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7.15.2013
Cancer, etc, update
Yesterday, about 7:40 pm, I went to CVS and got 4 bottles of Gatorade for me and some cold cokes for Len and Tony (Hawk never accepts anything from me). I expected the Gatorades would last me till this afternoon. It is really hot here, in the blaring sun, on the sidewalk, here in front of the Can Embassy, all day long. Well, all 4 bottles were drained, about a gallon, I figure, before bed time, and by morning I'd really not peed at all. Most of the time I feel quite well, but occasionally, quite sick from the sun.
There was a brief indication this morning, unexpected, that the CCNV Infirmary had rethought their requirement that I, we, surrender our basic rights to be treated as humans upon entry, but as the day wore on, that does not seem to be transpiring. (It is odd, I think, but I'm all of a sudden getting a glimpse of why the Right hates Government Staffers. I'm not saying it is justified, but I am getting a glimpse of why. No sense of accountability, in some cases. They've got their job, on tax-payer $, now, screw you. But much more than that it is - abuse the homeless, the financially poor, because YOU CAN, and not get hit back! No, I'm not bitter. Just sad. And tired. So much inhumanity.)
Mind you, the only group in this country I have any respect for is our public workers - army, nurses, docs, public servants.... I suppose what is most amazing, in our sick, dying culture, is that there are folks like Doc Cardile, Nurse Beth, Soc Wrkr Steph... that keep their Loving Humanity and Serving no matter what. Awe Inspiring.
My Family in Hyattsville has continued God-ly arrangements for me to stay with them. God-send.
Just heard from GUH (hosp), an Angel social worker there that's really been stepping up to be a Sister, an Angel, to me. The Infusion does NOT start tomorrow, but Friday. I'm GUESSING that at my 9:30am tomorrow I'll be told Good News, that the pharma has been persuaded by GUH to include me in the Drug Trial, despite the operation expected to conclude my 2 mos chemo. In any case, I'll know more after my 9:30 tomorrow with Doc H. I may be there for many hours tomorrow on pre-Trial Test stuff.
[[[Update. Just heard from my beloved oncologist, Doc H, and no, the pharma turned me down. My understanding is that the major impact to me and my future in this, is that less of my time will be required for tests, many days less. But I'm sorry for Doc H, cuz I think it would have been helpful to his work. :-( ]]]
If this holds, I'll maintain my stand against Ecocide by Fossil Fuels, in the blazing heat, till Thursday, and then go to Hyattsville, get set up there, and start Chemo infusion on Friday.
My Angel Ms. Joanne at GUH is positioning to arrange with volunteer drivers to take me to and from my infusions, and for 3 meals per day. My my my. Goodness is sooooo rare, but there still are shreds.
There was a brief indication this morning, unexpected, that the CCNV Infirmary had rethought their requirement that I, we, surrender our basic rights to be treated as humans upon entry, but as the day wore on, that does not seem to be transpiring. (It is odd, I think, but I'm all of a sudden getting a glimpse of why the Right hates Government Staffers. I'm not saying it is justified, but I am getting a glimpse of why. No sense of accountability, in some cases. They've got their job, on tax-payer $, now, screw you. But much more than that it is - abuse the homeless, the financially poor, because YOU CAN, and not get hit back! No, I'm not bitter. Just sad. And tired. So much inhumanity.)
Mind you, the only group in this country I have any respect for is our public workers - army, nurses, docs, public servants.... I suppose what is most amazing, in our sick, dying culture, is that there are folks like Doc Cardile, Nurse Beth, Soc Wrkr Steph... that keep their Loving Humanity and Serving no matter what. Awe Inspiring.
My Family in Hyattsville has continued God-ly arrangements for me to stay with them. God-send.
Just heard from GUH (hosp), an Angel social worker there that's really been stepping up to be a Sister, an Angel, to me. The Infusion does NOT start tomorrow, but Friday. I'm GUESSING that at my 9:30am tomorrow I'll be told Good News, that the pharma has been persuaded by GUH to include me in the Drug Trial, despite the operation expected to conclude my 2 mos chemo. In any case, I'll know more after my 9:30 tomorrow with Doc H. I may be there for many hours tomorrow on pre-Trial Test stuff.
[[[Update. Just heard from my beloved oncologist, Doc H, and no, the pharma turned me down. My understanding is that the major impact to me and my future in this, is that less of my time will be required for tests, many days less. But I'm sorry for Doc H, cuz I think it would have been helpful to his work. :-( ]]]
If this holds, I'll maintain my stand against Ecocide by Fossil Fuels, in the blazing heat, till Thursday, and then go to Hyattsville, get set up there, and start Chemo infusion on Friday.
My Angel Ms. Joanne at GUH is positioning to arrange with volunteer drivers to take me to and from my infusions, and for 3 meals per day. My my my. Goodness is sooooo rare, but there still are shreds.
nd 'Where do I get the Truth on the Trayvon Martin Case? I know where to get the cheap red meat, on the right, on the left, but where the Truth? Tell me.' Loving
nd 'Where do I get the Truth on the Trayvon Martin Case? I know where to get the cheap red meat, on the right, on the left, but where the Truth? Tell me.' Loving
NSA Leaker Edward Snowden Nominated For Nobel Peace Prize. International Business Times
NSA Leaker Edward Snowden Nominated For Nobel Peace Prize
International Business Times-6 minutes ago
The professor, Stefan Svallfors, nominated Snowden for his 'heroic effort at great personal cost' in a letter that was addressed to the Norwegian Nobel ...
pic - "[The Koch Bros] want to bring us back to the 1920's, when the workers had no Social Security, no health care, no right to form unions... We are moving in that direction where the billionaire class, the top one percent controls the economic and political life of this country." Sen. Bernie Sanders.
pic - "[The Koch Bros] want to bring us back to the 1920's, when the workers had no Social Security, no health care, no right to form unions... We are moving in that direction where the billionaire class, the top one percent controls the economic and political life of this country."
Sen. Bernie Sanders.
"I took what I knew to the public, so what affects all of us can be discussed by all of us in the light of day, and I asked the world for justice," Snowden
"I took what I knew to the public, so what affects all of us can be discussed by all of us in the light of day, and I asked the world for justice," Snowden
7.14.2013
nd Is Pr. Obama hunting Snowen, or slowing, blocking, delaying the hunt?
nd Is Pr. Obama hunting Snowen, or slowing, blocking, delaying the hunt?
Scientists: 1. Dangerous global warming could be reversed (yes, the seas will be dead, completely, but so?); 2. The cost will beggar our kids forever, not us (woo hoo!) 3. If we're wrong, well be dead before the sh*t hits the fan; 4. Backup plan? Uh, no backup plan is possible, heh heh; 5. If we act sanely and prevent global warming we won't get funding for all this neat geoengeneering (boooo); 6. They have a mechanical nightingale for the emperor
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"I don't want to live in a world where there is no privacy and therefore no room for intellectual exploration and creativity." Snowden
"I don't want to live in a world where there is no privacy and therefore no room for intellectual exploration and creativity."
nd ' "God is Truth. Truth is God," said Gandhi. So why do we Practice God as FANTASY? Anyone think this might be a problem? Individual? Collective?' Loving
nd ' "God is Truth. Truth is God," said Gandhi. So why do we Practice God as SELF-PLEASURING FANTASY? Anyone think this might be a problem? Individual? Collective? You leading us out of this Deadly insanity?' Loving
nd 'Creation is dying from US. Nothing else. US. Creation is dying from US. Fact. WE are the Savages, Fact. From the beginning.' Loving
nd 'Creation is dying from US. Nothing else. US. Creation is dying from US. Fact. WE are the Savages, Fact. From the beginning.' Loving
"NOT GOOD IN A BED, BUT DOES WELL WHEN UP AGAINST A WALL," Eleanor Roosevelt famously said this about the description of a rose named after her. True of Loving, here, too. LOL.
"NOT GOOD IN A BED, BUT DOES WELL WHEN UP AGAINST A WALL," Eleanor Roosevelt famously said this about the description of a rose named after her. True of Loving, here, too. LOL.
nd 'LOVING, HERE: I'M NOT HERE TO GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT. I'M HERE TO GIVE YOU WHAT YOU NEED FROM ME, AS BEST I'M ABLE, LIKE THE BEST POSSIBLE NURSE. WE OFFER WHAT YOU NEED, EVEN IF IT WILL HURT, WHICH OFTEN, USUALLY, IT DOES FROM US; AND NEVER FORCE. IT IS UP TO YOU. YOU, NOT I, ARE IN ULTIMATE CONTROL OF WHAT IF ANY HELP I CAN GIVE. BUT WE'LL KILL OURSELVES TRYING FOR YOU, JOYFULLY." Loving
nd 'LOVING, HERE: I'M NOT HERE TO GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT. I'M HERE TO GIVE YOU WHAT YOU NEED FROM ME, AS BEST I'M ABLE, LIKE THE BEST POSSIBLE NURSE. WE OFFER WHAT YOU NEED, EVEN IF IT WILL HURT, WHICH OFTEN, USUALLY, IT DOES FROM US; AND NEVER FORCE. IT IS UP TO YOU. YOU, NOT I, ARE IN ULTIMATE CONTROL OF WHAT IF ANY HELP I CAN GIVE. BUT WE'LL KILL OURSELVES TRYING FOR YOU, JOYFULLY." Loving
nd 'You think if women used their sex for Peace Making instead of to get stuff from men, we wouldn't have peace? THINK AGAIN.' Loving
nd 'You think if women used their sex for Peace Making instead of to get stuff from men, we wouldn't have peace? THINK AGAIN.' Loving
5 WHITE JURORS, OF 6 - ZIMMERMAN JURY IN MURDER OF A BLACK YOUNG MAN: 5 WHITES, ONE POSSIBLY-HISPANIC
5 WHITE JURORS, OF 6 - ZIMMERMAN JURY IN MURDER OF A BLACK YOUNG MAN: 5 WHITES, ONE POSSIBLY-HISPANIC
nd 'In our UNLAWFUL land do I have the Love to do what is Right, and stop COWERING to, to IGNORE, our ILLEGAL SYSTEM - it's diversions from Truth, and it's power to harm, destroy, my Avatar? Time will tell about me.' Loving
nd 'In our UNLAWFUL land do I have the Love to do what is Right, and stop COWERING to, to IGNORE, our ILLEGAL SYSTEM - it's diversions from Truth, and it's power to harm, destroy, my Avatar? Time will tell about me.' Loving
nd 'If you haven't seen "Hurt Locker," see it. You OWE our men and women in uniform, and our children not yet in uniform... that. YOU OWE THEM THAT. You owe the next would-be-country-for US Thugs-to-colonize that. Now.' Loving
nd 'If you haven't seen "Hurt Locker," see it. You OWE our men and women in uniform, and our children not yet in uniform... that. YOU OWE THEM THAT. You owe the next would-be-country-for US Thugs-to-colonize that. Now.' Loving
***** nd 'SYMPTOMS OF YOU AND ME, HOW WE AMERICANS TREAT EACH OTHER: WORLD'S HIGHEST INCARCERATION RATE, MASSIVE UNEMPLOYMENT, MASSIVE CHILD POVERTY, WEATH-CARE NOT HEALTHCARE, NATIVE AMERICAN POVERTY...NOT 'THE GOV,' 'THE SYSTEM'..., NO. YOU, ME, HOW WE TREAT EACH OTHER IN THE US (should be called the ME, not the US). ANTI-CHRIST, ANTI-CHRISTIAN, AS GOD IS OUR WITNESS' Loving
***** nd 'SYMPTOMS OF YOU AND ME, HOW WE AMERICANS TREAT EACH OTHER: WORLD'S HIGHEST INCARCERATION RATE, MASSIVE UNEMPLOYMENT, MASSIVE CHILD POVERTY, WEATH-CARE NOT HEALTHCARE, NATIVE AMERICAN POVERTY...NOT 'THE GOV,' 'THE SYSTEM'..., NO. YOU, ME, HOW WE TREAT EACH OTHER IN THE US (should be called the ME, not the US). ANTI-CHRIST, ANTI-CHRISTIAN, AS GOD IS OUR WITNESS' Loving
***** nd 'I never saw clearly till yesterday. FRENCH, CANADIANS, GERMANS... DO NOT TOLERATE TREATMENT OF THEIR CITIZENS, THAT WE ACCEPT AS A MATTER OF COURSE FOR OUR POOR, INCLUDING OUR POOR US CHILDREN. WE ARE ANTI-CHRIST, THE ANTI-CHRIST.' Loving
***** nd 'I never saw clearly till yesterday. FRENCH, CANADIANS, GERMANS... DO NOT TOLERATE TREATMENT OF THEIR CITIZENS, THAT WE ACCEPT AS A MATTER OF COURSE FOR OUR POOR, INCLUDING OUR POOR US CHILDREN. WE ARE ANTI-CHRIST, THE ANTI-CHRIST.' Loving
***** (detail) 'SERIOUS, HONEST, QUESTION: SINCE THE BEGINNING, HAVE SETTLERS OF THE US BEEN THE SOCIOPATHS OF EUROPE? WAS, IS, PROTESTANTISM, OR CHRISTIANITY MORE BROADLY, A MAFFIA? If you have scholarly sources, no, or yes, pls share them with me. I must know more of this.' Loving
***** (detail) 'SERIOUS, HONEST, QUESTION:
SINCE THE BEGINNING, HAVE SETTLERS OF THE US
BEEN THE SOCIOPATHS OF EUROPE? WAS, IS,
PROTESTANTISM, OR CHRISTIANITY MORE BROADLY,
A MAFFIA CULT? If you have scholarly sources, no, or yes,
pls share them with me. I must know more of this.'
Loving
***** HISTORY CHANEL Doc: White christian Savagery and the American Indian
http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2013/07/nd-white-christianity-has-been-steady.html
[[[NOTE: THIS DOC, 1993 OR SO, SAYS "5 MILLION" NATIVE AMERICANS
EXTERMINATED. NO. 50 MILLION IS WHAT I UNDERSTAND TO BE THE
SCHOLARSHIP OF THE LAST 20 YEARS. I HAVE MORE STUDY ON THIS,
MUCH MORE, IF I'M GIVEN THE TIME.]]]
I FEEL UTTERLY SICK, ILL. WE
ARE DROWNING IN BLOOD WE WHITE, cHRISTIAN, CAPITALIST SAVAGES
SINCE THE BEGINNING, HAVE SETTLERS OF THE US
BEEN THE SOCIOPATHS OF EUROPE? WAS, IS,
PROTESTANTISM, OR CHRISTIANITY MORE BROADLY,
A MAFFIA CULT? If you have scholarly sources, no, or yes,
pls share them with me. I must know more of this.'
Loving
***** HISTORY CHANEL Doc: White christian Savagery and the American Indian
http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2013/07/nd-white-christianity-has-been-steady.html
[[[NOTE: THIS DOC, 1993 OR SO, SAYS "5 MILLION" NATIVE AMERICANS
EXTERMINATED. NO. 50 MILLION IS WHAT I UNDERSTAND TO BE THE
SCHOLARSHIP OF THE LAST 20 YEARS. I HAVE MORE STUDY ON THIS,
MUCH MORE, IF I'M GIVEN THE TIME.]]]
I FEEL UTTERLY SICK, ILL. WE
ARE DROWNING IN BLOOD WE WHITE, cHRISTIAN, CAPITALIST SAVAGES
7.13.2013
*****Dialog with Brother Bruce (detail) " I must 'leave' this deadly culture as meaningfully, quickly, fully... as I can...."
- Bruce: Missed you today [on my Sat run delivering food to my Homeless Family]! Saw Hawk and Len. They are concerned about you! You could see it in their eyes. That stretch of street is not the same without you there. Let me know how things are going. I still haven't been able to find that tester together. Remember - here's our / your, home address - xxx xxxxxxxxxx, Hyattsville, xx.
Loving: I'm in chemo prison. I can't say that this incarceration is a bad thing. I have time, when not in 14 hours per day of sleep, , to study, pray, study, read.... It is way more of blessing than a curse. Bless your heart for remembering my need of the volt/amp meter to see if my solar panel is working properly, or extremely faulty. So glad you brought it up. That group, that in its own way, has been Family to me as you and Kath have been, the Lucas 4:18 group, one of them tried to help with the meter, and her thoughts sent me searching further and for $5 on Amazon, vs $50 at Radio Shack, presented what I need, and should be to me by late in the week.- cont
I really think you should watch this. http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2013/07/history-chanel-doc-white-christian.html . It has not created in me what I am about to share, by any means. But what is in me is what caused me to go looking for it, and information like it, and it intensifies my clarity on what I'll share -
Loving: Btw, I'm deeply touched that Hawk and Len have positive feelings toward me. I have a deep affection and respect, Love, for them. Please, if you see them before I, tell them I am very well, nothing to be concerned with. LOL - what AC? Yes, there is some, but not much.
Bless your Hearts, I'll let you know about the food, but it is actually quite excellent here.
Loving
My story - I don't recall a day in my life that I've have felt like I belonged here in our culture. I feel totally at home on earth, but totally alien, every day of my life that I can recall, in the culture into which I was born, and have lived in all these years. I'm glad of that, now. I don't want to be part of it. I hate it. It is death. I think that for the rest of my days I'll intensify trying to remove myself from it, and it from me. I don't know how that will manifest itself. I don't know. But finding my way more and more the 'way out' of this living cancer we call 'western christian capitalist culture' is my sacred duty, for me, and that others might be helped to find their way better thru my stumblings. This may sound very depressing. What is depressing is the cancerous toxic stew that is our value system. Even greater clarity on my part to that, and even intensified attempt to find the way 'out' is only greater Joy, tho daunting, because it is so vast, urgent, of ultimate importance to all Creation, for me, for each of us; and time is up
.
I'm good with clothes. LOL. I need to learn to make my own clothes, simple, one set, as 'natural,' divorced from society, as possible. Don't know when and if that will happen, but it is much on my mind. I must 'leave' this deadly culture as meaningfully, quickly, fully... as I can. Please try and watch that documentary I linked to above. It is up to you.
***** nd 'White christianity has been the steady march of destroying civilization in America and Africa, and in Asia. The Infection of christian capitalism is now ending all of Creation too.' Loving
***** nd 'White christianity has been the steady march of destroying civilization in America and Africa, and in Asia. The Infection of christian capitalism is now ending all of Creation too.' Loving
vid MHP Pisses on Snowden - "Shut up you ignorant slut,' Loving
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/07/13/melissa-harris-perry-edward-snowden_n_3592427.html
Note: Not that she should care, but MHP has now lost all of my respect, forever.
Huge intellect.
Huger arrogance.
Disgusting.
Totally lost touch with reality, or worse,
a government propaganda shill.
Note: Not that she should care, but MHP has now lost all of my respect, forever.
Huge intellect.
Huger arrogance.
Disgusting.
Totally lost touch with reality, or worse,
a government propaganda shill.
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