To an acquaintance that has some familiarity with my writing and work of the last year: "It is odd to me that no one understands I have always fought to win. With every.....

To an acquaintance that has some familiarity with my writing and work of the last year: "It is odd to me that no one understands I have always fought to win. With every breath I fight to win and that includes seeing how the victory can be achieved through my action despite how infinitesimally likely that is. In my entire adulthood I have never allowed myself the luxury fighting without a vision that is reality based in how Victory can be achieved thereby. This could be the entirety of why I fight alone." The fellow replied, respectfully and kindly, in a way that suggests he found what I said ridiculous. As near as I can tell everyone finds what I write and say ridiculous at the core. A superficial level many people like it. But at the deeper level at which I try to operate, ridiculous.  "If at first the idea is not absurd, and has no hope." Albert Einstein