Financial hemorrhaging. Do you want to help with a tourniquet? A Cascade....

Financial hemorrhaging. Do you want to help with a tourniquet? A Cascade of problems a week ago so far has resulted in $300 in UPS fees alone receiving a electric motor on loan and shipping the primary motor to Canada for repair. I suspect it will be another $400 by the time the motor is received back from Canada and the repair paid for. The cause of the repair is a tenuous means of doing regenerative braking which broke a week ago and created major damage. The vehicle and I can continue to limp along with this Sword of Damocles handing hanging over our head, another failure of this inadequate gearing mechanism, or a solid replacement. A dear Soul, guardian angel, in Michigan, and a dear soul in a bike shop down in Palm Desert 40 miles from here each may have ideas on how to fix this. I suspect another $300 still will be required to implement either one. If you know anyone that would like to help stem the bleeding of these Monies Facebook Messenger is a way of transferring money and another way is PayPal to the email address start underscore loving at yahoo.com.

Were I 25 years old, and had the choice I might devote myself to the study that Tolstoy undertook, the original Greek gospels and the ethics they're in.. But I'm 66 and there's no time. I've read......

Were I 25 years old, and had the choice I might devote myself to the study that Tolstoy undertook, the original Greek gospels and the ethics they're in.. But I'm 66 and there's no time. I've read his important works on the subject, the kingdom of God is within you that created Gandhi, the law of love and the law of violence that largely created King, the root work of it all the gospel in brief which I've read many times and I'm rereading again and again. Also his confession, what I believe, I hope to find his analysis of the Gospels. I'm interested in Jesus, and now I discover the original Christian ethicists as well, for the same reason that if I were interested in physics I would want to understand everything that Einstein had understood about physics. I think the Tolstoy given the little time we all have, Tolstoy is probably our best window. As I've said often, and I think to you, adulthood taught me early on that in critical situations I needed to look first at those that were showing promising results and when I found such individuals only then be interested in what they had to say. We typically do the reverse and waste our lives doing so. Tolstoy's writings created King and Gandhi. That's pretty good indication for me that I need to understand what he understood.

You are a soul, that has a body. Moral, spiritual, emotional, mental health can be achieved by deeply living this. All of the preventable problems in the world including the destruction of everything decent now, are a consequence of not doing this.

You are a soul, that has a body. Moral, spiritual, emotional, mental health can be achieved by deeply living this. All of the preventable problems in the world including the destruction of everything decent now, are a consequence of not doing this.

Very important exchange with a beloved brother who is also a Jehovah's Witness, met many years ago at my vigil at the White House. He wrote: Good morning my friend. You are likely aware of all of this but I thought of you when I watched.....

Very important exchange where they beloved brother who is also a Jehovah's Witness, met many years ago at my vigil at the White House. He wrote:

Good morning my friend.
You are likely aware of all of this but I thought of you when I watched this video from Aljazeer.
Ironically JWs in Russia are officially banned again, this time as "extremist." For decades under the KGB days, they were banned because they were considered "pacifists."  Even the New World Translation of the Bible now has been officially banned as "extremist literature."  As well as the child's story book, "My book of Bible stories."  The world is completely upside down.

http://www.aljazeera.com/progr ammes/peopleandpower/2017/10/ russia-orthodox-connection- 171017140019859.html

You recently asked in one of your posts, "Creator, what have I done wrong?"  The answer that I would give to you if I was the Creator is, "You have done nothing wrong with the information that you have. You just have not considered all the options."  But what do I know?
If you start with the wrong premise, you will never come to the right conclusions.  That is just simple mathematics.
Your heart/consciousness/love/humanity is still driving you after all these years.  Your battle is against something bigger than you and I but the answer to your question is there.  You are just missing the same piece of the puzzle that you were missing years ago, when we first met.

No matter what my friend, I am at your side.

I reply:

LOL, and I am at your side. What I'm about to say is not Tit for Tat. Last night you were on my mind and only this morning did I see your email.

You were on my mind as Creator gave me a great gift of clarity. I have been in the desert many days now doing my best to get closer to the teachings and example of the historical Jesus. My heart, that of Creator in me, is my primary guide but I am also informed by the scholarly work of the Jesus seminar and of that extraordinary creation of crater, Leo Tolstoy in his writings on what he found in his translation of the Greek gospel.

Sometime probably today I will provide a update, maybe a video, of the clarity that is being given me.

Your sadness for me and what I am not seeing all these years, is reciprocal of the sadness I feel out of love for you in the truth that you are not seeing.

But before I go on let me say, I do find it a substantial validation by creator that you and your religious group are being discriminated against by the Russian Empire. Respect. And probably gratitude.

you may not be glad to know that the revelations of the last few days, the sharpening of my many years understanding now on which I have lived, was very much in the opposite direction of what you would want. It is that his life an example, and even that of some of his followers that wrote much of the ethics of the Gospels, their entire religion, 100% of their religion, was the Imperial rule of the heart within man, the Creator, the piece of the spirit of Creator, placed in all of us at our birth. The rule of heart over Flash and head. That's it. Jesus religion, and mine, was loving creator and our fellow creatures with our whole heart mind and soul. That's it. And what else could we possibly need?

Out of respect, that last is a rhetorical question.

More later. Hugs to you both. James

PS. There was much tongue-in-cheek when I asked Creator, what am I doing wrong? And great humility I think the Creator is quite pleased With my walk. I think the Jesus is quite pleased with my walk. I also expect to be writing unless surprised at my deep affection for the occasional tree or bush that I see growing out of a rock or out of a huge mountain of Boulders here in the desert. Popular meme from typically fairly affluent westerners, certainly in business, of the flower growing through concrete, makes my blood boil. The concrete is a consequence of the apathy of those with resources, the selfishness and hoarding of those with resources. Makes my blood boil.

But as my acceptance that material Armageddon unstoppably is on a folding becomes more acute, seemingly final Within Me, I now with much greater Clarity Sees at what I'm called to try and do, and that what Jesus felt he was called to try and do, was to find that seed in the midst of the desert but he might help have life.

Again, hugs

PPS. If there is much of love, creator, in and through your religious organization, and I think there is, as evidenced by Russia's Crackdown on you all, if there is that love, Jesus religion, then I will acknowledge that for some set of the population, your fellow religionists, having the edifice as you see it through the lens of JW, helps you, that set of the population do that. If that's what's going on I have no objection. It is not my way. It was not Jesus way. But loving, Imperial rule of the heart over / Flash and head, is the way, and if your conception helps you and your fellows do that, I am only glad.

Update, plan. Sol, The vehicle, electrical system seems to have been stabilized. It is wounded but........

Update, plan. Sol, The vehicle, electrical system seems to have been stabilized. It is wounded but I think stable enough to commence a 12 mile, 1700 foot climb back into Joshua Tree Park, Hidden Valley Campground being the target. It is $7 a night and reasonably quiet. The plan is to spend much of the week there attempting to more deeply master the historical Jesus, his teaching, ethics, and actions. This guided and informed by the work of the Jesus seminar which points to his actual words, a relatively small subset, of the four popular Gospels. And also deep study of Leo Tolstoy translation of the original Greek Gospels. This in anticipation of a journey my body dreads through the hate drenched southern states of this country to commence the following week. Much or all of the following week is likely to be offline.

Houston, Santa, what the hell is the deal here? Is there such a thing as negative Christmas present? Coal on steroids? I'm back out in the middle of nowhere planning to head further into nowhere tomorrow morning and The Marvelous electrical system in this vehicle, the control mechanism, is rapidly disintegrating in its performance. Like a cell phone or laptop going through death throes. That could involve a crushing or killing expense. Creator, what have I done wrong?

Houston, Santa, what the hell is the deal here? Is there such a thing as negative Christmas present? Coal on steroids? I'm back out in the middle of nowhere planning to head further into nowhere tomorrow morning and The Marvelous electrical system in this vehicle, the control mechanism, is rapidly disintegrating in its performance. Like a cell phone or laptop  going through death throes. That could involve a crushing or killing expense. Creator, what have I done wrong?

More time in the desert. I am quite certain that more deeply and effectively channeling the goodness that the man Jesus channeled is how I'm called to serve. No, I......

More time in the desert. I'm quite certain that more deeply and effectively channeling the goodness that the man Jesus channeled is how I'm called to serve. No, I...... don't know just what that means and certainly not just what form it will take. Traveling, being, teaching, I suspect are a big part of it. Being good in the world. Not good when it's convenient. Not good when it's safe. Not good when it's comfortable. Not good when it's popular. Good because that's what's needed and that's the ultimate rewarding existence. Much study of the man Jesus and the scholarship pertinent to has been undertaken by me in the last 15 years. What I'm called to do requires doing this more deeply and extensively now. I suspect that this calls me into the cold chilly Wendy desert for much of the next week. Back to Joshua Tree I suspect. My body is not particularly happy about this. Cold, windy, inhospitable, Barron. But my soul finds some gladness in it. I expect the journey will take place early tomorrow morning with arrival late tomorrow. Much or all of the next week is likely to be offline in study.

Electrolyte deficit maybe central to the debilitating symptoms of fatigue Headache nausea fatigue fatigue recent weeks. Electrolyte supplements had fallen out of my routine.

Electrolyte deficit maybe central to the debilitating symptoms of fatigue Headache nausea fatigue fatigue recent weeks. Electrolyte supplements had fallen out of my routine.

A difficult walk. Can I learn it? Walking in a world that is immersed in flames, without a prayer of stopping The Inferno. How to live in this? How to do good? To show the path of joy that others might find it Through the flames. Even if just in the moments before being tortured and killed. Attempting to be and bring goodness into the world. Such a difficult dance. Facing the daily unfolding nightmares. Then, informed by that turning to be joyful goodness in the world. So difficult.

A difficult walk. Can I learn it? Walking in a world that is immersed in flames, without a prayer of stopping The Inferno. How to live in this? How to do good? To show the path of joy that others might find it Through the flames. Even if just in the moments before being tortured and killed. Attempting to be and bring goodness into the world. Such a difficult dance. Facing the daily unfolding nightmares. Then, informed by that, turning to be joyful goodness in the world. So difficult.

I have grown to dread and detest the encounters with people drawn by this vehicle. The empty-headed Clueless intellectual masturbation of Technology. Totally.....

I have grown to dread and detest the encounters with people drawn by this vehicle. The empty-headed Clueless intellectual masturbation of Technology. Totally.... oblivious to what's going on in the world. But there is a chance that I am learning to make the encounters positive for me. The pleasant fellow this morning asking the inane questions, my friendly reply, it's my little attempt to bring good into the world. It felt good. It's entirely true. It's what I want to do and talk about.

Video log. Searching in darkness for the man Jesus.

https://vimeo.com/248014804

Video log. James profound metamorphosis.

https://vimeo.com/245426158

Am I doing more harm than good? Exceedingly harsh I am in my life and in my communication face-to-face. Marooned in Yucca Valley......

Am I doing more harm than good? Exceedingly harsh I am in my life and in my communication face-to-face. Marooned in Yucca Valley...... diagnosing electrical problems, waiting for parts, for nearly a week, this is an almost festive place. Almost an outpost I would say. Happy people. That's a mark of sickness. Who can be happy in such a suffering world except for a clinically sick individual? But within the sick individual might be the seeds of Health. Constantly out with the vehicle in the open doing repairs person after person drives up and in some form  asks incredibly thoughtless questions, is it electric? Etc. I'm growing. My primary horror is not at the stupidity, the thoughtlessness of the questions so much anymore. I'm growing. More and more I'm instinctively clear that the opportunity in front of me is not to be incensed at the stupidity of the questions. The opportunity in front of me, regardless of how small, is to try and jolt the dead hearts that can be happy and clueless in the face of such horror, to jolt them to life, to resurrect them to life. To resurrect them from the dead. It's possible I'm doing much more harm than good. But that is not my assessment. I believe that my understanding of how to resurrect hearts and my courage to do so despite personal isolation is increasing.

The work, the need, is to resurrect Souls, Hearts, from the dead. Jesus died exhorting us to this work. We couldn't, wouldn't, and don't see it even now. Especially now.

The work, the need, is to resurrect Souls, Hearts, from the dead. Jesus died exhorting us to this work. We couldn't, wouldn't, and don't see it even now. Especially now.

Notice. I may be offline in the back country of Joshua Tree for a day or so.

Notice. I may be offline in the back country of Joshua Tree for a day or so.

The need, therefore the mission, therefore my mission, is to raise the living from the Dead.

The need, therefore the mission, therefore my mission, is to raise the living from the Dead.

Where are the articles on this? Where are the surveys? Extremely important lesson. My Fury was great at this middle age hippie here in Yucca Valley. His response to the horror of millions.....

Where are the articles on this? Where are the surveys? Extremely important lesson. My Fury was great at this middle age hippie here in Yucca Valley. His response to the horror of millions..... of climate refugees as the coastal cities flood he said, well, they have lots of money, if they want to come here and give me money for my land that's fine. I was horrified. But when he drove away I realized he taught me something. It may be that, it's certainly is, that many millions of middle Americans look with some combination of Glee and greed at what the coastal cities going underwater will mean from them personally materially. Their land value and personal wealth will Skyrocket.

This Divine experimental vehicle is pushed to the Limit. The last several days have been spent chasing an electrical short problem. My skills are being tested to the Limit and developed. It may be that the problem has been tamed. Maybe not. If so the journey south and east May begin Saturday morning.

This Divine experimental vehicle is pushed to the Limit. The last several days have been spent chasing an electrical short problem. My skills are being tested to the Limit and developed. It may be that the problem has been tamed. Maybe not. If so the journey south and east May begin Saturday morning.

Very important. We have made this vehicle Fun.

This vehicle is fun now. It never dawned on me that this would happen. That could be due to the mission that has me totally absorbed within its grasp. But it could be that it seemed technically unlikely. Whatever the reason this vehicle is fun. Due to inhospitable infrastructure for a bicycle of this size or indeed any bicycle, this vehicle is not for the faint of heart. But how many things are done by people of means that are not for the faint of heart? Cycling, mountain climbing, long distance hiking, long distance cycling, hang gliding, kite sailing, windsurfing, snow skiing..... It now seems impossible to me that self solar energy harvesting Transportation will not become a thing in a variety of forms almost immediately. It's irresistible. To a tiny segment, maybe, but irresistible. And each one that happens becomes a powerful advocate for renewable energy. I suppose these electric cars are nice but they're not a revolution. They are four thousand pounds worth of needless consumption. They are not a revolution. They are more of the same grotesque overconsumption. Ultralight self energy harvesting transportation is a revolution and it shows the revolution that is entirely possible. The final obstacle to this vehicle being remotely fun was substantial downhill travel. It was pretty miserable burning up those brakes. Stopping every half-mile to let them cool down. And of course all that braking was heat and all that heat was the energy invested in climbing. Yesterday in a 30 mile Journey from the coast to the east side of San Diego is steep Rolling Hills one after another after another. 2200 feet on the day. There was only moderate sun to help. It was surreal to watch a battery indicator that should have been plummeting only decreasing as though we were traveling on flat ground. It still seems surreal. But the gauges are accurate. 20% of the energy for this trip came from regenerative braking. I suspect it will be many many many many months before the brake pads on this vehicle need to be replaced, if even then.

Phase 2? A new phase of this Mission emerging? Not important in my view, but interesting. Every day....

What is important is that hundreds of thousands of eyeballs can now not unsee the future that is possible, renewable, ultralight living on our mother earth. Constructive coexistence. Life lived in the service of others not self. The only Revolution. This thanks to the contributions of so many now.  Will it make a difference? It is impossible that will not make a difference. Large enough to nudge the needle? Unlikely, but possible. Many now have helped these seeds be sewn. And the sowing of seeds will continue for as long as I can see with this now so capable vehicle.

Phase 2? A new phase of this Mission emerging? Not important in my view, but interesting. Every day.... of the last 14 months, almost 12,000 miles, has been a race, a Sprint. A Sprint to get to Standing Rock. My Sprint to get to Lansing Michigan for the new Harvester micro RV to be built. A Sprint in northern Wisconsin to show it at the Midwest Energy Fair. Sprint back to Lansing Michigan for the solar Harvester micro RV to be completed. Sprint to Western Iowa for the 7-Day Cross Iowa bicycle event with 10,000 people or so. A Sprint to the West Coast where this vehicle could be seen by those with the means and know how to take the idea and run with it. Well, the sprinting phase seems to be over. Except for the Sprint to save the world which is what this is completely, entirely, all about. That will end with my last breath. But the sprinting phase as it has been seems to be over. With the help and generosity and skill and kindness of so many people this being written from the southwest United States, San Diego, it is completed in Phase 1. And coincidentally this miraculous vehicle is now completed. With regenerative braking it is now absolutely a fun vehicle with many fewer incidents that terrorized me, to travel in. There are few climbs that can stop it. And The Descendants from steep grades which were horrible brake melting, vehicle crushing events are now something that recharge the batteries effortlessly  descend  at 15 miles per hour! Game-changing. And those of you that stepped forward with material Financial contributions when it became apparent that this vehicle was so outmatched by the mountains on the coast you enabled the stored battery power to be doubled and there are now few climbing situations that it can't handle. Maybe none. It has been the entire purpose of this vehicle to be seen to try and awaken people's hearts to the possibility of averting a otherwise certain horrible future for the children. That remains 100% of the mission. But the new phase is a move from a arduous Sprint to something I don't remember how to anymore because it has been so many decades, follow my interests and curiosity in the world. As I have written recently I'm aware that my intimate relationship with nature has cooled dramatically. This may be okay but I'm not sure. After some important work to improve the solar generating capability with wiring and a new controller that may be completed tomorrow, the Palm Springs, Joshua Tree area campgrounds become the new initial destination. If my nervous system responds I will linger and try and have my connection with creation reignite. The vehicle got to be seen these last 14 months by sprinting the various locations. For the months that I see ahead it will also be seen but by Meandering to spiritually significant locations to my nervous system primarily. Interesting. My gratitude to those who have contributed to this Mission will never waver.