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I have seen the Paradox that if I love until I it hurts there is no more hurt, only more love. Teresa

I only fear money. Teresa of Calcutta. They had Jesus killed for money. Continued. I James don't fear money however....

I only fear money. Teresa of Calcutta. They had Jesus killed for money. Continued. I James don't fear money however....  never have I cared about money.
But in a way I suppose I should fear money because I have seen with my own eyes how it corrupts many of the few good Souls I have ever known. Some of those with whom I have been the closest, in whom I saw the most good. When they have seen the choice between taking advantage of me for money, huge amounts, or small amounts, or protecting me and our friendship, the money has out. and there have been exceptions,  one a late-in-life resurrection,  quite sure,  quite magnificent. What would a person give in exchange for their soul?

Never ever can we take responsibility for the outcome of our actions, while every breath taking responsibility for our actions. Never in control of any outcome are we. full effort is full success, rightly said Gandhi. We are called to be faithful, not successful, said Teresa of Calcutta.

Never ever can we take responsibility for the outcome of our actions, while every breath taking responsibility for our actions. Never in control of any outcome are we. full effort is full success, rightly said Gandhi. We are called to be faithful, not successful, said Teresa of Calcutta.

nd. Teresa of Calcutta: “The spiritual poverty of the Western World is much greater than the physical poverty of our people."

nd. Teresa of Calcutta: “The spiritual poverty of the Western World is much greater than the physical poverty of our people." 

'The greatest poverty I've seen in all the world is the Poverty of Spirit in the US.' Teresa of Calcutta paraphrase from 30-50 years ago.

'The greatest poverty I've seen in all the world is the Poverty of Spirit in the US.' Teresa of Calcutta paraphrase from 30-50 years ago.

In my Heart I've always known that the richest people I knew of were Jesus, MLK Jr, Gandhi, Teresa of Calcutta..... Sadly, it is only later in life that I've found the courage to say 'no' to society, and to pursue the Infinite Wealth of Joy, Meaning, Loving... that I always knew that they had. Better late than never. Better sooner than later.

In my Heart I've always known that the richest people I knew of were Jesus, MLK Jr, Gandhi, Teresa of Calcutta..... Sadly, it is only later in life that I've found the courage to say 'no' to society, and to pursue the Infinite Wealth of Joy, Meaning, Loving... that I always knew that they had. Better late than never. Better sooner than later.

***** My Revered sisters, I'm dying of cancer. I have a request of you, ALL...

My Revered sisters, 

I ASK NOTHING MORE THAN that you read this WHOLE post, deeply, courageously, holding your nose if need be...  HEAR WHAT I AM SAYING IN THIS. HEAR DEEPLY, WITH YOUR SOUL.  Yes, I am boring as Hell. I put glaciers, polar ice caps, to sleep - hmmm, that's an idea.  But can you really turn down what may be my dying wish - to deeply read this whole thing? Just that???

I'm dying of cancer, the odds are 80 percent as things stand, that I'll go non-functional within about a year (was supposed to happen by now) (hmmm, where'd those tears come from? I never cry about this. Well, I never think about it, cept this moment, on the bus from the Hospital, sharing with you. Hmm.), and terminal within about the following year. I'm wearing a poison chemo pump for the next 46 hours, hoping to shrink the cancer, so it is operable, before the poison kills me. LOL. If in 2 weeks, Sept 12, they find the tumors haven't shrunk enough, they'll offer me $60,000 more of chemo, 4 more months, already knowing my answer, 'NO, I'll not take $60,000 of my future world-children's money for me to have another year or so. Not going to happen.' I've already told them, many times now.  But, if they discover on the Sept 9, intensive CT scan, that the tumors in my liver have shrunk enough to operate, they think they can give me a 40% chance at another 7-15 years of fighting, or so. To that, my answer would be Yes.

 

So, maybe you can cut me some slack, and hear what I'm saying. I ASK NOTHING MORE THAN that you read this whole post, deeply, courageously, holding your nose if need be...

Oh, and pls, try to remember, I wrote most of it, on my Android, riding across DC wearing my chemo pump (typos, dyslexiaisms, idiocies...)? Thanks.  I have few lucid moments left, before this chemo levels me, for the next 4 days.  Just try your best, hard, that is all any of us can do.  :-(

I'm willing, I'm pretty much expecting, to lose my last female friend over this, as excruciating as that WILL be for me. 90-95% of those I've found to be Friends, Family, fellow Warriors, are you, sisters, in the last 15 years, through today. Oh well.

I'm tough, no worries.  Truly, ZERO worries about me.  ZERO WORRIES FOR ME. JUST, WHATEVER YOU DO, SAVE MY NEXT 200 BILLION CHILDREN. YOU ARE OUT OF TIME. YOU ARE OUT OF TIME (http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2013/04/dying-4-u-2-c-averting-ecocide-20-nasas.html ). YOU ARE, BY EVERY OBJECTIVE MEASURE, INTO OVERTIME, WITH SECONDS ON THE CLOCK.  SECONDS LEFT TO GET TO THE HOSPITAL BEFORE THE FATE OF YOUR BABIES ARE DETERMINED. LITERALLY.  ACTUALLY. FOREVER.

In the following I am NOT, not,NOT... talking of seducing (GOD NO, THERE IS ZERO HOPE IN THAT. ZERO. ZERO. INFINITELY TOO WEAK, TOO UN-LOVING. TOO LITTLE, TOO LATE.), I'm talking the nuclear option, what has worked in history, withholding - imagining, and unfolding, a STRATEGIC, MIGHTILY STRATEGIC STRATEGY, FIRST PIN-POINT, THEN UNFOLDING STRATEGY... of WITHHOLDING.

Sparking, inspiring, unleashing a strategic strategy of withholding.  Read on.

Yes, it would be a miracle to achieve, and only a miracle, now, BY EVERY OBJECTIVE, SCIENTIFIC, TECHNOLOGICAL, ECOLOGICAL, ECONOMIC MEASURE, NOW, 2013, will give a future to the next generations, to all of creation, to every creature that will ever be on earth.

NOTE: HERE'S THE WHOLE SCIENCE, TECHNOLOGY, ECONOMICS AND ECOCIDAL HELL, IN ONE DRY AS DIRT, AUTHORITATIVE, 30 MIN VID http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2013/04/dying-4-u-2-c-averting-ecocide-20-nasas.html  ). TOOK ME 5 YEARS TO ASSEMBLE FROM THE GLOBAL SCHOLARLY LEADERS, AND YOU CAN HAVE IT IN 30 MIN. THERE IS NOTHING ELSE LIKE IT, TO THE ETERNAL SHAME OF THE INTELLECTUALLY ELITE ARMIES MORE CAPABLE THAN I. THE COWARDS.

Per the video, per 97% of the 3500 PhD climate scientists on Titanic (if you get them in a corner and help them find the guts to tell it to you straight), it is 2013 to cause the only 6% reduction in fossil fuels PER YEAR, forever, instead of the 3% per year increase, now locked in...

..... the best case as things stand:

A.  the next 2 generations will experience economic destitution paying an estimated 15-25 trillion dollars to try and suck co2 out of the atmosphere (oh, btw, that won't save sea life - all of that will be gone, for 1000 generations); an estimated 20-50% of their lifetime earnings, on top of what taxes you've ever paid, to just try and survive what we've given them, and to remediate some of the future for their kids; and

B. infinitely more likely - ecocide, irreversible, forever, earth hell, earth as eternal, perpetually writhing, Titanic Hell.  Lifeless Venus-like earth, will be the eventual, end-game - WILL CERTAINLY be the endgame, unless you sisters work the Miracle. Now.  See NASA Dr. James Hansen's, "Storms of My Grandchidren," Venus Syndrome, here and here.


Withholding. You know in History, it has been tried before. You know it has worked before - WITHHOLDING.

As you know, in truth, but maybe don't like to face, all wars have been fought, and will always be fought, wars of violence that is, for the real estate that is your female bodies, YOUR FEMALE BODIES. THE GUYS THAT ORCHESTRATE, OR THAT FIGHT WARS, WANT THE PLUNDERS OF WAR (STUFF, FAME, BRAVERY, MONEY, THE HIGH OF YOUR ADMIRING THEIR MACHOISM [IF ONLY IN THEIR ADDICTIVE MINDS...) BECAUSE THEY THINK IT WILL GET SOME OF YOU TO SLEEP WITH THEM.

YES, THERE ARE EXCEPTIONS.  The exceptions, the exceptions, the exceptions... prove the rule. Virtually all men, in one way or another, do near everything they do in life, to have sex with you. The exceptions prove the rule. I'm not saying I like it, I HATE it. But that's how it is.  Maybe we'll make it different in the future. BUT WHAT I'VE JUST OUTLINED, IS WHAT WE HAVE TO WORK WITH, TODAY.

You know the history better than I, and near all of you are smarter than I, so you know what your sisters did, for the sake of peace, thousands of years ago - Greece? Rome? I forget. Other times and places, too?  Are there such smart, strong, wise, disciplined, wise, humble, committed, courageous, LOVING... women today? If not, can the few who are, awaken the many, fast enough? NOW?

Senator(s) wife(s) was pivotal in getting your right to vote. Their Mothers were instrumental to getting the Senators and Congressmen, to vote the right way, as you know better than I. And what of today's Senators? Congressmen? President?  Governors?  Even, Captains of Industry?

By every objective measure, you are the more compassionate sex, more attuned to life, to the soon terminal life un-worth living for all life on earth. You are the best organizers, and even better among your sisters. By a piece I saw yesterday, you are objectively the smarter sex - the two highest IQ's ever measured are females, I read.

AS I'VE JUST OUTLINED, JUST REMINDED YOU, THE TRUTH IS, YOU ARE THE MOST POWERFUL SEX, BY FAR.

THAT IS THE HORRIBLE, WONDERFUL TRUTH.  IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE COURAGE TO FACE IT, WE'RE DOOMED. IF YOU DO HAVE THE COURAGE TO FACE IT, AND GRASP IT...?
THEN, THERE MAY BE A PRAYER.

Maybe what I'm saying here, strategically, has zero possibilities.

But decide, ok?  You, decide, ok?

I AM NOT OPEN TO DISCUSSING IT. I AM NOT. I WILL NOT. It is your baby, now, or it is stillborn.  Do, or don't do.

IF YOU THINK IT HAS MERRITT, AND YOU HAVE NOT ALREADY, YOU WILL FIGURE OUT WHAT I'M INCAPABLE FIGURING OUT, BEYOND WHAT I'VE SHARED HERE, AND YOU'LL GET IT GOING, remembering, "Full effort is full success,"  Gandhi.

Remembering, SUSAN B. ANTHONY,

"FAILURE, IS IMPOSSIBLE."  

Remembering, ELEANOR ROOSEVELT,

"THOSE WHO WOULD GIVE LIFE, MUST ENDURE BURNING."

Remembering, DIANE WILSON, and here, and here, and here, and here...

"Reasonable women adapt to the world,
and unreasonable women make the world adapt to them. And we need more unreasonable women." 

IF IT IS STUPID YOU THINK, WHAT I'VE SKETCHED OUT, HORRIBLE, POLITICALLY INCORRECT, HATEFUL, OFFENSIVE..., WHATEVER, WELL, DO WHAT YOU WILL REGARDING ME.

BUT NO MATTER WHAT,  IF THERE IS TO BE A FUTURE FOR OUR NEXT 200 BILLION KIDS, FOR ALL OF CREATION, YOU WOMEN ARE THE ONLY ONES WITH THE POWER, OBJECTIVELY, IN TRUTH, IN FACT, TO MAKE IT HAPPEN.  

"Gandhi, what is this soul force, this satyagraha, you speak of?"   

"I'm talking of the mother's love for her child, the strongest force in the universe."

Again, I AM NOT OPEN TO DISCUSSING THIS WITH YOU. I AM NOT. I WILL NOT. It is your baby, now, or it is stillborn.

I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT YOUR MIGHTY POWER "OVER" - FORCE.

I AM NOT TALKING OF SOME CHEAP, MEDIA ORIENTED, UNDIGNIFIED RANTING.

I AM TALKING OF THE UNSPEAKABLE DIGNITY, AND COURAGE, SHOWN BY YOUR SISTERS DURING THE SUFFRAGE DAYS, THE GREATEST IMPLEMENTATION OF UNVIOLENT WARFARE IN HUMAN HISTORY:

"A Women's Crusade  here and here,"

"IRON JAWED ANGELS, here and here," the book;

Iron Jawed Angels here and here, the Movie;

INEZ MILHOLLAND here and  here, 

I'M TALKING OF YOUR MIGHTY, NEAR INFINITE, POTENTIAL POWER 'FOR' - LOVING, IMPOSSIBLY TOUGH LOVING.

My favorite quote, ever? My favorite quote of all time? Thanks Cyndi Weaver, for inspiring me to remember it:

"Some day, after we have mastered the winds, the waves, the tides and gravity, we shall harness for God the energies of love. Then for the second time in the history of the world, we will have discovered fire.”  Pierre Teilhard de Chardin.

Everything that is NOT full EFFORT, is full failure, more finally now, than at any other time in the history of Creation.

Sisters, like it or not, the future is in your hands.

If you are honest, you know I will keep doing what I can, and will do EVERYTHING in my power to support you, you that step out, with Diane, with my last breath I will. Just ask Diane Wilson. She might not like what I do, :-), she may hate what I do (I'll never know), but she has to admit, I've done everything in my power to support her Divine Sherosim. Important what I do? No. I'm only saying I put my Life, all that I am, all that I have, every breath, where my mouth is. And never more than now.

"I'm talking of the mother's love for her child, the strongest force in the universe." Gandhi.  Me too, that's what I'm talking about. That's what with every breath I Live to embody.  "I'm talking of the mother's love for her child, the strongest force in the universe."

THAT'S THE OBJECTIVE TRUTH OF IT....

...EXCEPT, FOR THE CHILDREN.  HMMM. THE CIVIL RIGHTS WORKERS. THE ANTI-APARTHEID WORKERS, FOUND A PLACE FOR THE CHILDREN... AT THE FRONT, THE FRONT, THE FRONT OF THE MOVEMENT. AND IT MOVED MOUNTAINS. THEY WOULD NEVER, NEVER, NEVER... HAVE MOVED THE MOUNTAINS WITHOUT THE CHILDREN IN FRONT.

AND WHO HAS THE MORAL RIGHT TO KEEP THE CHILDREN FROM FIGHTING, WITH THEIR VERY LIVES IF NEED BE, FOR THEIR VERY PLANET?????????????? NO ONE. BUT WE'VE KEPT THEM TOTALLY IGNORANT....

THE MOTHERS, THE WOMEN, COULD MAKE THAT HAPPEN, NOW.... WILL THEY? WILL ANYONE(S) LEAD?

THE  MEN, CAN NOT DO THAT.  DUH. BUT, THEY CAN, AND WILL, FOLLOW.

Your brother forever, no matter what, Loving

ps: I AM NOT OPEN TO DISCUSSING IT. I AM NOT. I WILL NOT.

pps: I wonder if any of you are going to share this. It is of ZERO importance if you do, THAT I KNOW.  And if you do, it would be infinitely better if you reformulate it UNDER YOUR OWN NAME. LEAVE ME 100% OUT OF IT, ONE TRILLION MILES AWAY FROM IT. I'M PRETTY TOXIC, BY NOW. THINK, PLUTONIUM.

ppps:  Oh, I wish I'd thought of this. Saw on FB several days ago. Something like...

pppps: Sorry, one last, obvious, thing. The issues you care about - women's rights, equal pay, education for your kids, economic opportunity for your kids, ending wars, quality of life for your kids, gender equality, immigration reform, health care... did I mention, ENDING WARS?  Gone, for the next 1000 thousand generations, objectively.  The next 1000 generations will be nothing but one extended war for survival, a death spiral, unless you work an impossible miracle, now. FACT.  And you won't, unless you try.

"The person that wants to do something, finds a way.  The person that doesn't, finds an excuse."

***** Best definitions of Loving I've ever seen... "Love is that which cannot remain passive in the face of suffering." Teresa of Calcutta - best definition of Love I've ever seen, cept my own, "Love is Soul, in Solidarity, Serving our Global Neediest." Your brother, Loving

"Love is that which cannot remain passive in the face of suffering." Teresa of Calcutta - best definition of Love I've ever seen, cept my own... 

"Love is Soul, in Solidarity, Serving our Global Neediest." Your brother, Loving

***** NO. REALLY. REALLY!!! Pls hear me, deeply. It is all that I've learned - "LOVING IS, =, IS, THE CREATOR. THE CREATOR IS, =, IS LOVING. WHEN YOU ARE LOVING, YOU ARE IN, OF, AND BY THE CREATOR. WHEN YOU ARE NOT LOVING, YOU ARE IN, OF AND BY THE DESTROYER, ENTROPY, EVIL. THAT'S IT. THAT'S ALL I'VE LEARNED. THAT'S ALL JESUS, ELEANOR ROOSEVELT, GANDHI, KING, TERESA OF CALCUTTA... LEARNED. ALL THE REST IS DETAILS.' Loving

***** NO. REALLY. REALLY!!! Pls hear me, deeply.  It is all that I've learned - "LOVING IS, =, IS, THE CREATOR.  THE CREATOR IS, =, IS LOVING.  WHEN YOU ARE LOVING, YOU ARE IN, OF, AND BY THE CREATOR.  WHEN YOU ARE NOT LOVING, YOU ARE IN, OF AND BY THE DESTROYER, ENTROPY, EVIL. THAT'S IT. THAT'S ALL I'VE LEARNED. THAT'S ALL JESUS, ELEANOR ROOSEVELT, GANDHI, KING, TERESA OF CALCUTTA... LEARNED. ALL THE REST IS DETAILS.' Loving

nd ' "Love is unable to remain passive in the face of suffering," Teresa of Calcutta. So if you see someone (in the mirror even) passive in the face of suffering, you can Know that they are Not Loving.' Loving

nd ' "Love is unable to remain passive in the face of suffering," Teresa of Calcutta.  So if you see someone (in the mirror even) passive in the face of suffering, you can Know that they are Not Loving.' Loving

vlog 'All True Activists are only-their-own-suicide bombs.' Loving

***** vlog 112. Each hour I mentally give, mentally dedicate, that hour, that meal, those resources, my self… to working for, Truly, Actually, our neediest children, born, and to be born. It's Heaven. Saves me from wasting that hour. Saves me from wasting my Life.

112. Each hour I mentally give, mentally dedicate, that hour, that meal, those resources, my self… to working for, Truly, Actually, our neediest children, born, and to be born.  It's Heaven. Saves me from wasting that hour.  Saves me from wasting my Life. Book 2: "Resurrecting Your Unviolent Warrior" (Personal Trainer)  [112 not yet added to the book]

nd 'I've felt, hmm, I've BEEN, Excruciatingly Alien since birth, except for my dad, a few kind souls, and when reading Gandhi, Jesus, Tolstoy, MLK Jr, Diane Wilson, Bonhoeffer, Montegu, Teresa of Calcutta, Oscar Romero, Rachel Corrie, Alice Paul, Diane Nash, Dave Dellinger, Barbara Deming, Phil Berrigan, Maslow, Kohlberg, Erikson, Rogers, Frankl, Adler, Sorokin.... Then I don't feel alien, but kinfolk; same-species.' Loving

nd 'I've felt, hmm, I've BEEN, Excruciatingly Alien since birth, except for my dad, a few kind souls, and when reading Gandhi, Jesus, Tolstoy, MLK Jr, Diane Wilson, Bonhoeffer, Montegu, Teresa of Calcutta, Oscar Romero, Rachel Corrie, Alice Paul, Diane Nash, Dave Dellinger, Barbara Deming, Phil Berrigan, Maslow, Kohlberg, Erikson, Rogers, Frankl, Adler, Sorokin.... Then I don't feel alien, but kinfolk; same-species.' Loving

vlog 'Friends, I have zero seconds for anyone's sorrow for me. Our Children's Future is dying...

***** vlog 02.26.13 'I Live to Share my Religion of Universal Loving. Nothing more, anymore. Ever.' Loving

nd 'We're so Godless, Joyless, cuz Christ-likeness, Loving, Godliness... Look like Suffering, Sacrifice, Sadness... to the Fleshly Spirit! But the Truth is like Teresa of Calcutta said: "I've learned the paradox that if I love until it hurts, there is no more hurt; only more Love." ' Loving

nd 'We're so Godless, Joyless, cuz Christ-likeness, Loving, Godliness... Look like Suffering, Sacrifice, Sadness... to the Fleshly Spirit! But the Truth is like Teresa of Calcutta said: "I've learned the paradox that if I love until it hurts, there is no more hurt; only more Love." ' Loving

02.16.13 'Loving got stomped, twice, as I slept last night....'

Same group of early 20's two legged refuse - a group of three.  Laughing like hyenas.  It was raining so none of the other homeless were around, none of the usual passers by, so these walking turds, my brothers all, these cowards got their jollies stomping a homeless guy.  Both times it caught me off guard, but thinking of it for an hour after the second - what a gift, what a lesson; what a reminder.

How do I know what I'm here for?  Maybe it is to absorb some of the evil, hatred, wreckage embodied in these three, with last night's terrorization by them, or tonight's getting my head bashed in.  They'll only victimize so many people, so many times before they see their own evil and stop, or are stopped by the police.  Being part of the absorption of their evil, from them, Redeeming, Ransoming... so another(s) don't suffer... that, THAT would be worth my Life, for sure.

The Great Apostles of Loving - Assisi, Teresa, Gandhi, Jesus, MLK Jr... - are sooooooo sick of the evil, the Fleshly Spirit dominating in the world they are willing to be used in any way, in ANY WAY to absorb, and not add to, all that Hatred, Mean-ness, Lovelessness, Smallheartedness...; and each measure of diminishment of the Fleshly Spirit makes room for, and eventually empowers the Loving Spirit, Christ, God Spirit in others.  [And Serving the neediest, the greatest needs, the founding of the Kingdom, in this way is, IS, = ... Joy, Heaven.  Always.  Loving IS its own reward; the Only Ultimate Reward].

Me too.

ps: Yes, they were three black guys, a predictable product of the hateful environment that we over-privileged white folk have relegated them to grow down in - toxic waste from toxic waste.

pps:  I remember the homeless guy I occasionally saw about 4 years ago who one morning appeared with black eyes, bloody lip, black and blue face.  He'd been sleeping in an ally near a bar frequented by the affluent college kids of DC and a couple of white college guys stomped him bloody.  A different kind of toxic waste, deadly affloholism, breeds toxic waste.

***** nd 'Loving - Its own Ultimate Reward. Loving, is the Optimal Human Experience, the Ultimate Gratification [sole means of Joy generation]: So Odd that Tolstoy, Sorokin, Gandhi... came so close to seeing this, but couldn't lock in on it. Jesus nailed it, Teresa of Calcutta got close.' Loving

nd 'Loving - Its own Ultimate Reward. Loving, is the Optimal Human Experience, the Ultimate Gratification [sole means of Joy generation]:  So Odd that Tolstoy, Sorokin, Gandhi... came so close to seeing this, but couldn't lock in on it. Jesus nailed it, Teresa of Calcutta got close.'  Loving

nd 'The INSHE's; Christlikes: Giants of Moral Vision, Moral Imagination. Gifted from Birth? Maybe. Life-long, Daily, Devoted Developers of their Gift. Unmistakably. Gandhi, Teresa - 'I couldn't do what I do without Hours of Prayer per day - Moral Imagining.' Loving

nd 'The INSHE's; Christlikes: Giants of Moral Vision, Moral Imagination.  Gifted from Birth?  Maybe.  Life-long, Daily, Devoted Developers of their Gift?  Unmistakably. Gandhi, Teresa - 'I couldn't do what I do without Hours of Prayer per day - Moral Imagining, Visioning.'  Loving