February 19
It is a sin not to be engaged in work, even if it is not neces
sary for you to make your living with everyday work.
One of the best and purest joys is having a rest after labor.
—ImmanuelKant
Work all the time. Do not think that work is a disaster for
you, and do not seek praise or reward for your work.
—MarcusAurelius
The most outstanding gifts can be destroyed by idleness.
—Michel deMontaigne
Nothing can make a person feel more noble than work.
Without work, a person cannot have human dignity. It is
because of this that idle people are so much concerned by
the superficial, outer expression of their importance; they
know that without this, other people would despise them.
When we accept truth and repent our sins, we understand
that nobody can have special rights, advantages, or privi
leges in this life. There is no end or limit to our duties and
obligations. And the first and the most important obliga
tion for us is to fight with nature for our life and for the
lives of other people
2.18.2013
02.18.13 Cancer Update: So much to do. So little time....
The Good news: Not 1 Cancer in my Liver!
The not so good news - there are 2, 2 tumors in my liver. Stage IV.
Looks like I don't have much time left. So much to do. So little time. Hmmmm.
20% probability, 1 in 5 chance of survival 5 years, tho I find nothing on the internet that gives such good odds.
Two tumors, left and right of liver - 1.5cm and .7cm.
So, what I think I can reasonably expect is another 1.5-2.5 years of fairly good functioning. Maybe more, maybe less.
Chemo recommended - likely to give me at least several functional years.
Likely to begin in a week or two, as will residency in chemo-prison - CCNV infirmary.
If I had $$$, insurance, then an operation, or targeted chemo might be possible, substantially increasing the odds, but not covered by Medicaid. However, they tell me, and I sort of believe, that regardless of insurance, the 6 months chemo is the recommended path regardless of $$$, as the 1st step.
The near total restriction of the Infirmary is NOT recommended, and the Cancer Doc will write recommendations that they be less restrictive with me, allowing trips to library, for example, on days I am functional, that is expected to be most days. No idea if they will accept this. They are pretty institutional, dismissive. The could even deny me on this issue.
Treatment -
Every two weeks:
* Blood test to be sure enough white blood cells are surviving.
* 2nd day - Next day 4 hours chemo
* Leave with pump
* 3rd day - return and pump removed.
Often this chemo isn't too bad on nausea and fatigue, I'm told.
At the end of 6 months more scans to see how the tumors are doing.
Monday I go back for blood work, and to schedule the 1st treatment
of 6 months worth. Treatment probably begins 2nd half of next week. Hopefully, probably I can synchronize the hand-off of my stuff to a No. VA friend for storage and at the same time, same day, take up residence in the Homeless Shelter Infirmary. We'll see.
The not so good news - there are 2, 2 tumors in my liver. Stage IV.
Looks like I don't have much time left. So much to do. So little time. Hmmmm.
20% probability, 1 in 5 chance of survival 5 years, tho I find nothing on the internet that gives such good odds.
Two tumors, left and right of liver - 1.5cm and .7cm.
So, what I think I can reasonably expect is another 1.5-2.5 years of fairly good functioning. Maybe more, maybe less.
Chemo recommended - likely to give me at least several functional years.
Likely to begin in a week or two, as will residency in chemo-prison - CCNV infirmary.
If I had $$$, insurance, then an operation, or targeted chemo might be possible, substantially increasing the odds, but not covered by Medicaid. However, they tell me, and I sort of believe, that regardless of insurance, the 6 months chemo is the recommended path regardless of $$$, as the 1st step.
The near total restriction of the Infirmary is NOT recommended, and the Cancer Doc will write recommendations that they be less restrictive with me, allowing trips to library, for example, on days I am functional, that is expected to be most days. No idea if they will accept this. They are pretty institutional, dismissive. The could even deny me on this issue.
Treatment -
Every two weeks:
* Blood test to be sure enough white blood cells are surviving.
* 2nd day - Next day 4 hours chemo
* Leave with pump
* 3rd day - return and pump removed.
Often this chemo isn't too bad on nausea and fatigue, I'm told.
At the end of 6 months more scans to see how the tumors are doing.
Monday I go back for blood work, and to schedule the 1st treatment
of 6 months worth. Treatment probably begins 2nd half of next week. Hopefully, probably I can synchronize the hand-off of my stuff to a No. VA friend for storage and at the same time, same day, take up residence in the Homeless Shelter Infirmary. We'll see.
02.18.13 'LOL. In 2 hours I'm to find out if the liver is cancerous. Pretty consequential! ROFL!' Loving
http://www.buzzle.com/articles/metastatic-liver-cancer-life-expectancy.html
Treatment 1 Year Rate 3 Year Rate 5 Year Rate
Chemotherapy and (None) 13% 3% 0%
Chemoembolization 55% 26% 13%
Hepatectomy 72% 58% 58%
Liver Transplant 81% 74% 74%
Read more at Buzzle: http://www.buzzle.com/articles/metastatic-liver-cancer-life-expectancy.html
Treatment 1 Year Rate 3 Year Rate 5 Year Rate
Chemotherapy and (None) 13% 3% 0%
Chemoembolization 55% 26% 13%
Hepatectomy 72% 58% 58%
Liver Transplant 81% 74% 74%
Read more at Buzzle: http://www.buzzle.com/articles/metastatic-liver-cancer-life-expectancy.html
2.17.2013
nd 'Jesus Lived and Died to Save Life in the one in a million, each generation, into Eternity. Me too.' Loving
nd 'Jesus Lived and Died to Save Life in the one in a million, each generation, into Eternity. Me too.' Loving
nd 'I've always disrespected Revelations, in the NT. It is gaining my respect. The Apocalypse has already descended. Few HAVE survived. Few Will Survive.' Loving
nd 'I've always disrespected Revelations, in the NT. It is gaining my respect. The Apocalypse has already descended. Few HAVE survived. Few Will Survive. Jesus saw this, and NEVER spoke of any but a Few being Saved, tho He Died to Save as many as possible. Me too.' Loving
nd ' "Acting like..." IS Hypocrisy, from the Greek. "Living like" IS Being. Death and Life, respectively.' Loving
nd ' "Acting like..." IS Hypocrisy [from the Greek]. "Living like" IS Being. Death and Life, respectively.' Loving
nd 'God IS, =, IS... the Truth of What's Conducive to Life, Joy, the next Generations. Nothing more, nothing less, nothing else. This is what Gandhi said, rightly, was to die for, without hesitation.' Loving
nd 'God IS, =, IS... the Truth of What's Conducive to Life, Joy, the next Generations. Nothing more, nothing less, nothing else. This is what Gandhi said, rightly, was to die for, without hesitation.' Loving
nd 'Last night's the first I've ever respected the notion of fearing God, seeing it finally, for what it is: Fearing Violating the True Forces of Good, of Creation. You know, Sanity.' Loving
nd 'Last night's the first I've ever respected the notion of fearing God, seeing it finally, for what it is: Fearing Violating the True Forces of Good, of Creation - personally, collectively. You know, Sanity.' Loving
GAO warns of global warming's cost
| Columbus Dispatch | - |
Barbara
Boxer, D-Calif., and Bernie Sanders, I-Vt., introduced a bill on
Thursday to curb carbon-dioxide emissions, levying a $20 tax for each
ton of the climate-warming substance over a set limit. That limit would be 5.6 percent annually over 10 years ...
nd 'STOP ACTING LIKE ECOCIDE'S AN EMERGENCY!!!! START LIVING LIKE IT.' Loving
nd 'STOP ACTING LIKE ECOCIDE'S AN EMERGENCY!!!! START LIVING LIKE IT.' Loving
nd 'THE ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE IS, = IS: MCKIBBEN, JOE ROMM, 35..0RG, LIP-SERVICE LEFTIES, PROGRESSIVE-INOs, church FOLK environmentalists. Grotesquely over-privileged Heads, grotesquely atrophied Hearts. Zombies. Dem Denialists - denying their human duty to do what it takes, NOT just what is convenient. Truly. NO???' Loving
nd 'THE ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE IS, = IS: MCKIBBEN, JOE ROMM, 35..0RG, LIP-SERVICE LEFTIES, PROGRESSIVE-INOs, church FOLK environmentalists. Grotesquely over-privileged Heads, grotesquely atrophied Hearts. Zombies. Dem Denialists - denying their human duty to do what it takes, NOT just what is convenient. Truly. NO???' Loving
nd 'Averting Ecocide: 'Close' counts only in horse shoes and hand grenades, NOT in averting Ecocide. But thru Obama / Chu renewable's investment the market pull of renewables may soon explode.' Loving
nd 'Averting Ecocide: 'Close' counts only in horse shoes and hand grenades, NOT in averting Ecocide. But thru Obama / Chu renewable's investment the market pull of renewables may soon explode.' Loving
***** nd 'The 350.org, church... February 17th DC folks - Proof of studies that we've destroyed in ourselves our capacity for Empathy, Moral Vision, Compassion, Humanity.... These are high intellect, Head, Flesh, near-zero Heart humanoids. ALL HOPE is in the middle, the Center, where some Humanity, Heart, is in evidence - Organizing for Action; alongside Pr. Obama.' Loving
[McKibben, 350.org, Joseph Romm, February 17 2013, Keystone XL, White House, Washington, DC, Tar Sands] ***** nd 'The 350.org, church... February 17th DC folks - Proof of studies that we've destroyed in ourselves our capacity for Empathy, Moral Vision, Compassion, Humanity.... These are high intellect, Head, Flesh, near-zero Heart humanoids. ALL HOPE is in the middle, the Center, where some Humanity, Heart, is in evidence - Organizing for Action; alongside Pr. Obama.' Loving
nd ' "No one comes to me except that the Father brings them," Jesus taught. Yes, this is True for me, too.' Loving
nd ' "No one comes to me except that the Father brings them," Jesus taught. Yes, this is True for me, too.' Loving
nd 'Throughout History, Few if Any Heroes of Loving have emerged before Completely Separating Themselves from the 'normal,' Godless, Affloholic, Toxic Waste cultural environment, including 'friends,' 'family....' Historical Fact.' Loving informed by "The Ways and Power of Love," Sorokin
nd 'Throughout History, Few if Any Heroes of Loving have emerged before Completely Separating Themselves from the 'normal,' Godless, Affloholic, Toxic Waste cultural environment, including 'friends,' 'family....' Historical Fact.' Loving informed by "The Ways and Power of Love," Sorokin
2.16.2013
Gross-out alert, ahead: Have you ever resided where the bathroom was 15 minutes away...
A. When you had exploding diarrhea?
B. 'A,' when the bathroom was closed from 6pm till maybe 8am?
Was it the hard boiled egg, or sandwich, from my nice sat am church folk?
Butt cheek muscles, I love you. I'm forever in your debt. Don't fail me now.
B. 'A,' when the bathroom was closed from 6pm till maybe 8am?
Was it the hard boiled egg, or sandwich, from my nice sat am church folk?
Butt cheek muscles, I love you. I'm forever in your debt. Don't fail me now.
SIGN AFL-CIO Petition against GOPigs taking American Economy Hostage - AGAIN.
http://act.aflcio.org/c/18/p/dia/action3/common/public/?action_KEY=5612
AFL-CIO
Stand Up to the Hostage Takers
The bullies in Congress are threatening to hold our economy hostage
to get their way on painful benefit cuts to Social Security, Medicare,
Medicaid and other important programs.
Sign our petition to let these extreme right-wing legislators know you won’t stand for it.
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02.16.13 'Loving got stomped, twice, as I slept last night....'
Same group of early 20's two legged refuse - a group of three. Laughing like hyenas. It was raining so none of the other homeless were around, none of the usual passers by, so these walking turds, my brothers all, these cowards got their jollies stomping a homeless guy. Both times it caught me off guard, but thinking of it for an hour after the second - what a gift, what a lesson; what a reminder.
How do I know what I'm here for? Maybe it is to absorb some of the evil, hatred, wreckage embodied in these three, with last night's terrorization by them, or tonight's getting my head bashed in. They'll only victimize so many people, so many times before they see their own evil and stop, or are stopped by the police. Being part of the absorption of their evil, from them, Redeeming, Ransoming... so another(s) don't suffer... that, THAT would be worth my Life, for sure.
The Great Apostles of Loving - Assisi, Teresa, Gandhi, Jesus, MLK Jr... - are sooooooo sick of the evil, the Fleshly Spirit dominating in the world they are willing to be used in any way, in ANY WAY to absorb, and not add to, all that Hatred, Mean-ness, Lovelessness, Smallheartedness...; and each measure of diminishment of the Fleshly Spirit makes room for, and eventually empowers the Loving Spirit, Christ, God Spirit in others. [And Serving the neediest, the greatest needs, the founding of the Kingdom, in this way is, IS, = ... Joy, Heaven. Always. Loving IS its own reward; the Only Ultimate Reward].
Me too.
ps: Yes, they were three black guys, a predictable product of the hateful environment that we over-privileged white folk have relegated them to grow down in - toxic waste from toxic waste.
pps: I remember the homeless guy I occasionally saw about 4 years ago who one morning appeared with black eyes, bloody lip, black and blue face. He'd been sleeping in an ally near a bar frequented by the affluent college kids of DC and a couple of white college guys stomped him bloody. A different kind of toxic waste, deadly affloholism, breeds toxic waste.
How do I know what I'm here for? Maybe it is to absorb some of the evil, hatred, wreckage embodied in these three, with last night's terrorization by them, or tonight's getting my head bashed in. They'll only victimize so many people, so many times before they see their own evil and stop, or are stopped by the police. Being part of the absorption of their evil, from them, Redeeming, Ransoming... so another(s) don't suffer... that, THAT would be worth my Life, for sure.
The Great Apostles of Loving - Assisi, Teresa, Gandhi, Jesus, MLK Jr... - are sooooooo sick of the evil, the Fleshly Spirit dominating in the world they are willing to be used in any way, in ANY WAY to absorb, and not add to, all that Hatred, Mean-ness, Lovelessness, Smallheartedness...; and each measure of diminishment of the Fleshly Spirit makes room for, and eventually empowers the Loving Spirit, Christ, God Spirit in others. [And Serving the neediest, the greatest needs, the founding of the Kingdom, in this way is, IS, = ... Joy, Heaven. Always. Loving IS its own reward; the Only Ultimate Reward].
Me too.
ps: Yes, they were three black guys, a predictable product of the hateful environment that we over-privileged white folk have relegated them to grow down in - toxic waste from toxic waste.
pps: I remember the homeless guy I occasionally saw about 4 years ago who one morning appeared with black eyes, bloody lip, black and blue face. He'd been sleeping in an ally near a bar frequented by the affluent college kids of DC and a couple of white college guys stomped him bloody. A different kind of toxic waste, deadly affloholism, breeds toxic waste.
nd "Look at that bum (Loving, me) with a LAPTOP," the passerby said to another today.' Loving
"Look at that bum (Loving, me) with a LAPTOP," the passerby said to another today.' Loving
nd 'Correctly, 99% of all Pr. Obama's Efforts to Set up, and Assure 2014 Retaking the House. Only way sane legislation can pass.' Loving
nd 'Correctly, 99% of all Pr. Obama's Efforts to Set up, and Assure 2014 Retaking the House. Only way sane legislation can pass.' Loving
***** Gandhi on Leo Tolstoy: "No one in the West before him or since has written and spoken on non-violence so fully or insistently and with such penetration and insight . . ." (MORE)
Gandhi on Leo Tolstoy
From "The Essential Gandhi," Louis Fischer
[When] I was passing through a severe crisis of scep-
ticism and doubt ... I came across Tolstoy's book
The Kingdom of God Is Within You, and was deeply
impressed by it. I was at that time a believer in violence.
Its reading cured me of my scepticism and made me a
firm believer in [non- violence]. What has appealed to
me most in Tolstoy s life is that he practised what
he preached and reckoned no cost too great in his pursuit
of truth. . . .
He was the greatest apostle of non-violence the present
age has produced. No one in the West before him or
since has written and spoken on non-violence so fully or
insistently and with such penetration and insight . . .
[His] remarkable development of this doctrine puts to
shame the present-day narrow and lop-sided interpre-
tation put upon it by the votaries of Ahimsa in this land
of ours. . . . True Ahimsa should mean a complete
freedom from ill will and anger and hate and an over
flowing love for all. For inculcating this true and higher
type of Ahimsa amongst us, Tolstoy's life with its ocean-
like love should serve as a beacon light and a never-
failing source of inspiration. . . .
[No Tolstoy? No Gandhi. No Gandhi? No MLK Jr.
No Jesus? No Tolstoy Repeat.... "If you Love me,
you will do greater works than these [because I die
now, and you can continue to grow, and build on my
Teachings," Jesus said in John.]
From "The Essential Gandhi," Louis Fischer
[When] I was passing through a severe crisis of scep-
ticism and doubt ... I came across Tolstoy's book
The Kingdom of God Is Within You, and was deeply
impressed by it. I was at that time a believer in violence.
Its reading cured me of my scepticism and made me a
firm believer in [non- violence]. What has appealed to
me most in Tolstoy s life is that he practised what
he preached and reckoned no cost too great in his pursuit
of truth. . . .
He was the greatest apostle of non-violence the present
age has produced. No one in the West before him or
since has written and spoken on non-violence so fully or
insistently and with such penetration and insight . . .
[His] remarkable development of this doctrine puts to
shame the present-day narrow and lop-sided interpre-
tation put upon it by the votaries of Ahimsa in this land
of ours. . . . True Ahimsa should mean a complete
freedom from ill will and anger and hate and an over
flowing love for all. For inculcating this true and higher
type of Ahimsa amongst us, Tolstoy's life with its ocean-
like love should serve as a beacon light and a never-
failing source of inspiration. . . .
[No Tolstoy? No Gandhi. No Gandhi? No MLK Jr.
No Jesus? No Tolstoy Repeat.... "If you Love me,
you will do greater works than these [because I die
now, and you can continue to grow, and build on my
Teachings," Jesus said in John.]
nd 'Why Criminal Apathy to Avert Ecocide? 1. Near zero personal pain attributed thereto; 2. Near Zero Moral Vision (related to #1).' Loving
nd 'Why Criminal Apathy to Avert Ecocide? 1. Near zero personal pain attributed thereto; 2. Near Zero Moral Vision (related to #1).' Loving
2.15.2013
nd 'Joy's found Only in Giving All, 100%, of Ourself to our Neediest.' Jesus, MLK Jr, Loving....
nd 'Joy's found Only in Giving All, 100%, of Ourself to our Neediest.' Jesus, MLK Jr, Loving....
nd 'Sorokin (massive genius) suggests the category 'Heroic Genius of Loving.' I can't believe it. We ALL are Born to be that. Jesus, King, Gandhi... thought so. Me too.' Loving
nd 'Sorokin (massive genius) suggests the category 'Heroic Genius of Loving.' I can't believe it. We ALL are Born to be that. Jesus, King, Gandhi... thought so. Me too.' Loving
***** nd 'If U, we, don't raise the political, mass CITIZEN, will to protect Pr. Obama's EPA moves, the GOPigs take power in 2014 and wipe it allllllllllll out.' Loving
nd 'If U, we, don't raise the political, mass CITIZEN, will to protect Pr. Obama's EPA moves, the GOPigs take power in 2014 and wipe it allllllllllll out.' Loving
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