### This is a big f****** deal. We have never loved our children. Not in my lifetime have we loved our children. Not in the last century did we Americans love our children. Have we ever in America loved our children? A moral tenant for......

### This is a big f****** deal. We have never loved our children. Not in my lifetime have we loved our children. Not in the last century did we Americans love our children. Have we ever in America loved our children? A moral tenant for me until recent months has been that at least the prior generation loved their children, meaning, they would gladly give their lives for them. This is not true. This is a lie. I have built much of my understanding on this life. Why do I say this? My parents generation that I have held up as the Paragon, the greatest generation, they fed us into the Vietnam War Machine. They demonized us for fighting the Vietnam War Machine. Why? Their own selfish interests. They would lose their jobs. They would lose their standing. They would lose their comforts. World War One. How were we so easily seduced? We fed our children by the millions into the killing machine. Why? We didn't love our children. We loved our jobs. We loved our status. We loved our illusions National Supremacy period did we ever love our children? We love the idea of our children. We love the idea of loving our children. We love how our children make us feel when they are very very young, and sometimes older. That is lust, that is not love. Yes there are one in a million, rare, exceptions, and by their very existence they prove the almost total rule. One of my last shreds of hope that we were a species worth saving has just gone down in flames. What are the implications for me and my missions, what are the implications for my behavior? I know what will not change for me, it will continue that for the greedy Joy of it I will continue to devote every breath in attempted alignment with Creator, and the attempt to  fight alongside creator for the world as it should be, not as it is, a world of needless suffering, and near total absence of joy,  near total absence of unconditional, Universal loving. This is simply who I want to be. Everything else is what I wish not to be any longer. And I know in doing this that there is the slightest chance that the one in a million today or ten Generations from now might receive the slightest bit of encouragement and/or inspiration from the pitiful example I attempt to give now, and that is enough. Had those one-in-a-million in prior Generations not done what they did that which I value in my life would not exist for me today. That's how it works. If somehow the numbers changed and instead of one in a million it was 2, 5, 10, 1000 then the course of history could change. That's the only way that history can change for the positive. That's the only Revolution and it looks like we will never try it.