***** I'll write again that the last several months I sense that I have made a huge leap in my understanding of the essentials. I detest dogma, this should be well known. I detest following words without understanding deeply the underlying meaning. For me, this is the norm in the Catholic Church which was my early background. I have found the notion of, seeing Jesus in everyone, revolting. It makes no sense to me, it has never been explained to me in any way that makes any sense. But if there is any sense to be made of such things, it came to me on my 35k journey among the less affluent, the less educated, the less advantaged .... What occurred to me first was that I was seeing in people for the first time in many many years, occasionally, a sense of awe, a sense of wonder at important things in life. This quickly brought me to the notion that as newborn infants, and in our first months of life, this awe, this wonder, this profound humility... Is central to our nature. I further then realized that we all have that experience. That, now, is what I understand to be the correct meaning of Holy Spirit, the divine within us. And I can now see that in virtually everyone that in earliest childhood, that holy spirit existed, and still potentially exists if it is brought back to memory, and most importantly, if it is brought to reign within us.

***** I'll write again that the last several months I sense that I have made a huge leap in my understanding of the essentials. I detest dogma, this should be well known. I detest following words without understanding deeply the underlying meaning. For me, this is the norm in the Catholic Church which was my early background. I have found the notion of, seeing Jesus in everyone, revolting. It makes no sense to me, it has never been explained to me in any way that makes any sense. But if there is any sense to be made of such things, it came to me on my 35k journey among the less affluent, the less educated, the less advantaged .... What occurred to me first was that I was seeing in people for the first time in many many years, occasionally, a sense of awe, a sense of wonder at important things in life. This quickly brought me to the notion that as newborn infants, and in our first months of life, this awe, this wonder, this profound humility... Is central to our nature. I further then realized that we all have that experience. That, now, is what I understand to be the correct meaning of Holy Spirit, the divine within us. And I can now see that in virtually everyone that in earliest childhood, that holy spirit existed, and still potentially exists if it is brought back to memory, and most importantly, if it is brought to reign within us.