***** nd. Cancer Update: "During the time of my depression, I had forgotten what extreme pain is everpresent in Loving in this world. I was in the alternate fantasy world of overprivileged separation, self-centeredness. Then the pain of meaninglessness, solitude, un-loving... smothered me. And now I seem to have dug my way back to Humanity, Creation... Sanity, extreme pain for Creation, and all - Peace of Heart, Sanity, Meaning, Life, Joy." Loving

***** nd.  "During the time of my depression, I had forgotten what extreme pain is everpresent in Loving in this world.  I was in the alternate fantasy world of overprivileged separation, self-centeredness.  Then the pain of meaninglessness, solitude, un-loving... smothered me.  And now I seem to have dug my way back to Humanity, Creation... Sanity, extreme pain for Creation, and all - Peace of Heart, Sanity, Meaning, Life, Joy." Loving