- Bruce: Missed you today [on my Sat run delivering food to my Homeless Family]! Saw Hawk and Len. They are concerned about you! You could see it in their eyes. That stretch of street is not the same without you there. Let me know how things are going. I still haven't been able to find that tester together. Remember - here's our / your, home address - xxx xxxxxxxxxx, Hyattsville, xx.
Loving: I'm in chemo prison. I can't say that this incarceration is a bad thing. I have time, when not in 14 hours per day of sleep, , to study, pray, study, read.... It is way more of blessing than a curse. Bless your heart for remembering my need of the volt/amp meter to see if my solar panel is working properly, or extremely faulty. So glad you brought it up. That group, that in its own way, has been Family to me as you and Kath have been, the Lucas 4:18 group, one of them tried to help with the meter, and her thoughts sent me searching further and for $5 on Amazon, vs $50 at Radio Shack, presented what I need, and should be to me by late in the week.- cont
I really think you should watch this. http://jesusgodgoodetcnjay.blogspot.com/2013/07/history-chanel-doc-white-christian.html . It has not created in me what I am about to share, by any means. But what is in me is what caused me to go looking for it, and information like it, and it intensifies my clarity on what I'll share -
Loving: Btw, I'm deeply touched that Hawk and Len have positive feelings toward me. I have a deep affection and respect, Love, for them. Please, if you see them before I, tell them I am very well, nothing to be concerned with. LOL - what AC? Yes, there is some, but not much.
Bless your Hearts, I'll let you know about the food, but it is actually quite excellent here.
Loving
My story - I don't recall a day in my life that I've have felt like I belonged here in our culture. I feel totally at home on earth, but totally alien, every day of my life that I can recall, in the culture into which I was born, and have lived in all these years. I'm glad of that, now. I don't want to be part of it. I hate it. It is death. I think that for the rest of my days I'll intensify trying to remove myself from it, and it from me. I don't know how that will manifest itself. I don't know. But finding my way more and more the 'way out' of this living cancer we call 'western christian capitalist culture' is my sacred duty, for me, and that others might be helped to find their way better thru my stumblings. This may sound very depressing. What is depressing is the cancerous toxic stew that is our value system. Even greater clarity on my part to that, and even intensified attempt to find the way 'out' is only greater Joy, tho daunting, because it is so vast, urgent, of ultimate importance to all Creation, for me, for each of us; and time is up
.
I'm good with clothes. LOL. I need to learn to make my own clothes, simple, one set, as 'natural,' divorced from society, as possible. Don't know when and if that will happen, but it is much on my mind. I must 'leave' this deadly culture as meaningfully, quickly, fully... as I can. Please try and watch that documentary I linked to above. It is up to you.
7.13.2013
*****Dialog with Brother Bruce (detail) " I must 'leave' this deadly culture as meaningfully, quickly, fully... as I can...."
***** nd 'White christianity has been the steady march of destroying civilization in America and Africa, and in Asia. The Infection of christian capitalism is now ending all of Creation too.' Loving
***** nd 'White christianity has been the steady march of destroying civilization in America and Africa, and in Asia. The Infection of christian capitalism is now ending all of Creation too.' Loving
vid MHP Pisses on Snowden - "Shut up you ignorant slut,' Loving
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/07/13/melissa-harris-perry-edward-snowden_n_3592427.html
Note: Not that she should care, but MHP has now lost all of my respect, forever.
Huge intellect.
Huger arrogance.
Disgusting.
Totally lost touch with reality, or worse,
a government propaganda shill.
Note: Not that she should care, but MHP has now lost all of my respect, forever.
Huge intellect.
Huger arrogance.
Disgusting.
Totally lost touch with reality, or worse,
a government propaganda shill.
***** HISTORY CHANEL Doc: White christian Savagery and the American Indian
http://america.docuwat.ch/videos/500-nations/savagery-and-the-american-indian
High quality download here:
http://thepiratebay.sx/search/savagery%20american%20indian/0/99/0
NOTE: Use firefox browser and first install the Add-on AdBlockPlus and you won't see the porn adds.
https://addons.mozilla.org/en-us/firefox/addon/adblock-plus/
No pain, no gain.
High quality download here:
http://thepiratebay.sx/search/savagery%20american%20indian/0/99/0
NOTE: Use firefox browser and first install the Add-on AdBlockPlus and you won't see the porn adds.
https://addons.mozilla.org/en-us/firefox/addon/adblock-plus/
No pain, no gain.
nd 'Our Primary, Inescapable Function is that we Educate each other each day by how we live, before and long after our death. Get it right.' Loving
nd 'Our Primary, Inescapable Function is that we Educate each other each day by how we live, before and long after our death. Get it right.' Loving
TIME: Snowden claims legal duty based on Nazi-Nuremberg international law
TIME: Snowden claims legal duty based on Nazi-Nuremberg international law
Oh, and my comment on the article:
Article concludes: And if an implicit comparison between modern America and the Third Reich seems like a desperate measure, well, he’s a desperate man.
Oh, and my comment on the article:
Article concludes: And if an implicit comparison between modern America and the Third Reich seems like a desperate measure, well, he’s a desperate man.
SNOWDEN, PER GREENWALD: "The U.S. government should be on its knees every day begging that nothing happen to Snowden, because if something does happen to him, all the information will be revealed and it could be its worst nightmare."
SNOWDEN, PER GREENWALD: "The U.S. government should be on its knees every day begging that nothing happen to Snowden, because if something does happen to him, all the information will be revealed and it could be its worst nightmare."
http://wkzo.com/news/articles/2013/jul/13/snowden-documents-could-be-worst-nightmare-for-us-journalist/
http://wkzo.com/news/articles/2013/jul/13/snowden-documents-could-be-worst-nightmare-for-us-journalist/
nd 'The truth: costs everything to discover; impossible to share except with the one in 1,000,000 dying for it too.' Loving
nd 'The truth: costs everything to discover; impossible to share except with the one in 1,000,000 dying for it too.' Loving
China cancels planned uranium plant AFTER PROTESTS
China cancels planned uranium plant
China cancels plans to build a uranium plant the day after hundreds of protesters took to the streets of Jiangmen to oppose the 37-billion yuan project7.12.2013
***** vid INDUSTRY GETS BEHIND STOPPING GLOBAL WARMING. (MORE) 'GREATEST THREAT AND [BUS.] OPPORTUNITY FACING HUMANITY'
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Five
hundred businesses have signed the Climate Declaration, and many are
actively voicing their support for President Obama's new climate change
strategy. Watch this video to find out which familiar companies are
leading the way, and why they're doing ...
Snowden: "That moral decision to tell the public about spying that affects all of us has been costly, but it was the right thing to do and I have no regrets,"
Snowden: "That moral decision to tell the public about spying that affects all of
us has been costly, but it was the right thing to do and I have no
regrets,"
DECLARATION OF THE RIGHTS OF THE CHILD ... - Un
DECLARATION OF THE RIGHTS OF THE CHILD ... - Unicef
www.unicef.org/lac/spbarbados/Legal/global/.../declaration_child1959.p...
Universal Declaration of Human Rights and in the statutes of specialized agencies and international organizations concerned with the welfare of children,.Compare: Clapper 'Unscathed' After Lying About Surveillance ... Techdirt
Compare: Clapper 'Unscathed' After Lying About Surveillance ...
Techdirt-6 minutes ago
Earlier this month, we noted the contrast between Director of National Intelligence James Clapper and former NSA contractor Ed Snowden. Clapper, as you may ...
US warns Russia against giving Snowden a platform. New Straits Times
US warns Russia against giving Snowden a platform
New Straits Times-5 minutes ago
WASHINGTON: The United States on Friday warned Russia against giving fugitive leaker Edward Snowden a “propaganda platform” by letting him stay in the ...
***** SEEING AND ACTUALIZING WHAT IS MORAL, RIGHT, JUST... REQUIRES NO LESS OF A BRILLIANTLY CREATED, PREPARED, TRAINED MIND THAN CREATING A WORLD-CHANGING PAINTING, BOOK, PRODUCT, SCIENTIFIC BREAKTHRU...
***** SEEING AND ACTUALIZING WHAT IS MORAL, RIGHT, JUST... REQUIRES NO LESS OF A BRILLIANTLY CREATED, PREPARED, TRAINED MIND THAN CREATING A WORLD-CHANGING PAINTING, BOOK, PRODUCT, SCIENTIFIC BREAKTHRU...
With all my might, with all my heart, I pray that the prediction of a crash of the US and there for the world economy, is correct and soon. Nothing, nothing, nothing... Else, nothing less, will save creation now from our cruel, deadly, insane orgy of personal earth rape and plunder
With all my might, with all my heart, I pray that the prediction of a crash of the US and there for the world economy, is correct and soon. Nothing, nothing, nothing... Else, nothing less, will save creation now from our cruel, deadly, insane orgy of personal earth rape and plunder
posted from Bloggeroid
Cancer update: I think I feel this killing me...
... I don't know how else to explain the 10, 15, 18 hours per day of sleep that my body is requiring.
posted from Bloggeroid
What duty have I to obey laws or systems that are unlawful? Is it not my duty to ignore them? Is it not my duty to stand for justice and therefore to stand in the way of injustice?
What duty have I to obey laws or systems that are unlawful? Is it not my duty to ignore them? Is it not my duty to stand for justice and therefore to stand in the way of injustice?
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Washington Post: Snowden considers himself a patriot. I too consider him a patriot, of the US, of the world
https://news.google.com/news/url?sa=t&ct3=MAA4AEgCUABgAmoCdXPYAQE&usg=AFQjCNGy1zsHN3hXHQb7rdCXR2OLulMP0g&rt=STORY&url=[http://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/worldviews/wp/2013/07/12/russias-human-rights-commissioner-snowden-considers-himself-a-patriot/&ei=YSLgUajjIMTAgAf_rwE&sig2=KR5xghydctJZmecXZnho0g]
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Recessions make climate change costlier. Cost of carbon understated 3 to 5 times.
https://news.google.com/news/url?sa=t&ct3=MAA4A0gCUABgAWoCdXPYAQE&usg=AFQjCNHz8UyxFny8KrFDpJ4avoIMGeInQg&rt=HOMEPAGE&url=[http://www.guardian.co.uk/environment/climate-consensus-97-per-cent/2013/jul/12/climate-change-expensive-economy&ei=MN7fUfinOcTAgAf_rwE&sig2=pVnIMh0GO0nQcOlX6X1bOQ]
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7.11.2013
***** PBS: COMPLETE MKT MELTDOWN PREDICTED. THE MIRALCE THAT STOPPED ECOCIDE, THIS COULD BE. I'M PRAYING.
I SEE A GENUINE PRAYER FOR HUMANITY, FOR ALL OF CREATION, FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MANY MONTHS. PLEASE CREATOR, LET IT BE. LET WE
DEATH'S ROW AFFLOHOLICS BE ALLOWED TO
SMASH INTO BOTTOM, BEFORE THE CLOCK
RUNS OUT ON ALL OF HUMAN FUTURE -
ECOCIDE BY FOSSIL FUELS.
SURE, BILLIONS WILL SUFFER,
TODAY, AND 200 BILLION
KIDS WILL HAVE A
CHANCE AT A
FUTURE.
PLEASE GOD, LET IT BE.
LET IT BE...
LET THE CRASH BEGIN http://www.pbs.org/newshour/businessdesk/2013/07/ben-bernanke-as-easter-bunny-why-the-fed-cant-prevent-the-coming-crash.html
DEATH'S ROW AFFLOHOLICS BE ALLOWED TO
SMASH INTO BOTTOM, BEFORE THE CLOCK
RUNS OUT ON ALL OF HUMAN FUTURE -
ECOCIDE BY FOSSIL FUELS.
SURE, BILLIONS WILL SUFFER,
TODAY, AND 200 BILLION
KIDS WILL HAVE A
CHANCE AT A
FUTURE.
PLEASE GOD, LET IT BE.
LET IT BE...
LET THE CRASH BEGIN http://www.pbs.org/newshour/businessdesk/2013/07/ben-bernanke-as-easter-bunny-why-the-fed-cant-prevent-the-coming-crash.html
http://www.pbs.org/newshour/busi...
nd 'We have, we've been taught, the Wrong Dreams. It's killed us, it is killing Creation now, forever.' Loving
nd 'We have, we've been taught, the Wrong Dreams. It's killed us, it is killing Creation now, forever.' Loving
Our Sister Liz reminded me: When we are on Loving's side, the Creator, Loving, the Creator, is on Our Side
Our Sister Liz reminded me: When we are on Loving's side, the Creator, Loving, the Creator, is on Our Side
"Courage is more exhilarating than fear and in the long run it is easier. We do not have to become heroes overnight. Just a step at a time, meeting each thing that comes up, seeing it is not as dreadful as it appeared, discovering we have the strength to stare it down." -Eleanor Roosevelt, 1960
"Courage is more exhilarating than fear and in the long run it is easier. We do not have to become heroes overnight. Just a step at a time, meeting each thing that comes up, seeing it is not as dreadful as it appeared, discovering we have the strength to stare it down."
-Eleanor Roosevelt, 1960
http://ourpresidents.tumblr.com/post/12476033619/courage-is-more-exhilarating-than-fear-and-in-the
Cancer update - Rotten eggs
My bowel movement today I thought, wow, sulfur, rotten eggs! Then I saw this, didn't search for it, there it was...
Hydrogen Sulfide: Rotten Egg Smell A Player In Colon Cancer ...
Science 2.0-17 hours ago
Hydrogen sulfide, the pungent-smelling gas produced by rotten eggs, is a key player in colon cancer metabolism, and a potential target for ...
Now, the article says nothing about bowel movements...
***** Truth: Religion is the choice of a Fantasy, Mind-game. Necessary for Gandhi's. Necessary for Hate-monger-killers. Pretty important to get it right. I too find it indispensable, and an ultimate moral Duty to get it right, including, admitting that it is a Fantasy Mind Game/Device.' Loving
***** Truth: Religion is the choice of a Fantasy, Mind-game. Necessary for Gandhi's. Necessary for Hate-monger-killers. Pretty important to get it right. I too find it indispensable, and an ultimate moral Duty to get it right, including, admitting that it is a Fantasy Mind Game/Device.' Loving
7.10.2013
***** Snowden in Moscow: What Russian Authorities Might Be Doing with the NSA Whistleblower
Snowden in Moscow: What Russian Authorities Might Be Doing with the NSA Whistleblower
***** WTF??? NYT - Biney, NSA Whistlebower. HAVE YOU SEEN THIS????? SHARE IT?
http://query.nytimes.com/search/sitesearch/?vertical=video/#/biney
http://www.nytimes.com/video/2012/08/22/opinion/100000001733041/the-program.html
http://www.nytimes.com/video/2012/08/22/opinion/100000001733041/the-program.html
www.nytimes.com
The filmmaker Laura Poitras profiles William Binney, a 32-year veteran of the Na...See More
(detail) 'Loving, what you are going thru... and still, your Joy, Focus comes thru. How???' A Sister.
I paraphrased my Beloved Sister, her comment.
Just this last week this scripture came aLive for me - 'Do not fear those that can kill your body but not your Soul....'
I DON'T. I DON'T. I simply don't, now that I've Become Loving, I Don't, Loving Doesn't FEAR what can hurt the body! It isn't reckless, suicidal. But, LOVING IS NOT FLESH, THE BODY. LOVING IS SPIRIT. I'VE RETURNED TO BEING SPIRIT. SPIRIT DOES NOT FEAR THE DEATH OF ITS AVATAR. It seeks to avoid it, it doesn't want it, but it does not FEAR it, nor trouble itself about it.
Last week, related, I thought, and posted - If you could ONLY save, for your Dearest one, their Body, or their Spirit, what would you Save? SPIRIT, right? WE ARE SPIRIT. THAT WHICH WE ARE, THAT WHICH WE VALUE, IS, =, EQUALS... SPIRIT.
That's how it is with me.
Just this last week this scripture came aLive for me - 'Do not fear those that can kill your body but not your Soul....'
I DON'T. I DON'T. I simply don't, now that I've Become Loving, I Don't, Loving Doesn't FEAR what can hurt the body! It isn't reckless, suicidal. But, LOVING IS NOT FLESH, THE BODY. LOVING IS SPIRIT. I'VE RETURNED TO BEING SPIRIT. SPIRIT DOES NOT FEAR THE DEATH OF ITS AVATAR. It seeks to avoid it, it doesn't want it, but it does not FEAR it, nor trouble itself about it.
Last week, related, I thought, and posted - If you could ONLY save, for your Dearest one, their Body, or their Spirit, what would you Save? SPIRIT, right? WE ARE SPIRIT. THAT WHICH WE ARE, THAT WHICH WE VALUE, IS, =, EQUALS... SPIRIT.
That's how it is with me.
***** nd 'The, THE reason to be Loving, Meaningful Work, is the Supreme, Superior Joy of it. The GOOD it does others is Gravy.' Loving
***** nd 'The, THE reason to be Loving, Meaningful Work, is the Supreme, Superior Joy of it. The GOOD it does others is Gravy.' Loving
***** nd 'Our Major Human Duty is to Do, Lead to, and Create Meaningful Work for All. This is Loving, Agapeing.' Loving
***** nd 'Our Major Human Duty is to Do, Lead to, and Create Meaningful Work for All. This is Loving, Agapeing.' Loving
***** (detail) 'LOVING IS, EQUALS, MEANINGFUL WORK = LOVING. IT IS THE ONLY PURPOSE, ONLY JOY, FOR ANY AND EVERY BREATH WE ARE GIVEN.' Loving
I've been reading a lot of Albert Schweitzer lately, and today, Eleanor Roosevelt. Maybe these two
are the two icons I'd point to in the last 1000 years as our Purest Saints, really.
I think Eleanor's biggest concern on earth was what I call Meaningful Work - enough Meaningful (Loving) work for everyone. For Schweitzer his moral Holy Grail was Reverence for Life, but the expression of that is Meaningful Work! Loving Service - Loving! And, Loving, Meaningful Work is my conclusion as the most needed thing on earth, the most needed thing by EVERY human being. And we have almost no meaningful work left in the US.
are the two icons I'd point to in the last 1000 years as our Purest Saints, really.
I think Eleanor's biggest concern on earth was what I call Meaningful Work - enough Meaningful (Loving) work for everyone. For Schweitzer his moral Holy Grail was Reverence for Life, but the expression of that is Meaningful Work! Loving Service - Loving! And, Loving, Meaningful Work is my conclusion as the most needed thing on earth, the most needed thing by EVERY human being. And we have almost no meaningful work left in the US.
nd 'I was a HUGE FAN of NPR, then DN!, then MSNBC. THE WORLD WAS BETTER FOR ME WATCHING THEM, HOW? Not. They do NOT lead to ACTION that justifies the time. Just more INFOTAINMENT, INTELLECTUAL MASTURBATION.' Loving
nd 'I was a HUGE FAN of NPR, then DN!, then MSNBC. THE WORLD WAS BETTER FOR ME WATCHING THEM, HOW? Not. They do NOT lead to ACTION that justifies the time. Just more INFOTAINMENT, INTELLECTUAL MASTURBATION.' Loving
Cancer update
Sleep, sleep, sleep... study, sleep, sleep, sleep.... WTF!?!?!?
Hopefully this will pass, soon!
I've been reading Eleanor Roosevelt's last book - "Tomorrow is Now." They say, she literally used her last breaths, last days, to write this, despite dozens of books, thousands of speeches... before.
My God, what a book, what a Soul. Has there been a greater?
THE STAFF HERE, IN THE INFIRMARY, ARE VOLUNTEERS!!!!?????!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my God, am I HUMBLED. 4 shifts I guess. Late 20's, and 30's guys, af am. Nice. Nice. Humble. VOLUNTEERS. Part of CCNV 'programs,' graduates. Here. I've just heard from one, the one who helped me out with my 'midnight talker' of a roomate last night. I'm a master in counseling. I couldn't dream of turning around folks from drugs, alcohol, crime... the way this young man does, IN HIS SLEEP.
My God.
Ghost of Christmas Present, to Scrooge, 'In the sight of God you may be more worthless than MILLIONS like this mans child.'
Hopefully this will pass, soon!
I've been reading Eleanor Roosevelt's last book - "Tomorrow is Now." They say, she literally used her last breaths, last days, to write this, despite dozens of books, thousands of speeches... before.
My God, what a book, what a Soul. Has there been a greater?
THE STAFF HERE, IN THE INFIRMARY, ARE VOLUNTEERS!!!!?????!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my God, am I HUMBLED. 4 shifts I guess. Late 20's, and 30's guys, af am. Nice. Nice. Humble. VOLUNTEERS. Part of CCNV 'programs,' graduates. Here. I've just heard from one, the one who helped me out with my 'midnight talker' of a roomate last night. I'm a master in counseling. I couldn't dream of turning around folks from drugs, alcohol, crime... the way this young man does, IN HIS SLEEP.
My God.
Ghost of Christmas Present, to Scrooge, 'In the sight of God you may be more worthless than MILLIONS like this mans child.'
nd 'The choice of Walmart is the choice of cheap stuff for me, vs meaningful work for US. I'm still guilty, tho less than I was.' Loving
nd 'The choice of Walmart is the choice of cheap stuff for me, vs meaningful work for US. I'm still guilty, tho less than I was.' Loving
***** Tho I do not understand this I believe it to be true, primary task before each one of us is to create enough meaning for work for all.
* Tho I do not understand this I believe it to be true, primary task before each one of us is to create enough meaning for work for all.
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Walmart to pull out of DC if living wage mandated. And the problem with this is what?
https://news.google.com/news/url?sa=t&ct3=MAA4D0gBUABgAWoCdXPYAQE&usg=AFQjCNHq6IgC6BySC5JkSNv_RM8iDN6EPg&rt=HOMEPAGE&url=[http://www.washingtonpost.com/local/dc-politics/wal-mart-says-it-will-pull-out-of-dc-plans-should-city-mandate-living-wage/2013/07/09/4fa7e710-e8d0-11e2-a301-ea5a8116d211_story.html&ei=jUzdUbCEI8TAgAf_rwE&sig2=RAW8QAo67uupl1JqelBmyA]
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**** read this, re read this, study it, share, now. Even half of the current world target is ecocide.
https://news.google.com/news/url?sa=t&ct3=MAA4B0gAUABgAWoCdXPYAQE&usg=AFQjCNGBy1z0HfeO--iI3NXnCl_uRtt44g&rt=HOMEPAGE&url=[http://www.guardian.co.uk/environment/earth-insight/2013/jul/10/james-hansen-fossil-fuels-runaway-global-warming&ei=jUzdUbCEI8TAgAf_rwE&sig2=FM3kKMMYaV9u7KsvLV3BPQ]
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7.09.2013
New Chemo Start Date - 7.16.13
The pharma behind the drug trial my oncologist wants me on, is balking, because my treatment ends with surgery - chance of complications from the drug and clouding of the causal cure results.
Chemo is resched for next Tuesday. My doc is hoping that the pharma will have reconsidered by then, but if not, he plans to start the chemo on me off-Trial, sans the trial drug, but with the 3 primary, known chemo drugs. I have immense confidence in my cancer doc.
I remain in the CCNV Homeless Shelter Infirmary. Surprisingly nice staff.
My room-mate is a fellow that claims to be schizophrenic, and if he is not, he is an amazing actor- spends hours and hours and hours a day, and during the dead of night :-( , talking very sanely to fairly large groups of folks, that, uh, no one else can see. :-( He doesn't like it a lot when I asked him nicely if I might hope to get any sleep. I could get the staff to intervene, but I've learned he is leaving tomorrow. Tonight I'll see if I can stand sleeping with earbuds in my ears playing static to drown him out. Wish me luck.
Truth is it is much easier for me to sleep on the street than it is here - quieter somehow, and much, much, cooler - a breeze! And oh, is it dreary here. But hey, we are homeless riff raff. Are there no prisons? Are there on workhouses?... And, that there is ANYTHING for we poor and homeless in this OF BY AND FOR THE OVER-PRIVILEGED Amerika (you don't think the City in "Hunger Games" is some FUTURE fantasy, do you?), is credit to HEROES, SHEROES like Doc Cardile at Unity Healthcare, and a few others. Amazing. I'll forever be grateful, admiring, inspired.
But, over all, this Homeless Shelter Infirmary is likely to work out, it seems. Good food prepared by DC Central Kitchen, 2 to 3 times per day. INTERNET. Reasonable, tolerable, restrictions of my human rights given the order they need to maintain among a largely low functioning clientele. Surprisingly kind staff. Extremely unrestrictive after my first 5 days - Sat-Sun, I'm told, as far as my freedom to come and go early morning, late evening, to work elsewhere.
Very fatigued again today. Hardly completed any work at all. Slept, a lot, so much so that I shouldn't be able to sleep tonight, but maybe I will be able to anyway.
Tests continue to indicate that my tumors remain operable, giving the med team the chance of giving me a 40% chance of a normal lifespan; otherwise going pretty quick, as cancer does once in the liver.
Doc again said I had the option of bypassing the 2 mos chemo and going right to the operation to cut out the tumors, but he and the surgeon still recommend the 2 mos chemo first, so that's what I'll do. The tests do not SHOW any other, or new, tumors - brain, chest, abdomen, torso... but there could be, and they want to reduce the chances they've missed anything; and 2 mos chemo will be some insurance in that regard.
I'm very grateful to my Family - the few Kind souls near and far that were, remain, "there" for me, no matter what it takes or costs them - buoying me along through this process, keeping my Spirit High enough, so I could find the right info, supporters, helpers, persevere, and make it this far... just like I was part of their 'Family.' YOU KNOW WHO YOU ALL ARE. :-) Uh, so does our Creator. "They will know you by how you Love," said Her number one Son.
Chemo is resched for next Tuesday. My doc is hoping that the pharma will have reconsidered by then, but if not, he plans to start the chemo on me off-Trial, sans the trial drug, but with the 3 primary, known chemo drugs. I have immense confidence in my cancer doc.
I remain in the CCNV Homeless Shelter Infirmary. Surprisingly nice staff.
My room-mate is a fellow that claims to be schizophrenic, and if he is not, he is an amazing actor- spends hours and hours and hours a day, and during the dead of night :-( , talking very sanely to fairly large groups of folks, that, uh, no one else can see. :-( He doesn't like it a lot when I asked him nicely if I might hope to get any sleep. I could get the staff to intervene, but I've learned he is leaving tomorrow. Tonight I'll see if I can stand sleeping with earbuds in my ears playing static to drown him out. Wish me luck.
Truth is it is much easier for me to sleep on the street than it is here - quieter somehow, and much, much, cooler - a breeze! And oh, is it dreary here. But hey, we are homeless riff raff. Are there no prisons? Are there on workhouses?... And, that there is ANYTHING for we poor and homeless in this OF BY AND FOR THE OVER-PRIVILEGED Amerika (you don't think the City in "Hunger Games" is some FUTURE fantasy, do you?), is credit to HEROES, SHEROES like Doc Cardile at Unity Healthcare, and a few others. Amazing. I'll forever be grateful, admiring, inspired.
But, over all, this Homeless Shelter Infirmary is likely to work out, it seems. Good food prepared by DC Central Kitchen, 2 to 3 times per day. INTERNET. Reasonable, tolerable, restrictions of my human rights given the order they need to maintain among a largely low functioning clientele. Surprisingly kind staff. Extremely unrestrictive after my first 5 days - Sat-Sun, I'm told, as far as my freedom to come and go early morning, late evening, to work elsewhere.
Very fatigued again today. Hardly completed any work at all. Slept, a lot, so much so that I shouldn't be able to sleep tonight, but maybe I will be able to anyway.
Tests continue to indicate that my tumors remain operable, giving the med team the chance of giving me a 40% chance of a normal lifespan; otherwise going pretty quick, as cancer does once in the liver.
Doc again said I had the option of bypassing the 2 mos chemo and going right to the operation to cut out the tumors, but he and the surgeon still recommend the 2 mos chemo first, so that's what I'll do. The tests do not SHOW any other, or new, tumors - brain, chest, abdomen, torso... but there could be, and they want to reduce the chances they've missed anything; and 2 mos chemo will be some insurance in that regard.
I'm very grateful to my Family - the few Kind souls near and far that were, remain, "there" for me, no matter what it takes or costs them - buoying me along through this process, keeping my Spirit High enough, so I could find the right info, supporters, helpers, persevere, and make it this far... just like I was part of their 'Family.' YOU KNOW WHO YOU ALL ARE. :-) Uh, so does our Creator. "They will know you by how you Love," said Her number one Son.
Stanford U - 2 deg C - A guard-rail for the insane against Fossil Fuels
Stanford climate scientist addresses misconceptions about climate ...
Stanford Report-1 hour ago
Stanford climate scientist addresses misconceptions about climate change ... to a 2-degree-Celsius rise in temperature is untrue, says Stanford ...
Edwards Snowden interviewed on Saturday. Fully satisfied with the results of his whistle blowing
https://news.google.com/news/url?sa=t&ct3=MAA4AEgDUABgAWoCdXPYAQE&usg=AFQjCNHVFDtYSqFZHFQklCmiFLZDdoAYYQ&rt=SECTION&url=[http://www.democracynow.org/blog/2013/7/8/glenn_greenwald_edward_snowden_satisfied_by_global_outrage_over_us_surveillance_operations&ei=T0LcUeCsOsTAgAfAiQE&sig2=smYx7Fqgetjw-QVhboooXw]
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7.08.2013
Chemo delayed. Drug trial not yet ready!?!?!? 10:30 tomorrow I should learn more. :-(
That's all I know. Got an email late today.
I've checked into the CCNV infirmary, and so far, so good. I'm online.
Rules are that I'm not to leave, cept for med apts, for the first 5 days. After that, it should be pretty much my call - out by 6:30am, not required to be back till 10pm or so. Much better than I'd anticipated.
Got a cavity filled late this afternoon, which made eating very difficult - was chewing my numb lip very badly. :-( Ugh. But, the food was very good - they bring in lunch and dinner here from DC Central Kitchen - for we in the Infirmary.
I have symptoms galore - extremely out of control bowel, days of near infinite fatigue and fuzzy headedness, some return of Restless Leg Syndrome.... Is it the cancer? Is it the 12 hours a day in the full sun, 100 degree heat I sit in? Old age? Huge fluid intake due to the sun?
For Amerika, this treatment I'm getting here in DC is quite extraordinary. I'm extremely grateful.
I expect to continue accepting the care as long as I think it is a good investment for, as long as I can see a good return on the investment to, our next 200 billion kids.
I've checked into the CCNV infirmary, and so far, so good. I'm online.
Rules are that I'm not to leave, cept for med apts, for the first 5 days. After that, it should be pretty much my call - out by 6:30am, not required to be back till 10pm or so. Much better than I'd anticipated.
Got a cavity filled late this afternoon, which made eating very difficult - was chewing my numb lip very badly. :-( Ugh. But, the food was very good - they bring in lunch and dinner here from DC Central Kitchen - for we in the Infirmary.
I have symptoms galore - extremely out of control bowel, days of near infinite fatigue and fuzzy headedness, some return of Restless Leg Syndrome.... Is it the cancer? Is it the 12 hours a day in the full sun, 100 degree heat I sit in? Old age? Huge fluid intake due to the sun?
For Amerika, this treatment I'm getting here in DC is quite extraordinary. I'm extremely grateful.
I expect to continue accepting the care as long as I think it is a good investment for, as long as I can see a good return on the investment to, our next 200 billion kids.
7.07.2013
US attempts to block Edward Snowden are 'bolstering' case for asylum
US attempts to block Edward Snowden are 'bolstering' case for asylum
http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2013/jul/07/us-attempts-block-snowden-bolster-case-asylum
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