So bathed in corruption is my life, every day. What do I do?

This is a horrible question that faces me and one that I am so grateful for. Not alive would I be if I did not let it grip me. 

Sitting at the moment in a McDonald's drinking a 75 cent senior coffee. Using Google News, google drenched in blood and evil. Picking up products
yesterday shipped by Amazon, Jeff pesos a twisted corrupt evil creature. Eating meat products, slaughtering my kin the cows that I pass. The packaging, the plastic waste....... The list is endless for James.

does James feel guilty? No. Sad. Desperate to do less harm in the future than he is doing now. 

 A very fond thought is to Come up at the end of this mission possibly, make a life priority doing far less damage materially. 

The difficulty with that is, is that the best way for you to serve James? You would have to withdraw from the world so much more. 

the answer is not yet clear. 

An on going problem to learn to solve better every day. 

Diet, food, calories is the central problem for James. If Indian restaurants, vegan, vegetarian restaurants or food choices were available everywhere that would be a tremendous help. But they are not.

Afterthought. Was this Central in the calculation of the ancients monks of Europe? That they had no moral alternative beside withdrawing from the evil? Not to get away from it, but so as not to participate in it, perpetuate it, feed it?