I am much more deadly serious now than ever. The world situation is more dead serious then I realized. We have made ourselves into, with religious, capitalistic, fervor, radically malignant cancer to our brothers, sisters, and creation. Or as Native Americans have been saying since coming of the white man, ' cannibals of life' we have maniacally become.

I am much more deadly serious now than ever. The world situation is more dead serious then I realized. We have made ourselves into, with religious, capitalistic, clinically addicted, fervor - radically malignant cancer to our brothers, sisters, and creation. Or as Native Americans have been saying since coming of the white man, ' cannibals of life' we have maniacally become.

Who would say: let the dead bury the dead?!

General in battle would. A first responder in an emergency would. A loving parent fighting for the mental health of their child would. A brother desperately fighting to free his brother from addiction would. Jesus did. I do, now that I see the only salvation for some of those 200 billion we are condemning to ecoside is the psychological heaven of near pure loving.

Gandhi: learn as though you would live for ever. Live as though you would die tomorrow.

Gandhi: learn as though you would live for ever. Live as though you would die tomorrow.

***** In terminating the death fast I have despair not joy.

I so wanted to believe that the future could be saved. I closed my ears to the greatest of all, Jesus. For so many years. The gate is narrow few will enter in.

He was not correct because he was Jesus he was correct because he was the greatest sear we've seen.

But he did not quit, but rather he fought for the individual revolution of loving. He found it worth one by one trying to save the one in a million from the hell of the fleshly life. I shall use every remaining breath to try and do the same.

I am tempted to feel like a failure. I am tempted to feel defeated.

But I am only defeated if I fail to face the truth.

I may want to save 200 billion, but if that's not possible yet I still try, then I failed the one, or two, or three who I might have saved by redirecting my efforts.

And this I believe I will do now.

Death fast terminated. I see nothing left to save..

i dont see anything to save. our heartlesness? our fleshworship? our cruel rapatios plundering western culture? we walkjng dead flesheating zomdies? oh malala diane wilson.... imean ihave heakthy tissue in my body but should it be saved? no. more when i can get to a full keyboard. we are an unmitigated scurge blivht on creation. we laugh at repenting. gaia will exterminate us now and this is right and just.

04.25.13 4:45pm - Off-line now. Goodbye. Loving

04.25.13 4:45pm - Off-line now.  Goodbye. Loving

Cooling on Warming. New York Times

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nd 'EDF D324/19/4 [This never occurred to me before] How many more need to suffer and die before others wake up and Stand for their Children, and Grandchildren? Ever see "High Noon," Gary Cooper?' Loving

nd 'EDF D324/19/4 [This never occurred to me before] How many more need to suffer and die before others wake up and Stand for their Children, and Grandchildren?  Ever see "High Noon," Gary Cooper?'  Loving

nd 'D324/20/4 Homeless Vet Last night: "I know you can't talk (vow)... We here on the street have huge respect for you. You Stand for Humanity, rather than live it up on some cushy job you could have running some company...' Loving (paraphrase)

nd 'D324/20/4 Homeless Vet Last night: "I know you can't talk (vow)... We here on the street have huge respect for you. You Stand for Humanity, rather than live it up on some cushy job you could have running some company...' Loving (paraphrase)

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Final vlog [going Internet Dark today] When Understood - ULTIMATE Compass - Lord's Prayer

nd 'Wed 04.24.13 D323/18/3 I expect tomorrow, till 4:30pm will be my last moments online. The fighting needed of me there is done. It is all Prayer, work of the Soul, now. Time for others to be using the internet and solar weapons I've used.' Loving

nd 'Wed 04.24.13 D323/18/3 I expect tomorrow, till 4:30pm will be my last moments online. The fighting needed of me there is done. It is all Prayer, work of the Soul, now.  Time for others to be using the internet and solar weapons I've used.' Loving

nd 'NOTICE: D323/18/3: Unexpected, unfinished 'business' necessitated that I take minimal calories and liquids over the last week - resolving issues so valued co-warriors and friends would not be burdened. Hence, I've severely revised my start dates and revisions conservatively - see clock at left.' Loving

nd 'NOTICE: Unexpected, unfinished 'business' necessitated that I take minimal calories and liquids over the last week - resolving issues so valued co-warriors and friends would not be burdened. Hence, I've severely revised my start dates and revisions conservatively - see clock at left.' Loving

"This man [Loving] will be missed... Why do the good ones have to go early? (my reply...)

EDF From an acquaintance on FB, who has been kind to me. My reply:

"All evidence to the contrary. I have been completely and totally dis-missed - no impact of any consequence on anyone or anything. 

 That isn't my business. Making the attempt has been my business, and Creation knows I've given it my best and done one hell of a job. 

However, I've done it in the equivalent of a grave yard, a sobriety counselor in a bar, a heart surgeon in a morgue. No, I will NOT be missed, as in life I was totally DIS-missed. Fact. I am not bitter about it. I've done my part. 

 But that's the fact."

nd 04.24.13 'D324/18/3 I'm in Very Good Shape today. I've moved into my final phase, psychologically and mentally, 'letting go' of final details, while still managing them. It is all good. I was drowning in taking on more than I can handle. Today, just right.' Loving

nd 'D324/18/3 I'm in Very Good Shape today.  I've moved into my final phase, psychologically and mentally, 'letting go' of final details, while still managing them. It is all good. I was drowning in taking on more than I can handle.  Today, just right.' Loving

***** D323/18/3 'NO ALARM folks, just a head's up - I don't know how gracefully (not very) I'll shut down by Thursday... (detail)

D323/18/3 'NO ALARM folks, just a head's up - I don't know how gracefully (not very) I'll shut down by Thursday, or tomorrow...

I just spoke to a couple that approached, broke the vow thoughtlessly, of silence - no biggie, but is a lapse that points to something bigger - I'm losing it - too much going on, I'm taking on too much logistically - have to let things go, so I can do the part that only I'm called to begin, now.

For Gandhi, fast, hunger strike, was itself a full time challenge - I'm better than He?  I wish.

[Warning - wordy, very hastily worded, error prone post following - see my point?  I'm way too stretched now....]

I'm still ok physically, and mentally, and Spiritually, but I'm wearing down,

and the BIG THING, I can't keep stretching between the two worlds -

The world of active living, creating, doing, blogging, uploading, posting, problem-solving (distributing my few posessions, tools, to the few warriors I see, and some true personal Friends) - and the Spiritual World and Work of Soul Force.

I can't stretch that far any longer.  I must move into the final phase, and stop trying to do both - on to full-time Soul Force, mine, then to the Soul of others.

And, I can move on, and I will.  If others step up just a little, it will work.  I Love them either way.  I've worked really hard to do every detail I could.  You are never obligated by anything I do, but I will leave a vacuum, and I could leave a mess, but I've tried hard to make it as easy, neat and clean on those that remain, as I can. I've done my best, but I have to move to the final phase now.

There is a small circle that kindly will collect my few belongings, bequeathals, mostly tomorrow afternoon.  I've had a repair situation with Dell, complicated, and that is close to resolved, but not quite.  A small circle can coordinate, jump in and make it all happen, if they want.  But pretty soon, hours now,, I just can't any more, regardless of what happens.  I can't.  Too much for me now.  I have a different job, specific mission, that is demanding everything I am, everything I have to give, to do well, effectively, with Promise and Hope.

What am I saying?  I can feel myself letting go of the 'normal' world, not in a destructive way - just physical and mental limits - secondarily as I degrade under the net-zero cal, fluids intake deficits, more so as I move to the biggest Spiritual Operation I've ever attempted, and frankly (you get to howl with laughter), the most important, biggest, most consequential Spiritual Operation undertaken since, well Jesus.

Yes, He was who He is, and I'm not.  But that doesn't change the need.  The need, well, He saw where we'd be, at the edge of the cliff, in 2000 YEARS, if we didn't awaken and put back in charge, our Soul.

OK, but I see that we now have 2000 HOURS, maybe, to awaken the Soul, the cold, dead, massively in affloholic denial Soul of enough American's - first a few pioneers, but then quickly some decent folks in the center, to radically stand, giving Pr. Obama the spark plug he REQUIRES to not only do his part, but more importantly, for it to prevail and survive through the mid-term elections, and 2016.

It is entirely doable, and NO ONE, VIRTUALLY NO ONE IS WAKING UP TO THE TOTAL LIFE DEDICATION, TOTAL PAYING THE PRICE, A HANDFUL OF US MUST DO, CAN DO, SHOULD YYYEEEAAARRRRNNNN TO DO, NOW.

No credit to me, I see it, I want it, more than my own life, 200 billion times, but Now I have to give just the Dying-for-it stage all of my attention to be the Soul Force that all Hope depends on.

Try to forgive me, or at least understand, my limits.  Please.

nd 'Thursday afternoon I expect to be leaving the cyber world for Good. No more need of computer or solar power, and quickly losing ability to physically deal with them. Time for Prayer, Meditation, Study, Dying to Awaken the Soul of Humanity... BEING a Prayer for the Soul of Humanity. What we ALL need to be, NOW.' Loving

nd 'Thursday afternoon I expect to be leaving the cyber world for Good.  No more need of computer or solar power, and quickly losing ability to physically deal with them. Time for Prayer, Meditation, Study, Dying to Awaken the Soul of Humanity... BEING a Prayer for the Soul of Humanity.  What we ALL need to be, NOW.' Loving

nd 'From my Cree Sister, Blueskywoman: "I want you to know something, from that day I seen you on that street, I knew you were real , a warrior of the Rainbow Warrior- a warrior of God." I Pray, for our sake, she is correct.' Loving

nd 'From my Cree Sister, Blueskywoman: "I want you to know something, from that day I seen you on that street, I knew you were real , a warrior of the Rainbow Warrior- a warrior of God." I Pray, for our sake, she is correct.' Loving

DAMN. FBI TOP 10 - I SPOKE WITH HIM MANY, MANY, MANY HOURS, AT WH VIGIL -

Nicaragua nabs US most-wanted child porn suspect

Yes, I knew NOTHING of his background.  Nothing.  

Brilliant, many gifts of the spirit, deeply mentally troubled - to not be so in this society is clinically crazy. 

 

 

D323, D18, D3 (Rollback): Deeply SACRED exchange with a Deeply Brave Brother, a JW, not heard from in years....

SACRED exchange with a Deeply Brave Brother, a JW, not heard from in years....  I'm Deeply Moved, Deeply touched by this man's note below - by the Courage of Him, Reaching Soooooo Far, from His Belief System, to mine, mine being one in which he sees some of his own, despite the JW gap.  I can only look in wonder and awe at Him, my brother J - 

"Hello Start [  :-)  Uh, J, it's 'Loving.']

I know that it has been a long time since we last spoke but I just wanted to say hello.  I am not even sure if you will be receiving emails anymore but I hope that this one reaches you.

Even though I haven't wrote, I have been following your blogs and it seems to me that this will be your last shot to try to get people to understand the situation that the human family is in.  The term "Death Fast" has such a "finality" sound to it.

I believe you know what my thoughts are on these fasts that you do, but once again I stand in awe at your perseverance.  For years you have done everything that you can think of, and more, to open people's eyes to the environmental catastrophe that we are heading toward.

The Apostle Paul also went way above the "call of duty" in his life's course.  Just prior to being put to death, he wrote "I have fought the fine fight.  I have run the course to the finish.  I have observed the faith."  He could confidently say that, and although he was not serving for a reward of some type, certainly Jehovah rewarded him nonetheless.

You also my friend, have fought a fine battle.  I personally know few, if any, who have put as much effort into what they believe as you do.  Although we might have differences of "beliefs", the principle is the same.  You do not serve for a reward, but I have no doubts that, come what may, Jehovah will reward your efforts nonetheless.

Here in Italy, most of our ministry has been among African refugees that were working in Libya when the war broke out a few years back.  The "fortunate" ones were literally put on a leaky boat at gun point with the clothes on their backs by the Gaddafi government and pushed out into the Mediterranean.  The unfortunate never made it that far.  Their stories would break your heart.  The way they were treated here by the Italian "corruption machine" was better, but still unacceptable.  

The "humanitarian" agencies here, made a pile of money, packed these men and woman away like sardines in dirty little apartments, and as soon as the UN money ran out, they were finally given documents and a small financial incentive to leave the country. Most of them have.

We are part of a small English congregation here (21 members including children) but we have about 40 coming to our meetings.  It appears that neither your work nor mine is finished yet.

If you have the time here is a link to just some of the disaster relief that JW's have been involved in during the past 12 months.
 
http://www.jw.org/en/news/by-region/world/disaster-relief/

So, until we meet again, be assured that our thoughts and our love is with you.

J and M

--------------

My Reply:


"You've come to my mind from time to time J, and few do, my brothers and sisters
all, because in few do I find even a shadow left of the Creator.  In you I did, and with this
Courageous [a sure indicator of Creator's presence] note from you, that there is
of the Creator aLive in you is indisputable. You've touched my Heart, Stroked it
with Kindness, and Encouragement, and most of all, given me Hope that indeed
There is another, or two, Fighting for Agape, Universal, Unconditional
Family, the Only Possible Revolution, the one we've never tried since we continued the Hourly, Second by Second Crucifixion of Jesus and His Teachings since
1800 years ago.

You bring to mind my most treasured Revelation of the last several months.  I'm
sure of this, tho there maybe no one else that could see it.  Oh, how we've twisted
and perverted, mutilated, this most central of Jesus Gifts to us.  You and I both
know what we've been told He said.  NO, THIS is what He said, and I paraphrase:

"DO THIS IN MEMORY OF ME:  GIVE YOUR FLESH THAT OUR GLOBAL NEEDIEST
MIGHT EAT.  GIVE THE VERY LAST DROP OF YOUR BLOOD SO OUR GLOBAL NEEDIEST
MIGHT HAVE LIFE!  DO THIS FOR THE INFINITE JOY, PASSION, PEACE OF HEART,
LOVING - HEAVEN - IN THIS LIFE - THAT IT IS TO YOU, TO DO SO!!!!  DO THIS IN
REMEMBRANCE OF ME."

J, it is not possible that I could have a Greater
Reward than the one I have, experience, Live...every
second, every breath, these last 13 years or so of total Devotion to the Path,
Service, from the Soul, in Solidarity with my Global Neediest Family.

Believe me, more Joy is not possible. Impossible.

Except, I'd trade it all for an infinite number of infinite life sentences
in a fictitious or Real, Hell on Earth, to Save our next 200 billion children from
the Hell on Earth we're NEEDLESSLY casting them into. 

J, M, rest in peace that Jehovah HAS Blest me, Infinitely, every breath for 13 years now.

And with different words and understandings, I have the sense and Joy that SheHeIt
is Blessing you two with some of the same, and I'm sooooooo boundlessly Happy about that.

With Boundless Love, and Wonder at you, Loving

ps:  Young Scott Montgomery (search my blog) is a Glorious Soul, giving his body
and blood for the neediest in Africa.  He told me recently of a young co-worker who was dying
because he was a JW and unable therefore to accept a transfusion.  Huh?  No, this is
anti-Christ, anti- the Spirit of Loving.  This is Not the Will of Jehovah. This is the Will of Man,
the creation of man."

nd 'Death Fast - Am I doing this Right? Were Gandhi here, he'd say, 'There is no 'right,' there is Soul Force, and no Soul Force.' I'm using, and thereby Leveraging Soul Force. I'm doing this right.' Loving

nd 'Death Fast - Am I doing this Right? Were Gandhi here, he'd say, 'There is no 'right,' there is Soul Force, and no Soul Force.'  I'm using, and thereby Leveraging Soul Force.  I'm doing this right.' Loving

nd ' If they ignore my wishes, Do Not Resuscitate, and Institutionalize me, Restrain, Force Fee, after some weeks and months when they tire of punishing me, see if you can get them to let me listen to my books on my mpe3?' Loving

nd ' If they ignore my wishes, Do Not Resuscitate, and Institutionalize me, Restrain, Force Fee, after some weeks and months when they tire of punishing me, see if you can get them to let me listen to my books on my tiny little mp3? The stuff from my Library?' Loving

(detail) 'From a Dear HS girl friend: "Do you want me to come and bring you back to NJ? I can take care of you ...or at least give you a place to be safe and warm and rest your head near home....? is this an option?" ... (detail)

(detail) 'From a Dear HS girl friend: "Do you want me to come and bring you back to NJ?  I can take care of you ...or at least give you a place to be safe and warm and rest your head near home....? is this an option?" ... (detail)

My reply to this dear, loyal, long-suffering friend in northern NJ, who I've not seen in 35 years or more -

"Bless your heart.

Think of the most Joyful, Important moment of your Life.  Would you
have wanted to be Rescued from that?  Me either.  :-)

You really need to try and understand - for me, for you, for Eternity's Kids.
We need to all wake up now.

It's not euphoria. It's not bliss.  It's not [yet] delirium.   It's, well, it's this-

• vlog IT'S TIME TO DIE TO AVERT ECOCIDE

Who in their right Heart, in Sanity, in Humanity would want be rescued from that?  No one.  Me either!

(detail) D25/8 Ecocide's Death Fast: I've never before completed a Death Fast... (detail)

I am Finished.

I've never before completed a Death Fast, tho I've been on 2, or 3 in the last year.  Have you?  New territory for me.  Yup. I'll let you do the research on my site, if you are interested, on the prior 2 or three.  Weapon's tests, from which one learns, I've come to see them, and I experience them as such.

NEVER on prior, or Hunger Strikes that I thought might be terminal, NEVER, and not on this one, NEVER:

*  Did I flinch

*  Did I fear or want to avoid (or run to) Death

* Never did I mislead - I'm very forthcoming as to status updates (as I am in this one).  This is a unique journey I'm on, as was the journey of Lewis and Clark, and clear notes are important to those who are onlookers.

*  In each of those prior instances, to a degree, I did what I did because I didn't see a better way to serve, rather than a profound sense that it was EXACTLY what was needed, of me, and others; as I now experience this one.

*  Every breath, I'm not a zealot, EVER; I'm a brother, a father, an uncle, of the next 200 billion kids, and 4 billion alive today.  That's all.  I adjust every second to the best way to Stop Ecocide from destroying them, as I am working to do now.

IN THIS DEATH FAST, unlike prior, per vlog IT'S TIME TO DIE TO AVERT ECOCIDE  , it is EXACTLY clear to me that what I'm doing is near EXACTLY what 10's, 100's, 1000's of us should be doing, NOW, to Stop Ecocide - DeathFast.  It is inconceivable to me that there is any basis for me to abort this without destroying all I live for, the best and only chance to save humanity from eternal ecocide.  I've always been indifferent to the best way to serve, and it is crystal clear to me that I have the Joy, and the Privilege, as did Lewis and Clark, of going first.  Not my business if others follow; is my business to blaze the Path I Gratefully see.

LOL, but I get a last request!!!  Every condemned man does!  LOL!


(I shall miss these little guys)

Yesterday was a 19 hour work day - tying up all the loose ends for other fighters, that they might benefit from what meager, but powerful tools I've assempled and used - computer, software, warranty's, billing arrangements, solar panels, solar batteries, backup disks.... And protecting friends from as much inconvenience downstream as possible. 

No one in this city has worked harder, cept Barack, and more exhaustively than I, day in and day out these last 4 weeks.   I've reported that on occasion I've accepted minor calories and even minor fluids to offset what you aren't supposed to do on Fast, Hunger Strike, etc - strenuously exert.  Shooting for, and achieving  a "net zero" calories, or "net zero" fluid intake.  My weak, tired, depleted body says I'm succeeding. 

Well, other than some, final, easy blog work tomorrow, and transferring books to my mp3 player to fill my mind on my final days, I'm DONE. What isn't done, others will have to deal with (I hope they do, and will). Everyone is now in process of being supported with my equipment.  Of potential game-changing impact - the *** UNIVERSITY, LIBRARY, OF UNVIOLENT REVOLUTION - AGAPE **** is complete and by broadcasting all night long, and securing the power to do so, it is reasonably well seeded, as best I can do.  My Start Loving blog is updated, cleaned a bit, more searchable.  Tomorrow a little updating and work on STOPPING ECOCIDE, Tracking Plan B.

SO, I'M GOING TO A CHINESE PLACE I KNOW (Cathy and I went there once, and Brian and I once) FOR A BOWL OF HOT AND SOUR SOUP, SO I'M CLEAR HEADED GOING INTO MY FINAL DAYS.  AGAPE. 








I do NOT do this to slow things down.  I do it despite that.  I'm just going to indulge my Fleshly Spirit this once, and Give my Soul that tiny rest before the last leg here.

AND MOST OF ALL, I WANT TO HAVE MY BEARINGS, A STRONG (WELL, STRONGER THAN OTHERWISE) JUMPING OFF POINT FOR THIS LAST PHASE, UNKNOWN TERRITORY FOR ME, AND BY VIRTUE OF THAT, LIKELY TO BE A BIT CHALLENGING, AND I THINK IT WISE TO BE A TAD MORE PHYSICALLY READY FOR THE TASK.  SO, A BOWL OF SOUP - HOT, AND SOUR.

I'll roll back days to avoid erroneous read-outs from D25/8 to D20/4 starting tomorrow.

Now, I am Finished, It is All but Finished, my part.

"How are you doing, Loving?" EDF D25, D8 - From my Dear, Working to Become Christ-like Friend Bonnie. My reply...

LOL, why do you ask? Do I give you some reason to think I've stepped away from the Utter, Complete, Absolute, Divine Heaven which is, in Remembrance of Him, every breath, JOYFULLY - Giving my Body, Giving my Blood for Our Global Neediest, as did He? ((((((HUGS)))))

Her reply:

"Thanks for your encouragement, Loving. Your passion is contagious"

AND WHAT COULD BE TOLD ME THAT WOULD BE MORE ENCOURAGING THAN THAT?!??!!?

"Your passion is contagious" ????

AND THAT, BEING CONTAGIOUS LOVING PASSION - THAT'S THE UNVIOLENT REVOLUTION, OUR ONLY HOPE.

Thanks for that Bonnie. 

D25/8 From my Beloved, Wise, Kind, Brave, Cree Sister: "Its never too late to change your mind, pls know that..what if its God's way?" My reply...

And why, dear sister, with the next 1000 generations all by condemned to Hell-Earth, with the next 200 billion children, all  of creation being determined in these hours, why, WHY, WHY... would I want to change my mind?

nd EDF D25/8 '2 Fates worse than Death: 1. [most likely for me] Month's, Years, Incarcerated, Institutionalized, Restrained physically, Force Fed; 2. INFINITELY WORSE THAN DEATH, [unlikely for ME], Losing my Sanity, Humanity, Decency, Life, Loving, SOUL...and Pulling Back from Dying, NOW, so Our next 200 Billion Kids have Home Earth, Not the all but certain now HELL-Earth.' Loving

nd EDF D25/8 '2 Fates worse than Death:

1. [most likely for me] Month's, Years, Incarcerated, Institutionalized, Restrained physically, Force Fed;

2. INFINITELY WORSE THAN DEATH, [unlikely for ME], Losing my Sanity, Humanity, Decency, Life, Loving, SOUL...and Pulling Back from Dying, NOW, so Our next 200 Billion Kids have Home Earth, Not the all but certain now HELL-Earth.' Loving

nd My Companion - Your Kids, Your SLAVES... EDF D23, Net Zero Fluids D8: Freefall now. Thank Creation! Work is done. My Faithful Companion and I will Finish Our Campaign Now.' Loving

nd My Companion - END NO CHG... EDF D23, Net Zero Fluids D8: Freefall now. Thank Creation! Work is done. My Faithful Companion and I will Finish Our Campaign Now.' Loving

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