Start, Wage, Loving: For Joy Serve Soul In Solidarity

6.13.2012

Friends, IMPORTANT - Those having difficulty, pain... with Loving's Death Fast...

Friends, IMPORTANT - Those having difficulty, pain... with Loving's Death Fast...

I've continued to take modest calories to finish the books, and this will continue till they, and the audio versions are done. I'll do a recount as to days when they are done, drop 2 days for every day I've taken calories from day 39 - I'm guessing the Death Fast Restart will be somewhere around day 10-17 or so, by that method - but whatever the math comes out to, tho I still look like day 30 or so. I hope to restart by early next week.

A real good draft of "Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You, a Personal Trainer," 1d, went out last night - Here, and for online browsing, and to interact with your Personal Trainer tool, here. The Personal Trainer tool should go out tonight, selected email, and blog posts. I desperately need your immediate input, but I know of only one, maybe three that show any intention of doing so - I'll take what I can get, soon, and or go with what I've got already.

As you know by now, I meant what I said day 1, "I can do my part perfectly well by myself. I do not need support (tho when it is what helps the campaign, I'll gladly accept it; but not if it interferes.) I'm sure that a Navy SEAL would say the same, and it would be true. And YOU, in that which you are most practiced and competent, again, it would be true of you. What I'm doing now I've been doing since my early 30's - it just looks different. I know the territory, I know me.

I also meant what I said on two other counts, day 1, in so many words, that are similar to each other:

1. I can't do what others would need to do as partners in this campaign -
qualified PR,
qualified Promotion,
Press,
securing those who will join;
and Securing an Injunction against violating my DNR, and Legal Advice regarding anyone that might either watch over me the final hours or days, or
take me to a place safe from Resuscitation if the Injunction doesn't come thru, and someone offers me a place to die).

2. I can't do what 1000 here on Death Fast can do. But I can do what I can do, my part, regardless, and I'll joyfully do that. I'm quite relieved that soon I can fully resume my most crucial part.

MY POINT:

Gandhi was emphatic. It is far harder on those with me, than on I, when I'm in prison, or on hunger strike.

This is fundamentally and profoundly true. Think of a movie where the central character is working to 'save the word.' Lot's of movies to choose from, right? Grade A, thru grade Z. We grimace, while watching, right? We ache. We hurt. But now think if the character. Do they? Think now. No.

It is much, infinitely harder on the bystanders, the onlookers - Hell for them; Heaven for the one trying to save the world.

THE SECOND YOU NEED TO HATE ME, VILIFY ME, COMPLETELY DISTANCE FROM ME (I'M GUESSING ALMOST ALL HAVE DONE SO BY NOW), BE ANGRY AT ME... DO IT. I'll love you no less, not one smidgen. I want you do do what you need to to get thru this ok.

BUT, ONE LAST POINT - A REPEAT - I CAN'T FIGHT ON TWO FRONTS. I AM UNABLE. SO, IF YOU WORK TO GET ME TO STOP; IF YOU WORK ON OTHERS ASSOCIATED, WORKING ON THE CAMPAIGN, LOBBYING TO GET ME TO STOP, OUR DIALOG, OUR RELATIONSHIP, WILL STOP. Out of anger? Out of hate? :) happy

Out of need. I will complete my part. I'll not fail you in that. And if terminating contact, fully, with you is necessary, that's what I'll do.

Loving u all

Book 2, final revision for your convenience 1d

Online read and Downloadable here: http://www.scribd.com/doc/95152089/Resurrecting-the-Insanely-Humane-Unviolent-Warrior-in-You-Fast-Draft-1d

Hi. about 25% of the essays are from book 1 - I hadn't proofed them - now I have.

I suggest you switch to the attached now, and if you've already made comments, suggestions, changes in a prior draft(s), just send me both(s)/all.

Soon I'll send you the personal trainer, and the very last part of the attached - last few pages on personal trainer will update, but not the 95 characteristics, except for your suggestions.

Loving

Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You. Fast. Draft 1d;

6.12.2012

2 vid segments of the Livestream Interview - from Hope

http://www.youtube.com/user/HopeForPeaceNow/videos

6.10.2012

Book 2 NEEDS your Review - Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in you

Book 2 NEEDS your Immediate Review - "Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in you. A Personal Trainer."

Here's the deal:

Of the 95 characteristics, 95 essays, you have about 91. Don't panic when you come to a blank page. I thought I had them done, can't find those files. Please, don't wait.
You'll find a thorough introduction to the trainer, and more than enough reading before I get the actual tool in your hands by mid week. I can't afford to lose any more blood to these mosquitoes tonight, so, by Wednesday.
Maybe only 30% of the Essays have the link to their corresponding video log. :-( . The videos are all up on yt chan StartLoving4, but the links will be incorporated in the next draft to you.

What is ahead?

Uh, NOTHING that should delay your reading, and return of major comments to me. Please. Hurry. Use word revisions if you have it. Otherwise, just, using whatever software you have, make the comments, changes, corrections right in the book, and send to me, I have compare software that will show me what you've done, I expect.

I haven't much time or energy left. Major, high impact items, and small edits that I missed. I don't want you to waste time. I can't assimilate a lot of major revisions, or small detail stuff. Just stuff that might not be to time consuming, and might make the content much more useful, or easier to read. BUT REMEMBER PLEASE: A. I want this in my voice, weirdisms and all. B. This is not, is not, is not... a mass market book. This is for the 2 in a million, 4 in a million, 8 in a million that are yearning to step up, and have maximal acceleration in doing so. If someone wants to make a similar item for a broader market, let's talk! But it will not be I that do it.

Yes, I'll be sending you a new Draft soon. Don't wait, please. Leave the burden on me if you get another revision and switch horses mid stream. Just roll, and I will too.

Please read this, give me your feedback, fast, because by mid-week also I expect to give you a much better draft 6 of Book 1 - Global Warming's Death. Fast.

FYI, also online http://trackingplanb.blogspot.com/p/book-2-resurrecting-insanely-humane.html

Well, that's all I've got strength for tonight, and I'm likely to be a little slow tomorrow.

Loving

6.09.2012

Looks like tomorrow, Sunday, night, book 2. Help?

Hi. I just couldn't clearly see the end of this book 2 project, but now I can. Barring any calamity, like being bled dry by these mosquitoes, or being too slow to escape threats like tonight's that I be arrested for using the same electrical outlets I've used all of the last 3 weekends (what was that about?), Sunday night, tomorrow night, you will receive a really solid Book 2 that I, the next 2000 generations desperately need you to read, deeply, and to make whatever strong, negative or positive comments that you think can have a major, constructive impact on the value of the book. All 96 essays, 96 character traits of history's effective, unviolent warriors, are 100% done, 6 are partial but need finishing touches, much or the preliminary credits, who is the book for, dedication... has been done. A huge portion remains, the spreadsheet based Personal daily Trainer, but I've given that much thought technically, design, function... so I expect it to roll out quickly.

A day or two later you'll receive book 1, I'm quite sure, including incorporation of the one set of detailed suggestions I received, from Brian. Draft 6, new dedication, new first essay targeted at Romm (Rome), Brown, Hansen, telling them among other things how they could save my life (Yes, literally. I'm entitled to a little gallows humor.)

I'm functioning very well, and this is likely to continue at least thru the end of this week. Can't project beyond that.

Those that do a detail read of both books, will have probably qualified themselves to see if they think the Death Fast as currently planned and executed, can be improved, thought thru, and in all likelihood any thoughtful, deep, deep from the heart replanning from and with such individuals can be monumentally important, to the next 2000 generations.

Confidentially, Hope has reported what may be a monumental step forward - Lester Brown's organization's plan to begin blogging on the Death Fast - the first real spine shown by any of the global warming leaders, ever, except for Hansen under Bush 2. Hasn't happened yet. Let's stay quiet on it, and see.

Loving

6.08.2012

Huh. No one told me it was Friday. Oh sh*#

I didn't realize till just now, so 6 hours of my 14 hours of battery life are locked in a coffee shop. Weekends I have to leave to power in the evenings anyway, so no huge deal, but if anyone sees me gone by mid afternoon tomorrow and sunday, that's the deal, I'm up sucking electrons.

If you don't have a really, really solid book 2 by sunday, I'll be really, really surprised. Am making great progress.

Loving

DF Day 30 - Is the LA Times makeing this up, or is someone helping them?

[IMPORTANT NOTE: I don't know what happened here. I don't. But it is sooooooooooo typical of what happens. So, I've chosen to put it out to you all, a massive risk (that the wrong people will misunderstand, and any perpetrator, if there is one, will use it for more mischief), but it has gotten to that point. And if there is no basis in Truth, whatsoever for my concerns expressed and implied below, it is still a Godsend of an opportunity to tune up on a rarely unseen, rarely escaped, almost ALWAYS encountered risk in organizations, in groups of people working together. And it kills worthy mission, after mission, after mission....]

To those that have had any direct contact with this campaign, as 'support,' requested or (usually) not, by me -

Judas, is that you? No, the point isn't that I'm Jesus. sadly, I'm not.

Where the Hell is LA Times getting this stuff? This headline-

Environmentalist ends his hunger strike, says mass strike better Los Angeles Times - 3 days ago. Environmental protester ends hunger strike at Canadian Embassy. ... the name Start Loving, is still camped out at the embassy, protesting the ...

Uh, I never, EVER, EVER HAD EVEN THE THOUGHT I was ending it. I never SAID, or WROTE to ANYONE, that I was ending it. Hmmmm. '50% chance that in the coming weeks I could see a faster way of getting the 1000 here...' is what I said, and what I've written.

It ain't me that's giving them this stuff, and I'm the only one that has fully joined this campaign, so by definition, I'm the only one that could author it, in Truth.

The only other two authorized to EVER speak FOR this campaign to the press, or to anyone, per a prior email of several weeks ago are Brian and Hope, and I'm certain that they haven't and wouldn't make something like this up. They are deliberate, not careless, and I don't recall ever seeing significant ego in them. I'm TOTALLY certain they are not authoring this falacious stuff.

It is possible that LA Times just makes it up, possible; horrifying, but possible - they are one of less than 5 publications I've found over the years that at all values the truth. Are they too now just infotainment? The 1st article and then this, 75% of the stuff I don't recognize, sure didn't come from me, from the writing, the blogs, the book... from the extensive interviews.... HOWEVER, IT IS TOTALLY NOT MY RIGHT TO DICTATE OR EVEN TRY TO CONTROL WHAT THEY SAY. I RESPECT THAT BOUNDARY WITH THE PRESS. Will I have any more to say to them after this? I don't know.

But did they really make all this up, or is there a 2nd grade ego at play here, someone not authorized to speak FOR the vigil that is making stuff up for some grotesque ego gratification? I don't sense malice, but this would be excellent malice, too. But I don't sense malice. 2nd grade ego run amuck. Some of this has 2nd grade ego written all over it. Someone failing to do important work themselves, desperately wanting attention, to be important... and essentially, stealing a spotlight generated by the radically committed, disciplined, mature, responsible work of another(s).

LET ME BE CLEAR:

1. I have absolutely no moral right to tell anyone in the world what they can and can't say about this Death Fast, me, my writing, environmental science, US policy.....

EXCEPT.....

2. I have the total, complete, absolute moral right, thus far, as the only person that has fully joined, and conducted 92% of the cumulative work of this campaign, from years of conceptual work to 24hrs/day for 50 days now... to author what is said FOR the vigil, and to authorize who may or may not speak FOR the vigil - Brian and Hope.

AND....

3. I have the complete moral right to declare (what anyone with conscience or morality, operating above a 2nd grade level of maturity shouldn't have to be told) - you don't get to straddle the fence - IF YOU CHOOSE TO IN ANY WAY ASSOCIATE YOURSELF WITH THE CAMPAIGN, YOU WILL NOT SPEAK 'FOR' OR 'OF' (OR OF, OR OF, OR OF...) THE CAMPAIGN, UNLESS:
A. YOU ARE AUTHORIZED TO DO SO (just Brian and Hope thus far have earned that right, and myself), AND
B. YOU SPEAK EXACTLY WHAT HAS BEEN AUTHORIZED BY MUTUAL PRIOR DISCUSSION WITH ME (EXCEPT FOR THE LICENSE GRANTED BY ME FOR EXPEDIENCY EARNED BY THE CARE AND DUE DILIGENCE OF HOPE AND BRIAN), AND OR WITH STRICT, COMPLETE, ABSOLUTE ADHERENCE TO WHAT I'VE PRIOR WRITTEN OR EXPLICITLY WRITTEN.

For God's sake, is there really someone(s) that thinks this is some toy, this Death Fast, this campaign, the massive, disciplined, responsible effort that not they but another(s) have put into this, but in this the most crucial issue ever to face humanity, that thinks that this is some toy they can play with to gratify their own ego? My God, I hope not. My God, but that is so typical of the post 60's activist club, let's play 'activist' mentality, ultimately playing now with the lives of 200 billion? Wow.

For God's sake.

IF THERE IS ANYONE TO WHOM THIS APPLIES GET WITH THE PROGRAM, NOW, OR TOTALLY, AND COMPLETELY DISASSOCIATE YOURSELF FROM IT, NOW. NOW. IF THIS APPLIES TO ANYONE, CEASE AND DESIST, OR TOTALLY DISASSOCIATE YOURSELF FROM THIS CAMPAIGN, NOW, AND IF THEN YOU WANT TO AGGRESSIVELY TORPEDO ME, THE DEATH FAST, OR ANY FACET OF IT, I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY. BUT BEING AT ALL ON THE INSIDE AND USING IT AS SOME EGO OBJECT? MY GOD.

Loving

6.07.2012

Day 29 - Rollback Ended, GW Death Fast Resumed

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f491zSygqTc

6.06.2012

Day 31 Death Fast report - Taking Calories is taking away 1/3 of every day

Sleep, sleep.... sleep. Argh. I've been sure of this for some time, it is far easier, far less effort for the body to feed off of itself than to feed off of external calories.

20 essays left to proof read, then about 5 more essays to shoot, transcirbe, proof. Then the fairly arduous task of pulling it all together and getting the Personal Trainer right in layout, content and technology.

I'm going as fast as I can. Gaia is not changing her time frames, she's not slowing on my account.

Yesterday I skyped for 45 minutes with a middle school in Wisconsin, a teacher that years ago met me, was impressed by my journey and work, at the 32 year White House Vigil Thomas started. Gutsy guy, says the class was deeply, deeply impacted. John has set up an hour skype interview with an off-main-stream news outlet tonight.

Hope has come from California to work on the books, any replanning of the Death Fast, media, interviews, video....

Loving

6.05.2012

Day 33 Death Fast Roll Back - Update

In book two, unlike with one, I'm doing a full read thru edit to make it easier on you. That should be finished today. Barring any unforeseen roadblocks I expect to pull together the Personal Trainer part, and forward, etc, by Wed or Thursday, and send the draft to you, praying for a fast but deep read and comments, suggestions.

Then, I expect to take Brian's edits of book 1, the only ones I received, and do the final edit that book 1 will receive, and send that to you.

If I get lucky tech wise, I think I see how to make both books into audio books, a format that some groups only use.

Also, so all during this week, the above, I also, having received some authoritative input on my assumptions regarding the timeframes of Environmental Armageddon, I am hoping to secure some pointers to further articles from my source that can help me understand the view that I was offered as to what more accurately the risk curves look like. As of now, my views have not changed, but I'm open to the new input if I can get it.

REMINDER, as I conclude the above later this week I expect, the Death Fast will resume. I'll take calories till then, but cease, and resume the Death Fast. -

YOUR HELP IS NEEDED. When the above is concluded, per recent posts on the SL Blg blog,

I am considering how to move forward. Please review those last 6 or so posts. I NEED YOU IN THE REPLANNING, I NEED YOUR INPUT, however for it to be qualified, input, and I can't accept anything other than that, 1st of all from myself, it will be required that anyone wishing to contribute to the replanning:

A. Have deeply read and grasped all the content of Book 1.

B. Have deeply grasped and seriously attempted to use, the Personal Trainer, Book 2

I won't have a lot of time. Tho I am rolling back the day count 1 to 2 days per day that I'm taking calories, that is aggressive, so when I restart, I physically and mentally won't have a whole lot of time for replanning, so I pray that you are ready for book 2, are NOW spending the time to grasp book 1, and will ready to contribute late this week.

Loving

6.03.2012

'Loving, this Death Fast mission is the cornerstone of the Great Turning; Jesus work.' Occupy Brother

'Loving, this Death Fast mission is the cornerstone of the Great Turning; Jesus work.' Occupy Brother to me yesterday, Saturday. Paraphrase. And if I misquote I apologize.

Since I've been in DC these 8 years or so it has been one day more shocking and horrifying than the prior day as to how hopeless what calls itself activism, religion, humanity., US democracy... is. Totally unexpected. Totally horrifying. Totally consistent... with some recent exceptions, slivers of hope in DC (and HOPE in California). Over the last 9 months there have been two, and recently a trickle more folks, after a drought of 8 years, that give me some hope, in DC Occupy, McPherson. One of the two, visited me briefly yesterday, Saturday, bringing me some Ensure, and electrolytes, and Love, and now clear respect for my need to remain in 'Isolation' to complete my part of the work.

But we spoke briefly, and I paraphrase - 'Loving, this Death Fast mission is the cornerstone of the Great Turning; Jesus work.' If I miss-quote the idea, I apologize.

This too is my view. I cry, I weep at the thought of it, the awe, the worry, the overwhelming emotion. This Death Fast, what it represents, the strategy it is part of (read the 4 Waves of Death Fast before we are done, here, PAGE 28, hurry).

Why is this it? Because it is, and if you read this essay, and the book more broadly, you'll see it.

But the reason for this note, this morning - the Personal Trainer in final stages of compilation now, as I review it, AS I SUBMIT TO IT, USE IT, AS I AM NOW, JESUS IS CHEERING. GANDHI IS CHEERING. MLK JR IS CHEERING.

One of my great horrors, heartbreaks, despairs is: "Jesus death took away our sins." Oh my God, the horror, the deadliness of these perverted notions is, well, Genocide, extinction of the species if we don't finally get past them. Jesus DEATH DIDN'T TAKE AWAY OUR SINS, OUR 'ERRORS.' HIS DEATH BLAZED THE WAY FOR US TO DO S0 - HE SHOWED US, REMINDED US WHY WE ARE HERE - TO SERVE, TO MARCH TO THE DANGER, TO THE NEED, TO THE EMERGENCY, NOT FLEE IT. THIS IS OUR CROSS, OUR BANQUET!!!, OUR FEAST!!!! (NO, I REALLY MEAN IT, OUR JOY, WHY WE ARE HERE) OUR REASON FOR BEING!!!!! WHAT COULD BE MORE WONDERFUL?

We have 200 billion live in our hands, right now, this second, this year, and then their fate is sealed. There is no way we can wash our hands of this.

"If you Love me, you will do greater works than these, because I go on to the Creator (and you have more time here to work, to learn, to stand on My shoulders, to build, to go beyond what I've shared with you).

This, now, today is the time of Armageddon. What is unclear of Armageddon is, how it will play out:

A. Do we allow it to be the time of the last and final destruction, that we unleash on our children, grandchildren, greatgrandchildren... for the next 2000 generations, or,

B. Do we make it the TIME OF THE FINAL DESTRUCTION OF THE REIGN OF HEAD/FLESH OVER HEART, OF GREED OVER LOVING, OF ENMITY OVER SISTERHOOD/BROTHERHOOD/UNIVERSAL FAMILY; OF ALL OUT WAR OF CONSTRUCTION REPLACING THE UP TILL NOW ALL OUT WAR ON CREATION - RAPING AND PLUNDERING OUR MOTHER EARTH, GAIA, AND OUR NEEDIEST BROTHERS?

And, what outcome is your life dedicated to, (because it is)? "We are all extremists. Are you an an extremist of hate, or an extremist of Love?" MLK Jr paraphrase.

Global Warming's Death. Fast.

Resurrecting the Inanely Human Unviolent Warrior in You - A Personal Trainer.

Loving u

Friends - Anyone wishing to input into Death Fast Replanning...

Good morning.

An obvious oversight to last evening's note - Anyone wishing to input into any Death Fast replanning as introduced below, to be at all qualified, would need to have read for deep, deep understanding and grasp, not only the forthcoming book 2, "Resurrecting the Insanely Human Unviolent Warrior in You," but also the recently released book 1, "Global Warming's Death. Fast. Till enough are seen dying for it, global warming won't stop," available here.

----- Forwarded Message -----
From: Start Loving <start_loving@yahoo.com>
To: Loving [Start] <start_loving@yahoo.com>
Sent: Saturday, June 2, 2012 7:34 PM
Subject: Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast

I'm holding on day 38, taking half ration calories so I can think again, and finish book 2, and maybe replan.

I expected zero interest, as that is what I've had on every campaign since the Darfur campaign 5 years ago. Yet:

* The world's leading activist, Diane Wilson, endorsed the book 1, "Global Warming's Death. Fast.", and by implication, applauded the Death Fast weapon.

* There has been interest, from my friends and Family in Occupy DC since day 1, AND IT SEEMS TO BE MATURING, AS ACTIVISTS SHOW RAPID MATURING, BY THE DAY.

* Hope and Brian have really invested themselves near full-time on getting up to speed on the details of the campaign, issues... approaching true partnership. Two others are showing some inclinations to move in that direction as well.

* There has been an international article, thanks Brian, LA Times, and also Chicago Trib, Vancouver, International Hispanic....

* Hope penetrated Earth Policy Institute and they took an endorsing stand - Lester Brown's group, Plan B 3.0.

* It appears that with fiery passion, clear vision, deep wisdom and humanity, someone is near joining the Death Fast, but with a question about optimal timing....

What does this mean for the current Death Fast? I don't know yet. I'd rather not decide in a vaccuum, but this is way to advanced for input from those that are not yet equipped, in my view.

Book 2, Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You - a Personal Trainer, is soon to be completed. It is a much more challenging book to write, and to use, than the first, so it is going slower than I anticipated, but coming along well. It so happens, that anyone that reads it in DETAIL, and uses the tool a few times deeply, would in my eyes, be qualified to provide useful input to me as to what Loving should do now to best serve humanity - A. Resume the Death Fast when the book is written (the current 80% probability), or B. Consider leveraging the points above and moving from this Death Fast, into recruiting mode for one to begin in about 6 months? or C. ?

As soon as the book 2 is sent to you in a better edited draft from me than book 1, 2-4 days from now, I'll resume the Death Fast, currently holding at day 38. But I'll be plenty lucid for another 3-6 days for review of incoming major issue/suggestion edits from EACH of you I pray, and for those who do so, and who indicate that they are seriously using the Trainer, I'll invite them to submit input/join in a discussion of how Loving, and the Death Fast, should go forward.

Loving

6.02.2012

Day 38 Holding. Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast