James, how are you doing? My reply: Staying on this side of suicide, well on this side of suicide. My friend replied, what's that mean? I find.... N

James, how are you doing? My reply:  Staying on this side of suicide, well on this side of suicide. My friend replied, what's that mean?  I find.... this world twice is unbearable today as yesterday and each day is the same progression. The evil is mind-boggling. Living on the Titanic as it goes down. It's hard. But I find meaning and joy in doing my best to help others. Hugs

Honest question. Do I personally know anyone that values goodness, Loving in action, above everything else? Only four? Three others borderline?

Honest question. Do I personally know anyone that values goodness, Loving in action, above everything else? Only four? Three others borderline?

My sense is that the most Godly on Earth are the Jews, the least Godly the zionists. Next most Godly the Muslims. Least Godly the Christians. Satan's Army, the Christians. Yes I stand by this. Are you blind?

My sense is that the most Godly on Earth are the Jews, the least Godly the zionists. Next most Godly the Muslims. Least Godly the Christians. Satan's Army, the Christians. Yes I stand by this. Are you blind?

Have I yet to meet a person dying to be the revolution? Actually, maybe yes. Maybe among some Jehovah's Witnesses. Maybe among some LDS. Among liberals? Probably not.

Have I yet to meet a person dying to be the revolution? Actually, maybe yes. Maybe among some Jehovah's Witnesses. Maybe among some LDS. Among liberals? Probably not.

Update. I have so much to learn. Over a month now in Joshua Tree area. Totally unexpected. Between launching what I expect to be the rest of.....

Update. I have so much to learn. Over a month now in Joshua Tree area. Totally unexpected. Between launching what I expect to be the rest of..... my life's work, the LSGIABeing.com, fishing for it, and learning how to stabilize and maintain my trusted steed Sol, the vehicle, I remain here for probably yet another month. LSGIA Being, my new and highly improved Northstar, how to follow it, so much. It is possible that at horrible expense the vehicle is within days of being stabilized as a reliable vehicle. But such costly days, spent on a machine instead of on Humanity. The distraction from creating the website is very painful, but pain that is appropriate to endure. Today a new wheel is installed in the vehicle.  Much creation and Engineering is now required to make it durable  and sufficiently Powerful. But progress is being made.  So painful, but I think unavoidable. James

PS. Within recent weeks or even months I have sought the assistance of alcohol. Often in the evening I will consume the equivalent of 3 beers to shut down my system. I do not know if this is good or bad. I'm concerned that it is bad. But it gives me rest that I feel is beneficial so I continue the practice. But I am watching it and I'm not sure that it is a good idea.

It is hard, for me anyway, to love someone in action for most of one's life and have it not reciprocated. It happens....

It is hard, for me anyway, to love someone in action for most of one's life and have it not reciprocated. It happens.... all the time I'm sure. But it is something my mind can't wrap around. But what has finally after 66 years wrapped around on my mind is that, James, this person accepts you in their life but does not want you in their life. 66 years. Half of that in this relationship. But only in the last day or so have I understood this. Of course I want to give that person their space. I just didn't understand it clearly enough until now, my fault, or no one's fault, but I understand it clearly enough now. And there are others, but to a lesser degree. I did not understand. Oh well, turns out you can't teach an old dog new tricks.