I expect to make it thru the operation Thursday just fine. Spent 7 hours today at the hospital in pre-op stuff - to my knowledge they found nothing that concerned them, nothing to interfere with the planned op Thursday.
But organ, liver failure, is an option.
So, this provides an interesting opportunity to see oneself, and one's values, facing such a situation.
Someone who has been serious Joy on occasion to my life the last 2 years, Kindly wrote, this morning:
"Hoping this e-mail finds you at peace...Loving Loving"
So often we wish each other (I NEVER do), 'Peace.' I replied -
"The center of my life, my meditation, prayer, life.. is exactly, EXACTLY
to make sure I am NEVER a peace, not any breath... with 26,000 kids that die
needlessly, every day, on a planet that produces enough food for over
10 billion; at a time when Creation is being murdered but there
are seconds left on the clock to prevent most of it. The French
Aristocracy were at Peace. The city folks in Hunger Games were
at Peace. I wasted much of the first 45 years of my brain-dead, walking-dead
existence at Peace on the important issues of my Human Family.
If I have organ failure on Thursday I'll be at Peace, forever.
I would rather suffer anything I can think of than ever be at Peace again.
No one understands this. I don't know anyone
that understands this.
This is so amazing to me.
:-) "
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