The doc's guess as to the cause of the anemia is internal bleeding. I don't recall her going further in her speculation. Maybe she mentioned intestine. I'm guessing stomach. Decades ago I didn't know how to manage my stress levels sufficiently and, well, I know what ulcers feel like, at least, what some ulcers feel like, and a stress stomach. And that isn't what this feels like. But maybe I don't know what three, 40-50 day, water only within 15 months, induced ulcers of the stomach or intestine feel like. But my body is saying she is correct. Parts of the day things feel fine. Other times my stomach just aches, like someone punched it, or, like it was wounded, bleeding. It is not excruciating. It is disturbing, and distracting, and an unhappy experience. My work doesn't need this right now. And more and more, extreme fatigue, for now apparent reason.
Last 39 days without water there were periods of very large bowel movement, but without taking food. I thought, that's odd. The cells that accumulated from bleeding maybe?
Last night, my beloved colleague came by. Before the Death Fast began he had brought his sleeping bag, tarp, mat, and at times slept at the signs in front of the embassy where I am near 24/7. We can't communicate, I being among the millions that are walking dead now due to the no-charge dumping of future destroying, our homeland destroying, Bangladesh destroying carbon emissions waste. He seemed to understand, and respect that the dead and the living can't communicate.
He lives as a person should, out of his need, not his greed, out of his Love, not his Lust, with the exception of his smoking, killing himself; in a pretty radical life of voluntary service, thus far. I've never seen his like before. A God-send?
He seemed to understand that the only thing we walking dead from countless places like Bangladesh, Athabasca, Indigenous Alaska, Maldives... can see or hear, is facts, life and death Truths: the fact that folks that could resurrect us before it is too late are finally assembling to make a stand, or not. The fact that folks that could resurrect us before it is too late are still in the thinking and talking stage, or have shifted into the Loving stage - 40 ARE, or ARE by xyz date, putting and keeping our bodies, our lives, all that we are and have in the way, until the resurrection of you millions, and our 200 billion occurs, or not. Not 'maybe.' But unmistakably, 'failure is not an option,' John Q. . 'We know that you, our canaries in the coal mine where we all live, are just the first of us to go.' 40 that are irrevocably, unshakably committed to stand until the legislation is passed, and unmistakably, unquestionably implemented in such a way that it will not and cannot fail... that is all that we walking dead can see or hear; be it in a month, 3 months, 3 years.... Sorry, everything else is final death for us. You can understand. Can't you?
If I, Loving, as a Bangladeshi father, an Athabascan Father... see that, or hear and believe that the fact of those 40 has been achieved, even if not yet assembled, then I might be allowed to leave my state of death, this Death Fast, and become #41 alongside them. There are other ways besides mine now, the Death Fast, to 'die' for a cause, to joyfully give all, everything, totally, for a cause. 40 keeping their bodies physically in the way in waves of to death's door hunger strikes, rebuild, regroup, restart... until the evil is replaced with sanity, that too is a way of 'dying' for a cause, giving all, with Joy and Love. In the face of this insanity, by the way, they would not stay 40. If they really stood, they would become the 1000, the 1 million, the 1 billion.... And then the future of Humanity is resurrected from Plan A-rmageddon, status quo, business as usual.
Can my beloved colleague play a role in this? Could Neo? Could Luke? Yes, he's the one. Are there 40 in the world, INSHE warriors in waiting, in the US, or who will come to the US, in time, not already so sub-humanized by our toxic culture, that they could respond to his brilliant goodness, his example, his wisdom, his humanity, his knowledge, his heroic focus..., and to this greatest Hell every to face humanity? Probably not.
However, Necessity is the mother of all Miracles. "Example is not the major thing in influencing people. It is the only thing." (Schweitzer). Sometimes when we devote everything we are, every breath, even unto death, sometimes the Creator steps in beside us, and Miracles happen. All human progress has been thus. Miracles never happen without this, but with it? Sometimes.
Speaking of breathtaking goodness, you should have seen him last night. Breathtaking. As we were sitting there on the sidewalk an extraordinarily hostile, mean, large, drunk, expensively dressed mid-30ish, big white guy came by, towering over us, saw the 'till enough are seen dying for it, co2 won't stop' signs, and with disdain, threats, hostility, aggression... began spewing at us. That he would be physically violent too was far from out of the question. My friend, reflexively (I being dead already I couldn't speak or react), my friend: zero evidence of any fear; returned zero but Love, tough Love, brotherhood, intelligence, calm, peace, acceptance, forgiveness.... Gandhi would have glowed, beamed.
URGENT NEEDS:
1. URGENT. Someone needs to take 1 or both of my sleep mats to where there is a bathtub so they can see where the leeks are. I have a patch kit. These literally make my work survivable, including being my shade from the otherwise killing sun on the sidewalk, and my rest at night. This is quite dire. The new one, the leak is slow enough so far that I can use it; the orange one, worthless, until patched. If someone comes by to do this, to act, to follow thru, I can hear that, and make available to them what they need. Best, by far, is if first the orange can be fixed and returned to me - takes a day for the patch to dry and be tested; and then the black/greenish one. These, and all I have will be available for liquidation or use by the next INSHEs after I pass on, after I pass over.
2. URGENT: My work needs, the bodies in the way need, on the sidewalk in front of the Embassy, to have electricity. I'm in possession as of last week, finally, of a solar battery now; but so far, it seems that the solar panel I have, for 3 years now, is not working. The $319 solar battery is not returnable, it seems. After I pass on, this will remain, if we get it functioning now, an invaluable tool for the work of any INSHE warriors that emerge. The packaging is being held by my brothers at Firehook Bakery, 4th and D, so it could be sold on ebay easily. By Tuesday I expect to have the situation finally diagnosed, including the price of the absolutely lowest cost panel to do the job, if required. I'm in communication with a solar engineer that I think will help me find the cheapest, regardless of how rube-Goldberg. Probably between $100 and $350. If someone(s) wish to donate funds for this, I'll be able to hear that. The packaging could be kept for that too, and sold on ebay for 70% of the original price, after my passing, if no INSHE's emerge that need it. The funds can be placed in my hand, or arrangements can be made to place them in my PNC checking account, easily.
8.10.2012
Day 2. Global Warming's Death. Fast2. Aged 20 years by a diagnosis?
Day 2 and I feel like day 60. Wow. Day 2 has never felt like this.
Is it the blood tests that say anemia, the diagnosis, or is it the diagnosis, the anemia hitting me? My backpack that was 35-45 lbs now feels 80. My 2 lb each Secret Service boots now feel 8 lb each.
There is likely hospital time ahead for the Death Fast and this month was the month I had to renew my Medicade so today has been about a 40 block walk, thus far. Well, a walk, stagger, sit....
I'm at 1000% peace. I'm a Bangladeshi father with the unspeakable gift of being able to put and keep my body in the way of Environmental Armageddon for my children, and grandchildren..., in the most powerful city on Earth. What a luxury. What a Divine Blessing.
Next Wednesday I go back, uh, stagger back for the blood test results, for this latest round, Creator willing.
Woke up to rain. Massive rain called for this evening and tonight.
I, we're dead, we Bangladeshi's, Maldivians, Athabaskans, Indigenous Alaskans... and soon the miracle of our resurrection will be impossible, unless you work a miracle, now, and find 40 with the sanity, the moral imagination, to put and keep their bodies in the way of this soon unstoppable Environmental Armageddon.
Is it the blood tests that say anemia, the diagnosis, or is it the diagnosis, the anemia hitting me? My backpack that was 35-45 lbs now feels 80. My 2 lb each Secret Service boots now feel 8 lb each.
There is likely hospital time ahead for the Death Fast and this month was the month I had to renew my Medicade so today has been about a 40 block walk, thus far. Well, a walk, stagger, sit....
I'm at 1000% peace. I'm a Bangladeshi father with the unspeakable gift of being able to put and keep my body in the way of Environmental Armageddon for my children, and grandchildren..., in the most powerful city on Earth. What a luxury. What a Divine Blessing.
Next Wednesday I go back, uh, stagger back for the blood test results, for this latest round, Creator willing.
Woke up to rain. Massive rain called for this evening and tonight.
I, we're dead, we Bangladeshi's, Maldivians, Athabaskans, Indigenous Alaskans... and soon the miracle of our resurrection will be impossible, unless you work a miracle, now, and find 40 with the sanity, the moral imagination, to put and keep their bodies in the way of this soon unstoppable Environmental Armageddon.
8.09.2012
GWDF2 Day 1: Blood tests, symptoms suggest possible anemia
Unity Health Care in DC - from God, from what I've seen so far. If I lived long enough I'd possibly find time to do some research and found out where in Heaven they came from. Whether or not you have money is pretty irrelevant, tho I have Medicaid. Doesn't matter to them. They just treat. Most of my adulthood I was among the most affluent care. None are more kind, more professional, more thorough than much of what I've seen at Unity for we indigent.
Med Trucks, Doc on board, do outreach to we homeless, which is how I connected, probably 4 years ago or so, a variety of issues.
About two-three weeks before the first death fast I felt so ill - stomach, bowel, restless legs at night, for so many weeks, months, that I went to see the doc on the truck, a young woman, Georgetown grad, that I've gotten to know. Smart, kind, respectful, thoughtful, understanding, accepting.... Stunning Heart. An Angel. She wanted to do blood work, said it could turn up something that would be inexpensive to treat (my constraint, morally) so I said, 'sure.' I got the blood work done, but totally unexpected, and to my delight, the 1st Death Fast crystallized in my mind, just hours before I'd have gone to learn the results, so I never did learn them.
"Doc Cardile wants to see you," nurse Penny admonished me when I saw her at one of the homeless Med Truck places last week as I was passing by.
This morning I saw the doc. She's doing more blood work now. I'm feeling fairly ill again, starting about a week ago. My blood tests thus far are registering anemia and she is testing to diagnose why.
Day 1 of the death fast is usually pretty easy. Between the heat, and whatever is wrong with my body, not so easy this time. Not so easy with the Indigenous Canadians dying one after another from the denied pollution from the tar sands; not too easy for Maldives watching their nation slowly, not so slowly, disappear below the waves of our US apathy, greed, lusts, and international treaty obstruction.
I'm a Bangladeshi. I'll not leave my post.
Med Trucks, Doc on board, do outreach to we homeless, which is how I connected, probably 4 years ago or so, a variety of issues.
About two-three weeks before the first death fast I felt so ill - stomach, bowel, restless legs at night, for so many weeks, months, that I went to see the doc on the truck, a young woman, Georgetown grad, that I've gotten to know. Smart, kind, respectful, thoughtful, understanding, accepting.... Stunning Heart. An Angel. She wanted to do blood work, said it could turn up something that would be inexpensive to treat (my constraint, morally) so I said, 'sure.' I got the blood work done, but totally unexpected, and to my delight, the 1st Death Fast crystallized in my mind, just hours before I'd have gone to learn the results, so I never did learn them.
"Doc Cardile wants to see you," nurse Penny admonished me when I saw her at one of the homeless Med Truck places last week as I was passing by.
This morning I saw the doc. She's doing more blood work now. I'm feeling fairly ill again, starting about a week ago. My blood tests thus far are registering anemia and she is testing to diagnose why.
Day 1 of the death fast is usually pretty easy. Between the heat, and whatever is wrong with my body, not so easy this time. Not so easy with the Indigenous Canadians dying one after another from the denied pollution from the tar sands; not too easy for Maldives watching their nation slowly, not so slowly, disappear below the waves of our US apathy, greed, lusts, and international treaty obstruction.
I'm a Bangladeshi. I'll not leave my post.
GWDF2 Day 1: I'm already dead. Pls understand.
I know it is awkward, but I'm already dead. We Bangladeshi's, Athabaskans, million species, Maldivians, Indigenous Alaskans... we're already dead. Plan A, Plan A-armageddon, that's what is certain for us. We're already dead. Many physically, many culturally, because you are letting our world be killed. ravaged, raped, mutilated. Oh, we still move around now, but we're already dead.
Awkward for you, I know. And for us.
Loving here: as hard as it is for me, I WILL NOT FAIL YOU - no acknowledgement, no eye contact. I'm dead now. I am dead now, and you will see this if you encounter me at the Embassy. I am dead. I am dead to you. I fail you, if not. I am a Bangladeshi, Maldivian, Athabaskan, Indigenous Alaskan. A zombie American child. A zombie American adult. Like you?
Maybe it will help you see that you want to change this specter of things to come, before it is too late for you to resurrect us.
We haven't much time... days, weeks, months. Not years, anymore.
If you are going to save us, it will be now, or never.
Awkward for you, I know. And for us.
Loving here: as hard as it is for me, I WILL NOT FAIL YOU - no acknowledgement, no eye contact. I'm dead now. I am dead now, and you will see this if you encounter me at the Embassy. I am dead. I am dead to you. I fail you, if not. I am a Bangladeshi, Maldivian, Athabaskan, Indigenous Alaskan. A zombie American child. A zombie American adult. Like you?
Maybe it will help you see that you want to change this specter of things to come, before it is too late for you to resurrect us.
We haven't much time... days, weeks, months. Not years, anymore.
If you are going to save us, it will be now, or never.
8.08.2012
Atheism is on the rise on a global level, international study reveals -- the ... God Discussion
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The 57 countries represent more than 73 percent of the world's population.
Those surveyed were asked, "Irrespective of whether you attend a place
of worship or not, would you say you are a religious person, not a
religious person or a convinced atheist ...
GWDF2 Death Fast - Logistics
Location: Canadian Embassy, home of the Alberta, Calgary, tar sands, the Environmental Auschwitz of the 5th Holocaust, 501 Pennsylvania Ave, Washington, DC
Time:
Roughly 23 hours per day, tho closer to 19 per day until the solar panel starts working or I get a replacement. I have the battery, but so far the panel isn't working. Brian, those funds? Anyone else want to contribute? The 1-5 hours per day I'll be using the rest room, and repowering my laptop at various local places where I've found I can beg electrons, and be granted them, with good humor. Oh, and using my food-stamp card to get vitamin water and electrolytes (zero cal both) at the CVS 6 blocks away. If and when I need to be away from the Embassy doing library research, I'll do so.
Activities:
Day 1-3 - work
Day 4-8 - probably be pretty sick. Those are usually the worst days
Day 9-23 or so - probably pretty productive work time, though the heat is a wildcard
Day 24-35 work some days, just hang on others as the body fades
Day 36+ Wait, work, pray, doze, lose it, pass on
Work:
#1 Priority: Finish Book 1 - Global Warming's Death. Fast. Expected completion August 22nd.
#2 Priority: Upload audio book versions of both books. Expected completion August 26th.
#3 Priority: Rewrite as many as possible to focus on achieving a Maximum of 1.5 Degrees C by 2100, of IEA June Report, The Copenhagen Diagnosis (expansion as required); Plan B 3.0 to bring the Carbon Emissions part up to date - A. Where are we; B. What do we need to achieve by year by 2020 or 2025 to avert Hell and High Water, forever.
#4 ongoing priority: To some degree continue the news scan daily of carbon related news and update Tracking Plan B blog.
Help needed:
#1 Find 40 people to put and keep their bodies on the line, in the way, until the totally, completely, absolutely failure-is-not-an-option Legislation that the environmental wreckage cost will be paid by the wreckers (fossil fuel users) is law and implemented leaving zero risk.
#2 Find 40 people to put and keep their bodies on the line, in the way, until the totally, completely, absolutely failure-is-not-an-option Legislation that the environmental wreckage cost will be paid by the wreckers (fossil fuel users) is law and implemented leaving zero risk.
#3 - 10 Find 40 people to put and keep their bodies on the line, in the way, until the totally, completely, absolutely failure-is-not-an-option Legislation that the environmental wreckage cost will be paid by the wreckers (fossil fuel users) is law and implemented leaving zero risk.
#11 Let me know, if I'm still lucid, and if they think I can do more good alive, fighting along side them, than by passing on, let me know.
Time:
Roughly 23 hours per day, tho closer to 19 per day until the solar panel starts working or I get a replacement. I have the battery, but so far the panel isn't working. Brian, those funds? Anyone else want to contribute? The 1-5 hours per day I'll be using the rest room, and repowering my laptop at various local places where I've found I can beg electrons, and be granted them, with good humor. Oh, and using my food-stamp card to get vitamin water and electrolytes (zero cal both) at the CVS 6 blocks away. If and when I need to be away from the Embassy doing library research, I'll do so.
Activities:
Day 1-3 - work
Day 4-8 - probably be pretty sick. Those are usually the worst days
Day 9-23 or so - probably pretty productive work time, though the heat is a wildcard
Day 24-35 work some days, just hang on others as the body fades
Day 36+ Wait, work, pray, doze, lose it, pass on
Work:
#1 Priority: Finish Book 1 - Global Warming's Death. Fast. Expected completion August 22nd.
#2 Priority: Upload audio book versions of both books. Expected completion August 26th.
#3 Priority: Rewrite as many as possible to focus on achieving a Maximum of 1.5 Degrees C by 2100, of IEA June Report, The Copenhagen Diagnosis (expansion as required); Plan B 3.0 to bring the Carbon Emissions part up to date - A. Where are we; B. What do we need to achieve by year by 2020 or 2025 to avert Hell and High Water, forever.
#4 ongoing priority: To some degree continue the news scan daily of carbon related news and update Tracking Plan B blog.
Help needed:
#1 Find 40 people to put and keep their bodies on the line, in the way, until the totally, completely, absolutely failure-is-not-an-option Legislation that the environmental wreckage cost will be paid by the wreckers (fossil fuel users) is law and implemented leaving zero risk.
#2 Find 40 people to put and keep their bodies on the line, in the way, until the totally, completely, absolutely failure-is-not-an-option Legislation that the environmental wreckage cost will be paid by the wreckers (fossil fuel users) is law and implemented leaving zero risk.
#3 - 10 Find 40 people to put and keep their bodies on the line, in the way, until the totally, completely, absolutely failure-is-not-an-option Legislation that the environmental wreckage cost will be paid by the wreckers (fossil fuel users) is law and implemented leaving zero risk.
#11 Let me know, if I'm still lucid, and if they think I can do more good alive, fighting along side them, than by passing on, let me know.
URGENT: Death Fast resumed 1314 today. It's time to Stop Talking, Stop Thinking, Start Loving
Brian, Ian, Joe, Cathy, SC...
It's time to Stop Talking, Stop Thinking (blogging, booking, planning, speaking, legislating....), and to Start Loving.
My intention last time was to be
physically mute from day one, minute one. I changed that, and that was
appropriate, then. Turns out, that 1st Death Fast was an
unviolent-weapons test. I learned.
Not this time. Neither with you,
or anyone else will I dialog, except on routine logistical stuff with my
beloved Secret Service, CVS clerks where I'll get zero cal electrolytes
and zero cal vitamin water, etc.... Zero. Zero. Did I mention, Zero?
The Creator is having some fun
with me. LOL. Internet is pretty much down throughout the city. I've
done a 20 min video log to you, and am transcribing it. When the
internet is back up that will be my final such outbound to you, or
anyone.
I will continue working as long as I am able. Those caring about my work will subscribe to my two blogs.
I care about all, hence what I've
done till now, the video log, this email, etc. Now what is needed is my
Death Fast, and silence.
Whether you listen to the video log deeply, and read the updated transcript, up to you. I've done my part.
As of now...
This is my last Goodbye. Know
that any and all personal contact with me or from me is not at an end.
If you wish to frustrate or hurt yourselves, don't believe me.
Loving, all
Ahh, the pedophile club: NY Catholic cardinal suing Obama on birth control invites president, Romney to ... Washington Post
| Washington Post - |
Dolan has asked both Obama
and presumptive Republican presidential nominee Mitt Romney to attend
the annual Alfred E. Smith Memorial Foundation charity dinner on Oct.
18, a spokesman for the Archdiocese of New York said Tuesday.
AdWatch: Romney's welfare ad relies on assumptions CBS News
CBS News -
WASHINGTON - TITLE: "Right Choice. LENGTH: 60 seconds. AIRING: Mitt Romney's campaign did not disclose where the ad is running.
Romney's starting his race to the bottom Chicago Sun-Times
Chicago Sun-Times -
BY
MARK BROWN markbrown@suntimes.com August 8, 2012 7:56AM Mitt Romney on
Tuesday reclaimed welfare as a central issue for Republicans this
campaign season based on a specious and cynical claim that President
Barack Obama has “dismantled” Clinton-era ...
8.07.2012
Obama, Romney battle for pro-coal mantle The Hill
The Hill (blog) -
President Obama's campaign hopes to flip the political script on Mitt Romney in Ohio - a coal-reliant battleground state - with an ad highlighting Romney's 2003 claim that a Massachusetts coal-fired power plant “kills people.” The new ad follows ...
“We never think we’re out of it,” US Women's Soccer
“We never think we’re out of it,” says Rapinoe. “We’re kind of like,
‘O.K., that just means we need to score another one.’ Huge heart, huge
fight on this team.”
nd Sincerity - Complete Subordination to the Truth
nd Sincerity - Complete Subordination to the Truth
3rd Month Romney's Billionaires Buy America
Bend Bulletin -
Highlighting the challenge for Obama,
Romney on Monday reported a July fundraising haul of more than $101
million along with the Republican National Committee, compared to the
$75 million that Obama's campaign said it had brought in along with the ...
Christ-likes: Chicago Sikhs react to shooting with education, prayer vigils Chicago Tribune
Chicago Tribune -
Candlelight
vigil for victims of Sikh temple shooting in Wisconsin at Palatine
Gurdwara in Palatine . (Scott Strazzante, Chicago Tribune) Reeling from
the weekend attack that left six worshippers and the gunman dead at a
suburban Milwaukee temple, ...
8.06.2012
nd 'It's a Life-wish I have, not Death. Life for my Family of 200 billion, yet to be born.' Loving
nd 'It's a Life-wish I have, not Death. Life for my Family of 200 billion, yet to be born.' Loving
Montana: Anti-coal protesters rip Land Board over rescheduling Casper Star-Tribune Online
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HELENA, Mont. - The Montana Land Board, accused by anti-coal activists of rescheduling its August meeting on Friday to avoid a weeklong protest in Helena later this month, quickly voted to advance a proposed state coal lease for an eastern Montana ...
READ THIS: Open Source, Free, Solar Power Entrepreneur
Forbes -
What makes Nelson noteworthy, beyond the solar power
technology he's invented, is that unlike most everyone else trying to
score in this market, Nelson's vision for success includes giving away
the technology for others to replicate and improve upon.
8.05.2012
By What Moral Authority they Ban Gay kids? Boy Scout files reveal repeat child abuse Washington Post
Washington Post -
LOS
ANGELES - Internal documents from the Boy Scouts of America reveal more
than 125 cases in which men suspected of molestation allegedly
continued to abuse Scouts, despite a blacklist meant to protect boys
from sexual predators.
Everyone not an 'extremist for Love,' (MLK) Sikh BLOOD's on your hands
USA TODAY -
At
least seven people were killed Sunday, including the suspected gunman,
when a man opened fire on worshipers at the Sikh Temple of Wisconsin in
Oak Creek, police said.
Pharaoh too was a denier: Harsh weather doesn't prove global warming, Republican lawmakers say The Hill
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And Republicans have said efforts to enact a cap-and-trade mandate would spike the nation's already high unemployment rate
Investors have said it all: US is still AAA to us CNNMoney
CNNMoney -
By
Hibah Yousuf August 5, 2012: 8:20 AM ET The United States lost its
pristine AAA credit rating a year ago today, but you wouldn't know it by
looking at the Treasury market.
nd Fact: Capitalism is Sanctioned, Open Warfare, Revered Lust Free-for-all as a cultural means of existence
nd Fact: Capitalism is Sanctioned, Open Warfare, Revered Lust Free-for-all as a cultural means of existence
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