6.06.2012
Day 31 Death Fast report - Taking Calories is taking away 1/3 of every day
Day 31 Death Fast report - Taking Calories is taking away 1/3 of every day Sleep, sleep.... sleep. Argh. I've been sure of this for some time, it is far easier, far less effort for the body to feed off of itself than to feed off of external calories. 20 essays left to proof read, then about 5 more essays to shoot, transcirbe, proof. Then the fairly arduous task of pulling it all together and getting the Personal Trainer right in layout, content and technology. I'm going as fast as I can. Gaia is not changing her time frames, she's not slowing on my account. Yesterday I skyped for 45 minutes with a middle school in Wisconsin, a teacher that years ago met me, was impressed by my journey and work, at the 32 year White House Vigil Thomas started. Gutsy guy, says the class was deeply, deeply impacted. John has set up an hour skype interview with an off-main-stream news outlet tonight. Hope has come from California to work on the books, any replanning of the Death Fast, media, interviews, video.... Loving |
6.05.2012
Day 33 Death Fast Roll Back - Update
In book two, unlike with one, I'm doing a full read thru edit to make it easier on you. That should be finished today. Barring any unforeseen roadblocks I expect to pull together the Personal Trainer part, and forward, etc, by Wed or Thursday, and send the draft to you, praying for a fast but deep read and comments, suggestions.
Then, I expect to take Brian's edits of book 1, the only ones I received, and do the final edit that book 1 will receive, and send that to you.
If I get lucky tech wise, I think I see how to make both books into audio books, a format that some groups only use.
Also, so all during this week, the above, I also, having received some authoritative input on my assumptions regarding the timeframes of Environmental Armageddon, I am hoping to secure some pointers to further articles from my source that can help me understand the view that I was offered as to what more accurately the risk curves look like. As of now, my views have not changed, but I'm open to the new input if I can get it.
REMINDER, as I conclude the above later this week I expect, the Death Fast will resume. I'll take calories till then, but cease, and resume the Death Fast. -
YOUR HELP IS NEEDED. When the above is concluded, per recent posts on the SL Blg blog,
- 'Loving, this Death Fast mission is the cornerstone of the Great Turning; Jesus work.' Occupy Brother (0 comments)
- Friends - Anyone wishing to input into Death Fast Replanning... (0 comments)
- Day 38 Holding. Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast (0 comments)
- Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast (0 comments)
- 1000 on Death Fast. Is the fastest road to that: A, or B. (0 comments)
- I've just stepped back, 1st time, to look at Book 2 - Resurrecting Potent Activism (0 comments)
- Death Fast Day 39 - partial hold till book are done (0 comments)
I am considering how to move forward. Please review those last 6 or so posts. I NEED YOU IN THE REPLANNING, I NEED YOUR INPUT, however for it to be qualified, input, and I can't accept anything other than that, 1st of all from myself, it will be required that anyone wishing to contribute to the replanning:
A. Have deeply read and grasped all the content of Book 1.
B. Have deeply grasped and seriously attempted to use, the Personal Trainer, Book 2
I won't have a lot of time. Tho I am rolling back the day count 1 to 2 days per day that I'm taking calories, that is aggressive, so when I restart, I physically and mentally won't have a whole lot of time for replanning, so I pray that you are ready for book 2, are NOW spending the time to grasp book 1, and will ready to contribute late this week.
Loving
6.03.2012
'Loving, this Death Fast mission is the cornerstone of the Great Turning; Jesus work.' Occupy Brother
'Loving, this Death Fast mission is the cornerstone of the Great Turning; Jesus work.' Occupy Brother to me yesterday, Saturday. Paraphrase. And if I misquote I apologize.
Since I've been in DC these 8 years or so it has been one day more shocking and horrifying than the prior day as to how hopeless what calls itself activism, religion, humanity., US democracy... is. Totally unexpected. Totally horrifying. Totally consistent... with some recent exceptions, slivers of hope in DC (and HOPE in California). Over the last 9 months there have been two, and recently a trickle more folks, after a drought of 8 years, that give me some hope, in DC Occupy, McPherson. One of the two, visited me briefly yesterday, Saturday, bringing me some Ensure, and electrolytes, and Love, and now clear respect for my need to remain in 'Isolation' to complete my part of the work.
But we spoke briefly, and I paraphrase - 'Loving, this Death Fast mission is the cornerstone of the Great Turning; Jesus work.' If I miss-quote the idea, I apologize.
This too is my view. I cry, I weep at the thought of it, the awe, the worry, the overwhelming emotion. This Death Fast, what it represents, the strategy it is part of (read the 4 Waves of Death Fast before we are done, here, PAGE 28, hurry).
Why is this it? Because it is, and if you read this essay, and the book more broadly, you'll see it.
But the reason for this note, this morning - the Personal Trainer in final stages of compilation now, as I review it, AS I SUBMIT TO IT, USE IT, AS I AM NOW, JESUS IS CHEERING. GANDHI IS CHEERING. MLK JR IS CHEERING.
One of my great horrors, heartbreaks, despairs is: "Jesus death took away our sins." Oh my God, the horror, the deadliness of these perverted notions is, well, Genocide, extinction of the species if we don't finally get past them. Jesus DEATH DIDN'T TAKE AWAY OUR SINS, OUR 'ERRORS.' HIS DEATH BLAZED THE WAY FOR US TO DO S0 - HE SHOWED US, REMINDED US WHY WE ARE HERE - TO SERVE, TO MARCH TO THE DANGER, TO THE NEED, TO THE EMERGENCY, NOT FLEE IT. THIS IS OUR CROSS, OUR BANQUET!!!, OUR FEAST!!!! (NO, I REALLY MEAN IT, OUR JOY, WHY WE ARE HERE) OUR REASON FOR BEING!!!!! WHAT COULD BE MORE WONDERFUL?
We have 200 billion live in our hands, right now, this second, this year, and then their fate is sealed. There is no way we can wash our hands of this.
"If you Love me, you will do greater works than these, because I go on to the Creator (and you have more time here to work, to learn, to stand on My shoulders, to build, to go beyond what I've shared with you).
This, now, today is the time of Armageddon. What is unclear of Armageddon is, how it will play out:
A. Do we allow it to be the time of the last and final destruction, that we unleash on our children, grandchildren, greatgrandchildren... for the next 2000 generations, or,
B. Do we make it the TIME OF THE FINAL DESTRUCTION OF THE REIGN OF HEAD/FLESH OVER HEART, OF GREED OVER LOVING, OF ENMITY OVER SISTERHOOD/BROTHERHOOD/UNIVERSAL FAMILY; OF ALL OUT WAR OF CONSTRUCTION REPLACING THE UP TILL NOW ALL OUT WAR ON CREATION - RAPING AND PLUNDERING OUR MOTHER EARTH, GAIA, AND OUR NEEDIEST BROTHERS?
And, what outcome is your life dedicated to, (because it is)? "We are all extremists. Are you an an extremist of hate, or an extremist of Love?" MLK Jr paraphrase.
Loving u
Friends - Anyone wishing to input into Death Fast Replanning...
Good morning.
An obvious oversight to last evening's note - Anyone wishing to input into any Death Fast replanning as introduced below, to be at all qualified, would need to have read for deep, deep understanding and grasp, not only the forthcoming book 2, "Resurrecting the Insanely Human Unviolent Warrior in You," but also the recently released book 1, "Global Warming's Death. Fast. Till enough are seen dying for it, global warming won't stop," available here.
----- Forwarded Message -----
From: Start Loving <start_loving@yahoo.com>
To: Loving [Start] <start_loving@yahoo.com>
Sent: Saturday, June 2, 2012 7:34 PM
Subject: Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast
From: Start Loving <start_loving@yahoo.com>
To: Loving [Start] <start_loving@yahoo.com>
Sent: Saturday, June 2, 2012 7:34 PM
Subject: Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast
I'm holding on day 38, taking half ration calories so I can think again, and finish book 2, and maybe replan.
I expected zero interest, as that is what I've had on every campaign since the Darfur campaign 5 years ago. Yet:
* The world's leading activist, Diane Wilson, endorsed the book 1, "Global Warming's Death. Fast.", and by implication, applauded the Death Fast weapon.
* There has been interest, from my friends and Family in Occupy DC since day 1, AND IT SEEMS TO BE MATURING, AS ACTIVISTS SHOW RAPID MATURING, BY THE DAY.
* Hope and Brian have really invested themselves near full-time on getting up to speed on the details of the campaign, issues... approaching true partnership. Two others are showing some inclinations to move in that direction as well.
* There has been an international article, thanks Brian, LA Times, and also Chicago Trib, Vancouver, International Hispanic....
* Hope penetrated Earth Policy Institute and they took an endorsing stand - Lester Brown's group, Plan B 3.0.
* It appears that with fiery passion, clear vision, deep wisdom and humanity, someone is near joining the Death Fast, but with a question about optimal timing....
What does this mean for the current Death Fast? I don't know yet. I'd rather not decide in a vaccuum, but this is way to advanced for input from those that are not yet equipped, in my view.
Book 2, Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You - a Personal Trainer, is soon to be completed. It is a much more challenging book to write, and to use, than the first, so it is going slower than I anticipated, but coming along well. It so happens, that anyone that reads it in DETAIL, and uses the tool a few times deeply, would in my eyes, be qualified to provide useful input to me as to what Loving should do now to best serve humanity - A. Resume the Death Fast when the book is written (the current 80% probability), or B. Consider leveraging the points above and moving from this Death Fast, into recruiting mode for one to begin in about 6 months? or C. ?
As soon as the book 2 is sent to you in a better edited draft from me than book 1, 2-4 days from now, I'll resume the Death Fast, currently holding at day 38. But I'll be plenty lucid for another 3-6 days for review of incoming major issue/suggestion edits from EACH of you I pray, and for those who do so, and who indicate that they are seriously using the Trainer, I'll invite them to submit input/join in a discussion of how Loving, and the Death Fast, should go forward.
Loving
6.02.2012
Day 38 Holding. Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast
I'm holding on day 38, taking half ration calories so I can think again, and finish book 2, and maybe replan.
I expected zero interest, as that is what I've had on every campaign since the Darfur campaign 5 years ago. Yet:
* The world's leading activist, Diane Wilson, endorsed the book 1, "Global Warming's Death. Fast.", and by implication, applauded the Death Fast weapon.
* There has been interest, from my friends and Family in Occupy DC since day 1, AND IT SEEMS TO BE MATURING, AS ACTIVISTS SHOW RAPID MATURING, BY THE DAY.
* Hope and Brian have really invested themselves near full-time on getting up to speed on the details of the campaign, issues... approaching true partnership. Two others are showing some inclinations to move in that direction as well.
* There has been an international article, thanks Brian, LA Times, and also Chicago Trib, Vancouver, International Hispanic....
* Hope penetrated Earth Policy Institute and they took an endorsing stand - Lester Brown's group, Plan B 3.0.
* It appears that with fiery passion, clear vision, deep wisdom and humanity, someone is near joining the Death Fast, but with a question about optimal timing....
What does this mean for the current Death Fast? I don't know yet. I'd rather not decide in a vaccuum, but this is way to advanced for input from those that are not yet equipped, in my view.
Book 2, Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You - a Personal Trainer, is soon to be completed. It is a much more challenging book to write, and to use, than the first, so it is going slower than I anticipated, but coming along well. It so happens, that anyone that reads it in DETAIL, and uses the tool a few times deeply, would in my eyes, be qualified to provide useful input to me as to what Loving should do now to best serve humanity - A. Resume the Death Fast when the book is written (the current 80% probability), or B. Consider leveraging the points above and moving from this Death Fast, into recruiting mode for one to begin in about 6 months? or C. ?
As soon as the book 2 is sent to you in a better edited draft from me than book 1, 2-4 days from now, I'll resume the Death Fast, currently holding at day 38. But I'll be plenty lucid for another 3-6 days for review of incoming major issue/suggestion edits from EACH of you I pray, and for those who do so, and who indicate that they are seriously using the Trainer, I'll invite them to submit input/join in a discussion of how Loving, and the Death Fast, should go forward.
Loving
Friends, IMPORTANT - Planning from here forward of Death Fast
I'm holding on day 38, taking half ration calories so I can think again, and finish book 2, and maybe replan.
I expected zero interest, as that is what I've had on every campaign since the Darfur campaign 5 years ago. Yet:
* The world's leading activist, Diane Wilson, endorsed the book 1, "Global Warming's Death. Fast.", and by implication, applauded the Death Fast weapon.
* There has been interest, from my friends and Family in Occupy DC since day 1, AND IT SEEMS TO BE MATURING, AS ACTIVISTS SHOW RAPID MATURING, BY THE DAY.
* Hope and Brian have really invested themselves near full-time on getting up to speed on the details of the campaign, issues... approaching true partnership. Two others are showing some inclinations to move in that direction as well.
* There has been an international article, thanks Brian, LA Times, and also Chicago Trib, Vancouver, International Hispanic....
* Hope penetrated Earth Policy Institute and they took an endorsing stand - Lester Brown's group, Plan B 3.0.
* It appears that with fiery passion, clear vision, deep wisdom and humanity, someone is near joining the Death Fast, but with a question about optimal timing....
What does this mean for the current Death Fast? I don't know yet. I'd rather not decide in a vaccuum, but this is way to advanced for input from those that are not yet equipped, in my view.
Book 2, Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior in You - a Personal Trainer, is soon to be completed. It is a much more challenging book to write, and to use, than the first, so it is going slower than I anticipated, but coming along well. It so happens, that anyone that reads it in DETAIL, and uses the tool a few times deeply, would in my eyes, be qualified to provide useful input to me as to what Loving should do now to best serve humanity - A. Resume the Death Fast when the book is written (the current 80% probability), or B. Consider leveraging the points above and moving from this Death Fast, into recruiting mode for one to begin in about 6 months? or C. ?
As soon as the book 2 is sent to you in a better edited draft from me than book 1, 2-4 days from now, I'll resume the Death Fast, currently holding at day 38. But I'll be plenty lucid for another 3-6 days for review of incoming major issue/suggestion edits from EACH of you I pray, and for those who do so, and who indicate that they are seriously using the Trainer, I'll invite them to submit input/join in a discussion of how Loving, and the Death Fast, should go forward.
Loving
1000 on Death Fast. Is the fastest road to that: A, or B.
Till enough are seen dying for it Global Warming won't stop. This is the answer.
The question, how to make that happen the fastest.
1000 on Death Fast. Is the fastest road to that:
A. Loving's Death Now as a tool for others to use to fan the flames?
B. Loving and others (???) recruiting, promoting, full time, beginning soon, traveling (???) for a larger restart, here in front of the Embassy, in, oh, say, January?
This is a question that has recently been raised to me. It is somewhat rhetorical, but, if there were any deeply responsible thoughts that any of you had, I'd be open to hearing them.
Loving
I've just stepped back, 1st time, to look at Book 2 - Resurrecting Potent Activism
I've just stepped back, 1st time, to look at Book 2 - Resurrecting the Insanely Humane Warrior in you... a Personal Trainer. (Title still in flux).
I was worried as I began to do so, too long? Missed the point?
Bulls-eye.
I can only think of two person that are at all likely to use it every day, to be what the world needs them to be, but I think of another two who I know that just may, and over time, there may be others. Everything now depends on moving from 1 in a million of us that are Insanely Humane Warriors, to 2 in a million, 3... and those wanna-bees that learn of this book will be accelerated at light speed by it.
What others do is not my business, just what I do, and in finishing this Personal Trainer I will have provided what nowhere else exists, a Personal Trainer capable of condensing what took me decades to learn and become, onto weeks and months.
The slightly updated first pages attached. The draft of the rest - I can't tell - tomorrow? Monday? Tuesday? I can't tell how long it will take me to pull it all together.
Loving
Death Fast Day 39 - partial hold till book are done
Unless I consume moderate calories the books will not get done.
The books must get done.
I'll be taking roughly half rations, about 800 calories per day until the books are done. Weight loss will continue, but moderated, and my mind and strength should stay sharp and strong enough to finish.
Loving
6.01.2012
Headed into Exhaustian, Very Fragile mode. Need your compliance.
Headed into Exhaustion, Very Fragile mode. Need your compliance.
Dozens, and dozens, and dozens of times throughout my life I've executed missions successfully exactly like this one, just different. It is territory I know like the back of my hand.
You may think that now I need lots of support, and that is true, but not what you think. More than ever, with the exception of Brian, Hope, and one other who has committed in an important way to partner in the campaign, and will visit with me Sunday, I need SPACE, that you have acceded to in recent days.
My energy, powers of focus, etc are waning, but that's par for the course. IF you continue to comply with my wishes and allow the uninterrupted seclusion I need, I'll be able to do my part.
I will not allow interference with the mission, especially now that I'm entering a very very depleted, fragile zone for me.
As Brian and Hope know, I am TOTALLY available to the press, serious interviews, potential Death Fasters - and entirely functional in that regard. That's the point, what I have left WILL complete the books, and WILL meet the needs of the mission, and I'll not allow that to be interfered with.
BTW, I dragged all my stuff up hill just now to a power outlet so I can recharge and complete working on the book. Expect to be back on site by 1 or 2 am Sat am.
BTW, Finnis newspaper, 800000 readers, came for a photo shoot, 30 min today.
ALSO, a Canadian woman stopped by, is doing my portrait, said the story is in the Vancouver Press. Thanks Brian.
Loving you all
Day 38 Death Fast status report
Audio on 21 of the previously uploaded video logs was incapable of being electronically transcribed, and I just don't have the speed, and strength, if I ever did, to manually transcribe them all So I re-shot all 21 this morning, argh, and they are uploading now, and the transcriptions are moving ahead.
It seems that despite my best efforts, not 
, I haven't totally done my part yet of driving everyone away. Thank goodness. Not totally anyway, yet. John, of Occupy DC, the one of strong heart, unwillingness to turn away from decency no matter what, brought me electrolytes and some other equipment I'll need as the end draws near here. A number of you have sent encouraging emails while affirming recognition, as John did, my need for total solitude to finish the books, granting me the freedom to not reply. Thank you, friends and Family.
, I haven't totally done my part yet of driving everyone away. Thank goodness. Not totally anyway, yet. John, of Occupy DC, the one of strong heart, unwillingness to turn away from decency no matter what, brought me electrolytes and some other equipment I'll need as the end draws near here. A number of you have sent encouraging emails while affirming recognition, as John did, my need for total solitude to finish the books, granting me the freedom to not reply. Thank you, friends and Family.I'm very tired. I'm very weak. I'm very, very, very thankful for this mission. This is why I was born. I knew it, from my earliest memories, not the exact 'what,' but the nature and magnitude of it. I knew I was here to try to help, all of humanity. To many I've appeared crazy for decades. I knew what I was called to race toward, hopefully, in time. Ultimately, this was it, tho I've done a lot of other important, consequential, large magnitude good along the way. But this Death Fast, these books, ultimately this is why I was put on Earth. I've been preparing, and I am fully, Joyfully, ably, capably ready to do my final parts. Thank the Creator. Inexpressible joy and gratitude to be doing my part.
But I can't do anyone else's.
And humanity is irredeemably doomed if others don't join. Now. Forever.
5.31.2012
Status Update - Death Fast Day 36 - Canadian Embassy, DC
Thank the Creator, with the exception of maybe an hour or so per day, I remain sharp and sufficiently strong, uh, barely.
Thanks to friends at Occupy DC I've made it to day 37 relatively in tact, funcitonal, and I'm fairly sure now, able to get the books completed sufficiently. Wouldn't have been possible without them. But I'm operating now at about 50% of normal capacity, haven't a fraction of the powers of focus I've enjoyed throughout my life, hence I've placed myself in isolation so the work can get finished.
Thanks to Brian, and a good hearted soul at my preferred US Newspaper, an article appeared yesterday in the LA Times - http://www.latimes.com/news/nation/nationnow/la-na-nn-hunger-striker-20120530,0,4694549,full.story . Despite the astonishing riggor, wisdom, discipline of this wonderful writer, I'm gussing editors removed much from his story that is what the Death Fast is really about, to make it more like all the others, so you can't learn much about it, other than the dates and stuff, from the article. But all that matters on Earth right now, is that if there are 1000 people in the US that Love Humanity more than they Love their own life, that they come and join the Death Fast, now. And they can't very well do that if they don't know of it, so this LA Times article is a Godsend, thanks to Brian and the writer. THANK YOU.
Thanks to Hope, my sister from California, coming here soon to help hands on, Lester Brown, Plan B 3.0 has given a postitive mention on their site (?) - See end of this email. HUGE HOPE!
The Book 2, inspired by my glimmerings of hope for Occupy DC, that they can grow to be a hope for themselves and for their world, the transcriptions should be finished today - a Draft 1 should be forthcoming tomorrow. I PRAY, IF THERE REMAINS ANYONE I'VE NOT YET TOTALLY DRIVEN AWAY, that you immediately read the draft and provide top level comments, major suggestions, major input. Use Word revisions if you have it, and if not, just make the comments, suggestions, changes in the text and two 'compare' programs should be able to find them.
The first several pages are attached. Please read them, now. Send any comments with a clear subject line about the book, pls.
I have an electricity arrangement with a local store from whom I picked up bread for the homeless, for years. I can quickly walk up with a dead laptop, leave it to charge, while I return and use the other. Last night I was being interviewed by Occupy I (?) and missed their close time so I bundled up all my stuff (leaving the water, HEAVY, under a bench, and went to an outdoor receptical elsewhere in the city. Was back by midnight).
Have placed myself in total seclusion for as many days as it takes until the book is done. I've requested no visitors but the press, anyone doing interviews, interested 1st time visitors, or either of the two individuals (one coming now from California) that I've named elsewhere, that have repeatedly shown devotion to the mission of the Death Fast. in whole, and in detail, have gotten themselves up to speed, are staying in lockstep with me, with great and obviously necessary discipline and care. This BECAUSE I love you all, and must get this work done for you; and because the integrity, consistency, focus, Heart of this Death Fast must be protected and carried forward. Yes, I make no assumption you or anyone will ever read or use what I'm offering you.in the 2nd book But that's not my business. Making it available to you, is.
I've also announced that until the books are done, I'm reading emails only from the two that have stepped up as emerging partners for the Death Fast, or from the press, etc.
Ok, back to work.
--------- Plan B 3.0 ---------------
Hi Hope,
Not sure what you plan to do with our comment, but here is our comment, which you can attribute to Lester Brown.
Fasting is an historically valuable way to draw attention to a cause. Religious and national leaders have either fasted or called on their nations to fast and pray for healing, such as Mahatma Gandhi and President Abraham Lincoln. Women fasted for the right to vote. Start Loving's hunger strike is drawing attention to our need to shift from environmentally destructive fossil fuels, in particular the tar sands in Canada, to clean renewable energy. We at the Earth Policy Institute admire his courageous effort.
Best,
Reah Janise Kauffman
Vice President
Sent: Tuesday, May 29, 2012 7:42 AM
To: Reah Janise Kauffman
Subject: FW: Death Hunger Strike in support of 3.0
5.29.2012
I have a confession.
I've been fighting alone, against impossible odds, for humanity, as best I knew how, my entire adulthood, and winning way more than my share.
I can fight alone, forever. I have, I will.
But I am totally unable to fight on two fronts, especially when the new front is on what I thought was my side, and for days now, my fault, no one elses, I've been trying to fight on multiple fronts last few days.
No more. Enough. Finished, as of now.
I've just f*cked up on this campaign for the first time. I'm on day 35, I'm told, not 34. I'm exhausted, weak, depleted. But make no mistake, I can and will do my part.
But from now on, anyone, regardless of motive, regardless how nice or well intended or understandable, anyone wanting to talk to me about other than how to win this, now, how they can help, based on what I've already been clear on, will receive zero attention from me. ZERO. Anyone that sees a way to help, I think you are crazy if you don't, help every young person you know, by helping this. Frickin join it. But if you want to talk about me, me stopping - go talk to someone else, cuz I won't.
I just flipped the 1 finger salute to the two most disgusting, sneering, filthy guys in a Mercedes, with a camera, just scum. I don't regret it 1 bit. If it appears all over the internet, you won't like it, but I stand with the truth, and I gave them the truth. And the 1 in a million, the 1000 we need to join this now, they won't be dissuaded one spec. Nothing else matters.
I'm sorry if this isn't clear, but it is the best I can do.
Loving you all
I can fight alone, forever. I have, I will.
But I am totally unable to fight on two fronts, especially when the new front is on what I thought was my side, and for days now, my fault, no one elses, I've been trying to fight on multiple fronts last few days.
No more. Enough. Finished, as of now.
I've just f*cked up on this campaign for the first time. I'm on day 35, I'm told, not 34. I'm exhausted, weak, depleted. But make no mistake, I can and will do my part.
But from now on, anyone, regardless of motive, regardless how nice or well intended or understandable, anyone wanting to talk to me about other than how to win this, now, how they can help, based on what I've already been clear on, will receive zero attention from me. ZERO. Anyone that sees a way to help, I think you are crazy if you don't, help every young person you know, by helping this. Frickin join it. But if you want to talk about me, me stopping - go talk to someone else, cuz I won't.
I just flipped the 1 finger salute to the two most disgusting, sneering, filthy guys in a Mercedes, with a camera, just scum. I don't regret it 1 bit. If it appears all over the internet, you won't like it, but I stand with the truth, and I gave them the truth. And the 1 in a million, the 1000 we need to join this now, they won't be dissuaded one spec. Nothing else matters.
I'm sorry if this isn't clear, but it is the best I can do.
Loving you all
ps: Fw: Status Update. Death Fast Day 34
ps: Just whining, looking for sympathy, or maybe just sharing. Wow, on top of everything else, day 34, the heat and wind is really showing me how much resilience, flexibility, and reserves are totally gone now. Must sprint on, hoping to be fast enough for book 2. Desperately needing your read and comments when and if you get it, 2 days now, maybe. I'm worried I won't finish. Oh well. Upsetting.
Loving
----- Forwarded Message -----
From: Start Loving <start_loving@yahoo.com>
To: Loving [Start] <start_loving@yahoo.com>
Sent: Tuesday, May 29, 2012 1:06 PM
Subject: Status Update. Death Fast Day 34
From: Start Loving <start_loving@yahoo.com>
To: Loving [Start] <start_loving@yahoo.com>
Sent: Tuesday, May 29, 2012 1:06 PM
Subject: Status Update. Death Fast Day 34
Friends, Family, fellow travelers,
Thanks to friends and Occupy DC, John, Johnny, Louise, Brian, Jesse...
Book 1 is complete, available, and final edits due for inclusion in a week.
Book 2 - video logs are 98% shot and uploading last 24 hours. Whew!
"Resurecting the INSHE (INSanely HumanE) Unviolent Warrior in You - the Potent pre-1970's Activism." A Personal Trainer.
Still praying on the LA Times article but nothing yet. Brian, awesome attempt.
Hope did a God-send of a video that I sent to you yesterday. Should fill some of the yearning that some of you folks have had for something simpler, more compact, and it IS targeted at the younger activists.
Tho the hospitalization on the 15th included no calories, as per my request, the massive blood work they did surely is in large part why I'm still so lucid, that, and the zero cal electrolytes many have kindly brought me, that I'm allowing myself so the books can get done. Then just water from there out.
Two days ago I had a 2 hour period of mental decay that alerted me that time is running out in terms of acuity.
Hence, I'm sprinting alone now till the books are done, in terms of daily maintenance and operation. Thanks to my Occupy DC friends and family, they brought me to that point. We've found enough outlets around the embassy area that worst case, I can keep myself powered with only 6 hours per day at a coffee shop, outside powering, at night, and more likely, zero time away at all - shuttling one machine to a friendly coffee shop to charge while I drain the other. Risky, cuz I'm not supposed to leave my stuff, but I don't abuse the effort, so I keep the trip away to 1-15 min Should be fine. I hope I can be forgiven the exclusion of normal contacts, so the work can get finished.
This way, I'm wearing myself out, but, uh, big deal. The important thing is to leave these two books.
Some significant mental degradation again today, lack of sharpness, but not too severe. It'll be ok.
I'm gussing that mortality is still 3-4 weeks away, but one can never tell with these things. In an hour I could go blind. It happens sometimes right around day 34, but never to me, yet.
Hoping for your understanding, and patience.
Loving
Status Update. Death Fast Day 34
Friends, Family, fellow travelers,
Thanks to friends and Occupy DC, John, Johnny, Louise, Brian, Jesse...
Book 1 is complete, available, and final edits due for inclusion in a week.
Book 2 - video logs are 98% shot and uploading last 24 hours. Whew!
"Resurecting the INSHE (INSanely HumanE) Unviolent Warrior in You - the Potent pre-1970's Activism." A Personal Trainer.
Still praying on the LA Times article but nothing yet. Brian, awesome attempt.
Hope did a God-send of a video that I sent to you yesterday. Should fill some of the yearning that some of you folks have had for something simpler, more compact, and it IS targeted at the younger activists.
Tho the hospitalization on the 15th included no calories, as per my request, the massive blood work they did surely is in large part why I'm still so lucid, that, and the zero cal electrolytes many have kindly brought me, that I'm allowing myself so the books can get done. Then just water from there out.
Two days ago I had a 2 hour period of mental decay that alerted me that time is running out in terms of acuity.
Hence, I'm sprinting alone now till the books are done, in terms of daily maintenance and operation. Thanks to my Occupy DC friends and family, they brought me to that point. We've found enough outlets around the embassy area that worst case, I can keep myself powered with only 6 hours per day at a coffee shop, outside powering, at night, and more likely, zero time away at all - shuttling one machine to a friendly coffee shop to charge while I drain the other. Risky, cuz I'm not supposed to leave my stuff, but I don't abuse the effort, so I keep the trip away to 1-15 min Should be fine. I hope I can be forgiven the exclusion of normal contacts, so the work can get finished.
This way, I'm wearing myself out, but, uh, big deal. The important thing is to leave these two books.
Some significant mental degradation again today, lack of sharpness, but not too severe. It'll be ok.
I'm gussing that mortality is still 3-4 weeks away, but one can never tell with these things. In an hour I could go blind. It happens sometimes right around day 34, but never to me, yet.
Hoping for your understanding, and patience.
Loving
5.28.2012
Loving, here. FOR GOD'S SAKE, GET THIS SEEN. Hope, has given us some Hope here.
Loving, here. FOR GOD'S SAKE, GET THIS SEEN. Hope, has given us some Hope here.
5.27.2012
Day 32: Starting to fade. THANKS to those helping me finish my work
Hi, I don't sense mortality for weeks, but I do feel my physical stamina slipping, and my strength of mind, and it worries me in this race I'm running to get the 2nd book drafts done, and both 1 and 2 reasonably, crudely edited. I'm making good progress on #2 so far, but the tough parts are ahead. I think I'll last, I must, but it is a sprint.
From the bottom of my heart I thank those of you that:
1. Are helping me run the race by keeping me in electrons.
2. Understand, by giving me space, equipment, patience and time.
Loving
5.26.2012
John, Johnny, Brian, how I'm spenging your support - Accountability
John, Johnny, Brian,
I'm a strong believer in accountability. You guys have been huge in the support you've been given - keeping me in electricity is a bear. I owe you an accounting. If and when you are not satisfied with how I'm using your time and equipment, computers, you need to let me know.
From the instant you bring them, like 7am, till you pick them up, like 9pm I'm gratefully on them, not a second is wasted.
Today was spent updating to rev 3 the book 1 (done), communicating to all supporters (done), updating the video logs into a playlist that is an exact mirror of the text doc book (25% complete), pasting in links within the book to the video logs (30%), updating the playlist so it IS the book 1 in video (30%), uploading the rev 3 of the book to Scribd for online avail (done), shooting an intro vid for the book (done), putting the book on both blogs via scribd (done), having a sister in Christ cover the wifi for a month (done).
Big day thanks to you three, in primary.
Next priorities: Finishing above; Creating an mp3 version/audio book of the Book 1, and publishing it online - about 14 hours of work to do right, roughly.
Then: Book 2, written for my friends and Family at Occupy DC truth be told - "Resurrecting the Potent pre1970's Activism, in Time.", about 20 video logs to transcribe, most not too long (maybe a day); then the same treatment as book 1, youtube, video version, completed book.
If you guys are willing to keep my going, wayyyyyyy longer even now than original expectations, I don't know how much longer, probably 3-5 days. If it is time for quits, totally ok. I'm blessed, the work is blessed by you patience and support thus far.
I've grooved a lot of new tricks, techniques, services with book 1 so book 2 should go smoother.
Loving u 3
5.23.2012
My beloved Barack - 3 strikes and you are out.
My infinte love and respect of Pr. Obama are now gone. I pray I see that this is in error.
1. Refusal to stand against the extermination of the Palestinians.
2. Refusal to declare all out unviolent war on warming gases.
3. Allowing the police to brutally, cruelly, lawlessly smash freedom of expression in
Chicago last week.
Loving
- Tracking Plan B blog - War Room blog . CO2 IS, IS, IS... WWIII, THE GLOBAL WAR OF MASS DESTRUCTION. Hunger Games for the next 50 generations.
- 'There's One True Religion, One Gospel; It's written in our DNA: 1. Loving ALL Creation, 2. Loving ALL People, 3. FULL STOP (There is no #3. Period. Ever. Same as Jesus, King, Gandhi....) FULL STOP.' Jesus
- Loving blog - Waging Unviolent War
5.19.2012
vid 'My Family is those waging their Being, their Lives for Humanity. Yours too.' sLoving
Note: Text is updated beyond the vid.
'My Family is those waging their Being, their
Lives for Humanity. Yours too.' sLoving
My family is those waging their lives, waging
their very being, for humanity, the Rachel Corey's, the Christ Jesus' the
Gandhi’s, the King’s, the Dianne Wilsons...Maybe some of those- no definitely
some of the Jews, the real Jews, using their bodies as human shields between the
vile, hideous, subhuman Israeli settlers and the Palestinian farmers whose
orchards they’re trying to destroy and whose bodies they're trying to kill.
That's my family.
I'm brother and sister to all, I love all,
but my Family, those with whom I am kin, are those waging their lives for our
global neediest, that's with whom I identify, that's with whom I feel a kinship,
that's with whom I feel a common bond of species.
I love all, but my family is those waging
their lives, their very being, their every breath, for the well-being of
humanity. I have two, and probably three, maybe four in my life immediately-no,
I have one less than that in my life. One, for reasons I may or may not
understand, has estranged from me, Dianne Wilson, but that doesn't make her any
less my family, I don't know what I am to her, but she's my Family, my kin, she
wages every breath for the betterment of humanity - Women in Texas jails, Texas
workers maimed by pollution, the people of Bhopal, for whom she has hunger
struck, the fish in the ocean, the gulf….
My sister SC wages a much more private war
for humanity, but it includes being the one person in my radical rebirth that
has been an unshakable rock and support since the beginning, literally saving my
life on one or more occasions.
And my sister in Christ, Hope, who tho
hearing a very different king of call than I, more and more completely is a
fearless warrior for the victory of global Love over the greed that is in the
final stages of killing us.
And John and Brian with Occupy DC. I see them blossoming toward being our
Family. In one case burn-out, in the
other case the need to fully surmount a childhood that included blessings, but
massive trauma also. Will they make
it? I pray, for them, for us all. I’m deeply admiring of their efforts, and
full of prayer that they prevail.
And maybe, hopefully, there are others
emerging, but it is far from clear to me.
But I pray, and use my final hours to be a prayer that they make it. We’re doomed unless they and those like them
make it.
And these people that are my Family, my Kin
are your true Family. They wage their lives, they wage their very being, for
you. That's family.
As a youth, the man Jesus who I've always
loved, my brain exploded with his speaking to those who said 'Your Mother and
your brothers outside are outside', to which he responded "MY mother and my
brothers are those who do the Creator's will." But he was right, of course.
Jesus was virtually always correct. Our family, yours and mine, are those that
truly love us and love is seen nowhere except in what we do and those who truly
love us are waging every breath, their entire being, their entire life against
the needless suffering, against the horrors, and in this case against the
impending environmental Armageddon for the next 2,000 generations.
The one, longest and clearest member in my family, in my life, is my beloved
sister SC who has been unfailingly supportive of my work, agreeing with it
sometimes disagreeing, but unfailingly, courageously supportive of my work these
last 13 years and has literally nourished me back to life on at least one and
maybe multiple occasions. What a gift she is, what a joy she is.
This may change. The numbers may grow. Jesus' Family was zero,
but for Mary as near as we can tell, while he lived; there was no one standing
with Jesus, there was no one waging their life for the well being of humanity.
That happened after his death.
Since the beginning of this death fast, for
the first time in my eight years or so in DC, I've begun to see some people
possibly moving in the direction of waging their being for the well-being of
humanity, and if and when that happens, although they're my brothers and sisters
all, the size of my Family may increase. That's not my goal, that would be a
joy, and the greatest possible Hope for humanity. In a way it is my goal,
because waging one's life for the well-being of others, which is such a rarity
in this society, it's not a rarity among the cells in your body. It's not a
rarity among the organs in your body, it's what life does.
We're so corrupt, and so fallen that we've
stopped being family to one another. We have become sub-human. Our religion is
to be sub-human, less than human – predators, well dressed beasts. So in a way
our salvation will only come as we start to become really Family to one another,
but in my life, although I see those hovering, I see those wandering, it remains
to be seen whether they're the seed on the path, on the stone, among the thorns,
or on good Earth. Time will tell.
My love doesn't change whether someone's my
Family or not. My love for them doesn't change. But what they are changes. And
those who are Family are fully alive. Those who are not are fully dead, first to
themselves, and then to others. And
Jesus gave his life to bring us to Life. And he told us to ‘love as he loved,’
and that's been my choice, to learn to do that. And thank the Creator I've
listened to Him, and thank the Creator I've made progress, because if you're
wise you will envy every aspect of my life, you will envy every aspect of my
joy, just as I always embraced and envied that of Jesus and King and Gandhi, and
I was right. And I moved myself in that direction, and I'm now in heaven on
Earth. I believe in none other.
And of you love your children, or your nieces
and nephews, and your grandkids, you'll move yourself in the same direction and
you'll do it now. And the creator has given us one last set of heart-paddles to
re-start our cold, dead hearts. And that's the Truth of the Armageddon we’re
about to make unstoppable: that in 2012 we will decide whether the next 2,000
generations are living in hell or moving in the direction of heaven. It's time
to become Family to us all; for yourself, and for all
creation.
5.16.2012
6 hours in the ER, pumped full of blood chem, I'm good as, well, 21 days starved
Hi! Well, 6 hours in the er and I'm good as new. It was dehydration.
Kidneys fine, no stones. Blood chem was a mess - filled me full of
potassium, magnesium, other blood chem stuff.
I expected to have blood checked, urine, sit in the waiting room for
several hours, be given some pills, and sent home. The ER was pretty
full, some with nasty fight wounds, etc. The triage / admit nurse saw
each of us quickly - she took vitals - I'm pretty sure she said 2 hours
in the waiting room and you'll be outa here. Not 5 minutes later I was
called and taken back, the gown, etc. She must have noticed something
in the vitals that scared her pretty good.
Came extremely close to committing me. Of course, but I didn't see it
coming. And that's fine. Had I thought of it I still would have told
them I was on a death fast, needed to finish a book, needed them to
keep me functional for just two more weeks, and then I'd let the
starvation take its course. After the grilling by the rather nice psych
Dr. it was clear she was under pressure to get me in the psych wing.
But they let me out. If you haven't, you NEED TO SEE IRON JAWED
ANGELS. Same thing happened to Alice Paul, wanted to commit her,
but when they heard her, they couldn't. Pretty cool.
Potassium hurts like hell in the drip arm. OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Plus, they gave me an oral dose at the same time - scared the hell
out of them, my blood pressure and heart dropped to nothing, and oh
God was I sick for about 10 min, and shaking in pain.
The care that some young folks in the DC Occupy moment, Jesse, Brians
girl staying with me all night in the room, brings tears to my eyes. Just
naturally deeply proficient, and deeply kind. The staff at GW Hosp was
very effective and very kind. Put off by the tattoos, etc at first but they
got past it and showed the proper professional respect for me and what
I do. And kindness. Very cool also.
I've unintentionally been taking probably 1/3 of the water I needed to.
I do learn tho and expect to avoid the same mistake going forward.
3 liters a day is my target, and light yellow pee. For the next week while
the book gets finished I'll also take electrolyte drinks.
Loving SC forever
- Tracking Plan B blog - War Room blog . CO2 IS, IS, IS... WWIII, THE GLOBAL WAR OF MASS DESTRUCTION. Hunger Games for the next 50 generations.
- 'There's One True Religion, One Gospel; It's written in our DNA: 1. Loving ALL Creation, 2. Loving ALL People, 3. FULL STOP (There is no #3. Period. Ever. Same as Jesus, King, Gandhi....) FULL STOP.' Jesus
- Loving blog - Waging Unviolent War
5.15.2012
'Death Fast Day 21 Update - Renal Failure… vid
- Tracking Plan B blog - War Room blog . CO2 IS, IS, IS... WWIII, THE GLOBAL WAR OF MASS DESTRUCTION. Hunger Games for the next 50 generations.
- 'There's One True Religion, One Gospel; It's written in our DNA: 1. Loving ALL Creation, 2. Loving ALL People, 3. FULL STOP (There is no #3. Period. Ever. Same as Jesus, King, Gandhi....) FULL STOP.' Jesus
- Loving blog - Waging Unviolent War
5.14.2012
4.26.2012
24hr/day Death Vigil: Thu Apr 26: By 12 noon Loving expects at Canadian Embassy, 501 Penn Ave
24hr/day Silent, Death Vigil: Thu Apr 26: By 12 noon Loving expects at Canadian Embassy, 501 Penn Ave
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wlaxo9WrQqI&feature=plcp
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wlaxo9WrQqI&feature=plcp
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