein
Marliese Roth: Here is a little snippet for you: it is said that as a child Maria Montessori experienced a bout of a serious illness, and at the time, comforted her worried mother, saying, "Don't worry, mama, I won't die now. I have too many important things to do in the world."
Marliese Roth: Here is a little snippet for
you: it is said that as a child Maria Montessori experienced a bout of a serious
illness, and at the time, comforted her worried mother, saying, "Don't
worry, mama, I won't die now. I have too many important things to do in
the world."
'Creator be with you.' I always marvel when that is said. The Creator is ALWAYS with us. The question is, ARE WE WITH THE CREATOR?!?!? Uh, 'NO,' is near always the answer.
'Creator be with you.' I always marvel
when that is said. The Creator is
ALWAYS with us. The
question is, ARE
WE WITH THE
CREATOR?!?!?
Uh, 'NO,' is near
always the answer.
pic The near unbearable pain and sorrow in my world, my life, are the Mother and Father of everything I value in myself; of EVERYTHING worthy I have to offer. [Unless you pick up your Cross, you cannot Live.]
The near unbearable
pain and sorrow in my
world, my life, are the
Mother and Father of
everything I value in
myself; of
EVERYTHING worthy
I have to offer.
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From a childhood sweetheart, and impossibly bright Star: "[I think your dad] might even have gleaned that you make [the choices you do] on behalf of the rest of us who can't go the distance."
From a childhood sweetheart, and impossibly bright Star: "[I think your dad] might even have gleaned that you make [the choices you do] on behalf of the rest of us who can't go the distance."
***** 4 min. It we're going to avert ecocide, this is the most likely way - waging solar. They can't stop it, if we wage it. Look at the 2nd vid, here - http://www.youtube.com/user/tonyseba
It
we're going to avert ecocide, this is the most likely way - waging
solar. They can't stop it, if we wage it. Look at the 2nd vid, here - http://www.youtube.com/user/tonyseba***** Unviolent Warfare is: I'm going to change you with my Loving, and Willingness to Suffer for it; and not letting you change me with your Hate, Violence, or Brutality
Unviolent Warfare is:
I'm going to change
you with my Loving,
and Willingness to
Suffer for it; and not
letting you change
me with your Hate,
Violence, or Brutality
***** The Left is EXACTLY what they Hate on the Right. They think this is about sides, one side beating the other. Revolution is seeing THERE ARE NO SIDES - THERE'S ONLY US - UNIVERSAL FAMILY.
The Left is EXACTLY what they Hate
on the Right. They think this is
about sides, one side beating
the other. Revolution is
seeing THERE ARE
NO SIDES - THERE'S
ONLY US -
UNIVERSAL FAMILY.
nd Little I value in myself would exist were it not for my massive immersion in the arts. It is a massively powerful drug - and as such, it can give Life, and almost always is misused, to give Death.
Little I value in myself would exist were it not for
my massive immersion in the arts. It is a massively powerful drug - and
as such, it can give Life, and almost always is misused, to give Death.
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