NOTICE. IMPORTANT:
1. This vid contains monumentally important information for me. For us all.
2. SO IMPORTANT that I Transcribed it.Took ALL DAY! Argh. UPDATES in the transcription, sooooo
3. Read the SUBTITLES, and use the video ONLY to check my demeanor. PAUSE, when needed.
4. I love you, forever, no matter what (no, there is nothing sinister or spooky in that, or cryptic, tho I'm sure it may seem otherwise.) Remember that. NO MATTER WHAT.
5. Do I claim, feel, embrace "perfect" knowledge in any of this? NO. Clarity, YES.
6. THIS IS NOT ABOUT YOU, OR ME. SOMETHING MUCH, MUCH, MUCH BIGGER. WE ARE JUST PLAYING PARTS IN IT.
7. IF you watch it, watch TO THE END. Or don't watch. OK?
I am in a world of my own, well, the world that Jesus inhabited, and a few others. I am, so I am in a different World than you. You've known this all along, more and more as time went on. Jesus Died to get us all into that world. Me too, however long I have.
Why? Because I don't love those in the other world? Because I Love those stuck in the other world more than I love my own avatar. That's why.
But it will often, usually, near always seem otherwise. That I disparage, look down on, dismiss, disrespect, reject.... Oh well.
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As is almost always the case, the extensive reading that I
do does not change me, in the sense that it does not send me in a new direction,
though in a sense I'm yearning to be sent in a different direction, because that
would suggest I've been on the wrong track and that there's a right track to be
found, and that could bring the hope of me becoming more impactful, because so
far I'm not impactful at all.
But no, when I read the greatest minds in history that I can
find, those that have shown the most promise of causing the revolution away
from ecocide, away from insanity, away from affloholism, away from walking
death, when I read those great minds I find only affirmation; and this is true of
the tremendously long book that I've been studying for the last couple of
weeks, because that's how long it is taking get through. (Argh).
I find it, I find it exhausting. I find it exhausting in significant part
because it's so exhaustive.
Dominic Crossan is
considered by many to be the preeminent Biblical scholar to date on the subject
of the historical Jesus. I read one of his books a dozen years ago the title
being The Historical Jesus, something like that, and the one I'm reading now is
called the Birth of Christianity. It is his attempt to understand what happened
in the first 20 or 30 years after jesus' death.
His methodology pretty well starts with historical
anthropology. Not with Jesus, but with historical anthropology. What was going on in the day? What were the
political issues, what were the forces
acting on people, what was their Life like? If you want to understand what Gandhi
thought, what he thought was the greatest revolutionary in the history of
humankind, the man Jesus, you better read this book.
Now as always I am
inspired by such a book, not to take it as dogma, or doctrine, but to see the
direction that the author is looking;
and I often find my eyes gazing further than even the author did. So I take
some license here but I don't apologize for my farsightedness, for my vision
has been the basis of any success I've had in life; and by objective measures
I've had quite a bit of success.
Jesus was a primordial scream, against the status quo of the
day. He pitted his entire being to be a different way, to be a gateway to a
different way To be a different way for everyone? Immediately? Never was his
thought it would be for everyone. It seems that early on it was his thought
that it (the Father's Kingdom) would come in a flash, in an instant, He
believed that john the Baptist was announcing that. But when john was killed,
instead of (John) ushering in an age, Jesus saw that the only way that the
kingdom was going to come was in the way that people LIVED; in the way that
they were, in the TYPE of Being that they were, in the worldview that they had
and lived; and the essence of that view was Family, Universal Family, my term.
The abomination, the abortion, that is the token, fig leaf, that today's church uses, the the
eucharist, the bread and wine, that was, in Jesus' acts, in his central
teaching; that was the family meal!!!!!! (The full meal for everyone!) Yes,
that was the Family meal, the non-biological family meal. (That was, WAS, the Revolution – THAT ALL WERE
FAMILY, NOT COMMERCIAL (ROMAN) ENTITIES TO BE COMMERCIALIZED. FAMILY).
I'm not yet clear, I have some pages left on the book, I'm
not yet clear whether the historical record says that that was a daily meal, a
weekly meal, but it, for the destitute (WAS THEIR MAJOR MEAL, WHICH, WITHOUT A
FAMILY, THEY’D NOT GET), and Jesus was among them, destitute, not poor,
destitute, that's the history; Jesus was not some “middle class” carpenter; he
was lower than the tenant farmers, socially and economically; carpenters were
those that couldn't get jobs as tenant farmers, let alone farmers.
And this was an ever evolving phenomenon, (THE CENTRAL PHENOMENON),
that people were being forced off their generational
Land by the ROMAN form of capitalism, commercialization!
Jesus' life and teachings were centrally a revolutionary
stand, a revolutionary cry, against the inhumanity of that; no we are family, we
are all family(!!!); and what family owns, all in the family are entitled to,
IF they work, if they do their part. He had 12 that he barely considered part
of his Family. He was family TO everyone, but he considered only 12 to be on
the same, approaching the same planet, the same world that he was in. His
family.
“Who are my brothers and who my mother? Those who revere and
obey the will of my father, conscience, Heart, Soul. My family are those for
whom the world, is that.
I'm dying of cancer and unless they can cure me. There's a chance that the tumors have
actually grown (during the chemo a) they sometimes do on chemo, in which case
what I have will be inoperable. I'll know in a couple three weeks. There's a
chance the tumors will have stayed the same size and shrunk, in which case
they'll still be operable.
There is zero complaint, or rebuke, in what I'm sharing
here. There was no complaint, or rebuke, when Jesus indicated - My only family are
ones that are on the same planet I'm on, (in the same World). He was stating a fact, not a rebuke. Not a
dissing, not condemnation; a fact! How can your Family be people that live in a
different world?
I'm dying of cancer and no one except for Bruce has been in
my life for weeks. It's really stunning! (LOL!) I'm trying to remember if I
sent an e-mail saying that, to those that were in my life - I think you're all
dog dirt! I hate you, I never want to hear from you again! LOL! But I don't remember sending an e-mail like
that! :-) Those were in my life in one way or another, what they're realizing
consciously or unconsciously is what I'm saying. I'm in a different world, I'm
on a different planet; I'm on a different wave length; because I've worked
really hard to get here; it's heaven.
And offends them, (bores them), it worries them, it threatens them, (insults
them), it makes them fearful, it makes
them feel offended, (alienated from me, disinterested...). This is
understandable!
This is how people reacted to Jesus (mostly many of those
closest to him). And I'm walking the path that He walked. It couldn't be any
other way.
Well, let's see, it is almost 9am and I'm not asleep; and
the last to 11 days I'd get up at six when they serve a decent breakfast (in
the homeless Infirmary) where I am (dinner is tragically inedible), and think,
'oh boy, I'm ready for the day, and within half and hour I'm asleep for another
4 hours having slept all night. :-( So
it's possible that after 11 days I'm coming out from underneath these deadly
chemicals that they feed me, that just... take away all my strength; I guess
they put all my strength into trying to
survive the chemicals. Too early to tell but it might be I'll have two more
normal days and then on August 15 I get more chemicals.
One kind soul, not
Family, but a nice fellow, the other day I think, got the idea that he was
worried about me being ‘down,’ that I was in a bad place, or a dangerous place.
Anyone that has looked in my posts knows that I'm in a desperately unhappy
place, for the world, my grief, my sorrow, my despair, my pain.
In Hunger Games, when Rue was killed, everyone could watch
her being killed, everyone on that planet, in that time, could watch her being
killed. One set of people watched that as morbid entertainment. A small set of
people watched that in utter horror, her
family, her town, her district. Some would say, the people in the city in Hunger Games would say, they(the
observers in the city), were the lucky
ones, they didn't feel so bad.
I don't, I don't view it that way. I would want to feel like
the people in her district did. I would want that pain. I would want that
outrage. They (in the district) were the ones that were alive, the people in
the city were dead.
We Americans are the people of that city. I work, to be
alive in that way, which is the only way to be alive. I work to be alive. There's
nothing morbid in that; there's nothing masochistic in that. I prefer absence
of pain for me, but more than that I prefer being aLive.
So this kind fellow that reached out (seeing posts that
worried him I was 'down'), 'where are you,’ (he's from the DC area?) I told him
very honestly, 'you misunderstand. I'm not in a bad place; I'm in an extremely
good place, I'm learning, it's extremely painful, but I'm learning. I'm putting
myself here, (in this place, ( :-( ,
with the help of the cancer), because I need to learn; I'm not yet what the
world needs from me.
So the people, of the few that have been wonderful in my
life, they have been absent at such an odd time, LOL, when I'm going thru chemo! (LOL).
This is not some veiled outcry, that I need you, that you
should feel bad. No. Truth, is God. God is Truth. God is how things are. God is the foundation on which we can stand!!!
Truth.
This is wonderful to see the clarity (for us to see that we
are NOT Family); that I am on a planet, (in a world...), of one (or, a
miniscule few). Jesus was only a planet
of 12, and I'm certainly no Jesus, LOL, as someone told me recently (to be
nasty); but his (Jesus') path is the one that I walk. I'm on a planet, (in a
World,) of one.
Of course there are a few exceptions! I think often of Lucas
4:q8, (that Alexandria VA) group that feeds (we homeless) on weekends. They
seem so close to Universal Family. Universal Family is my Family.
Others that have been close to me, do I now feel distant
from you? Oh my goodness no! but it's
such a wonderful opportunity (for us all) to see the clarity (with those who
have been close totally dropping me at this time. LOL); of what different worlds we're in.
And if I'm in the
Correct World, if I'm in the world of joy; the world that saves the individual
and could have saved the planet, and I am, in that world, then the clarity that
I stand alone, (apart), there, presents the possibility of others recognizing
that world, and making a choice.
"I came not to bring peace, Jesus said, " but to
divide with a sword. A surgeon divides with a sword, hopefully will divide me with a sword! (LOL), to separate what is
cancerous from that which is healthy. I try to be a sword to myself, with great
success, cutting out the cancerous
self-centeredness that I hate, leaving the healthy tissue of unity, of Universal Family, that I crave, that you crave, but you've forgotten
(if the shoe does not fit, NEVER WEAR IT.)
