In the last 14 years or so, since I was Saved from our Satanic society, oh, as many as a dozen, and as few as 6 in all that time have invested major time in dialog with me. ALWAYS, IT ENDS. ALWAYS, IT ENDS with the discover that THEY DIDN'T UNDERSTAND MY WORDS, MY MEANING, MY TEACHING. These folks, my brothers and sisters all, heard my words in their own frame of reference, their own learned definitions; my constant, incessant attempts to highlight the differences, to no avail.
Until, all of a sudden, WHAM - 'HOLY SHIT, WHAT I 'GET' NOW, IS THAT I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS GUYS TEACHINGS!'
Lol. Whereas I've got, oh, lets say 8, in that position, Jesus has closing on 2 billion in that position.
The degree to which this is my fault, may be that I still am too accessible. It is too easy for folks to waste time with me. Einstein didn't do that. Jesus didn't do that. They were less willing to turn from their work for one on one dialogs, leaving it to those that thought they were 'interested,' the much more daunting task of trying to 'learn' what they wanted though observation, reading, but not so much the infinitely more seductive one-on-one dialogs - dialogcrack.
I must, must, must learn to conduct myself in a way that reduces all this wasting of folks time.
Such time IS Life. = Life. Killing Time is Killing Life.
