Cancer Update: Bad news

My b-day is the 18th, and they are looking to schedule major surgery on the 17th. This would mean no cake the next day.  So I told them, 'NO WAY.'

But, if I reconsider, and they persist in this foolishness, they are looking to do a major scan Oct 14th, see if the more cancerous side of my liver has shrunk, the less cancerous side has grown sufficiently to make organ failure less likely, and if all looks sufficiently satisfactory, looks like no cake for me this year.  Damn!!!!

My energy remains at 50% of normal, tho it is months, to 1.5 years since I've known 'normal.'  Still needing 15 hours per day of sleep, rest - I guess this is a pretty big shock - starving a major organ of blood supply - killing it - it can't be pleased. And as a friend said, all this on top of 2 months of chemo.  My pain level from Friday was a 3-5 tummy pain, but today is 2-4.  We'll see.

I really like to whine and complain.  I suspect that I've gotten off way easier, each day of this 18 months I've been in the fight with this cancer, than 98% of others in similar fight. I have no complaints, and among the reasons the Creator put me in DC, is that for a penniless, homeless guy in amerikka, the care I'm getting here, I'd not get anywhere else but MA, I'll guess - Federal Medicare, on top of some Godly, Saintly, model programs like Unity Health Care, thanks to Genuine Angels (no, really), sheroes and heroes, like my primary care Doc C.

Not enough strength today for the 16 block hike to the grocery store, but maybe tomorrow. No, I have no shortage of sufficient calories here, but I'll take a lo sodium, low cal fruit juice run as soon as I have the strength.  Tomorrow I trust.

Now, I'll probably jinx things by saying this, but maybe, just maybe, I can manage bowel movements without double dosing immodium 6-12 per day, for the first time in many months.