NEWTOWN,
Conn. When Adam Lanza started his lethal attack on Sandy Hook
Elementary School, Andrei Nikitchyuk's eight year-old son and another
third grader were on their way to the principal's office.
'12.22.12: Friends: There can be no chemo. Less than 100% is ECOCIDE, from any of us now.' Loving
To C., Pat., Doc M, and other friends, (and to myself! LOL), to whom I've yet to be sufficiently clear -
Principal Dawn, in Newtown. Nothing less than 100% was acceptable to her, or from her last week.
We have 200 billion children yet to be born, and 4 billion currently on earth. There is a 20% chance that it is already too late for them, that we've passed tipping points through our collective, criminal, CRIMINAL, PATHOLOGICAL, AFFLOHOLIC, collective inaction the last 40 years, 30 years, 20 years, 10 years, 4 years, 1 year, 11 months, 10 months... that the scientists have been categorically SCREAMING at us that allowing Green House Gas emissions is the slow motion equivalent of unleashing global thermo-nuclear war on planet Earth, on our children's future, FOREVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
But there is an 80% chance that if we act now, in the first months of 2013, they, our 204 billion children can be shared that unmitigated, eternal, perpetual, daily Hell.
There is not a snowballs chance in Hell that we will do so, that we fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles... will pass the Legislation to end the free, no cost to the dumper, dumping of Green House Gas, smothering the Garden of Eden, forever, that we've all enjoyed.
But as long as anyone stands, Diane Wilson, me, someone, anyone... a snowball's chance in hell for them, exists.
For reasons I don't question for a moment, chemo can not legally be administered to me, or anyone, without a residence, even a shelter, for reasons of legal, financial liability to the doctor, and the hospital.
And I cannot meet that requirement, because other than for 4-8 hours per 2 week period, or possible emergency care from time to time, I cannot be away from the vigil.
Principal Dawn, in Newtown. Nothing less than 100% was acceptable to her, or from her last week. This, for only her 600 children.
I've got 204 billion children. The current certainty is that the slim chance they have to avert Ecocide, torture, and death will be gone in months. Nothing less than 100% is possible from me now. There can be no chemo. There will be no chemo for me.
'Having little time left, I desperately need help with two projects. I must not leave them unfinished." Loving
"Tomorrow is promised to no person."
For years I've had two projects I desperately needed to complete but I've not had the resource to do so, and now I'm running out of time. I need your help. Then my Library that I leave to you will be complete: http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/p/library.html
I need an excellent computer file of these two books scanned:
For convenience I've linked to Amazon, but as with every $ you spend, spend it to create jobs, not eliminate them - ;get them from a local book seller.
I can provide to you the scanning software and instructions.
I also need these for my own study - the scanned files.
If you, or someone you know feels passionate called to give this support, let me know, and I'll figure how to get you the scanning software.
Back at the vigil, thank Goodness! Away for way toooo long.
High winds, wind chill 31 going down to 24 by morning. Brrrrr.
They haven't told me how long I have with the cancer. With the chemo - 50% chance of 5 more years. Without? Well, quite a bit less, I'll guess. And chemo looks quite out of the question because the vigil cannot stop, not now.
I went to the hospital immediately that I arrived in DC to cancel the tests and treatment that was scheduled. I first, however, met with a Patient Navigator, a fellow Christ-ian, that is not at all pleased with the prospects of me departing in body, quite so soon. I made clear to her that I am not refusing chemo. But, I'm unable to depart from the vigil.
There may be a way. Enough of a sliver of a chance that I haven't yet cancelled the tests and treatment meeting, as I'd planned. There is within 4 blocks of the vigil a set-aside portion of a much larger homeless shelter that is called the "infirmary." It may be that unlike shelters, it is sufficiently less restrictive that I could meet the legal requirements of the hospital, being sheltered, and still maintain the vigil. It would be pretty miserable, chemo, without support, but that is of no consequence. Christ-mass on Tuesday will slow down the ability to evaluate this option, but by mid to late week things should be clearer.
I have zero aversion to trading 3 to 20 years of my life for the next 6 month, to keep my body in the way, now, in these most precious, decisive, consequential days in all human history, here in front of the Embassy, the poster child for our criminally insane pursuit of future eradicating fossil fuels.
But I am NEVER called to be casual with my life, nor anyone elses. So this unexpected, last option, as unlikely as it is, will be given it's due consideration.
With much Joy and Relief to be back in Harm's Way,
A week after the Newtown school shooting in which a young man fatally shot 27 people - 20 of them children - Michelle Obama has penned an open letter to Newtown residents. Titled “Holding You in Our Hearts,” the first lady praises the heroism shown by ...
nd 'I, am a Christ-ian; NOT a christian (my brothers and sisters all), but a Christ-ian. I Worship ONLY Christ, the Spirit of Loving, as Jesus taught in his words, and exemplified, best.' Loving
From a shortlist that included a Pakistani teenager, the new leader of Egypt and a former president, Barack Obama has for the second time been named Time magazine's person of the year.
Cancer - Chemo? NOW? For me!?!? Out of the question - 12.19.12
The choice:
1. This cell in my 204 billion cell body of humanity known as Loving, steps out of the battle to avert perpetual Ecocide in the final weeks in which it can be won ($250 / ton CO2e = $2 wreckage fee per $ of gas, 2X wreckage fee per $ of coal or natural gas electricity).
2. Accept a certain, roughly 10 year (3 to 20) shortening of my life by the cancer, and a less than pleasant end. (6 adults in Newtown, with unbounded Love, and Joy, just raced toward a much less generous deal, for not 204 billion kids, but just 600 kids. Bless their Hearts, eternally.)
Duh! WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING!?!?!? ROFL! We have hours, days, weeks, maybe months, to avert perpetual, unstoppable Ecocide by Green House Gasses, and I'm thinking about aborting the Canadian Embassy Vigil?!!?!?! Stepping off the battlefield for 6 months!?!?!?!? INSANITY! Not gunna happen. I expect to resume the vigil in DC, 24/7, this Friday, until the $250 / ton CO2e legislation is passed. Then I'll be open to accepting chemo. :-) Yes, it will be too late then. Couldn't matter less.
Here's the authoritative, definitive scientific, technological and economic Bottom Line, for those that care, in a 20 min nutshell; and I know of nowhere else you can find it nearly so succinctly (find the button, lower right, for full screen):
More, from a note to two fellow Unviolent Warriors (Diane Wilson, and another), yesterday morning:
I've within the last hour, prior to reading your email, had a fully
unexpected, days earlier than I'd expected, Clarity. I share it with
you, and only you at this point, because it pertains to what you've
written below, but I expect to take some number of hours to ponder it
deeply, and take one or several avenues I can see to 'Test' it, and see
if it is correct, if indeed it is the Creator's, if it is Creation's,
our Family's will for me. But I'm Deeply Pleased, Deeply Pleased at
what I now see so far, this Clarity of how I am to proceed, this
understanding; while respecting that you, others, most, all... may disagree with
me.
I've spent the morning beginning to process what I learned
yesterday of my cancer, and the debilitating 6 month treatment that would be required. Just
the 5 or so waking hours since my return at midnight last night from DC to a kind household in Phila,
has given me the time, space and place to make great strides toward
clarity - including imagining the "ideal" arrangements for 6 months of
Chemo that conceivably could be arranged:
1. Christ House - This
could be the 6 months sabbatical I've needed to take myself to the next
level of Understanding, that I could then share.
2. The Unity
Health Care "infirmary" I've vaguely heard of down near the Embassy. If
I imagine that it is available, it would give me the off-the-street
lodging required by the Hospital, and it would give me a responsible way
to accept the chemo - no sense accepting the care and expense, and
dying from exposure or germs living on the street. And, those days I
was functional, I could do the vigil, and access to online.
3.
Three households in
suburban Philly area that would Love to have me thru the chemo, and I'd
have at least full access to fight via the internet. The Medicaid
maybe/probably from DC wouldn't be transferable, but I can imagine for
now that it could; update - I have just gotten off the phone with one
of the Philly prospective hospitals and they suspect it could be
arranged.
So I can now today "see" the ideal circumstances for chemo treatment.
The
Blessed Clarity that has come to me, after seeing these options to
which I was blind yesterday, the clarity is - it is impossible to
abandon the vigil at this time. If our next 204 billion are to be saved
it will be in Loving, all out, nothing held back, Unviolent Battle by every one of us possible, NOW, not 7
months from now.
Due to the unimaginable kindness and goodness
of my medical care up until now (Doc Cardile at Unity, Christ House, Howard U) I've been given months more ability to
contribute, NOW. THANK YOU! I'm currently still healing, yet I'm in practically no pain,
for the first
time in a year. I have little reason to believe that in the next 3-9 months
I'll have symptoms cropping up that will impair my ability to
contribute just as I have from the vigil, online, etc; and maybe my ability to contribute will be 2 or three times that
long. I've healed rapidly from the Nov 30th surgery. I was
physically prepared, if barely, to resume the vigil last night, but the
treatment facts given me yesterday - 2 tumors, not one, pretty aggressive cancer, of needing 6 MONTHS debilitating chemo, for starters, life expectancy by 5 years of 50-60%... just was so
massively new for me I needed space to ponder, and hence the retreat to
Philly.
With immense Joy, my guess
is that as soon as Friday, now that my feet are back on the ground, I'll
give notice that I will forgo the chemo, and resume the DC vigil immediately. LOL -
For a day, or several weeks, the arrangements for my Beloved Pr.
Obama's inauguration may force me away from Penn Ave, his route, back to Phila, for a few days or weeks, but that is no
matter.
This
is no time for chemo. This is the time when we win, or lose, for our 204 billion kids. There is no July 2012. There's only... NOW.
I'm quite sure of all this for me now,
but I'll continue for some hours to deeply ponder and Test this.
US demands Iran release hunger-striking human rights lawyer Reuters WASHINGTON
(Reuters) - The United States on Friday demanded that Iran free jailed
human rights activist Nasrin Sotoudeh, who it said has been on hunger strike for more than six weeks, and sharply criticized Iranian authorities for their treatment of ...
Hunger-Striking Prisoners at Risk of Imminent Death Palestine News Network Thursday
6th December, Addameer Prisoner Support and Human Rights Association
expresses its deep concern for the health and lives of five Palestinian
political prisoners that are on hunger strike to protest their unjust detention in Israeli Occupation ...
A Victorious Hunger Strike Daily Beast For 49 days, jailed Iranian human-rights lawyer Nasrin Sotoudeh went on a life-threatening hunger strike.
Her goal: to force Iranian authorities to stop harassing her family and
remove a travel ban on her 12-year-old daughter. Drinking nothing but
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and risk her own health to push the Canadian government to meet treaty
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Egypt protestors stage hunger strike euronews A small group of protestors have decided to stage a hunger strike
against President Mursi and have vowed not to eat until he steps down.
The demonstrators, who are camping outside Cairo's presidential palace,
say the president has lost legitimacy. The
