12.15.2012
nd 'The material 'Price' I've Paid to Serve? Price of the Winning Lottery Ticket.' Loving
nd 'The material 'Price' I've Paid to Serve? Price of the Winning Lottery Ticket.' Loving
Christlike: NYT - Newtown Staff Gives Lives for Our Kids
New York Times
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Sandy
Hook Elementary principal Dawn Hochsprung died in the attack after
reportedly running toward the gunfire to protect her students.
Cancer Update - Hmmm. I seem to have become an Apostle (Vessel) of Christ, a Son of the Creator. 12.15.12' Loving
Cancer Update - Hmmmm. I seem to have become an Apostle (Vessel) of Christ, a Son of the Creator. 12.15.12' Loving
I didn't see it coming, but I seem to have become an Apostle, a Vessel of Christ - the Spirit of Loving, in recent weeks. I'm quite sure of it.
This complicates things. When Jesus had become such a Vessel he chose to live for three years more.
I'm 2 days now without Percoset, and doing ok - able to Serve with little distraction, tho yesterday I slept about 15 hours. Bowel remains unstable - two or three problematic movements per day vs one. I remain hobbled by the signals from my mid-section that they are wayyyyyyyyyy vulnerable, which they remain, depriving me of strength and surety of movement.
Monday in all likelihood the cancer doc will tell me my life depends on a 6 week chemo regimen beginning mid January.
Am I to terminate my life maybe a decade early so I can avoid a 2 month delay that would mean full recovery from the surgery and cancer, by resuming the vigil immediately to avert irreversible Ecocide, or at best the perpetual, near total economic destitution of those children whose parents choose to have them born; as the center of their existence is attempting to survive the Hell on Earth we are NEEDLESSLY handing them? Maybe!
It may be that my vigil at the Can Embassy would anyway, maybe immediately, be temporarily made impossible by preparations and security for the Inauguration of Pr. Obama.
Am to remain among you a while longer as this Vessel of Christ, as a Prayer that others may be more likely to find this Heaven on Earth, as well; or could this be better achieved exactly by forgoing the chemo?
I don't know yet.
I didn't see it coming, but I seem to have become an Apostle, a Vessel of Christ - the Spirit of Loving, in recent weeks. I'm quite sure of it.
This complicates things. When Jesus had become such a Vessel he chose to live for three years more.
I'm 2 days now without Percoset, and doing ok - able to Serve with little distraction, tho yesterday I slept about 15 hours. Bowel remains unstable - two or three problematic movements per day vs one. I remain hobbled by the signals from my mid-section that they are wayyyyyyyyyy vulnerable, which they remain, depriving me of strength and surety of movement.
Monday in all likelihood the cancer doc will tell me my life depends on a 6 week chemo regimen beginning mid January.
Am I to terminate my life maybe a decade early so I can avoid a 2 month delay that would mean full recovery from the surgery and cancer, by resuming the vigil immediately to avert irreversible Ecocide, or at best the perpetual, near total economic destitution of those children whose parents choose to have them born; as the center of their existence is attempting to survive the Hell on Earth we are NEEDLESSLY handing them? Maybe!
It may be that my vigil at the Can Embassy would anyway, maybe immediately, be temporarily made impossible by preparations and security for the Inauguration of Pr. Obama.
Am to remain among you a while longer as this Vessel of Christ, as a Prayer that others may be more likely to find this Heaven on Earth, as well; or could this be better achieved exactly by forgoing the chemo?
I don't know yet.
***** vid Here's Christ's House. WATCH IT.
http://www.christhouse.org/about/index.html
Why aren't you Living like this; if you are not, already?
Why aren't you Living like this; if you are not, already?
***** nd 'Jesus Gospel: Insanity is taking our spirit of Flesh as Reality. Reality is the Spirit of our Heart, Loving, Christ, God....' Loving
***** nd 'Jesus Gospel: Insanity is taking our spirit of Flesh as Reality. Reality is the Spirit of our Heart, Loving, Christ, God....' Loving
nd 'How Tragically we confuse the sad life of working to Be Loved, from the Joyful Life of Loving.' Loving
***** nd 'How Tragically we confuse the sad life of working to Be Loved, from the Joyful Life of Loving.' Loving
12.14.2012
nd 'My Life's work will remain: attempting to Clearly-enough Blaze the one path to Heaven in this Life.' Loving
nd 'My Life's work will remain: attempting to Clearly-enough Blaze the one path to Heaven in this Life.' Loving
***** nd 'Few choose Evil. We choose Selfishness and Evil is the Certain Result.' Loving informed by Dellinger
***** nd 'Few choose Evil. We choose Selfishness and Evil is the Certain Result.' Loving informed by Dellinger
nd 'The word Love that is always Capitalized is the Creator. The sometimes capitalized Love is Satan, Devil, Evil, opposite of Love. Lust.' Loving
nd 'The word Love that is always Capitalized is the Creator. The sometimes capitalized Love is Satan, Devil, Evil, opposite of Love. Lust.' Loving
nd 'Loving is my true name. Only those with Sight can See that.' Loving
nd 'Loving is my true name. Only those with Sight can See that.' Loving
nd 'If one is a preacher, they're not Christlike. If one is Christlike, they are a preacher and many other things.' Loving
nd 'If one is a preacher, they're not Christlike. If one is Christlike, they are a preacher and many other things.' Loving
nd 'Parables - a means of bypassing the Defenses and hitting the Heart.' Loving
nd 'Parables - a means of bypassing the Defenses and hitting the Heart.' Loving
nd 'Loving, have you accepted Jesus...?' 'If you knew my Father you'd know the answer.' Loving
nd 'Loving, have you accepted Jesus...?' 'If you knew my Father you'd know the answer.' Loving
nd 'Jesus' Religion is His Words in the Gospels.' Loving
nd 'Jesus' Religion is His Words in the Gospels.' Loving
nd 'Not Paul, John, Peter, Pope... were Jesus, nor could speak for Him.' Loving
nd 'Not Paul, John, Peter, Pope... were Jesus, nor could speak for Him.' Loving
nd 'christianity - Pagan religion invented to smother to Death Jesus Gospel: Universal Family; Waging Love.' Loving
nd 'christianity - Pagan religion invented to smother to Death Jesus Gospel: Universal Family; Waging Love.' Loving
nd 'Christ-mass: you Too are to be a Perfect Gift of Loving, to the world.' Loving
nd 'Christ-mass: you Too are to be a Perfect Gift of Loving, to the world.' Loving
nd 'Christ's Gospel: Every breath, your Spirit of Loving alone is to be worshiped and obeyed by you. Ever.' Loving. See Tolstoy's "Gospel in Brief," for details.
nd 'Christ's Gospel: Every breath, your Spirit of Loving alone is to be worshiped and obeyed by you. Ever.' Loving. See Tolstoy's "Gospel in Brief," for details.
12.13.2012
Email xchange w young Burma friend
From: Jack
To: Start LovingSent: Monday, December 3, 2012 5:37 AM
Subject: Re: Your friend from Burma!
Hi Start,
How are you doing? I am really hoping you will remember me. This is Jack from Burma and we met some two years ago in front of the White House when I was there on a Youth Leadership Program and you impressed me with your strong determination in standing up for what you believe in. I have always hoped to return to the United States one day; to visit Washington D.C and meet with you again.
As of now, I was fortunate enough to receive a scholarship and come study Political Science at Washington & Jefferson College in Pennsylvania. I believe that my achievement today is a result of my interaction with a lot of people throughout life who have inspired me in many ways with their actions and life stories - You are definitely one of them.
I will be visiting Washington D.C again in 2 weeks for winter break and if by any chance I go visit the White House (which I most likely will), I will look for you, my friend..... Take Care
Best Regards,
Jack
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Dear Brother, what a Joy to hear from you.
I have cancer, so this is making my schedule and where-abouts somewhat unpredictable. And, it has dramatically reduced my access to internet, and hence this very tardy reply to you.
It would be immensely Joyful for me if I saw you again. I strongly suggest that you scan my blog regularly, and even subscribe to the daily update if you like, so you can keep tabs on my whereabouts. Here >>> Start Loving .
My clarity increases by the day that biologically, neurologically, psychologically, and counter-intuitively, there is a path to Joy, and only one - and it is in exactly the opposite direction from where our sick societies and cultures ferrociously point us toward. It is NOT in the direction of catering to our selfish, our fleshly desires - safety, long life, comfort, privilege, entertainment, excitement, sex, food.... It is in the opposite direction from that, every second, every breath. Life, the Creator, Creation, the Forces of Creation... gave us our Flesh, our Body, for one and only one reason - to USE IT UP in the Service of the larger body of humanity, and when we do so, is the only, The Only, THE ONLY CIRCUMSTANCE in which our nervous system can and does reward us with the experience of Perfect Joy, Peace of Heart, Vitality, Life... the Heaven that all of History's Wise have tried to find, and direct us toward. And those of us Blest with this Understanding, we can and do choose to so Live, and thereby reside in Heaven on Earth every breath, every second, with not the slightest concern for such things as our own physical death.
So Blessed by Hearing from you. Note on my web site the tabs - I recommend to you with my entire being, that you read and use daily, as I do, a book I've written - "Unleashing Your Unviolent Warrior - a Personal Trainer." It is free to download. And with equal strength I recommend the book that created Gandhi, and that I study daily - "The Gospel in Brief," Leo Tolstoy, the Hapgood translation.
Your brother forever, no matter what, Loving
To: Start Loving
Subject: Re: Your friend from Burma!
Hi Start,
How are you doing? I am really hoping you will remember me. This is Jack from Burma and we met some two years ago in front of the White House when I was there on a Youth Leadership Program and you impressed me with your strong determination in standing up for what you believe in. I have always hoped to return to the United States one day; to visit Washington D.C and meet with you again.
As of now, I was fortunate enough to receive a scholarship and come study Political Science at Washington & Jefferson College in Pennsylvania. I believe that my achievement today is a result of my interaction with a lot of people throughout life who have inspired me in many ways with their actions and life stories - You are definitely one of them.
I will be visiting Washington D.C again in 2 weeks for winter break and if by any chance I go visit the White House (which I most likely will), I will look for you, my friend..... Take Care
Best Regards,
Jack
----------------
Dear Brother, what a Joy to hear from you.
I have cancer, so this is making my schedule and where-abouts somewhat unpredictable. And, it has dramatically reduced my access to internet, and hence this very tardy reply to you.
It would be immensely Joyful for me if I saw you again. I strongly suggest that you scan my blog regularly, and even subscribe to the daily update if you like, so you can keep tabs on my whereabouts. Here >>> Start Loving .
My clarity increases by the day that biologically, neurologically, psychologically, and counter-intuitively, there is a path to Joy, and only one - and it is in exactly the opposite direction from where our sick societies and cultures ferrociously point us toward. It is NOT in the direction of catering to our selfish, our fleshly desires - safety, long life, comfort, privilege, entertainment, excitement, sex, food.... It is in the opposite direction from that, every second, every breath. Life, the Creator, Creation, the Forces of Creation... gave us our Flesh, our Body, for one and only one reason - to USE IT UP in the Service of the larger body of humanity, and when we do so, is the only, The Only, THE ONLY CIRCUMSTANCE in which our nervous system can and does reward us with the experience of Perfect Joy, Peace of Heart, Vitality, Life... the Heaven that all of History's Wise have tried to find, and direct us toward. And those of us Blest with this Understanding, we can and do choose to so Live, and thereby reside in Heaven on Earth every breath, every second, with not the slightest concern for such things as our own physical death.
So Blessed by Hearing from you. Note on my web site the tabs - I recommend to you with my entire being, that you read and use daily, as I do, a book I've written - "Unleashing Your Unviolent Warrior - a Personal Trainer." It is free to download. And with equal strength I recommend the book that created Gandhi, and that I study daily - "The Gospel in Brief," Leo Tolstoy, the Hapgood translation.
Your brother forever, no matter what, Loving
***** D Wilson Update: 3 in jail. 2 on hunger strike. + mass action soon.
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Cancer Update - No time for Chemo now - 12.13.12
The surgery is healing well, says the general surgeon yesterday, and my body agrees. Bowel remains unstable. I'm able to get by now with just two of the six doses per day of Percoset prescribed to me.
Monday is the 1st meeting with the cancer doc. All indications are that I need 6 weeks of Chemo beginning mid to late January. There's no time. We have just weeks to bring about a 6% reduction per year in Green House Gas emissions. I must resume the vigil at the Canadian Embassy.
So far I'm told that they won't do chemo unless I am in a place like Christ House (and those Crazy Christ-ians are eager to have me back. Unimaginable) - the immune system is disabled by the Chemo I'm told. I can't do the vigil from Christ House (yes, worthy of the name. A True Godsend.) If they hold fast to this disallowing me to do the chemo at the vigil, and I don't question their doing so, it seems quite likely I'll forgo the Chemo. Soldiers constantly forgo their own well-being for others, or they are not soldiers. I'm a Soldier for Christ, the Spirit of Loving; a Soldier for the Kingdom, where Loving Reigns; a Soldier for my Family of Humanity. Indeed. For the unimaginable Joy of it.
I expect to take the next several days to try to take my personal planning to a level I've never yet done - to imagine different courses now for my Service, for my Life, and to attempt to quantify the various levels of Expected Value they might hold for my Clients - my 204 billion kids - whose life mine is; it is not my own. Armed with the outcome of this analysis I'll hear what the cancer doc wants to do, on Monday, and decide from there.
I'm currently on my way from Christ House, in DC, to folks in Philadelphia with whom I laid plans to extend my healing after Christ House for up to 6 weeks. My incision is still draining, my bowel unstable. But if my analysis calls for me to return on Monday to the Canadian Embassy vigil 24/7, well, diapers for seniors, Percoset, and a reduced frequency of incision dressing change make doing so do-able.
Monday is the 1st meeting with the cancer doc. All indications are that I need 6 weeks of Chemo beginning mid to late January. There's no time. We have just weeks to bring about a 6% reduction per year in Green House Gas emissions. I must resume the vigil at the Canadian Embassy.
So far I'm told that they won't do chemo unless I am in a place like Christ House (and those Crazy Christ-ians are eager to have me back. Unimaginable) - the immune system is disabled by the Chemo I'm told. I can't do the vigil from Christ House (yes, worthy of the name. A True Godsend.) If they hold fast to this disallowing me to do the chemo at the vigil, and I don't question their doing so, it seems quite likely I'll forgo the Chemo. Soldiers constantly forgo their own well-being for others, or they are not soldiers. I'm a Soldier for Christ, the Spirit of Loving; a Soldier for the Kingdom, where Loving Reigns; a Soldier for my Family of Humanity. Indeed. For the unimaginable Joy of it.
I expect to take the next several days to try to take my personal planning to a level I've never yet done - to imagine different courses now for my Service, for my Life, and to attempt to quantify the various levels of Expected Value they might hold for my Clients - my 204 billion kids - whose life mine is; it is not my own. Armed with the outcome of this analysis I'll hear what the cancer doc wants to do, on Monday, and decide from there.
I'm currently on my way from Christ House, in DC, to folks in Philadelphia with whom I laid plans to extend my healing after Christ House for up to 6 weeks. My incision is still draining, my bowel unstable. But if my analysis calls for me to return on Monday to the Canadian Embassy vigil 24/7, well, diapers for seniors, Percoset, and a reduced frequency of incision dressing change make doing so do-able.
12.12.2012
Cancer Update - Major Setback - 11.12.12
:-(
I may learn different today, but my plans to get back to the Canadian Embassy post have suffered a setback, it seems. I'd hoped to return to the post next week, and to do my January / February Chemo in front of the embassy on the street. But I learned yesterday that in all likelihood the hospital, cancer docs, will refuse to administer the chemo unless I am in a secure, relatively sterile environment - seems that chemo pretty well destroys the immune system temporarily. :-(
Do I postpone the chemo? Do I forgo it all together? Do I delay return to the Can Embassy indefinitely?
I have 1 or two consults at the Hospital today, and am scheduled for one with the cancer doc on Monday here in DC.
Do I exit Christ House and travel to Phila for the weekend and then return to DC for the Mon Hosp consult Monday, and then the Can Embassy till the chemo in Jan? Do I stay at Christ House till Monday, then take refuge in Phila till the Jan Chemo?
Is this a time for me to keep fighting, alongside Diane Wilson, and a few others, or am I to take this a decade-delayed R&R, and study time, and return to the fight full time after the Jan/Feb Chemo?
Hmmmm. Much to decide.
I may learn different today, but my plans to get back to the Canadian Embassy post have suffered a setback, it seems. I'd hoped to return to the post next week, and to do my January / February Chemo in front of the embassy on the street. But I learned yesterday that in all likelihood the hospital, cancer docs, will refuse to administer the chemo unless I am in a secure, relatively sterile environment - seems that chemo pretty well destroys the immune system temporarily. :-(
Do I postpone the chemo? Do I forgo it all together? Do I delay return to the Can Embassy indefinitely?
I have 1 or two consults at the Hospital today, and am scheduled for one with the cancer doc on Monday here in DC.
Do I exit Christ House and travel to Phila for the weekend and then return to DC for the Mon Hosp consult Monday, and then the Can Embassy till the chemo in Jan? Do I stay at Christ House till Monday, then take refuge in Phila till the Jan Chemo?
Is this a time for me to keep fighting, alongside Diane Wilson, and a few others, or am I to take this a decade-delayed R&R, and study time, and return to the fight full time after the Jan/Feb Chemo?
Hmmmm. Much to decide.
12.09.2012
Cancer Update. GOOD NEWS. 11.09.12
I have a hunch I'll be able to return to 22 hrs, 7 days per week before Christmas!!!! If my bowel will only get regular in time, and the pain and weakness subside fast enough. I'm in quite a bit of pain, but the Percoset helps a lot - makes it manageable. The Canadian Embassy vigil is not particularly strenuous except the occasional heavy lift of my solar batteries and panels.
It is just that I think in a few weeks my body may be able to handle it. We'll see. Pray for me, for us, ok? Our kids, grandkids... are sooooooo out of time.
Prior update: Cancer update 12.08.12
It is just that I think in a few weeks my body may be able to handle it. We'll see. Pray for me, for us, ok? Our kids, grandkids... are sooooooo out of time.
Prior update: Cancer update 12.08.12
***** URGENT. HOW MUCH LONGER WITHOUT U V ECOCIDE??? D WILSON...
IN TEXAS JAIL FOR YOU. Diane Wilson’s Harris County Jail Record , Diane Wilson and Bob Lindsey Recount Their Experiences from the Harris County Jail
**Click “read more” and then scroll to the bottom of the post for important contact information
!!!!!! SHE'S ON DAY 11 OF AN INDEFINITE HUNGER STRIKE, FOR YOUR KIDS, AND GRANDKIDS? WHERE ARE U????????????????? SEARCH THIS SITE >>> http://tarsandsblockade.org/
HOW MUCH LONGER MUST D. WILSON FIGHT FOR YOUR KIDS AND GRAND KIDS WITHOUT YOUR HELP!?!??!? WTF?!?!?!?! NO!!!!! She's not complaining. In God's name, I AM!!!!
When will you stand with her???
HERE: http://tarsandsblockade.org/
!!!!!! SHE'S ON DAY 11 OF AN INDEFINITE HUNGER STRIKE, FOR YOUR KIDS, AND GRANDKIDS? WHERE ARE U????????????????? SEARCH THIS SITE >>> http://tarsandsblockade.org/
HOW MUCH LONGER MUST D. WILSON FIGHT FOR YOUR KIDS AND GRAND KIDS WITHOUT YOUR HELP!?!??!? WTF?!?!?!?! NO!!!!! She's not complaining. In God's name, I AM!!!!
When will you stand with her???
HERE: http://tarsandsblockade.org/
12.08.2012
Cancer update 12.08.12
This my first moments online since a week ago Thursday. Internet access remains severely restricted for some number of coming days.
Not much time - sorry for all the errors, etc, below.
Operation took place within 2 minutes of scheduled start - 7:15am Fri - took roughly 3 hours. Amazing. Awe-some. They feel that they were 100% successful in what they set out to do - remove 1/3 of my colon - the entire right side.
My head continues to spin with all the care, kindness, consideration I've received and am receiving - 1st at Howard University, and now at Christ House, again, where I've been since Thursday, about 1pm, and expect to remain through Monday at the earliest, Friday at the latest, at which point some short-sighted folks in the Phila area ( :-) ) are planning to keep me, in shifts, for the remaining 5 weeks of my recovery process, prior to the expected, first, 6 week regimen of chemo back here in DC, if and when I can secure care here for that.
I've healed to the point that of the 6 doses of Percoset I'm allotted for pain daily, yesterday I skipped 2 or 3 doses just to see where I was. :-) :-( I then took a dose, and will resume normal dosage, for now. I'm definitely healing. 3" up-down incision at my belly button, and 2 or 3 other much smaller incisions for the operation. Then, about 4 days ago, back to the O.R. for a medi-port in my upper chest - in anticipation of the chemo. Per normal, the big incision drains like a firehose (well, yes, that's an exaggeration, but not much. LOL. But that's beginning to subside too.)
Their first thought was that I'd be released this past Sun or Mon. Thurs noon was it finally. Doesn't seem that the delay is because I'm a super wimp - they say I'm not. Just a big, pretty big, operation.
So, they got all that they hoped to, and the only thing they could see remaining that concerned them is a 'spot' on my liver. They didn't biopsy it cuz it could be vascular and they didn't want lots of bleeding. A PET scan is used to spot small cancers and their elevated metabolism, but can't to that on the liver or anything else till a lot of the healing of op 1 is done cuz that, the healing, shows as elevated metabolism as well.
They don't, as of this past Fri, they don't have the biopsy back from the op. Takes five business days. Should know more early next week.
So, for the last 8 days I've done massive amounts of sleeping, some drug induced, much just repair work - sleep. Have done much audio book study - Tolstoy's "Gospel in Brief," and his "Kingdom of God is Within you," and John Ruskin's "Unto this Last," the basic works that created, that CREATED Gandhi. Have wanted to restudy these for over a decade, and this was my time. If we need more Gandhi's, and MLK Jrs... you need to read these too; like me. EVERYONE does. We haven't much time left.
MASSIVE Prayer, Meditation, Contemplation, Revelation.... I've taken dozens of audio notes - maybe I can transcribe them them tomorrow.
* My Religion, the 1, True Religion, by whatever name - Being Love, Christlike as best explained in Jesus' Gospel, the Tolstoy translation; and causing more Loving, with every breath, every move, every action, every transaction, every interaction. Hmmmm. Oh, did I mention EVERY? EVERY.
* The only True Revolution, ever humanly possible, by whatever name - the overthrow of all, ALL, ALL... Selfishness (think addictions, cuz that's what they are, and what they feel like, Pinoccio), 1st in self, and thereby in those around us if and when possible, and putting in charge instead our DNA given capacity for Universal Family, uh, UNIVERSAL FAMILY, 100% UNIVERSAL FAMILY, aka, Loving. You don't think it is possible? Well, ok, but then you are calling the fool, the ignoramus, frauds, idots... the world's Diane Wilson's, Teresa of Calcutta's, Dorothy Day's, Rachel Corrie's, Alice Paul's, Diane Nash's, Gandhi's, Jesus,' Kings... that proved and taught otherwise. Stop it. If you don't want to to it, Fine. But don't say you don't have the choice, cuz we ALL do. It is our NATURAL nature, Loving, given by our DNA. Oh, and our kids and grand kids are forever crucified by any further delay in the revolution. FOREVER. It is now, or never. Now, or Ecocide.
* Much more, but gotta go back to internet prison till tomorrow for a few hours.
Loving
Not much time - sorry for all the errors, etc, below.
Operation took place within 2 minutes of scheduled start - 7:15am Fri - took roughly 3 hours. Amazing. Awe-some. They feel that they were 100% successful in what they set out to do - remove 1/3 of my colon - the entire right side.
My head continues to spin with all the care, kindness, consideration I've received and am receiving - 1st at Howard University, and now at Christ House, again, where I've been since Thursday, about 1pm, and expect to remain through Monday at the earliest, Friday at the latest, at which point some short-sighted folks in the Phila area ( :-) ) are planning to keep me, in shifts, for the remaining 5 weeks of my recovery process, prior to the expected, first, 6 week regimen of chemo back here in DC, if and when I can secure care here for that.
I've healed to the point that of the 6 doses of Percoset I'm allotted for pain daily, yesterday I skipped 2 or 3 doses just to see where I was. :-) :-( I then took a dose, and will resume normal dosage, for now. I'm definitely healing. 3" up-down incision at my belly button, and 2 or 3 other much smaller incisions for the operation. Then, about 4 days ago, back to the O.R. for a medi-port in my upper chest - in anticipation of the chemo. Per normal, the big incision drains like a firehose (well, yes, that's an exaggeration, but not much. LOL. But that's beginning to subside too.)
Their first thought was that I'd be released this past Sun or Mon. Thurs noon was it finally. Doesn't seem that the delay is because I'm a super wimp - they say I'm not. Just a big, pretty big, operation.
So, they got all that they hoped to, and the only thing they could see remaining that concerned them is a 'spot' on my liver. They didn't biopsy it cuz it could be vascular and they didn't want lots of bleeding. A PET scan is used to spot small cancers and their elevated metabolism, but can't to that on the liver or anything else till a lot of the healing of op 1 is done cuz that, the healing, shows as elevated metabolism as well.
They don't, as of this past Fri, they don't have the biopsy back from the op. Takes five business days. Should know more early next week.
So, for the last 8 days I've done massive amounts of sleeping, some drug induced, much just repair work - sleep. Have done much audio book study - Tolstoy's "Gospel in Brief," and his "Kingdom of God is Within you," and John Ruskin's "Unto this Last," the basic works that created, that CREATED Gandhi. Have wanted to restudy these for over a decade, and this was my time. If we need more Gandhi's, and MLK Jrs... you need to read these too; like me. EVERYONE does. We haven't much time left.
MASSIVE Prayer, Meditation, Contemplation, Revelation.... I've taken dozens of audio notes - maybe I can transcribe them them tomorrow.
* My Religion, the 1, True Religion, by whatever name - Being Love, Christlike as best explained in Jesus' Gospel, the Tolstoy translation; and causing more Loving, with every breath, every move, every action, every transaction, every interaction. Hmmmm. Oh, did I mention EVERY? EVERY.
* The only True Revolution, ever humanly possible, by whatever name - the overthrow of all, ALL, ALL... Selfishness (think addictions, cuz that's what they are, and what they feel like, Pinoccio), 1st in self, and thereby in those around us if and when possible, and putting in charge instead our DNA given capacity for Universal Family, uh, UNIVERSAL FAMILY, 100% UNIVERSAL FAMILY, aka, Loving. You don't think it is possible? Well, ok, but then you are calling the fool, the ignoramus, frauds, idots... the world's Diane Wilson's, Teresa of Calcutta's, Dorothy Day's, Rachel Corrie's, Alice Paul's, Diane Nash's, Gandhi's, Jesus,' Kings... that proved and taught otherwise. Stop it. If you don't want to to it, Fine. But don't say you don't have the choice, cuz we ALL do. It is our NATURAL nature, Loving, given by our DNA. Oh, and our kids and grand kids are forever crucified by any further delay in the revolution. FOREVER. It is now, or never. Now, or Ecocide.
* Much more, but gotta go back to internet prison till tomorrow for a few hours.
Loving
nd 'Church: Sole proper measure, function - propagate Loving; Christlikeness.' Loving
nd 'Church: Sole proper measure, function - propagate Loving; Christlikeness.' Loving
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