I paraphrased my Beloved Sister, her comment.
Just this last week this scripture came aLive for me - 'Do not fear those that can kill your body but not your Soul....'
I DON'T. I DON'T. I simply don't, now that I've Become Loving, I Don't, Loving Doesn't FEAR what can hurt the body! It isn't reckless, suicidal. But, LOVING IS NOT FLESH, THE BODY. LOVING IS SPIRIT. I'VE RETURNED TO BEING SPIRIT. SPIRIT DOES NOT FEAR THE DEATH OF ITS AVATAR. It seeks to avoid it, it doesn't want it, but it does not FEAR it, nor trouble itself about it.
Last week, related, I thought, and posted - If you could ONLY save, for your Dearest one, their Body, or their Spirit, what would you Save? SPIRIT, right? WE ARE SPIRIT. THAT WHICH WE ARE, THAT WHICH WE VALUE, IS, =, EQUALS... SPIRIT.
That's how it is with me.
7.10.2013
***** nd 'The, THE reason to be Loving, Meaningful Work, is the Supreme, Superior Joy of it. The GOOD it does others is Gravy.' Loving
***** nd 'The, THE reason to be Loving, Meaningful Work, is the Supreme, Superior Joy of it. The GOOD it does others is Gravy.' Loving
***** nd 'Our Major Human Duty is to Do, Lead to, and Create Meaningful Work for All. This is Loving, Agapeing.' Loving
***** nd 'Our Major Human Duty is to Do, Lead to, and Create Meaningful Work for All. This is Loving, Agapeing.' Loving
***** (detail) 'LOVING IS, EQUALS, MEANINGFUL WORK = LOVING. IT IS THE ONLY PURPOSE, ONLY JOY, FOR ANY AND EVERY BREATH WE ARE GIVEN.' Loving
I've been reading a lot of Albert Schweitzer lately, and today, Eleanor Roosevelt. Maybe these two
are the two icons I'd point to in the last 1000 years as our Purest Saints, really.
I think Eleanor's biggest concern on earth was what I call Meaningful Work - enough Meaningful (Loving) work for everyone. For Schweitzer his moral Holy Grail was Reverence for Life, but the expression of that is Meaningful Work! Loving Service - Loving! And, Loving, Meaningful Work is my conclusion as the most needed thing on earth, the most needed thing by EVERY human being. And we have almost no meaningful work left in the US.
are the two icons I'd point to in the last 1000 years as our Purest Saints, really.
I think Eleanor's biggest concern on earth was what I call Meaningful Work - enough Meaningful (Loving) work for everyone. For Schweitzer his moral Holy Grail was Reverence for Life, but the expression of that is Meaningful Work! Loving Service - Loving! And, Loving, Meaningful Work is my conclusion as the most needed thing on earth, the most needed thing by EVERY human being. And we have almost no meaningful work left in the US.
nd 'I was a HUGE FAN of NPR, then DN!, then MSNBC. THE WORLD WAS BETTER FOR ME WATCHING THEM, HOW? Not. They do NOT lead to ACTION that justifies the time. Just more INFOTAINMENT, INTELLECTUAL MASTURBATION.' Loving
nd 'I was a HUGE FAN of NPR, then DN!, then MSNBC. THE WORLD WAS BETTER FOR ME WATCHING THEM, HOW? Not. They do NOT lead to ACTION that justifies the time. Just more INFOTAINMENT, INTELLECTUAL MASTURBATION.' Loving
Cancer update
Sleep, sleep, sleep... study, sleep, sleep, sleep.... WTF!?!?!?
Hopefully this will pass, soon!
I've been reading Eleanor Roosevelt's last book - "Tomorrow is Now." They say, she literally used her last breaths, last days, to write this, despite dozens of books, thousands of speeches... before.
My God, what a book, what a Soul. Has there been a greater?
THE STAFF HERE, IN THE INFIRMARY, ARE VOLUNTEERS!!!!?????!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my God, am I HUMBLED. 4 shifts I guess. Late 20's, and 30's guys, af am. Nice. Nice. Humble. VOLUNTEERS. Part of CCNV 'programs,' graduates. Here. I've just heard from one, the one who helped me out with my 'midnight talker' of a roomate last night. I'm a master in counseling. I couldn't dream of turning around folks from drugs, alcohol, crime... the way this young man does, IN HIS SLEEP.
My God.
Ghost of Christmas Present, to Scrooge, 'In the sight of God you may be more worthless than MILLIONS like this mans child.'
Hopefully this will pass, soon!
I've been reading Eleanor Roosevelt's last book - "Tomorrow is Now." They say, she literally used her last breaths, last days, to write this, despite dozens of books, thousands of speeches... before.
My God, what a book, what a Soul. Has there been a greater?
THE STAFF HERE, IN THE INFIRMARY, ARE VOLUNTEERS!!!!?????!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my God, am I HUMBLED. 4 shifts I guess. Late 20's, and 30's guys, af am. Nice. Nice. Humble. VOLUNTEERS. Part of CCNV 'programs,' graduates. Here. I've just heard from one, the one who helped me out with my 'midnight talker' of a roomate last night. I'm a master in counseling. I couldn't dream of turning around folks from drugs, alcohol, crime... the way this young man does, IN HIS SLEEP.
My God.
Ghost of Christmas Present, to Scrooge, 'In the sight of God you may be more worthless than MILLIONS like this mans child.'
nd 'The choice of Walmart is the choice of cheap stuff for me, vs meaningful work for US. I'm still guilty, tho less than I was.' Loving
nd 'The choice of Walmart is the choice of cheap stuff for me, vs meaningful work for US. I'm still guilty, tho less than I was.' Loving
***** Tho I do not understand this I believe it to be true, primary task before each one of us is to create enough meaning for work for all.
* Tho I do not understand this I believe it to be true, primary task before each one of us is to create enough meaning for work for all.
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Walmart to pull out of DC if living wage mandated. And the problem with this is what?
https://news.google.com/news/url?sa=t&ct3=MAA4D0gBUABgAWoCdXPYAQE&usg=AFQjCNHq6IgC6BySC5JkSNv_RM8iDN6EPg&rt=HOMEPAGE&url=[http://www.washingtonpost.com/local/dc-politics/wal-mart-says-it-will-pull-out-of-dc-plans-should-city-mandate-living-wage/2013/07/09/4fa7e710-e8d0-11e2-a301-ea5a8116d211_story.html&ei=jUzdUbCEI8TAgAf_rwE&sig2=RAW8QAo67uupl1JqelBmyA]
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**** read this, re read this, study it, share, now. Even half of the current world target is ecocide.
https://news.google.com/news/url?sa=t&ct3=MAA4B0gAUABgAWoCdXPYAQE&usg=AFQjCNGBy1z0HfeO--iI3NXnCl_uRtt44g&rt=HOMEPAGE&url=[http://www.guardian.co.uk/environment/earth-insight/2013/jul/10/james-hansen-fossil-fuels-runaway-global-warming&ei=jUzdUbCEI8TAgAf_rwE&sig2=FM3kKMMYaV9u7KsvLV3BPQ]
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7.09.2013
New Chemo Start Date - 7.16.13
The pharma behind the drug trial my oncologist wants me on, is balking, because my treatment ends with surgery - chance of complications from the drug and clouding of the causal cure results.
Chemo is resched for next Tuesday. My doc is hoping that the pharma will have reconsidered by then, but if not, he plans to start the chemo on me off-Trial, sans the trial drug, but with the 3 primary, known chemo drugs. I have immense confidence in my cancer doc.
I remain in the CCNV Homeless Shelter Infirmary. Surprisingly nice staff.
My room-mate is a fellow that claims to be schizophrenic, and if he is not, he is an amazing actor- spends hours and hours and hours a day, and during the dead of night :-( , talking very sanely to fairly large groups of folks, that, uh, no one else can see. :-( He doesn't like it a lot when I asked him nicely if I might hope to get any sleep. I could get the staff to intervene, but I've learned he is leaving tomorrow. Tonight I'll see if I can stand sleeping with earbuds in my ears playing static to drown him out. Wish me luck.
Truth is it is much easier for me to sleep on the street than it is here - quieter somehow, and much, much, cooler - a breeze! And oh, is it dreary here. But hey, we are homeless riff raff. Are there no prisons? Are there on workhouses?... And, that there is ANYTHING for we poor and homeless in this OF BY AND FOR THE OVER-PRIVILEGED Amerika (you don't think the City in "Hunger Games" is some FUTURE fantasy, do you?), is credit to HEROES, SHEROES like Doc Cardile at Unity Healthcare, and a few others. Amazing. I'll forever be grateful, admiring, inspired.
But, over all, this Homeless Shelter Infirmary is likely to work out, it seems. Good food prepared by DC Central Kitchen, 2 to 3 times per day. INTERNET. Reasonable, tolerable, restrictions of my human rights given the order they need to maintain among a largely low functioning clientele. Surprisingly kind staff. Extremely unrestrictive after my first 5 days - Sat-Sun, I'm told, as far as my freedom to come and go early morning, late evening, to work elsewhere.
Very fatigued again today. Hardly completed any work at all. Slept, a lot, so much so that I shouldn't be able to sleep tonight, but maybe I will be able to anyway.
Tests continue to indicate that my tumors remain operable, giving the med team the chance of giving me a 40% chance of a normal lifespan; otherwise going pretty quick, as cancer does once in the liver.
Doc again said I had the option of bypassing the 2 mos chemo and going right to the operation to cut out the tumors, but he and the surgeon still recommend the 2 mos chemo first, so that's what I'll do. The tests do not SHOW any other, or new, tumors - brain, chest, abdomen, torso... but there could be, and they want to reduce the chances they've missed anything; and 2 mos chemo will be some insurance in that regard.
I'm very grateful to my Family - the few Kind souls near and far that were, remain, "there" for me, no matter what it takes or costs them - buoying me along through this process, keeping my Spirit High enough, so I could find the right info, supporters, helpers, persevere, and make it this far... just like I was part of their 'Family.' YOU KNOW WHO YOU ALL ARE. :-) Uh, so does our Creator. "They will know you by how you Love," said Her number one Son.
Chemo is resched for next Tuesday. My doc is hoping that the pharma will have reconsidered by then, but if not, he plans to start the chemo on me off-Trial, sans the trial drug, but with the 3 primary, known chemo drugs. I have immense confidence in my cancer doc.
I remain in the CCNV Homeless Shelter Infirmary. Surprisingly nice staff.
My room-mate is a fellow that claims to be schizophrenic, and if he is not, he is an amazing actor- spends hours and hours and hours a day, and during the dead of night :-( , talking very sanely to fairly large groups of folks, that, uh, no one else can see. :-( He doesn't like it a lot when I asked him nicely if I might hope to get any sleep. I could get the staff to intervene, but I've learned he is leaving tomorrow. Tonight I'll see if I can stand sleeping with earbuds in my ears playing static to drown him out. Wish me luck.
Truth is it is much easier for me to sleep on the street than it is here - quieter somehow, and much, much, cooler - a breeze! And oh, is it dreary here. But hey, we are homeless riff raff. Are there no prisons? Are there on workhouses?... And, that there is ANYTHING for we poor and homeless in this OF BY AND FOR THE OVER-PRIVILEGED Amerika (you don't think the City in "Hunger Games" is some FUTURE fantasy, do you?), is credit to HEROES, SHEROES like Doc Cardile at Unity Healthcare, and a few others. Amazing. I'll forever be grateful, admiring, inspired.
But, over all, this Homeless Shelter Infirmary is likely to work out, it seems. Good food prepared by DC Central Kitchen, 2 to 3 times per day. INTERNET. Reasonable, tolerable, restrictions of my human rights given the order they need to maintain among a largely low functioning clientele. Surprisingly kind staff. Extremely unrestrictive after my first 5 days - Sat-Sun, I'm told, as far as my freedom to come and go early morning, late evening, to work elsewhere.
Very fatigued again today. Hardly completed any work at all. Slept, a lot, so much so that I shouldn't be able to sleep tonight, but maybe I will be able to anyway.
Tests continue to indicate that my tumors remain operable, giving the med team the chance of giving me a 40% chance of a normal lifespan; otherwise going pretty quick, as cancer does once in the liver.
Doc again said I had the option of bypassing the 2 mos chemo and going right to the operation to cut out the tumors, but he and the surgeon still recommend the 2 mos chemo first, so that's what I'll do. The tests do not SHOW any other, or new, tumors - brain, chest, abdomen, torso... but there could be, and they want to reduce the chances they've missed anything; and 2 mos chemo will be some insurance in that regard.
I'm very grateful to my Family - the few Kind souls near and far that were, remain, "there" for me, no matter what it takes or costs them - buoying me along through this process, keeping my Spirit High enough, so I could find the right info, supporters, helpers, persevere, and make it this far... just like I was part of their 'Family.' YOU KNOW WHO YOU ALL ARE. :-) Uh, so does our Creator. "They will know you by how you Love," said Her number one Son.
Stanford U - 2 deg C - A guard-rail for the insane against Fossil Fuels
Stanford climate scientist addresses misconceptions about climate ...
Stanford Report-1 hour ago
Stanford climate scientist addresses misconceptions about climate change ... to a 2-degree-Celsius rise in temperature is untrue, says Stanford ...
Edwards Snowden interviewed on Saturday. Fully satisfied with the results of his whistle blowing
https://news.google.com/news/url?sa=t&ct3=MAA4AEgDUABgAWoCdXPYAQE&usg=AFQjCNHVFDtYSqFZHFQklCmiFLZDdoAYYQ&rt=SECTION&url=[http://www.democracynow.org/blog/2013/7/8/glenn_greenwald_edward_snowden_satisfied_by_global_outrage_over_us_surveillance_operations&ei=T0LcUeCsOsTAgAfAiQE&sig2=smYx7Fqgetjw-QVhboooXw]
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7.08.2013
Chemo delayed. Drug trial not yet ready!?!?!? 10:30 tomorrow I should learn more. :-(
That's all I know. Got an email late today.
I've checked into the CCNV infirmary, and so far, so good. I'm online.
Rules are that I'm not to leave, cept for med apts, for the first 5 days. After that, it should be pretty much my call - out by 6:30am, not required to be back till 10pm or so. Much better than I'd anticipated.
Got a cavity filled late this afternoon, which made eating very difficult - was chewing my numb lip very badly. :-( Ugh. But, the food was very good - they bring in lunch and dinner here from DC Central Kitchen - for we in the Infirmary.
I have symptoms galore - extremely out of control bowel, days of near infinite fatigue and fuzzy headedness, some return of Restless Leg Syndrome.... Is it the cancer? Is it the 12 hours a day in the full sun, 100 degree heat I sit in? Old age? Huge fluid intake due to the sun?
For Amerika, this treatment I'm getting here in DC is quite extraordinary. I'm extremely grateful.
I expect to continue accepting the care as long as I think it is a good investment for, as long as I can see a good return on the investment to, our next 200 billion kids.
I've checked into the CCNV infirmary, and so far, so good. I'm online.
Rules are that I'm not to leave, cept for med apts, for the first 5 days. After that, it should be pretty much my call - out by 6:30am, not required to be back till 10pm or so. Much better than I'd anticipated.
Got a cavity filled late this afternoon, which made eating very difficult - was chewing my numb lip very badly. :-( Ugh. But, the food was very good - they bring in lunch and dinner here from DC Central Kitchen - for we in the Infirmary.
I have symptoms galore - extremely out of control bowel, days of near infinite fatigue and fuzzy headedness, some return of Restless Leg Syndrome.... Is it the cancer? Is it the 12 hours a day in the full sun, 100 degree heat I sit in? Old age? Huge fluid intake due to the sun?
For Amerika, this treatment I'm getting here in DC is quite extraordinary. I'm extremely grateful.
I expect to continue accepting the care as long as I think it is a good investment for, as long as I can see a good return on the investment to, our next 200 billion kids.
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