Maybe I've never shared this, among the most important gifts I've ever received. About 15 years ago I......

Maybe I've never shared this, among the most important gifts I've ever received. About 15 years ago I embarqed toward the journey that has captured me ever since. Leaving the ways of our culture, 180 degrees in the opposite direction, from working to make rich people richer, like me, to lived solidarity from the soul serving our neediest sisters and brothers. It was Joyful from the start. There was never, has never been, the tiniest portion of a instant when I've been other than overjoyed with this total change of direction. It is pretty much muscle memory for me now, but not so at the beginning. It could not have been. It was natural for me, I think it is the natural path we were all born to. But our sick culture strips us away from that path, thinking it virtue to do so to its children, and puts us on exactly the opposite, exactly the wrong path. And we gain muscle memory for that and our nervous system literally and actually atrophies for the correct path. So it takes tremendous work and experience for that to be recreated. Really in my departure on this path I found it useful to imagine that there is a creator of us all, a parent figure that unconditionally loves us all. For me then and now God is love, life, and Truth. Period.  People like Teresa and Gandhi said the same, and most if not all of those who throughout history I Revere lived the same. That was an understanding in my head but it was also something more and more clearly felt in my spirit. It became tangible for me in that way. I had a wonderful warm feeling, tremendous peace, each moment that I experienced myself as in creators will. And then I received the gift. From my earliest memories I was obsessed with the female form and all things sexual toward that form. For most of my decades, carefully taught by my culture in a trillion ways, I thought that virtue. I was carefully addicted to all of the lists that our society worships but I'll speak of this one for the moment. The gift I received was in the form of a question that came to my mind, as I was following my inclination to admire a shapely female form, the question came to me, is that that you are now starting to direct your attention toward, is that toward or away from God? The answer was instantaneous for me, instantly and comfortably clear, away from. Yes, I can hear the chorus arguing otherwise. I'm speaking what I experienced then, and with every breath since. The answer for me was instantaneous, that's away from being a vessel for love, life, and Truth. It is turning away from love, toward lust, toward my selfish inclinations, away from serving the neediest from the soul in solidarity. It was then instantly clear to me that turning away from the pure Spirit of love, life, and Truth, was not the choice I wanted to make then. And it has never been the choice since then that I have wanted to make, in any instant. Experientially for me it is not about right and wrong. It is not about guilt or not being guilty. It certainly has nothing to do with an afterlife in which I have zero belief. For me it is simply a matter of now having a mechanism that enables me to pursue Joy rather than pleasure, Joy being infinitely more gratifying in any and every moment then pleasure. I don't know that this could make sense to anyone beside me. Or maybe everyone beside me learned it much earlier and knows that much better. I don't know that it can be helpful to anyone beside me. But it has saved me from wasting even moments on Pleasure when there was an infinite Divine banquet of Joy there before me,   and before all of us I believe, with every breath we take. But it is all but completely obscured behind the Avalanche, the ocean, the universe, love sick country messages inundating us from our pathological, suicidal, malignant culture telling us exactly the opposite. So without mechanisms such as I just mentioned it is almost impossible to choose the joyful path from moment to moment.. James

A common love, reverence and awe as the man Jesus possessed, such as the people of love and reverence and awe almost universally have for the man Jesus, is uniting some of us above all other obvious divisions, such as my appearance. I've been.......

A common love, reverence and awe as the man Jesus possessed, such as the people of love and reverence and awe almost universally have for the man Jesus, is uniting some of us above all other obvious divisions, such as my appearance. I've been encountering it over and over in my  Voyage Through the South and I've been writing of it. I never expected to see it, or to personally experience it. But undeniably I am these recent weeks. My brother David says I may be playing some role in that. I don't see it. I don't understand it. But I hope I am. I want to more than anything else in the world. Nothing else will save us, in Jesus name, or no name at all. A mass Awakening of the humanity that Jesus embodied is the only thing that can give our children, grandchildren, all species in the future, a future worth living.  I Think Jesus said something like what has overwhelmed and possessed my life, 'I came to bring a fire and oh how I wish it were raging.'

EFLIUS Day 43: Okay, the joke's over. I'm ready for this to stop. The chain snapped and......

EFLIUS Day 43: Okay, the joke's over. I'm ready for this to stop. The chain snapped and the vehicle is marooned here in beautiful country in the middle of absolutely nowhere in terms of access to a bike store, Walmart, a hardware store with a bike chain.... The good news is a kindly and very expert bikeguy about 4 weeks ago thought to give me a chain repair kit. The bad news is that the pieces that join the repaired chain are the wrong size which I figured out after an hour of trying to get the chain together. Using the phone of an elderly farmer and his wife who so kindly stopped with this ragamuffin weird looking guy. They let me use the phone. Offered to transport the vehicle and the truck but it was too small. Did I mention that I'm literally 40 miles away from any place where my cell phone, or internet access might work? That ended about 3 o'clock in the afternoon yesterday. Oddly, at 4 this morning the 2G Wi-Fi was able to send a few things. Currently I'm in a small restaurant recharging batteries, eating at the buffet, recharging the body,  using the Wi-Fi. I anticipate sleeping sitting up in the Food Lion parking lot the next two nights. I hope the police have a sense of humor. The farmer went around the bend to a fellow he knew and arranged for me to charge my batteries, depleted after a 3000 foot, six hour climb. Charged the batteries for 2 hours talking to the extremely Charming couple. Everyone said, the climbing is behind you. Then there was another 1200 feet, huge. I'm exhausted. Marooned here until late Monday afternoon when parts arrive via UPS. Another $50 bled. This is a town of 400. There is one stop light. It is the only stoplight in the entire huge County. I am not deriding it. It's wonderful. It's just hell for my current situation. There is a hotel, $100 a night. That's not going to happen. I'm so tired. I'll be fine. I'm ready for the jokes to stop stop. this is Trivial trivial trivial trivial in comparison with the people that are really suffering. But yes, I'm ready for the jokes to stop.

Does conservative all too often mean, holding......

Does conservative all too often mean,  holding on to traditions of profound evil hateful selfishness years,  decades or even centuries longer than liberals? Does liberal near always mean, Lip-service not Life-service? {yes.  No? Have you liquidated and returned every cent of your liberal white economic  privilege,  built on the backs of black slaves, and on native American genocide?)

Racism is when, even for one breath, even for one sentence, one word, one thought, one tiny act, you value others less than those of your race. Bigotry, discrimination, are when you do so based on any demographic.

Racism is when, even for one breath, even for one sentence, one word, one thought,  one tiny act, you value others less than those of your race. Bigotry,  discrimination, are when you do so based on any demographic.

The hope is, there is profound commonality between conservative and liberal , secular and religious, values. The problem is, both sides, use their values as mortal weapons, clubs, words to gain access to their respective mobs so that they can overpower the other side, rather than something to live by without excuse.

The hope is, there is profound commonality between conservative and liberal , secular and religious, values. The problem is, both sides, use their values as mortal weapons, clubs, words to gain access to their respective mobs so that they can overpower the  other side, rather than something to live by without excuse.

Jesus' Miracle, the miracle of Jesus, was his unconditional love, Universal family , solidarity with all of creation, specially the neediest. I don't know......

Jesus' Miracle, the miracle of Jesus, was his unconditional love, Universal family , solidarity with all of creation, specially the neediest. I don't know if Christianity, Christians, are blind to this or if they hate it, or both. But from the very beginning what they have done is absolutely bury the miracle of Jesus underneath worldly Miracles they made up and sell in his name. The rare exceptions prove the rule. For the vast majority it is not lies that they tell intentionally. Someone I have never heard of blindsided me with an email the other day, you belittle Jesus, I was told. No. The church for 2000 years belittles Jesus, obscures, perverts, burries, distorts, Jesus. Not I.

EFLIUS Day 39: Hopefully Wednesday looks like a realistic departure on the 1700 mile, 33000 foot climb, to North Dakota. Pretty.....

EFLIUS Day 39: Hopefully Wednesday looks like a realistic departure on the 1700 mile, 33000 foot climb, to North Dakota. Pretty dangerous. Pretty good mission. I'm absolutely bleeding money into this vehicle. It's all appropriate. I just don't have it. Nothing left for warm clothes and food. when I set out I thought I'd be in Florida by now. It went down to 48 degrees last night. I found out that my sleeping bag is good to about 50. LOL. Maybe you have friends that would like to contribute. I'll press on regardless. I'm really glad for the mission. Some wonderful folks have taken me in and helped me repair the vehicle. But it has been agony being marooned for 3 weeks now.... < if there is a true activist alive today, I know that individual, and that individual just asked how they can contribute. I sensed you were in trouble. How can I help?" They already contribute everything they have and everything they are to the world's neediest. This was my reply>: Start_loving@yahoo.com, but not from you! How many times did I tell you you can't take a transfusion from your left arm and put it into your right arm? LOL. See if you can shame some of your friends into it. PayPal works with the email address, and pop money. With the email address. Western Union also works. Western Union is more difficult because apparently they need to know what state you're in. If my current schedule holds I should be in West Virginia by this weekend, and Ohio early next week. But we still could hit a snag with the vehicle. It has been totally not operational for two weeks +.  Dead. The factory owner is so freaking psychotic that when at the suggestion of one of their employees I showed up with it at their site for a two-hour repair I would gladly have paid through the nose for they said, get this off the property. You are two months out of warranty. Get this off the property.  Organic Transit, Durham North Carolina. $200 in repair has turned into $800 in new electrical system purchased and probably another $800 in donated labor and three weeks delay to the mission. Incredibly cruel. The vehicle will be much more durable now, much more durable, and I expect that it will be my vehicle, my boat, my solar Fusion bike car sailor, the free Palestine vehicle, for as many years as I can proceed. So in the long run it will pay off, but my credit cards are hemorrhaging to death. If I can get past the next three months I'll be okay, but it's pretty tight right now..... A wonderful family has taken me in, and he is a world-class expert in large Plant automation Electronics. But not in ebike so there has been much learning and trial and error. And the experts in the field are nice folks but they like designing and selling but not helping so much. But it appears that the worst is behind us and tomorrow things may wrap up. They have just been incredible in unflinchingly supporting me for weeks now. They are a North Carolina Southern conservative family while they both are professional people, he is former Army, and I have learned a tremendous amount by being here.... There may not be many families in the South that would have taken me in, but there would be fewer families in the north that would take me in,   and way more that would help me,  in the south. There may be families in the South that will kill me, and possibly fewer in the north that would. LOL. My incredible activist friend also asked about, what about a bus ticket to ND, put the vehicle in storage? My reply:  The vehicle is really Central to my work. The voyage is Central to my work. I'm sure of that. It can draw, it does draw, so much positive attention to Palestine, global warming, renewable energy,  North Dakota,  Loving,  Universal Family. No, the journey is everything. 'You are right,' my friend said.