4.01.2015
3.31.2015
***** SPDF Day 29: From what I can see this Death Fast has cost me most of the few left who were close to me...
***** SPDF Day 29: The Jewish establishment has banned these four valiant Jews. Why?
***** SPDF Day 29: MUST READ. 3 60's Jewish Activists discuss Israel Palesine... "...she sobbed for hours when she saw the daunting wall with the Israeli flag on it, and compared the wall around Bethlehem to the walls of concentration camps during the Holocaust...."
Link to article click here.
***** SPDF Day 29. URGENT - A fate infintely worse than death by Death Fast... Institutionalization... (detail)
She has been my Dr. for three or four years. She is a graduate of Georgetown University, an elite university, and I have gained huge respect for her technical ability for her character and interpersonal skills. After she explained the results of my blood tests she expressed a concern with the fact that I was on day 29 of a death fast and willing to take it to the stand. I take her at her word which was that she was not questioning my mental health. But she was looking at the gravity of mine stamps and asked if I would be willing on her account to allow a professional associate of hers to evaluate my psychological health so that my Dr. Could have the confidence that she is not overlooking something. Again, I take her at her word.
The following is my follow-up letter to her. It should be obvious from the letter that it is clear to me that this evaluation did not go well and that the system, and even this beloved Dr., Are in a position to have a very adverse impact on my work and my life. This goes with the territory. It would be a much more horrible and to my life than a simple death from starvation in another month or two. But it would fulfill, that is, institutionalization, what fulfill the purpose of the death fast which has to sacrifice my life that a Palestinian, even one, might have life in the next 20 years. This, according to the law of social change, the law of sacrifice, the law of paying the price.
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Dear Doc,
You will recall that I left Howard U Hospital after initial treatment because, despite finding the staff there very kind and congenial, I did not find them competent. You did not disagree, you helped me get to Georgetown, and they seemed to be immensely more competent.
When you asked me today about mental health issues I found you very competent and your listening very competent. As I told an intern you had me speak to, once, when he asked me what one thing I found most important about your care I said, 'Her listening, her hearing, she deeply hears the entire patient."
Three years ago when I was on a death fast I was hospitalized at G.W.for severe dehydration. And they administered a psych eval when they heard of my fast. It went on for probably 45 minutes and I found the psychologist basically competent. I did not say agreeable, I said competent. She was substantially listening to, and hearing, what I had to say.
I do not need psychological help, I do not want psychological help, I was willing, I remain willing, for your benefit and your benefit alone, to talk to a psychologist, but one that is competent.
FYI, were you to have someone that wanted to evaluate me, I, all of me, is here at these two locations, truly:
I am on your calendar for 8:00 AM on Tuesday for next weeks blood test results.
Your appreciative brother forever, no matter what. James
SPDF Day 29: I expect to reduce or eliminate all together posting on Facebook. As I have always found....
SPDF Day 29: I expect to reduce or eliminate all together posting on Facebook. As I have always found, and have found again, all on Facebook are passionately committed to unending lip service, and profoundly terrified of, and hostile, truly committed life service. I haven't the time to waste, and it is my duty to not enable such grotesque hypocrisy and cowardice. There is a horrible, wonderful, old saying - the chicken is involved, the pig is committed. There is no activist, never has been, ever will be, of any consequence what so ever, that is not committed exactly in this way. And all on Facebook are committed with every fiber of their being to not be committed to life service in this way.
3.30.2015
***** SPDF Day 28: The Liberal's Denial of duty, personal responsibility, the cowardice, that is destroying the world can best be seen.... ...
The wife in A Dry White Season, the wife of the lone white man of privilege that paid everything for Justice in South Africa.
The towns-folk in the Garry Cooper version of High Noon.
nd. SPDF Day 28: NPR Nauseating Pablum (Poison) Radio since noon. It is now 6pm, and too windy to hike back to my shelter. Soon I trust.
SPDF Day 28: VERY BAD NEWS - Hillary Clinton giving bl*w j*bs to Right Wing Israel ...
SPDF Day 28: "My god, what's wrong with your legs?...
I am now wearing the stockings as prescribed, during the day, and it should make walking a bit easier - swinging those extra pounds of fluid in the lower legs is tiring, and it is less distressing just due to the body distortion that is pretty weird. .
Abbas is a traitor to Palestine, a traitor to humanity. Mahmoud Abbas calls for Arab military intervention against Hamas in Gaza
nd. "You've got to learn to leave the table once love is no longer being served." Nina Simone
"You've got to learn to leave the table once love is no longer being served." Nina Simone
SPDF Day 28: Abbas is traitor, a Tory in the early Americas. Exclusive: In exchange for freed tax funds, PA won’t pursue Israel over settlements at ICC
3.29.2015
SPDF Day 27: White House since 9am...
SPDF Day 27: “We are dying, and no one considers us worth their very lives to save...
My reply: "We are dying, and no one considers us worth their very lives to save."
FB: "James, if you die, we all lose. you better stay alive and make them suffer by looking at your tent everyday."
My reply: Until enough of us die, or offer that price, the slaughter in Palestine will continue. This is fact. This is the law of unviolent change. http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2015/03/spdf-day-14-law-of-social-change-is-law.html Until the huge personal price to stop this is paid, or at least offered, it will not stop. This is how social change has always worked and will always work. I've just uploaded this post - http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2015/03/spdf-day-27-person-is-neither-alive-nor.html . I will not have open debates on what I've written of extensively. If someone has enough interest and respect to state deep disagreements with my understanding of history and social change I'll be only too grateful. But views and opinions of such disinterest that they don't bother to hold themeselves to the standards of history and unviolent theory I have zero time nor patience for. I don't guide my own life by 'nothing,' 'opinion,' idle platitudes, and I'll not help enable others to do so, either.
***** vlog. SPDF Day 27: A PERSON IS NEITHER ALIVE, NOR AN ACTIVIST, WHO WOULD NOT EAGERLY GIVE THEIR LIFE FOR THE JUSTICE OF THEIR FELLOW HUMAN BEINGS...
(If the shoe does not fit, don't wear it.) There is very very very good news. I mean that from the bottom of my heart. You are not activists.
Alice Paul and the suffragists alongside her that would pay any price, were activists. There was no personal price that they would not pay to achieve their goal. They did not do what was convenient, they calculated what was necessary, and they paid the price.
That is anathema to todays so called activists. Utterly, explicitly, forecefully forbidden. Literally incomprehensible, today, in the US outside of the few fighting global warming by placing and keeping their very lives in the way of Ecocide. These exceptions prove the rule.
There are no activists today.
There were activists in Tahrir Square several years ago. There was no personal price they would not pay to achieve their goal. They expected it would cost their very lives these young people. Exactly because they were willing to pay that price the onlookers of the world could not stand to see that price exacted and rose and demanded of the leaders of the world that their lives be saved by meeting their demands. And they were.
There was only one group for whom Gandhi had utter contempt and that was those who would not happily risk or give their own lives when justice demanded it. I've written weeks ago of the law of social change which is the law of paying the price, the law of suffering. This is an immutable law. And yet for the last 40 or 50 years those that call themselves activists, the most educated in our society, almost always from affluent or relatively affluent backgrounds, are in ferocious, catatonic, psychotic, clinical denial of this law.
It is said that patriotism is the refuge of scoundrels. No, activism in the United States since the late sixties is the refuge of scoundrels. It is where one goes for zero personal accountability, the approval of one's peers in excoriating anyone and everyone except those in the same group, holding oneself and ones group to 0 standards, certainly not the historical standards of true activism, and certainly not the standards of results.
The Washington DC not many years ago there was Ngo after Ngo, activist after activist, rapturously involved in historically doomed,, tepid, comfortable, self serving 'activism' to supposedly Save Darfur.
Fact, the leading such group, "Save Darfur," was headed by a pleasant fellow. At times that I deemed it constructive and appropriate I clearly, honestly, forthrightly and vehimintly confronted the total hopelessness, the total inadequacy, of the strategies and tactics that were being attempted by this group.And indeed, as was patently obvious to anyone that WANTED to see the truth... they saved not one Darfuri, but they had a nice time, got lots of press, had nice confortable jobs for years, added to their resumes, got credit on their college degrees....
Several years later I saw the head of this preeminent Save Darfur group outside a supermarket. Actually, he saw me and wanted to speak. To his credit he said to me, why were you so hard on us? I said, just as when a Dr. hangs out a shingle proclaiming that they are a Dr., thereby setting life and death expectations for those who choose to enter, you did the same by calling your group Save Darfur. You set an expectation that impacted millions of people and yet you planned and attempted nothing that would ever come close to saving those people. This is a moral problem that I had a duty to those brothers and sisters in Darfur to attempt to confront. This is a moral failing I had a duty to you to try and bring to your clear attention, and I felt that you were not seeing it, as a result of active denial or otherwise.
Again, to his credit, he replied with astonishing candor, James, he said, I had no idea how to save the people in Darfur. I give him credit for the candor, but he still had no idea the horror of what he was saying. And I find him completely representative of the activism in the United States, or what considers itself activism, be it for stopping global warming, preserving some shred of democracy, or freeing the Palestinians while there is still a living Palestinian left.
The left in the United States adores excoriating the right in this country for their denial, especially in the subject area of global warming. The denial on the right is nothing compared to the denial on the left of their own irresponsibility, non-solidarity with those they purport to be fighting for, lip service, self serving efforts that have the certainty of not achieving the stated goals but only of serving the egos and other gratifications of the so called activists.
The left's denial near incomprehensible. This is not slender from me. This is not condemnation. It is an opportunity to seriously consider it, thereby it is an offer of liberation.
King, Gandhi, any and all of the true activists, in their own way lived, believed, and articulated that someone that would not risk their very life, happily, in the service of justice for their fellow human being, was already Dead. None of the 2015 activists that I see are anything of the sort.
None or few are hypocrites on purpose. They've been taught and learned well a lie. They've been taught a means of behavior that is not activism, but they've been told in word and deed for 40 or 50 years that it is.
If King, Gandhi, Jesus, and the like are correct that cowardice is living death, and by my life and words I believe that they are, then I am not slandering, I'm attempting as they did, to offer Life, to the activist, and to those they think they are serving..
A person is not living who is not ready to give their life for the justice of their fellow human beings, to paraphrase Dr. King.
SPDF Day 27 vid: "I think that anyone that is a moderate in the face of violated liberty… is a sinner.” Malcom X.....
3.28.2015
SPDF Day 26: Hunger pangs, weakness...
SPDF Day 26: This would be a substantial change - WSJ: U.S. Raises Pressure on Israel...
http://www.wsj.com/articles/israel-to-release-frozen-palestinian-tax-funds-1427472744
nd. Seen on FB: "Never chase love, attention, or affection. If it isn't given freely by another person it isn't worth having."
***** SPDF Day 26: "IF YOU HAVE COME TO HELP ME THEN YOU ARE WASTING OUR TIME. IF YOU HAVE COME BECAUSE YOUR [JUSTICE, FAMILY, FREEDOM, SURVIVAL…] ARE BOUND UP WITH MINE, THEN LET US WORK TOGETHER”....
SPDF Day 26: A FB acquaintance #1 commented: "I think it would be pointless to die...
A FB acquaintance #1 commented: "I think it would be pointless to die given the realization that only Soldiers are willing to sacrifice themselvesunless certain members of Congress were engaged in sustained relationship and dialogue with you."
My reply: "So that mistakenly I don't dismiss your comment as pointless, cowardly, delusional, denialist, and idiotic, please share with me so me of the history of unviolent change and unviolent change theory that supports your comment. Thanks."
FB party #2 commented: "I'll just throw in here that FB #1 has spent the last couple years of his life full time engaged in nonviolent action, mostly in the form of offering communication with the evil ones (to put it bluntly)."
My reply: "I made no comment on #1. Why do you suggest I did? I asked a question about his comment. Address yourself to that."
SPDF Day 26: An acquaintance on FB wrote: 'Our beloved Palestine." My reply: "Beloved" Palestine? ...
nd. Thomas Jefferson: If a law is unjust a man is not only right to disobey it, he is obligated to do so.
From the Israeli declaration of independence -
***** SPDF Day 26: ***** DYING IS NOT MY GOAL… life for at least one more Palestinian… is......
SPDF Day 26: My goal is not to die. My goal is that Palestinians not die, and I'll GLADLY pay any personal price for that goal. I'm happy if that price is the ultimate price for me.
As I wrote several weeks ago, this Death Fast is correct for me in this time of complete and utter hopelessness for my Palestine Family. In such complete darkness, complete hopelessness, objectively, based on all the self-serving, self-gratifying, hopeless, meaningless US 'activist' Free Palestine efforts... this Death Fast against such utter bleakness 'could' be seen at some time after my death, and awaken a few, to the only action that could be CERTAIN to Free Palestine, in sufficient numbers, and then to stop the descent of US into Fascism, and Ecocide.
If that utter bleakness dissipates beyond a point, this Death Fast by just one, me, would be throwing away life to no purpose. In a completely dark room, even a huge one, a tiny candle can be seen from anywhere in the room. But if the darkness is dispelled, it cannot.
I'd be GLAD to have this Death Fast terminate my life.
I'd be GLAD to find out that a Real Dawn, aggressive, determined, committed, urgent Obama Admin efforts... was breaking for Palestine.
I'd NOT be GLAD, but I'd recognize and possibly respond to... a 'possible,' 'perceived,' 'uncertain' dawn... such as the news that France is planning to reintroduce a 'Palestinian State' resolution in the UN, and that the US is 'planning' to go after AIPAC, and support a UN resolution.
If these dispel, for good or ill, the utter darkness of the moment, I'll be forced to consider terminating this Death Fast to avoid throwing away one of the only True US Activists that my Palestine has.
The potential harbingers of such 'light pollution,' if not true Light, that I see, the potentially Strategically important news, I' post on this site.
NOTE: If, as there would be, if there were Real Activists in the US, there were 100, or 1000 of us doing what I am, Death Fast... first to Free Palestine, then to save Democracy by getting the money out, then to stop Ecocide... then the above would be less of a factor, if any at all. 100 candles can be seen even in a semi-lighted room. But one cannot.
SPDF Day 26: Too cold and windy for what strength I now have...
SPDF Day 26: Even without opposition in the US Congress BDS cannot stop the slaughter of Palestine...
3.27.2015
nd. SPDF Day 25: For Gandhi there was an Ultimate, Unforgivable Sin… reticence to give ones life for others...
CUFI Leader John Hagee confirms Christian Zionism is anti-Semitic - See more at: http://mondoweiss.net/2015/03/confirms-christian-semitic#sthash.1P8vechU.dpuf
***** SPDF Day 25: Chris Hedges - These armies of [educated liberals] serve a corporate system that will quite literally kill us
Christopher Browning’s collection of essays, “The Path to Genocide,” notes that it was the “moderate,” “normal” bureaucrats, not the zealots, who made the Holocaust possible. Germaine Tillion pointed out “the tragic easiness [during the Holocaust] with which ‘decent’ people could become the most callous executioners without seeming to notice what was happening to them.” The Russian novelist Vasily Grossman in his book “Forever Flowing” observed that “the new state did not require holy apostles, fanatic, inspired builders, faithful, devout disciples. The new state did not even require servants—just clerks.”
“The most nauseating type of S.S. were to me personally the cynics who no longer genuinely believed in their cause, but went on collecting blood guilt for its own sake,” wrote Dr. Ella Lingens-Reiner in “Prisoners of Fear,” her searing memoir of Auschwitz. “Those cynics were not always brutal to the prisoners, their behavior changed with their mood. They took nothing seriously—neither themselves nor their cause, neither us nor our situation. One of the worst among them was Dr. Mengele, the Camp Doctor I have mentioned before. When a batch of newly arrived Jews was being classified into those fit for work and those fit for death, he would whistle a melody and rhythmically jerk his thumb over his right or his left shoulder—which meant ‘gas’ or ‘work.’ He thought conditions in the camp rotten, and even did a few things to improve them, but at the same time he committed murder callously, without any qualms.”
These armies of bureaucrats serve a corporate system that will quite literally kill us. They are as cold and disconnected as Mengele. They carry out minute tasks. They are docile. Compliant. They obey. They find their self-worth in the prestige and power of the corporation, in the status of their positions and in their career promotions. They assure themselves of their own goodness through their private acts as husbands, wives, mothers and fathers. They sit on school boards. They go to Rotary. They attend church. It is moral schizophrenia. They erect walls to create an isolated consciousness. They make the lethal goals of ExxonMobil or Goldman Sachs or Raytheon or insurance companies possible. They destroy the ecosystem, the economy and the body politic and turn workingmen and -women into impoverished serfs. They feel nothing. Metaphysical naiveté always ends in murder. It fragments the world. Little acts of kindness and charity mask the monstrous evil they abet. And the system rolls forward. The polar ice caps melt. The droughts rage over cropland. The drones deliver death from the sky. The state moves inexorably forward to place us in chains. The sick die. The poor starve. The prisons fill. And the careerist, plodding forward, does his or her job.
***** SPDF DAY 25: Black Student Union Condemns campus Zionist group ...
https://bayareaintifada.wordpress.com/2015/03/25/black-student-union-condemns-campus-zionist-group-reaffirms-solidarity-with-palestine/
SPDF Day 25: Systems shutting down. ...
SPDF Day 25: UN says 2014 'devastating year' for Palestinians
http://www.aljazeera.com/news/middleeast/2015/03/report-outlines-devastating-year-palestinians-150326092624937.html
SPDF Day 25: nd. 'A person that would not die for ...
3.26.2015
UN Scientists: -Degree Global Warming Target 'Utterly Inadequate'... AS I'VE BEEN SCREAMING, AND DYING FOR, FOR YEARS.
http://www.usnews.com/news/articles/2015/03/26/2-degree-global-warming-target-utterly-inadequate-leading-un-scientist-says
SPDF Day 24: Stamina and strength waning...
Big-Hearted Chef Serves Up 1 Millionth Free Meal in California
Big-Hearted Chef Serves Up 1 Millionth Free Meal in California
http://www.nbcnews.com/feature/making-a-difference/big-hearted-chef-serves-1-millionth-free-meal-california-n330926
SPDF Day 24: ‘Israel’ sells stolen Palestinian gas to Egypt
http://falastinews.com/2015/03/26/israel-sells-stolen-palestinian-gas-to-egypt/
SPDF Day 24: Elizabeth Kolbert: "Humans Will Eventually Become Extinct"...
http://www.motherjones.com/environment/2014/01/interview-elizabeth-kolbert-new-yorker-sixth-extinction
***** vlog. SPDF Day 24: The Epitaph on EVERYTHING GOOD will be that the citizens of the world’s superpower found that there was nothing beyond themselves, not even their children, that they would die for
Young Gandhi was in the process of becoming a lawyer . But he encountered two books that caused his life to do a 180 when he was a young man studying in England. One of the books was Tolstoy's "The Kingdom of God is Within You." The other was .four essays actually, by John Ruskin . An idea that was central to those essays was the assessment that the the British population could be best understood as being comprised of five groups, Doctors ,lawyers, Ministers, soldiers, Merchants. What was considered most important in these essays was that four of the five groups could be expected to give their lives for their clients when circumstances called for it. But that one of the populations, merchants, could be depended on to never do so, and to only serve their own selfish interests. Thereby they were considered a cancer on society, by other words than these.
In 2015 American these essays would clearly have the state that no population any longer existed, with the possible exception of soldiers, who would die for anything but themselves .
This is why there is no hope to save Palestine, to stop ecocide, to save the last remaining remnants of democracy or any economic life worth living in America.
Both books mentioned can be found on Amazon, some libraries, or here (set the adblock on your browser FIRST to prevent the porn ads).
‘New anti-Semitism’ on college campuses is largely blowback against orchestrated Israel advocacy
SPDF Day 24: on the Hill, in the rain...
Why Hindu nationalists would rather honour Gandhi's assassin
Jesus would hate you all — and you didn’t build that: The truth about the ultra-rich and their New York Times apologists
SPDF Day 24: "My faith demands that I do whatever I can... Jimmy Carter
3.25.2015
You Can't Understand Why People Join ISIS Without Understanding Relative Deprivation
vid. Israel Psycho State. Daily Savagery in Hebron by Illegal Colonizer
vid. Israel Psycho State. Daily Savagery in Hebron by Illegal Colonizer
" As we now understand all too well, it is what is privately owned, not what is held in common, that faces destruction by avarice, bringing the rest of us down with it. Hardly a day passes without more confirmation of this fact." The Magna Carta Messed Up the World, Here’s How to Fix It The “logic” of capitalist development has left a nightmare of environmental destruction in its wake. Noam Chomsky
vid. Noam Chomsky: Nuclear Weapons and Unchecked Climate Change Are Leading Us Toward Doomsday
Noam Chomsky: Nuclear Weapons and Unchecked Climate Change Are Leading Us Toward Doomsday
Note to Jewish Voice for Peace re their article in The Hill: Kumbaya my lord, kumbaya.... Your words are nice, your cowardice is CERTAIN DEATH TO PALESTINE... click link for post
***** SPDF Day 23. COULD BE SIGNIFICANT: "it’s time American Jews let all that mythology go...
Beinart was suggesting that American Jews who oppose the occupation fly to Israel to stand in nonviolent solidarity with Palestinians in the occupied territories. What Beinart didn’t mention is that there is a new organization doing just that. It’s called the Center for Jewish Nonviolence. Read more: http://blogs.forward.com/forward-thinking/217296/want-to-fight-the-occupation-after-bibis-victory/#ixzz3VPBqFmBG
***** SPDF Day 23: ***** EXACTLY THE SICKNESS (USELESSNESS, HOPELESSNESS) of 2015 – activists are devoted to the lie that their very lives are not, are NEVER, DEMANDED OF THEM ...
vid. 5 min. SPDF Day 23: Indian man thinks, 'Why not do something with my life that benefits all of society?”...
http://www.upworthy.com/they-told-him-it-was-impossible-it-took-him-a-hammer-a-chisel-and-22-years-to-prove-them-wrong?c=ufb1
nd. SPDF Day 23: Very weak, and ill, this morning....
3.24.2015
SPDF Day 22: J-Street was on the Hill today: “I am not willing to die for Palestine”....
SPDF Day 22: I have an impossibly strong body and have learned to turn my being entirely over to the Family Emergency Response...
My reply: "I have an impossibly strong body and have learned to turn my being entirely over to the Family Emergency Response - the most powerful force in the Universe, by whatever name or no name at all. But having been on many hunger strikes, and witnessed others, like the Great Diane Wilson, within the first 10 days it is very tough as the body learns to consume itself. Then, until day 30 or so one is usually quite functional, tho weak. Stuff starts getting dangerous after day 30, although I'm very fortunate this time, 1st time ever, to have a doc checking my blood chem. Stuff like blindness sometimes happens after day 30, tho numerous times I've gone to 50 with no such effects.
Friend: "Wow. I knew you had years of experience but didn't think about how that experience would be helpful now."
My Reply: "Oh, my entire life has been preparation for this campaign. Creating and Demonstrating the Death Fast, the last chance for Humanity, is what I was born for."
Friend: "Our mutual associate posed the question, 'what would it take to get me to join the Death Fast." I would have to be called to do it. So far I have not been called to that specific action. I was called to walk along the KXL, and to start this farm, and I'm listening. You, Start Loving, have obviously been called, that is why i t gives you such joy.
My Reply: I only EVER do what I am Called to do. And I am ALWAYS called to do what is the best way for me to serve the most of the world's suffering... in that instant. The Family Emergency Response. This is the ONLY call any of us can get, that is genuine. Anything else is a misunderstanding.