1.06.2013
nd 'Any chr'stian that won't deeply read Tostoy's "Gospel" translation lusts for how their Cult makes them feel, but does NOT Love the Creator, who is Truth.' Loving
nd 'Any chr'stian that won't deeply read Tostoy's "Gospel" translation lusts for how their Cult makes them feel, but does NOT Love the Creator, who is Truth.' Loving
***** nd 'If I had $204 billion, I'd be willing to lose a few. I'M UNWILLING TO LOSE EVEN 1 OF MY 204 BILLION KIDS DUE TO OUR INSANE INACTION. YOU?' Loving
nd 'If I had $204 billion, I'd be willing to lose a few. I'M UNWILLING TO LOSE EVEN 1 OF MY 204 BILLION KIDS DUE TO OUR INSANE INACTION. YOU?' Loving
Paul Martin: Theresa Spence, Hunger-Striking Chief, Is An Inspiration Huffington Post Canada
| Huffington Post Canada | - |
Martin visited Attawapiskat Chief Theresa Spence
at her camp on Ottawa's Victoria Island on Saturday. He told CTV's
Question Period today that it was a good meeting and that he told Spence
people are concerned about her health.
nd Jesus' Teaching: "Daily Bread" - Daily (every breath) ration of Work that is in the Father's, Heart's, Spirit of Loving's... Will. A daily ration of being entirely within that Will.
nd Jesus' Teaching: "Daily Bread" - Daily (every breath) ration of Work that is in the Father's, Heart's, Spirit of Loving's... Will. A daily ration of being entirely within that Will.
***** nd 'JESUS' ENTIRE TEACHING: MY GOD. THINK about the implications, the meaning of this! "The Kingdom of God is Within You!" Loving
***** nd 'JESUS' ENTIRE TEACHING: MY GOD. THINK about the implications, the meaning of this! "The Kingdom of God is Within You!" Loving
***** ND 'JESUS' CENTRAL HORROR: THAT WE ALL NEEDLESSLY DIE TO THE CREATOR, THE LOVING SPIRIT IN US, IN FAVOR OF THE FLESHLY SPIRIT. "BLIND," "CANNOT HEAR," HE SAID OF NEAR-ALL OF US. US. THAT'S IT. REPENT.' Loving
***** ND 'JESUS' CENTRAL HORROR: THAT WE ALL NEEDLESSLY DIE TO THE CREATOR, THE LOVING SPIRIT IN US, IN FAVOR OF THE FLESHLY SPIRIT. "BLIND," "CANNOT HEAR," HE SAID OF NEAR-ALL OF US. US. THAT'S IT. REPENT.' Loving
PRESS: Diane Wilson Day 39 - “We Demand to Know What You Are Forcing Us to Breathe!” iNEWP
| iNEWP- Freedom of Speech | - |
... Environmental Justice Advocacy Services), and hunger strikers Diane Wilson and Bob Lindsey, now in their 33rd day of a sustained hunger strike to protest Valero's involvement with the Keystone XL Pipeline and ultimately their presence in this ...
UPDATES: Day 39 - http://tarsandsblockade.org/hungerartist/
***** nd 'TILL YOU CRAVE A LIFE JUST LIKE HIS, JESUS', YOU DON'T KNOW, LOVE, FOLLOW, UNDERSTAND, SHARE, TEACH... OR WORSHIP HIM.' Loving
***** nd 'TILL YOU CRAVE A LIFE JUST LIKE HIS, JESUS', YOU DON'T KNOW, LOVE, FOLLOW, UNDERSTAND, SHARE, TEACH... OR WORSHIP HIM.' Loving
***** nd 'HISTORY'S GREATEST CRIME AGAINST HUMANITY: chr'stianity's torture, mitilation, evisceration, adulteration, dilution, smothering, burying, drowning, murdering... of Jesus Teachings. READ TOLSTOY'S GOSPEL TRANSLATION. For Jesus' sake, and for All Creation.' Loving
***** nd 'HISTORY'S GREATEST CRIME AGAINST HUMANITY: chr'stianity's torture, mitilation, evisceration, adulteration, dilution, smothering, burying, drowning, murdering... of Jesus Teachings. READ TOLSTOY'S GOSPEL TRANSLATION. For Jesus' sake, and for All Creation.' Loving
Was he lying? Sick? Or...? "I'm never so Joyful as when I'm suffering for our people.' Gandhi. And the father? The mother? The older sibling? The same, no?
Was he lying? Sick? Or...? "I'm never so Joyful as when I'm suffering for our people.' Gandhi. And the father? The mother? The older sibling? The same, no?
1.05.2013
***** 'History's greatest control SCAM: "DON'T trust yourself. TRUST US, ME, THIS BOOK...!!! christianity, islam, judaism, internet fantasy games, voodoo, paganism.... The Exception proves the rule.' Loving
***** 'History's greatest control SCAM: "DON'T trust yourself. TRUST US, ME, THIS BOOK...!!! christianity, islam, judaism, internet fantasy games, voodoo, paganism.... The Exception proves the rule.' Loving
nd 'NOTHING is TRUTH cuz Einstein said so, nor Jesus, nor some book.... Truth is what BEST explains things.' Loving
nd 'NOTHING is TRUTH cuz Einstein said so, nor Jesus, nor some book.... Truth is what BEST explains things.' Loving
***** 'MY GOD. What if Tostoy (& Gandhi, King...) is correct, and THIS is REALLY what Jesus taught? If you Love Anyone, HOW CAN YOU NOT STUDY THIS? Huh?' Loving
***** 'MY GOD. What if Tostoy (& Gandhi, King...) is correct, and THIS is REALLY what Jesus taught? If you Love Anyone, HOW CAN YOU NOT STUDY THIS? Huh?' Loving
http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/p/book-gospel-in-brief-tolstoy-leo.html
http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/p/book-gospel-in-brief-tolstoy-leo.html
nd 'The church says Jesus is the Only Son. JESUS Said, THE SON, IS THE SPIRIT OF LOVING, IN EVERY PERSON.' Tolstoy's translation, paraphrase. OBVIOUSLY, Tolstoy is correct.
nd 'The church says Jesus is the Only Son. JESUS Said, THE SON, IS THE SPIRIT OF LOVING, IN EVERY PERSON.' Tolstoy's translation, paraphrase. OBVIOUSLY, Tolstoy is correct.
'Tolstoy's re-birth, Gandhi, MLK Jr... may all have started in these 3 verses, in Tolstoy's 'Gospel' trans. See how Jesus' teaching unfolds.' Loving
'Tolstoy's re-birth, Gandhi, MLK Jr... may all have started in these 3 verses, in Tolstoy's 'Gospel' trans. See how Jesus' teaching unfolds.' Loving
From Tolstoy's translation of the Greek Gospels, "The Gospel in Brief:"
And from the Jordan he went into the wild places, and there he strove in the spirit (mt 4:1) . Jesus passed forty days and nights in the desert, without food or drink (mt 4:2) .
And the voice of his flesh said to him: "If you were Son of the Almighty God, you might of your own will make loaves out of stones; but you cannot do this, therefore you are not Son of God." (lk 4:3) But Jesus said to himself: "If I cannot make bread out of stones, this means that I am not Son of a God of the flesh, but Son of the God of the spirit. I am alive, not by bread, but by the spirit. And my spirit is able to disregard the flesh." (lk 4:4)
But hunger, nevertheless, tormented him; and the voice of the flesh again said to him: "If you live only by the spirit, and can disregard the flesh, then you can throw off the flesh, and your spirit will remain alive." And it seemed to him that he was standing on the roof of the temple, and the voice of the flesh said to him: "If you are Son of the God of the spirit, throw yourself off the temple (lk 4:9) . You will not be killed. But an unforeseen force will keep you, support you, and save you from all harm." (lk 4:10-11) But Jesus said to himself: "I can disregard the flesh, but may not throw it off, because I was born by the spirit into the flesh. This was the will of the Father of my spirit, and I cannot oppose Him." (lk 4:12)
Then the voice of the flesh said to him: "If you cannot oppose your Father by throwing yourself off the temple and discarding life, then you also cannot oppose your Father by hungering when you need to eat. You must not make light of the desires of the flesh; they were placed in you, and you must serve them." Then Jesus seemed to see all the kingdoms of the earth, and all mankind, just as they live and labor for the flesh, expecting gain therefrom (lk 4:5) . And the voice of the flesh said to him: "Well, you see, these work for me, and I give them all they wish for. If you will work for me you will have the same." (lk 4:6-7) But Jesus said to himself: "My Father is not flesh, but spirit. I live by Him; I always know that He is in me. Him alone I honor, and for Him alone I work, expecting reward from Him alone." (lk 4:8)
Then the temptation ceased, and Jesus knew the power of the spirit (lk 4:13) .
From Tolstoy's translation of the Greek Gospels, "The Gospel in Brief:"
And from the Jordan he went into the wild places, and there he strove in the spirit (mt 4:1) . Jesus passed forty days and nights in the desert, without food or drink (mt 4:2) .
And the voice of his flesh said to him: "If you were Son of the Almighty God, you might of your own will make loaves out of stones; but you cannot do this, therefore you are not Son of God." (lk 4:3) But Jesus said to himself: "If I cannot make bread out of stones, this means that I am not Son of a God of the flesh, but Son of the God of the spirit. I am alive, not by bread, but by the spirit. And my spirit is able to disregard the flesh." (lk 4:4)
But hunger, nevertheless, tormented him; and the voice of the flesh again said to him: "If you live only by the spirit, and can disregard the flesh, then you can throw off the flesh, and your spirit will remain alive." And it seemed to him that he was standing on the roof of the temple, and the voice of the flesh said to him: "If you are Son of the God of the spirit, throw yourself off the temple (lk 4:9) . You will not be killed. But an unforeseen force will keep you, support you, and save you from all harm." (lk 4:10-11) But Jesus said to himself: "I can disregard the flesh, but may not throw it off, because I was born by the spirit into the flesh. This was the will of the Father of my spirit, and I cannot oppose Him." (lk 4:12)
Then the voice of the flesh said to him: "If you cannot oppose your Father by throwing yourself off the temple and discarding life, then you also cannot oppose your Father by hungering when you need to eat. You must not make light of the desires of the flesh; they were placed in you, and you must serve them." Then Jesus seemed to see all the kingdoms of the earth, and all mankind, just as they live and labor for the flesh, expecting gain therefrom (lk 4:5) . And the voice of the flesh said to him: "Well, you see, these work for me, and I give them all they wish for. If you will work for me you will have the same." (lk 4:6-7) But Jesus said to himself: "My Father is not flesh, but spirit. I live by Him; I always know that He is in me. Him alone I honor, and for Him alone I work, expecting reward from Him alone." (lk 4:8)
Then the temptation ceased, and Jesus knew the power of the spirit (lk 4:13) .
nd Jesus Teaching: The True Life is Loving, NOW. Not yesterday's concern, not fears or desires of Tomorrow. Loving. Now.
nd Jesus Teaching: The True Life is Loving, NOW. Not yesterday's concern, not fears or desires of Tomorrow. Loving. Now.
nd 'I NEVER NOTICED: Jesus didn't say (Lord's Prayer) "My" Father; but "OUR" Father.' Loving
nd 'I NEVER NOTICED: Jesus didn't say (Lord's Prayer) "My" Father; but "OUR" Father.' Loving
They now want to kill many Malalas The Guardian
They now want to kill many Malalas
| The Guardian | - |
For
the teachers and health workers serving the village of Sher Afzal
Banda, there were few things more mundane than their daily return
journey to work.
nd 'Insane. Of COURSE we'll devote YEARS to becoming a Doctor, Teacher, Realestate Agent.... But to becoming a True Force for Good? Meh.' Loving
nd 'Insane. Of COURSE we'll devote YEARS to becoming a Doctor, Teacher, Realestate Agent.... But to becoming a True Force for Good? Meh.' Loving
***** nd 'Immediate, Personal Wants - WE PAY THE PRICE FOR! What's crucial, like Averting Ecocide... we Talk, Beg our politicians... but not PAY THE PRICE!' Loving
***** nd 'Immediate, Personal Wants - WE PAY THE PRICE FOR! What's
crucial, like Averting Ecocide... we Talk, Beg our politicians... but
not PAY THE PRICE!' Loving
From suffragettes to freedom fighters: A look at other hunger strikes. Vancouver Sun
From suffragettes to freedom fighters: A look at other hunger strikes
Vancouver Sun
OTTAWA — Hunger strikes have an illustrious history: From political dissidents to suffragettes and freedom fighters, people have often starved themselves to death to draw attention to their causes. Famously, Gandhi used his non-violent mass movement ...
See all stories on this topic »
NOTE: I've not read this and do not vouch for its usefulness. Loving
Vancouver Sun
OTTAWA — Hunger strikes have an illustrious history: From political dissidents to suffragettes and freedom fighters, people have often starved themselves to death to draw attention to their causes. Famously, Gandhi used his non-violent mass movement ...
See all stories on this topic »
NOTE: I've not read this and do not vouch for its usefulness. Loving
Dec 9 - students from St. Lawrence University staged a hunger strike
Hunger strike misguided
WatertownDailyTimes.com - 8 hours ago
On Dec. 9, students from St. Lawrence University staged a hunger strike
in protest of the use of solitary confinement and its effects on
prisoners. First of all, prisoners are not sent to solitary confinement.
They are segregated from the rest of the prison ...
Invisible bodies
San Francisco Bay View - Jan 3, 2013
What are the effects of long-term incarceration on prisoners? In a
country where mass incarceration has become the norm, what
responsibilities do the state and the community have to prisoners and to
protecting some of their most basic freedoms – access to ...
Two men on hunger strike for over 10 days, demanding justice for Delhi rape victim. Daily News & Analysis
Two men on hunger strike for over 10 days, demanding justice for Delhi rape victim
Daily News & Analysis
Braving the cold for over 10 days, two men continue to sit on a hunger strike in New Delhi, demanding capital punishment for the accused in the gang rape case and swift trial in all cases of sexual assault on women. The December 16, 2012, attack on the ...
Daily News & Analysis
Braving the cold for over 10 days, two men continue to sit on a hunger strike in New Delhi, demanding capital punishment for the accused in the gang rape case and swift trial in all cases of sexual assault on women. The December 16, 2012, attack on the ...
PRESS: Diane Wilson, OpEdNews. Day 38 Hunger Strike. And you?
... for as long as we Worship our Fleshly Spirit - Four dead in hostage-taking in Aurora: TV Reuters
| Reuters | - |
Sat
Jan 5, 2013 12:00pm EST. (Reuters) - Four people were dead including
the gunman following a hostage-taking on Saturday in Aurora, Colorado,
the same town where a gunman shot dead 12 people and wounded 58 more at a
movie theater last July, ...
***** Jesus Teaching: To Ransom, Redeem, the Lives of others - the ONLY Reason we're given our bodies.' Loving, Jesus, Tolstoy, Gandhi, YOUR LOVING SPIRIT....
***** nd Jesus Teaching: To Ransom, Redeem, the Lives of our Neediest - the ONLY Reason we're given our bodies.' Loving, Jesus, Tolstoy, Gandhi, YOUR LOVING SPIRIT.... "Love AS I HAVE LOVED."
01.05.13 Day 3 Ecocide's Death, FAST. Weak, Ill, Warming...
Feeling ill, lightheaded, nauseous, and weak, 2 days earlier than expected. Usually the first 3 days are pretty easy. Usually, it is days 4-6 when things start to get real bad.
My starting weight is about 162 judging from recent weighings attendant to the recent cancer surgery recovery. This is about 10 lbs, 20 days worth of fat, lighter than my start of earlier Fasts / Hunger Strikes. Hmmm.
Got an early warning 2 nights ago as to the perils of Fasting in the cold - with wind the temp is between 24 and 35 degrees F. Body heat is no more! Metabolism is forced to higher level than when it is warmer to try and compensate - faster fat burn. Hmmmm.
Spirit is the strongest of any Fast yet, for me, because I've learned so much more, as recorded in the last 4 weeks or so (here, and here). Huge growth. It is sooo Joyful, Peaceful, Passion-filled, Loving, and Hopeful for my 204 billion kids.
The notion that Jesus captured so well in the following quote, as did the lives of - blacks of the US '30s embodied in standing to by lynched, Steve Biko, Rachel Corrie... - "Lest a seed die, and fall to earth, it bears no Fruit." Every movement of extreme consequence requires such seeds, or it doesn't happen. I've always been called to be the tip of the spear, my entire life, all my years. This is what I was born for. This is what I've trained for. This is all I've ever wanted to do. Will my action bear Fruit? Probably not. Almost certainly not. But there is a chance created by me trying, and SO I SHALL.
And without some seeds dying, literally, NOW, and falling to Earth, to POSSIBLY bear the Fruit of OTHERS GIVING 100%, NOW!!!!! (uh, did I mention 100%???)... well, our present and future 204 billion kids are Ecocided (more text below vid. WATCH IT. 30 min. THIS IS THE TRUTH, BOTTOM LINE, THE READ DEAL. Make it full screen so you can see the pointer after a few minutes.)
Sure, my body, my Fleshly Spirit, is not so pleased with my current outlook but I AM NOT MY FLESHLY SPIRIT, NOR MY FLESH. I am the Spirit of the Creator, within me, and so are you. I treasure my Flesh, and have Respected and valued it Always. But it is not me. I am not it. (In "Avatar," was Jake HIS BODY? Which of the 2 bodies??? :-) ) I am the Spirit of Loving, the Creator in me, the Divine in which image we ALL are born - DNA given, psychological Truth. That is your TRUE Spirit, too. (Ask yourself. NO??? Am I wrong about you??? Was Jesus, Tolstoy, Gandhi, MLK Jr... wrong about you??? Ask yourself!) I expect my Flesh to perish in coming weeks, a year or so before the cancer would have taken it, I recon, from this Ecocide's Death Fast (best explained here, and here).
I'm consuming what liquids are offered me by the 'church folk' that come by, some of whom are quite Christ-ian. On average, in liquids, like coffee with a little cream, I expect to be at about 200 calories per day, instead of the 2000 calories my body needs in this bitter cold 24/7. Other than that, zero cal vitamin or electrolyte drinks, vitamin, and iron pills - otherwise I'm kept awake for hours by the cancer driven anemia and the resultant restless leg syndrome).
Due to the kindnesses of my sister Cathy, Beverly, Christ-ian church folk, Nicholas the Christ Mass Angel for we Homeless in DC with his huge deliveries of self-purchased warm stuff, my street friend Delbert from Texas (in the best sense, think Gomer Pyle; Forest Gump....)... I have all the warm clothing (the boots and finger-mitts are awesome, Cath), about 8 hours per day SOLAR power even on these short winter days (till 3-5 days of clouds come along :-( ), enabling me to stay productive on the computer, for now.
How long will I remain lucid, productive? Don't know. Probably MOST of the next 4 weeks or so, tho more and more I'll lose hours per day to nausea, weakness, loss of focus. Only one of my earlier Fasts, 4 years ago on Capitol Hill, was in such bitter cold, and then I had regular breaks inside. Uncharted territory for me.
My days now are spent:
1. Remaining Spiritually Powerful - that's my entire hope to us, to be a channel of Loving, the Creator, to us. (That's the only way any of us can be of use.) So, I use the Personal Trainer, daily (see 1st tab, top of page).
2. To serve TWO purposes, as an extension of point 1, I'm creating another 'book,' another Personal Trainer: "Jesus Teaching's on Living: Personal Trainer." The 2nd most important book on earth, for today (this being the 1st) is Tolstoy's "The Gospel in Brief," the writing of which
*. caused him to choose 30 more years of writing, on this subject, instead of immediate suicide, and
*. Created, from a cowardly, selfish young law student, in England, the man we know as Gandhi; and may well have created MLK Jr, as well.
A. The first purpose is to spend quality time with "Gospel in Brief," to work it further into my DNA,
B. By building a Personal Trainer (to be used daily, guided spread sheet along the lines developed for "Resurrecting Your Unviolent Warrior") I get the immersion (this is about my 9th reading of "Gospel, 3rd in a month); I create a way, like the "Resurrecting" Trainer, to work it into my bones; and a way to offer to others the ability to Train themselves.
I expect to also complete an associated Book/Trainer using Jesus' Teaching's on Living from the infinitely more widely known, but criminally adulterated, mutilated gospels - I'll use the Catholic Bible NAB.
3. A dear friend is helping me secure several more crucial books for the LIBRARY, and oddly you may think, that takes hours per day of my time, for the next week possibly.
4. Updating both blogs, especially Start Loving, so it is as good, complete, accesible a repository of what I've come to Understand and Value, as possible, to share with you, or those who come after, as well as I can.
Completing any of this will depend on what my body does.
How will this all end for my body? Don't know. The cancer is killing me from one end, for sure without the 6 months of chemo, I'm told, tho mercifully, since I've healed from the surgery, I remain symptom free so far, as long as I take the daily iron pills for the anemia (tho the major incision is still seeping a little, after 5 weeks?). The Ecocide's Death, Fast, is killing me from the other end. (No. What's Killing me is that we all sit watching Ecocide go unstoppable, and DO NOTHING.) In DC, tho my choice is to be allowed to have the Death Fast take my last breath in 40-60 days time; doubtful with all the security here in DC that that will be allowed. Institutionalization in St. E's Mental Hospital is my guess after I refuse calories when hospitalized weeks from now; a Living Death institutionalized, for the rest of what months I have before the Cancer has it's way. (St. E's probably won't be quite as comfortable, kind, Loving... LOL, as the hospice (Joseph's House, run by the same folks as run the Christ-ian Christ House that was so instrumental to my recovering from my November 30th cancer surgery, removing 2 of the tumors, and 1/3 of my colon); St. E's won't be quite as nice as what I was envisioning after I got the cancer diagnosis and realized that stopping the Vigil here at the Canadian Embassy, 24/7 7 months now, was out of the question; but before I received (thank God!!!) the vision of the Ecocide's Death Fast as a much better way to spend my Life!!! No matter. St. E's it is likely to be, not Joseph's House. Hmmm.
Oh, the specter of the Pr. Obama Inaugural Jan 21 hangs over my plans a bit. I may be forced, or may simply choose, to accept Hospitality and maybe up/back transportation from Philly friends for the days immediately before and after. Have to see what develops.
Well, I had zero idea that this long update Post was coming. But, here it is.
Massive emails from me yesterday to a select few - it was a HUGE news and Revelation day for me.
NOTE: I expect to do little of that outbound emailing going forward, knowing that those that care about this Campaign will Subscribe to the daily update email from this blog - see the little window at the far right of this page toward the top, where you anonymously put in your email address. Blogger / Google securely handles the rest.
With much Joy, and even a tiny bit of Hope for our Kids,
Loving (Pickles, TFC, LOL. Inside joke.)
My starting weight is about 162 judging from recent weighings attendant to the recent cancer surgery recovery. This is about 10 lbs, 20 days worth of fat, lighter than my start of earlier Fasts / Hunger Strikes. Hmmm.
Got an early warning 2 nights ago as to the perils of Fasting in the cold - with wind the temp is between 24 and 35 degrees F. Body heat is no more! Metabolism is forced to higher level than when it is warmer to try and compensate - faster fat burn. Hmmmm.
Spirit is the strongest of any Fast yet, for me, because I've learned so much more, as recorded in the last 4 weeks or so (here, and here). Huge growth. It is sooo Joyful, Peaceful, Passion-filled, Loving, and Hopeful for my 204 billion kids.
The notion that Jesus captured so well in the following quote, as did the lives of - blacks of the US '30s embodied in standing to by lynched, Steve Biko, Rachel Corrie... - "Lest a seed die, and fall to earth, it bears no Fruit." Every movement of extreme consequence requires such seeds, or it doesn't happen. I've always been called to be the tip of the spear, my entire life, all my years. This is what I was born for. This is what I've trained for. This is all I've ever wanted to do. Will my action bear Fruit? Probably not. Almost certainly not. But there is a chance created by me trying, and SO I SHALL.
And without some seeds dying, literally, NOW, and falling to Earth, to POSSIBLY bear the Fruit of OTHERS GIVING 100%, NOW!!!!! (uh, did I mention 100%???)... well, our present and future 204 billion kids are Ecocided (more text below vid. WATCH IT. 30 min. THIS IS THE TRUTH, BOTTOM LINE, THE READ DEAL. Make it full screen so you can see the pointer after a few minutes.)
Sure, my body, my Fleshly Spirit, is not so pleased with my current outlook but I AM NOT MY FLESHLY SPIRIT, NOR MY FLESH. I am the Spirit of the Creator, within me, and so are you. I treasure my Flesh, and have Respected and valued it Always. But it is not me. I am not it. (In "Avatar," was Jake HIS BODY? Which of the 2 bodies??? :-) ) I am the Spirit of Loving, the Creator in me, the Divine in which image we ALL are born - DNA given, psychological Truth. That is your TRUE Spirit, too. (Ask yourself. NO??? Am I wrong about you??? Was Jesus, Tolstoy, Gandhi, MLK Jr... wrong about you??? Ask yourself!) I expect my Flesh to perish in coming weeks, a year or so before the cancer would have taken it, I recon, from this Ecocide's Death Fast (best explained here, and here).
I'm consuming what liquids are offered me by the 'church folk' that come by, some of whom are quite Christ-ian. On average, in liquids, like coffee with a little cream, I expect to be at about 200 calories per day, instead of the 2000 calories my body needs in this bitter cold 24/7. Other than that, zero cal vitamin or electrolyte drinks, vitamin, and iron pills - otherwise I'm kept awake for hours by the cancer driven anemia and the resultant restless leg syndrome).
Due to the kindnesses of my sister Cathy, Beverly, Christ-ian church folk, Nicholas the Christ Mass Angel for we Homeless in DC with his huge deliveries of self-purchased warm stuff, my street friend Delbert from Texas (in the best sense, think Gomer Pyle; Forest Gump....)... I have all the warm clothing (the boots and finger-mitts are awesome, Cath), about 8 hours per day SOLAR power even on these short winter days (till 3-5 days of clouds come along :-( ), enabling me to stay productive on the computer, for now.
How long will I remain lucid, productive? Don't know. Probably MOST of the next 4 weeks or so, tho more and more I'll lose hours per day to nausea, weakness, loss of focus. Only one of my earlier Fasts, 4 years ago on Capitol Hill, was in such bitter cold, and then I had regular breaks inside. Uncharted territory for me.
My days now are spent:
1. Remaining Spiritually Powerful - that's my entire hope to us, to be a channel of Loving, the Creator, to us. (That's the only way any of us can be of use.) So, I use the Personal Trainer, daily (see 1st tab, top of page).
2. To serve TWO purposes, as an extension of point 1, I'm creating another 'book,' another Personal Trainer: "Jesus Teaching's on Living: Personal Trainer." The 2nd most important book on earth, for today (this being the 1st) is Tolstoy's "The Gospel in Brief," the writing of which
*. caused him to choose 30 more years of writing, on this subject, instead of immediate suicide, and
*. Created, from a cowardly, selfish young law student, in England, the man we know as Gandhi; and may well have created MLK Jr, as well.
A. The first purpose is to spend quality time with "Gospel in Brief," to work it further into my DNA,
B. By building a Personal Trainer (to be used daily, guided spread sheet along the lines developed for "Resurrecting Your Unviolent Warrior") I get the immersion (this is about my 9th reading of "Gospel, 3rd in a month); I create a way, like the "Resurrecting" Trainer, to work it into my bones; and a way to offer to others the ability to Train themselves.
I expect to also complete an associated Book/Trainer using Jesus' Teaching's on Living from the infinitely more widely known, but criminally adulterated, mutilated gospels - I'll use the Catholic Bible NAB.
3. A dear friend is helping me secure several more crucial books for the LIBRARY, and oddly you may think, that takes hours per day of my time, for the next week possibly.
4. Updating both blogs, especially Start Loving, so it is as good, complete, accesible a repository of what I've come to Understand and Value, as possible, to share with you, or those who come after, as well as I can.
Completing any of this will depend on what my body does.
How will this all end for my body? Don't know. The cancer is killing me from one end, for sure without the 6 months of chemo, I'm told, tho mercifully, since I've healed from the surgery, I remain symptom free so far, as long as I take the daily iron pills for the anemia (tho the major incision is still seeping a little, after 5 weeks?). The Ecocide's Death, Fast, is killing me from the other end. (No. What's Killing me is that we all sit watching Ecocide go unstoppable, and DO NOTHING.) In DC, tho my choice is to be allowed to have the Death Fast take my last breath in 40-60 days time; doubtful with all the security here in DC that that will be allowed. Institutionalization in St. E's Mental Hospital is my guess after I refuse calories when hospitalized weeks from now; a Living Death institutionalized, for the rest of what months I have before the Cancer has it's way. (St. E's probably won't be quite as comfortable, kind, Loving... LOL, as the hospice (Joseph's House, run by the same folks as run the Christ-ian Christ House that was so instrumental to my recovering from my November 30th cancer surgery, removing 2 of the tumors, and 1/3 of my colon); St. E's won't be quite as nice as what I was envisioning after I got the cancer diagnosis and realized that stopping the Vigil here at the Canadian Embassy, 24/7 7 months now, was out of the question; but before I received (thank God!!!) the vision of the Ecocide's Death Fast as a much better way to spend my Life!!! No matter. St. E's it is likely to be, not Joseph's House. Hmmm.
Oh, the specter of the Pr. Obama Inaugural Jan 21 hangs over my plans a bit. I may be forced, or may simply choose, to accept Hospitality and maybe up/back transportation from Philly friends for the days immediately before and after. Have to see what develops.
Well, I had zero idea that this long update Post was coming. But, here it is.
Massive emails from me yesterday to a select few - it was a HUGE news and Revelation day for me.
NOTE: I expect to do little of that outbound emailing going forward, knowing that those that care about this Campaign will Subscribe to the daily update email from this blog - see the little window at the far right of this page toward the top, where you anonymously put in your email address. Blogger / Google securely handles the rest.
With much Joy, and even a tiny bit of Hope for our Kids,
Loving (Pickles, TFC, LOL. Inside joke.)
nd 'Comfort AND Joy? Uh, no. As opposite as Lusting and Loving. Neurologically impossible.' Loving
nd 'Comfort AND Joy? Uh, no. As opposite as Lusting and Loving. Neurologically impossible.' Loving
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