I OD'd on meds last night. :-( Overwhelmed at the world. Loving (Serving from the Soul in Solidarity), each hour, as best I can see, is all that makes sense to me - my would-be Religion; there is none other as High. I'm a life-long night-teeth-grinder beyond what dentists have ever seen, while I sleep. Within the last week the symptom they long feared for me has blossomed - '8-9' level pain of TMJ joint muscle spasm starting about 1 hour after I go to sleep - may have been triggered by work my dentist is doing, whatever. He prescribed 800mg Ibupropen that doesn't TOUCH the pain - but 1600 mg does! But I figured there would be something bad as a result of doubling the already large dose - and I was as weak as a kitten all day today, bedridden. Looks like hours of '9' level pain each night for me going forward. Not fun. I'm really overwhelmed by how near totally evil the world is - yes my overprivileged friends - 'near totally' - including our consumption levels at tens to hundreds of times what half our brothers and sisters can even imagine; my own included. I'm trying to see a way thru, even theoretically, for us as a species were we to be open to the Path - regarding ecocide, animal cruelty, human destitution, oppression by the disgustingly over-privileged; the cowardly, insane denial of the liberals as to the price they must pay to match their rhetoric; mass US incarceration; chronic psychic starvation of the US poor.... The list of our systemic evils is sooooooooo long. I think there may be no 'answer' to any of these things, other than individually,, pitifully, 'Loving the global neediest,' as much per hour, as one can, as inadequate and pitiful as it may be - with as many of us, as fast as possible, reaching world-class standards of this Loving, Giving, Self-Giving. If there is a 2nd aspect to the solution I think it is Supporting the Practitioners of that Religion of Loving (Serving the Global Neediest, from the Soul, in Solidarity).

I OD'd on meds last night.  :-(  Overwhelmed at the world.  Loving (Serving from the Soul in Solidarity), each hour, as best I can see, is all that makes sense to me - my would-be Religion; there is none other as High.  I'm a life-long night-teeth-grinder beyond what dentists have ever seen, while I sleep.  Within the last week the symptom they long feared for me has blossomed - '8-9' level pain of TMJ joint muscle spasm starting about 1 hour after I go to sleep - may have been triggered by work my dentist is doing, whatever.  He prescribed 800mg Ibupropen that doesn't TOUCH the pain - but 1600 mg does! But I figured there would be something bad as a result of doubling the already large dose - and I was as weak as a kitten all day today, bedridden.  Looks like hours of '9' level pain each night for me going forward.  Not fun.  I'm really overwhelmed by how near totally evil the world is - yes my overprivileged friends - 'near totally' - including our consumption levels at tens to hundreds of times what half our brothers and sisters can even imagine; my own included.  I'm trying to see a way thru, even theoretically, for us as a species were we to be open to the Path - regarding ecocide, animal cruelty, human destitution, oppression by the disgustingly over-privileged; the cowardly, insane denial of the liberals as to the price they must pay to match their rhetoric; mass US incarceration; chronic psychic starvation of the US poor.... The list of our systemic evils is sooooooooo long.  I think there may be no 'answer' to any of these things, other than individually,, pitifully, 'Loving the global neediest,' as much per hour, as one can, as inadequate and pitiful as it may be - with as many of us, as fast as possible, reaching world-class standards of this Loving, Giving, Self-Giving.  If there is a 2nd aspect to the solution I think it is Supporting the Practitioners of that Religion of Loving (Serving the Global Neediest, from the Soul, in Solidarity).