9.14.2013
ABSURD HEADLINE: In Russia, politics and nationalist pride are basis of Putin’s anti-American turn. In Russia, politics and nationalist pride are basis of Putin’s anti-American turn. WashPo.
I really HATE deceit and denial (article
below). I am NO fan of Putin. YES, WE ARE EXCEPTIONAL! Largest Genocide
in human history (50-100M savages); only country to use nucs, twice,
exterminating 2 cities AFTER Japan wanted to surrender; only
country to have napalmed Vietnam; only country killing 500,000 folks in
Iraq for their oil; only country mutilating their children, FOREVER, in
Iraq, with our Depleted Uranium weapons; only country defying THE REST
OF THE WORLD TO BRING ISRAEL IN LINE WITH INTERNATIONAL LAW AND STOP
THEIR GENOCIDE OF PALESTINIANS; only country using 20x more global warming petrol than the rest of the world combined; only country consuming 10-40 times more than our per capita share of the world's resources; only country spending more than the rest of the world combined on Military; only country among the developed to give such a low % of GDP in international aid.... Oh, the list is LONG OF OUR
EXCEPTIONALISM. Yes, so WHAT IS PUTIN TALKING ABOUT???
In Russia, politics and nationalist pride are basis of Putin’s anti-American turn
Cancer Update: Houston, we've got a problem. Mediport totally blocked internally. I'm getting tired of being sick. Whine.
Cancer update (1 of 2): the Mediport totally blocked. Major leakage for 6 hours. Infusion stopped with 42 CC's to go.
Even on the bus back from the hospital I'm not sure the port felt right after the pump was attached. I'm surely not saying anyone did anything incorrectly. Not at all. It just felt uncomfortable from the start. I think. Chemo-brain. :-(
The pump was attached by 5:30 PM Thursday.
At about noon on Friday the pump started beeping. I checked the tubing, found nothing problematic, but the beeping stopped. Within the hour there were two similar incidents. Once it seemed to stop when I stretched my arm back, and I wondered if there was a problem in the port. I called Medstar, and was given another number to call, but in the meantime the beepings stopped, so I did not bother.
At about 3:00 AM I awoke to find that my pelvic area was wet. The fluid had no odor, and the consistency AM, much wetter now, that I saw it was the pump leaking at the flat plastic filter.
I called Georgetown Hosp and Medstar. By 2:00 PM the replacement plastic tubing had arrived from the pharmacy, and the Medstar home infusion nurse arrived.
The nurse replaced the tubing, and attempted to flush my port. The saline solutions syringe for the flushing is quite large, the male nurse quite strong, and no matter how hard he pushed no fluid would go in.
Twice he replaced the needle going into the port. Ouch. OUCH. By the second time he was able to push some fluid in but unable to draw any blood back out. He, and everyone in this is performed very well in my view.
But I told him that unless so ordered by Georgetown Medical I thought we should not try again. He called the Georgetown Dr. on call who concurred.
So, of the 46 hour infusion, it seems that no more than 34 hours' worth entered me.
I'm getting tired of being sick. Whine.
I'm immensely grateful for, and impressed with, the performance of all the medical team that is helping me.
Thank you all so much.
Even on the bus back from the hospital I'm not sure the port felt right after the pump was attached. I'm surely not saying anyone did anything incorrectly. Not at all. It just felt uncomfortable from the start. I think. Chemo-brain. :-(
The pump was attached by 5:30 PM Thursday.
At about noon on Friday the pump started beeping. I checked the tubing, found nothing problematic, but the beeping stopped. Within the hour there were two similar incidents. Once it seemed to stop when I stretched my arm back, and I wondered if there was a problem in the port. I called Medstar, and was given another number to call, but in the meantime the beepings stopped, so I did not bother.
At about 3:00 AM I awoke to find that my pelvic area was wet. The fluid had no odor, and the consistency AM, much wetter now, that I saw it was the pump leaking at the flat plastic filter.
I called Georgetown Hosp and Medstar. By 2:00 PM the replacement plastic tubing had arrived from the pharmacy, and the Medstar home infusion nurse arrived.
The nurse replaced the tubing, and attempted to flush my port. The saline solutions syringe for the flushing is quite large, the male nurse quite strong, and no matter how hard he pushed no fluid would go in.
Twice he replaced the needle going into the port. Ouch. OUCH. By the second time he was able to push some fluid in but unable to draw any blood back out. He, and everyone in this is performed very well in my view.
But I told him that unless so ordered by Georgetown Medical I thought we should not try again. He called the Georgetown Dr. on call who concurred.
So, of the 46 hour infusion, it seems that no more than 34 hours' worth entered me.
I'm getting tired of being sick. Whine.
I'm immensely grateful for, and impressed with, the performance of all the medical team that is helping me.
Thank you all so much.
nd Cancer Update: I thought I had a huge nocternal emission of WATER. Turns out, my chemo pump was leaking much of the night. Argh.
nd Cancer Update: I thought I had a huge nocternal emission of WATER. Turns out, my chemo pump was leaking much of the night. Argh.
9.13.2013
nd LIP-SERVICE LEFT CALLS 'CRUCIFY HIM!!!' AS OBAMA TURNS WATER TO WINE, PARTS THE RED SEA, RAISES THE DEAD IN SYRIA
nd LIP-SERVICE LEFT CALLS 'CRUCIFY HIM!!!' AS OBAMA TURNS WATER TO WINE, PARTS THE RED SEA, RAISES THE DEAD IN SYRIA
Cancer Update: You won't like this. You won't like this.
There is a 45% chance they can
keep me alive, keep me at war. So I could be sand in your gears for
another 5, 10, 15, even 20 years. And I'll have a 55% chance that I'll
be gone from my war pretty soon.
As long as I'll be here, I'll not be found to become LESS GRITTY. I'm at war for the next 200 billion kids, and all of Creation. It is the most consequential war in the history of Creation, it is almost finally lost, seconds left on the clock, none by Diane Wilson, Norman Finkelstein, and a few others have a clue, or are fighting. I'll keep doing what I can to be sand in the gears of your status quo existing, to save you the lifelong Hell near certain for you now, of 'If I had ONLY...,' and give you instead the Eternal Joy of, 'Oh my Good, I woke up in time to...!'
Any of you on the left need be particularly concerned. Denial on the LEFT of Duty to stand and fight with your ENTIRE life, limb and treasure, unviolently, for the next 1000 generations makes the Left Creation Enemy #1, Citizen Enemy #1.
The right is irrelevant - unreformable lunatics.
You on the Left will be my primary target, your comfort, apathy, Soul and Creation killing excuses, excuses, excuses, excuses, excuses..., YOUR CRIMINAL DOUBLE STANDARDS - HOLDING PR. OBAMA ACCOUNTABLE TO ACHIEVE YOUR GOALS, IN YOUR TIMEFRAME, but YOU have ZERO MEASURABLE GOALS AS CITIZENS, ZERO TIME FRAMES FOR ACHIEVEMENT, ZERO PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY, ZERO PERSONAL ACCOUNTABILITY AS A CITIZEN, HACTIVIST... ONLY EXCUSE AFTER EXCUSE, AFTER EXCUSE, BUT NO EXCUSE EVER, FOR THE LIKES OF OBAMA.... Vomit, Vomit, VOMIT. STOP YOUR DISGUSTING DOUBLE STANDARDS. STOP IT. YOU ARE BETTER THAN THAT.
As long as I'll be here, I'll not be found to become LESS GRITTY. I'm at war for the next 200 billion kids, and all of Creation. It is the most consequential war in the history of Creation, it is almost finally lost, seconds left on the clock, none by Diane Wilson, Norman Finkelstein, and a few others have a clue, or are fighting. I'll keep doing what I can to be sand in the gears of your status quo existing, to save you the lifelong Hell near certain for you now, of 'If I had ONLY...,' and give you instead the Eternal Joy of, 'Oh my Good, I woke up in time to...!'
Any of you on the left need be particularly concerned. Denial on the LEFT of Duty to stand and fight with your ENTIRE life, limb and treasure, unviolently, for the next 1000 generations makes the Left Creation Enemy #1, Citizen Enemy #1.
The right is irrelevant - unreformable lunatics.
You on the Left will be my primary target, your comfort, apathy, Soul and Creation killing excuses, excuses, excuses, excuses, excuses..., YOUR CRIMINAL DOUBLE STANDARDS - HOLDING PR. OBAMA ACCOUNTABLE TO ACHIEVE YOUR GOALS, IN YOUR TIMEFRAME, but YOU have ZERO MEASURABLE GOALS AS CITIZENS, ZERO TIME FRAMES FOR ACHIEVEMENT, ZERO PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY, ZERO PERSONAL ACCOUNTABILITY AS A CITIZEN, HACTIVIST... ONLY EXCUSE AFTER EXCUSE, AFTER EXCUSE, BUT NO EXCUSE EVER, FOR THE LIKES OF OBAMA.... Vomit, Vomit, VOMIT. STOP YOUR DISGUSTING DOUBLE STANDARDS. STOP IT. YOU ARE BETTER THAN THAT.
And
yes, there will never be any breath where you need to worry about me
violating your personal boundaries. You even hint that you want the door
closed, I never again come thru, with my Loving of you undiminished - unconditional.
Dr. F, liver surgeon, 11am today at GUH Transplant Center, was, well, he couldn't have been more helpful. Extremely bright, to the point, patient, thorough, generous, pleasant, kind, clear, present, human, humane, excellent communicator, clearly authoritative. We spoke for about 20 min, everything I needed to know.
The steps ahead are not as I had thought:
1. This chemo bag hanging on me will be the last I wear, forever, or at least till after recovery from the surgeries. Comes off tomorrow.
2. My odds are about 45% for a 'cure,' a normal lifespan. I had never been told, when they removed the 1/3 colon in Dec '12, they took out a whole bunch of lymph nodes (?), and all of them were free of cancer. That is a very good marker. The fact that only 2 metastatic tumors have been found, vs 7 or more, is another very favorable marker. A third marker for my case is an unknown, how long it took from cancer in colon to tumors in liver - could have been months, could have been years - we'll never know. The longer time elapse, the better - less malignant.
3. Doc F trains docs from Bolivia, all over, on my procedures. Everyplace but Howard U. Argh.
4. They don't remove the tumors!!!!! They remove 1/2 of my entire liver that contains the tumors!!! The whole thing! Wow. The liver, if all goes well, completely re-grows, re-generates, in about 4 months!!! If things don't go so well, it fails, I die, I guess. My Saint of a dad died from an operation that gave him better than 90% odds of full recovery.
5. But first, next week if it can be scheduled that soon, another doc will start the process of killing the half of my liver that has the tumors, by blocking, killing, the artery that feeds that half, shrinking it, and getting a jump on the 4 month regen process, by forcing the other half to start growing, to over-compensate, NOW!!! Reduces the odds of liver failure, too. Freekin amazing. That blood supply killing procedure may be outpatient, or may be 1 day in hosp. A needle, or wire, inserted.... I meet with that Doc B, this Monday, 2:30pm, I just learned. Procedure some days later. Late next week, I hope.
4. In about 4 weeks from now - major surgery - very large incision along the lower rib cage. The liver is a big organ, and the half they remove, that's big too! 5-7 days in hosp., eating within 2 days. Mid Oct I'll guess.
5. 6 weeks for
full strength to return after the major surgery, but 70% return within a three weeks or so, I gather. Major operation 4 weeks after last chemo, which is four weeks from tomorrow, at the earliest. I'll guess this dreary Infirmary will be my cage for several more months. Then, back to the Can Emb, Creation's Murder Vigil, and the streets.
6. Wow, one of the tumors looked huge to me, on the high res CT scans. I didn't ask the Doc, but they looked much larger to me than the .7 cm and 1.5 cm I was told back in Feb. But I don't know. I'll ask, next opportunity.
7. I'm back at the Infirmary, ready for my 2-4 day Road Kill black out from the chemo, tho...
8. She reduced the chemo procedure - eliminated one of the drugs, cuz surgery can't happen within 6 weeks of that one, Avastin, and eliminating a syringe 'push' of the 5FU that is in the pump - earlier infusions a very very large syringe worth of the the 5FU is pushed in ahead of the 2 day pump worth. Totally wiped me out for 80 hours last cycle, so that indicates eliminating the Push.
Bogus 2 degrees C targets put 500 million people at water risk
https://news.google.com/news/url?sa=t&ct3=MAA4AEgGUABgAWoCdXPYAQE&usg=AFQjCNE0VEYe_mc65g_zgMiSbFGflSQPZQ&rt=SECTION&url=[http://www.science20.com/news_articles/global_warming_targets_put_500_million_people_risk_higher_water_scarcity-120406&ei=nBUzUrmuIou6wAGzgwE&sig2=1CbDuzSM6Ct2FbRAZ-DPfA]
posted from Bloggeroid
nd If to Save Creation, 'Loving it to Life' is all that has a Prayer, 'likin it a whole lot,' is just killing the little time left.
nd If to Save Creation, 'Loving it to Life' is all that has a Prayer, 'likin it a whole lot,' is just killing the little time left.
9.12.2013
(details) When Wm. Thomas Died, almost over night the Peace House became the Parasite House, and The White House Peace Vigil became Connie's Hate and Violence Vigil (details)
MLK Jr (as I recall): "Silence is Complicity."
[[[Note, the following is my duty to share, as the Sole Individual Thomas asked to take on his part of the Vigil, which I did, not missing a shift, 24/7, for 2.5 years...
... now breaking my silence...
....because the Hate-Blinded, Self-righteous, 'Peace Activists' in and around DC, are by statement and Innuendo Slandering the Park Police and Secret Service; ...
...and in effect, DESECRATING, PROLIFERATING THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF, WHAT ST. WILLIAM THOMAS (NOT CONNIE, NEVER CONNIE, NEVER CONNIE) LIVED AND DIED TO CREATE, AND TO PROLIFERATE -
"WISDOM AND HONESTY."
Since Thomas passed, and with this recent Lie and Slander campaign, the sole function of this now Hate Vigil, is to spew...
"LIES AND DECEPTION."
It is my duty to Protect the Truth, and any and all Innocents, Thomas, Secret Service, Park Police, in this case... whereever they are and whoever they may be, or I am NO PEACE ACTIVIST, NO PEACE MAKER -
JUST A FRAUD, AN ACTOR ('HYPOCRITE,' FROM THE GREEK) ...
LIKE NEAR ALL THE REST.
Here is what is being shared: [[[
Concepcion Picciotto held a peace vigil outside The White House through six presidencies until police dismantled her tent Wednesday evening. When asked why she maintained the longest political protest in US history, suffering through brutally hot summers and freezing winters, Connie responded: “We have to stop the world from being destroyed.”
Connie's story should inspire us all, but unfortunately her story has only been shared less than 100 times on social media. If you are inspired, please pass this one along.
http://wapo.st/11EJyEq
http://huff.to/17tDZgq ]]]
[[[NOTE: IT SEEMS THAT THE AUTHORS OF ALL THIS, LOVERS OF TRUTH THAT THEY ARE, WENT TO THE TROUBLE OF BLOCKING THE REPOSTING MY COMMENTS ON MY OWN WALL. AMAZING.
HOW DO YOU SPELL H Y P O C R I T E S ??? Oh, Huff Post deleted my comment on this. Totally expected. All the Left Wing Propaganda, Hate, that's fit to print. ]]]]
The pic above is a Lie, unintended tho it may be. It is a lie. Gandhi, the consummate unviolent warrior, said the one thing worth instantly dying for was the Truth. Obviously, that Devotion to Truth, DIED with MLK Jr, and Gandhi. The US Left, the DC Activist Club, ever since pisses on the Truth at any whim. whenever it gets their rocks off.
The Peace Vigil Died, when William Thomas died, largely haven been driven insane by Connie's relentless hatefulness, greed, violence, insane selfisness.
The major reason the vigil exists since then, and before, is the Heroic NonViolence of the Park Police and Secret Service. Despite a daily vomit of hate, violence, abuse, vile behavior by Connie toward them, reasonable rules violations... they, day after day, day after day, month after month, year after year... turn their heads, absorb her psychological, massive, hideous abuse, vile violations, her disgusting hypocrisy....
Oh, she cares about Palestine? Nuclear Weapons? You thing so? You fool. In a pigs eye. Look at what 99.999% of the time is her handout - it is about her vendetta against those she alleges abused her with chemicals (insane) decades ago, decades ago, and one Marine, that she uses to visciously discriminate against ALL MEN IN UNIFORMS. Uh, that's biggotry, folks. That's discrimination.
Oh, and it is about making about $100 a day in totally illegal tips.
Oh, and it is about meaningless photo ops with ignorant fawning tourists from around the world telling Connie what a wonderful person she is - when in fact, she is the opposite.
A circus side-show since Thomas Died.
Is all this Connie's fault? No.
The larger part is the folks that have, and now I see, are renewing and redoubling efforts, to ENABLE her Hatefulness.
Connie has True Goodness in her. I've seen it. But she is Clinically Addicted to her Hatefulness, and all the Criminally-blinded, lip-service, self-righteousness-addicted lefties in DC are her pushers, her pimps, her supply - enabling her rampant addiction to her Hate and Abuse, which they vicariously get off on.
My Authority in this? Thomas, as he was in the final months of killing himself, said, 'Loving, you are the only one I want to take my place." And I did for 2.5 year, and months before he finally died, without missing either of my even one of my 2 shifts of the 4 shift rotation, until I could no longer be part of Connie's reign of Hate.
And prior, I'd lived in Thomas house, at his insistence - 'Loving, as long as I am alive you will have a room in this house' - for years, watching it all, turning my primary priority to trying to do what I could to save Thomas, and Save what Good there was in the Vigil, and the Peace House. But I was way too little, way too late. With his death the Peace Vigil became the Unmitigated Hate Vigil, and the Peace House became the Parasite House.
Before God, before all that is Good, that at the White House, is a Hate Vigil, the opposite of a Peace Vigil.
Tragedy. Near all due to the cowardly enabling of Connie's pimps, of which I was one, for all too long. And NO ONE is a greater victim of this, than Connie.
Now, her blood, and the propagation of the Hideous, Corrupting Lie, is on your hands.
ps: I totally divorced myself from the vigil, and the Peace House, over two years ago, moving out into the street to live, rather than in any way enable the rank evil that was all that was left in both places. I've never for one breath regretted that. Sure, the street is hard. Nonviolence much better translates as Non-Evil. It is our highest duty to not enable Evil. I finally found the courage, decency, Loving... to do just that, regardless of the massive material price to me personally.
My Point? Although from my extensive experience with Connie and the Peace House after Thomas died tells me that the above remains true, 99.999% confident, I do not have in any form authoritative information that things did not go from Night to Day, Evil to Good, since then.
S. Loving http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/
pps: I will gladly post any comments, expected to be hatefilled screeds at me, provided that the person(s) leaving the comment identify themselves. Cowards need not apply. That should do it.
... now breaking my silence...
....because the Hate-Blinded, Self-righteous, 'Peace Activists' in and around DC, are by statement and Innuendo Slandering the Park Police and Secret Service; ...
...and in effect, DESECRATING, PROLIFERATING THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF, WHAT ST. WILLIAM THOMAS (NOT CONNIE, NEVER CONNIE, NEVER CONNIE) LIVED AND DIED TO CREATE, AND TO PROLIFERATE -
"WISDOM AND HONESTY."
Since Thomas passed, and with this recent Lie and Slander campaign, the sole function of this now Hate Vigil, is to spew...
"LIES AND DECEPTION."
It is my duty to Protect the Truth, and any and all Innocents, Thomas, Secret Service, Park Police, in this case... whereever they are and whoever they may be, or I am NO PEACE ACTIVIST, NO PEACE MAKER -
JUST A FRAUD, AN ACTOR ('HYPOCRITE,' FROM THE GREEK) ...
LIKE NEAR ALL THE REST.
Here is what is being shared: [[[
Concepcion Picciotto held a peace vigil outside The White House through six presidencies until police dismantled her tent Wednesday evening. When asked why she maintained the longest political protest in US history, suffering through brutally hot summers and freezing winters, Connie responded: “We have to stop the world from being destroyed.”
Connie's story should inspire us all, but unfortunately her story has only been shared less than 100 times on social media. If you are inspired, please pass this one along.
http://wapo.st/11EJyEq
http://huff.to/17tDZgq ]]]
[[[NOTE: IT SEEMS THAT THE AUTHORS OF ALL THIS, LOVERS OF TRUTH THAT THEY ARE, WENT TO THE TROUBLE OF BLOCKING THE REPOSTING MY COMMENTS ON MY OWN WALL. AMAZING.
HOW DO YOU SPELL H Y P O C R I T E S ??? Oh, Huff Post deleted my comment on this. Totally expected. All the Left Wing Propaganda, Hate, that's fit to print. ]]]]
The pic above is a Lie, unintended tho it may be. It is a lie. Gandhi, the consummate unviolent warrior, said the one thing worth instantly dying for was the Truth. Obviously, that Devotion to Truth, DIED with MLK Jr, and Gandhi. The US Left, the DC Activist Club, ever since pisses on the Truth at any whim. whenever it gets their rocks off.
The Peace Vigil Died, when William Thomas died, largely haven been driven insane by Connie's relentless hatefulness, greed, violence, insane selfisness.
The major reason the vigil exists since then, and before, is the Heroic NonViolence of the Park Police and Secret Service. Despite a daily vomit of hate, violence, abuse, vile behavior by Connie toward them, reasonable rules violations... they, day after day, day after day, month after month, year after year... turn their heads, absorb her psychological, massive, hideous abuse, vile violations, her disgusting hypocrisy....
Oh, she cares about Palestine? Nuclear Weapons? You thing so? You fool. In a pigs eye. Look at what 99.999% of the time is her handout - it is about her vendetta against those she alleges abused her with chemicals (insane) decades ago, decades ago, and one Marine, that she uses to visciously discriminate against ALL MEN IN UNIFORMS. Uh, that's biggotry, folks. That's discrimination.
Oh, and it is about making about $100 a day in totally illegal tips.
Oh, and it is about meaningless photo ops with ignorant fawning tourists from around the world telling Connie what a wonderful person she is - when in fact, she is the opposite.
A circus side-show since Thomas Died.
Is all this Connie's fault? No.
The larger part is the folks that have, and now I see, are renewing and redoubling efforts, to ENABLE her Hatefulness.
Connie has True Goodness in her. I've seen it. But she is Clinically Addicted to her Hatefulness, and all the Criminally-blinded, lip-service, self-righteousness-addicted lefties in DC are her pushers, her pimps, her supply - enabling her rampant addiction to her Hate and Abuse, which they vicariously get off on.
My Authority in this? Thomas, as he was in the final months of killing himself, said, 'Loving, you are the only one I want to take my place." And I did for 2.5 year, and months before he finally died, without missing either of my even one of my 2 shifts of the 4 shift rotation, until I could no longer be part of Connie's reign of Hate.
And prior, I'd lived in Thomas house, at his insistence - 'Loving, as long as I am alive you will have a room in this house' - for years, watching it all, turning my primary priority to trying to do what I could to save Thomas, and Save what Good there was in the Vigil, and the Peace House. But I was way too little, way too late. With his death the Peace Vigil became the Unmitigated Hate Vigil, and the Peace House became the Parasite House.
Before God, before all that is Good, that at the White House, is a Hate Vigil, the opposite of a Peace Vigil.
Tragedy. Near all due to the cowardly enabling of Connie's pimps, of which I was one, for all too long. And NO ONE is a greater victim of this, than Connie.
Now, her blood, and the propagation of the Hideous, Corrupting Lie, is on your hands.
ps: I totally divorced myself from the vigil, and the Peace House, over two years ago, moving out into the street to live, rather than in any way enable the rank evil that was all that was left in both places. I've never for one breath regretted that. Sure, the street is hard. Nonviolence much better translates as Non-Evil. It is our highest duty to not enable Evil. I finally found the courage, decency, Loving... to do just that, regardless of the massive material price to me personally.
My Point? Although from my extensive experience with Connie and the Peace House after Thomas died tells me that the above remains true, 99.999% confident, I do not have in any form authoritative information that things did not go from Night to Day, Evil to Good, since then.
S. Loving http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/
pps: I will gladly post any comments, expected to be hatefilled screeds at me, provided that the person(s) leaving the comment identify themselves. Cowards need not apply. That should do it.
***** I, S. Loving, have a dream. (details)
***** I, S. Loving, have a dream. (details)...
And, if you had asked me 5 minutes ago, or a month ago, or 10 years ago, or 30 years ago, or 55 years ago if I had a dream, I'd have honestly said, "No," and, "I don't know why I don't have one, have never had one," and if pushed, "I'm troubled and ashamed I don't have one... what is wrong with me?,"
... and in saying so, I'd have been dead wrong then, and I was dead wrong 5 minutes ago.
There is an old saying - The fish is the last one to discover water.
I've always had a dream, or rather, a Dream has always had me, weakly, and for 15 years now TOTALLY, A DREAM HAS ME, by the b*lls, uh, I mean, Throat.
My Dream, the dream that has Had me since my Earliest Memory... Is of an entire World, Earth, where:
* We are all Immediate Family to one another - nothing more. Nothing less. Nothing else.
* I mean Family where any Family member would GLADLY DIE if necessary for the wellbeing of ANY OTHER FAMILY MEMBER, such as is the case in EVERY HEALTHY, TRUE, FAMILY, SINCE THE BEGINNING OF TIME. OBJECTIVE.
* I do NOT mean family of the sort where one member has power OVER another. NO. NEVER.
* I have a Dream, born of 55 years of relatively intense learning, that this is ENTIRELY POSSIBLE, IT IS LITERALLY WHAT OUR DNA HAS DESIGNED US TO DO, but not 'naturally' in Morally Toxic Wasteland such as 2013 Culture of our Neglectful, near certainly now Terminal, Ecocidal, Clinically Mad... creation.
* I have a Dream that I, and You, are to JOYFULLY, WITHOUT HESITATION, FOR THE GREEDY JOY OF IT, GIVE OUR LIVES IN WHAT EVER IMMEDIATE (figuratively jumping on a grenade to save others), or over-a-lifetime, like Diane Wilson, Alice Paul, Susan B. Anthony, Eleanor Roosevelt) way...
to give Life, and mitigate Suffering of another(s)...
Because there is nothing more Wonderful, Heavenly, that we can see, than this World of Universal Family, nor anything more Horrible than the NEEDLESS SUFFERING, EVERY NANO-SECOND, THAT ITS COMING IS DELAYED. "A person that does not know what she would die for, is not equipped to live." MLK Jr.
* And, yes, it is the Exact Same Dream, by whatever name, that Gandhi had, MLK Jr. had, Jesus had, Eleanor Roosevelt had....
* And it is the Exact Same Dream that HAD Gandhi, HAD MLK Jr, HAD, Jesus, HAD Eleanor Roosevelt..."She who would give Light, must endure Burning." Eleanor Roosevelt.
* Well, maybe more later, but I've got cancer poison pumping into me now with this pump I wear for the next 2 days, 24/7. Later....
ps: The following has been playing in my mind recently, and it is relevant to this last 5 minute's Revelation. It is from the Musical "Don Quixote," that I've ADORED, the Musical, my entire life. It is often my hunch that an entire movie, story, musical... is crafted and created, ultimately, to deliver 1 line, and here is what that one line was for Don Quixote, delivered by Cervantes, from the bowels of an Inquisition Prison, awaiting certain torture and death:
"TRUE MADNESS IS SEEING HOW THINGS ARE,
AND NOT, HOW THEY SHOULD BE."
And, if you had asked me 5 minutes ago, or a month ago, or 10 years ago, or 30 years ago, or 55 years ago if I had a dream, I'd have honestly said, "No," and, "I don't know why I don't have one, have never had one," and if pushed, "I'm troubled and ashamed I don't have one... what is wrong with me?,"
... and in saying so, I'd have been dead wrong then, and I was dead wrong 5 minutes ago.
There is an old saying - The fish is the last one to discover water.
I've always had a dream, or rather, a Dream has always had me, weakly, and for 15 years now TOTALLY, A DREAM HAS ME, by the b*lls, uh, I mean, Throat.
My Dream, the dream that has Had me since my Earliest Memory... Is of an entire World, Earth, where:
* We are all Immediate Family to one another - nothing more. Nothing less. Nothing else.
* I mean Family where any Family member would GLADLY DIE if necessary for the wellbeing of ANY OTHER FAMILY MEMBER, such as is the case in EVERY HEALTHY, TRUE, FAMILY, SINCE THE BEGINNING OF TIME. OBJECTIVE.
* I do NOT mean family of the sort where one member has power OVER another. NO. NEVER.
* I have a Dream, born of 55 years of relatively intense learning, that this is ENTIRELY POSSIBLE, IT IS LITERALLY WHAT OUR DNA HAS DESIGNED US TO DO, but not 'naturally' in Morally Toxic Wasteland such as 2013 Culture of our Neglectful, near certainly now Terminal, Ecocidal, Clinically Mad... creation.
* I have a Dream that I, and You, are to JOYFULLY, WITHOUT HESITATION, FOR THE GREEDY JOY OF IT, GIVE OUR LIVES IN WHAT EVER IMMEDIATE (figuratively jumping on a grenade to save others), or over-a-lifetime, like Diane Wilson, Alice Paul, Susan B. Anthony, Eleanor Roosevelt) way...
to give Life, and mitigate Suffering of another(s)...
Because there is nothing more Wonderful, Heavenly, that we can see, than this World of Universal Family, nor anything more Horrible than the NEEDLESS SUFFERING, EVERY NANO-SECOND, THAT ITS COMING IS DELAYED. "A person that does not know what she would die for, is not equipped to live." MLK Jr.
* And, yes, it is the Exact Same Dream, by whatever name, that Gandhi had, MLK Jr. had, Jesus had, Eleanor Roosevelt had....
* And it is the Exact Same Dream that HAD Gandhi, HAD MLK Jr, HAD, Jesus, HAD Eleanor Roosevelt..."She who would give Light, must endure Burning." Eleanor Roosevelt.
* Well, maybe more later, but I've got cancer poison pumping into me now with this pump I wear for the next 2 days, 24/7. Later....
ps: The following has been playing in my mind recently, and it is relevant to this last 5 minute's Revelation. It is from the Musical "Don Quixote," that I've ADORED, the Musical, my entire life. It is often my hunch that an entire movie, story, musical... is crafted and created, ultimately, to deliver 1 line, and here is what that one line was for Don Quixote, delivered by Cervantes, from the bowels of an Inquisition Prison, awaiting certain torture and death:
"TRUE MADNESS IS SEEING HOW THINGS ARE,
AND NOT, HOW THEY SHOULD BE."
***** (details) From a Dear Sister: "LOVING, HOW CAN YOU HAVE BEEN FOR THE BOMBING OF SYRIA??? YET ON ANOTHER POST, YOU EXCORIATE AMERICAN HYPOCRISY GIVING ULTIMATE HORROR TO SYRIA GASSING 1500, AND NO VALUE TO AMERICAN EXTERMINATION BY BOMBS AND DEPLEATED UNRANIUM, OF 500,000 IRAQIS????
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Even if I am as correct and consistent in my views, within the immensely narrow frame of what America considers 'life' in which I operate, I have no trouble imagining why my comments could seem inconsistent to even you. The hypocrisy of America is one issue I take on - over the span of our existence starting with the Genocidiary Columbus; over the span of our lifetime - Vietnam War, allowing Reagan in office, allowing GW TWICE!!!, exterminating peasants in South America, 500,000 in Iraq for oil....
So, with posts like the above I call out our hypocrisy, for the learning that doing so could possibly spark, as facing such evils has been changing, teaching, me these many years now; excruciating - Life giving. But, where as we Americans have been objectively, a plague on Creation, that does not absolve me from standing for actions, NOW, that I find necessary in the here and now, for people here and now, and for the next 1000 generations.
The major openness I've expressed to the bombing of Syria (or the bombing, killing of me, for that matter... I'd gladly, EAGERLY die this moment...) is for the chance of crashing the Global Economy - STOPPING THE ENGINES OF TITANIC II, BEFORE IT HITS THE FOSSIL FUEL ICEBERG.
If it cost my life; if it cost the lives of all 7 billion of us alive today, so that the next 200 billion people have what they won't have otherwise, a habitable planet, I'd GREEDILY pay that price personally, and I'm willing to see that price paid by us all today - who are not doing what my father's generation did by the millions - put everything they had, everything they were, everything they valued, their lives and the well-being of their families - in the way, on the line, to stop the existential threat to the future, of their time.
Even if I am as correct and consistent in my views, within the immensely narrow frame of what America considers 'life' in which I operate, I have no trouble imagining why my comments could seem inconsistent to even you. The hypocrisy of America is one issue I take on - over the span of our existence starting with the Genocidiary Columbus; over the span of our lifetime - Vietnam War, allowing Reagan in office, allowing GW TWICE!!!, exterminating peasants in South America, 500,000 in Iraq for oil....
So, with posts like the above I call out our hypocrisy, for the learning that doing so could possibly spark, as facing such evils has been changing, teaching, me these many years now; excruciating - Life giving. But, where as we Americans have been objectively, a plague on Creation, that does not absolve me from standing for actions, NOW, that I find necessary in the here and now, for people here and now, and for the next 1000 generations.
The major openness I've expressed to the bombing of Syria (or the bombing, killing of me, for that matter... I'd gladly, EAGERLY die this moment...) is for the chance of crashing the Global Economy - STOPPING THE ENGINES OF TITANIC II, BEFORE IT HITS THE FOSSIL FUEL ICEBERG.
If it cost my life; if it cost the lives of all 7 billion of us alive today, so that the next 200 billion people have what they won't have otherwise, a habitable planet, I'd GREEDILY pay that price personally, and I'm willing to see that price paid by us all today - who are not doing what my father's generation did by the millions - put everything they had, everything they were, everything they valued, their lives and the well-being of their families - in the way, on the line, to stop the existential threat to the future, of their time.
Cancer Update: Extremely bad news: 1. I didn't know but they've been giving me steroids these last two months. Whatever time I have left now is ruined. My prospects in professional sports is zero. 2. We've been waiting two hours and 10 minutes for a bus. 3. I think that my oncologist is trying to convince the surgeon to operate and my oncologist is saying no way. 4. To try and convince him she has me on another round of chemo. 5. Maybe tomorrow I learn more.
Extremely bad news: 1. I didn't know but they've been giving me steroids these last two months. Whatever time I have left now is ruined. My prospects in professional sports is zero. 2. We've been waiting two hours and 10 minutes for a bus. 3. I think that my oncologist is trying to convince the surgeon to operate and my oncologist is saying no way. 4. To try and convince him she has me on another round of chemo. 5. Maybe tomorrow I learn more.
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nd 500,000 Iraqi's are Infinitely less Dead and tortured cus US didn't kill them chemically, right? The Perpetual Deplete Uranium Torture of Falluja, is INFINITELY less cruel than if it had been Chemical, right? BS.
500,000 Iraqi's are Infinitely less Dead and tortured cus US didn't kill them chemically, right? The Perpetual Deplete Uranium Torture of Falluja, is INFINITELY less cruel than if it had been Chemical, right? BS.
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